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OreoBunny--
You are NOT psycho or weird or strange or anything else. You are human with real concerns. I have had similar thoughts and feelings that you described.
I, too, am a Christian. Remember that when Christ returns and takes care of business, we will all have our physical bodies back--minus all the gunky stuff of course. You will be able to hug and touch your loved ones again. But also remember that we will meet our Savior face to face and the joy of that will erase all other negative feelings!
Hang in there. If you need to vent again or talk or ask question--whatever--please send me a private message. I would love to keep in touch with you and help support you.
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| Boy...the more I look at the boards on Sparkpeople, the happier I get. I am glad to find this depression one too. I am 39 yrs old (recent bday) and have had depression as long as I can remember. I tried suicide in highschool (obviously didn't succeed)and that's when I went to a counselor and was put on meds. I don't even remember what it was back then. I have tried Celexa, Zoloft, Lexapro (but not for a long time) and am currently on Wellbutrin XL 300 mg which is the highest dose! It doesn't seem to be working much anymore. My friends and family have pointed that out.I am easily annoyed, agitated and I don't have much patience for anything. I can get upset at my family and I don't like that either. I cry over everything that even is remotely sad! I did have postpartum after my 2nd child (who is now 9) really bad but made it thru with meds too. My biggest depression right now is aging. I know I am only 39 how can I feel old? Unfortunately, I am not handling my children getting older, knowing I won't have anymore babies! Am I the only weird one in this world that actually thinks thoughts like..I'll never be a kid again, a teen again, never have another wedding (hopefully), never have another baby to hold (except grandchildren hopefully) and then I am really preoccupied with dying. I am scared to death of dying and haven't told anyone this.Amazing how it's easy to talk to people I don't know! The thought of never seeing my kids again, holding them and so on really scares me. Plus my mom is 66 and is showing the aging process and I love my mom terribly and the thought of losing her some day is excruciating! My children are 9 & 15..where did the time go? Am I beyond help here? Am i just totally out there? Sorry for the venting but it feels good to put these thoughts in writing. I just don't see anyone else writing about death, children getting older, etc...and am guessing this isn't normal. Obviously, I have anxiety too which the Wellbutrin helped. It stopped my attacks when trying to sleep. Ok, enough is enough. Sorry for the depressing words-no pun intended of course. Does anyone have these feelings? I also lost my grandparents years ago and they were like parents to me. That was hard and I still miss them terribly. It's been 10 yrs..I shouldn't still tear up about it, should I? I am exercising and have lost a lot of weight which helps but I am starting to show some aging in my face and that's hard. I guess what it boils down to is I can't handle aging. It's scary and just isn't settling very well with me. THanks for listening! Also, I am a Christian, go to Church and have done counseling in the past. I pray all the time and have faith in Heaven but even with that, the things I love the most won't be tangible then. It doesn't make me feel better knowing I'll see them one day in Heaven because it's only a soul-not a real body! Does this make sense to anyone? I hope you all don't think I am some psycho person!
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Hi,all!
I struggled most of my life with depression. I can't remember most of my childhood because I went throught life in a fog. It wasn't until after having my first baby that I was diagnosed. I took Zoloft for a couple of years with minimal improvement, then switched to Effexor. It helped.
But what helped most was counseling and finding better ways to cope with my emotions. Some of you have mentioned medication or counseling, but few of you have said you do both. I was told that medication is not magic; you still need to learn behavioral changes, and that is where counseling comes in. My suggestion is to find a reputable Christian counselor. Don't give up after just one. Think of it like dating. If you are married, you know it took lots of dating to find the Mr. or Mrs. Right. Looking for a counselor is the same way. And so is medication! Keep trying.
Also, remember that clinical depression is not always something that can be "cured." You may have to take medication for the rest of your life, especially if your depression is caused by chemical impalances in your brain.
My husband was officially diagnosed with depression almost 9 years ago. He is one who cannot go with out his medicine. If he even lowers his dose (which he does sometimes when he's forgotten to refill his RX), his symptoms return. We have just accepted that he needs his Zoloft like a diabetic needs insulin.
To all of you....Never lose hope, never give in! Remember you are "fearfully and wonderfully made."
Wendy
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| I have been "officially" diagnosed with depression and medicated for two and a half years. I have taken probably just about every drug/combination of drugs out there. I finally settled on a Zoloft-Risperdal cocktail which seems to be working fine. I then couple that with a number of drugs for epilepsy and I take a handful of pills every day. The depression pills didn't seem to effect my weight so much, but combined with the new epilepsy regime I am packing it on at a staggering rate. Hope to stop this before it gets too out of hand.
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| I am sorry about your weight problems with your medication. I am on Lexapro and it has been helping me loose weight. Just keep thinking positive.
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What triggers do y'all have?
Other than hormones certain things can set me off.
I just read another post about what some of us do on
"date night" with our husbands.
Since my hubby is on dialysis we never really out and
do anything fun anymore. He just does not feel well and restaurant food is horrible for him.
We can't take weekend trips anymore.
My husband is home all the time, yet I am so lonely for him. Now I am in a full blown pity party.
Then I read the previous post about Effexor and weight. I have gained a good 10 pounds since I started taking Effexor, but never thoght the drug could be contibuting.I plan to talk to my doctor anyway, the Effexor does not help much.
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| i know what all of you are saying. i've been diagnosed with depression for 6 years now. i was taking prozac for about 4 years, but then i plateued. then i went to lexapro and now i'm on effexor. i think i gained the most weight with the effexor so now i take the effexor with prozac, which seems to help with cravings. it's a constant roller coaster of emotions, though.
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| well I hope you find something that will help you because i don't know where i would be if I didn't.
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| im glad the meds are working for you, no one should that they are out of control and cant handle whats going on. and please dont misunderstand me. i know that there are people that needs the meds. that what God put doctors on the earth for. its just for me im not a meds person in any shape i wont take anything for anything unless i have to. i hope that you are doing better now and on the road to betterness
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| I tried to not take the medicine and I did talk to a conselor but it has been over two years since I had my son and there was still no improvement with my mood so I had to get on medicine because I was just getting worse.
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hope you are having a good day too
i have to agree for my part anyway, depression and weight run hand in hand for me. if im doing good, not upset or anything i do good. i eat right do my workouts, and everything. let something be wrong and im upset down in the dumps, i stop caring, i dont eat right and i wont do my work outs. but here lately ive learned to control things and im getting it under control. thats a good thing for me, cause i dont want to take meds and im not an open person, so counciling is hard for me at times. but with Gods help i can conqure all things. cause we are more than conqurers through Christ.
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| You should probably get in touch with your doctor or see another one to see if they can get you a medication that fits better there.
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Hello, all! I have depression. Have for many years now. Sometimes it isn't so bad, other times....... There are times that I know if I didn't have so many children relying on me (and they have no one else) I don't know if I'd still be here. My kids are all that keep me going. I have been on several different anti-depressants with mixed results. I've also tried counseling. It is a challenge to find what works. It's nice to find others who have the same struggle. Not everyone understands depression. My boyfriend is wonderful, but he hasn't a clue. He doesn't like me taking medication but until you have been there, you can't understand. He's always so positive. I wish I could be, too. But it doesn't work that way. I know the depression affects my weight, too. It's all one big circle.
I hope everyone has a good day!
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| You should tell your doctor so he can give you something else that will work better for you.
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BEAGLEMOM26
3/5/06 3:29 A
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| I TAKE SEROQUEL BUT I STILL HAVE TROUBLE
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No I don't think so the medicine has help get me out of my mood but it just doesn't let me sleep. One of the side effects is insomnia so I am going to see if he can give me something so I can sleep through the night
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BEAGLEMOM26
3/5/06 2:15 A
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I AM RIGHT THERE W/ YA! I WAS DIAGNOSED WITH BI-POLAR 2 YEARS AGO. I STILL SUFFER EVEN DEING ON DEPAKOTE AND EFFEXOR XR. IT TAKES TIME TO GET MEDS RIGHT, I GUESS! THAT'S WHAT THEY TELL ME.I KNOW WHAT YOU MEAN BY THE MANIC EPISODES I'M EITHER HIHER THAN A KITE AND I CAN'T sleep SOMETIMES FOR 2-3 DAYS OR I AM REALLY DEPRESSSED. IT ISN'T THAT BAD ALL THE TIME, I HAVE EPISODES 2-3 TIMES A MONTH. 
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| flightattendent my father in law suffers from bi-poler and it is awful sometimes. When he is depressed it is not as bad as his maniac state he goes 100 miles an hour until his bed time. I can totally relate to you about that.
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| I have been taking Lexapro and I have been losing weight with it which is how it has been with any medication that says it is likely to gain weight at least I came up lucky. The only problem I have with my medicine is sleep. I only sleep about three hours a night so I am going to ask my doctor if he can give me something to help me sleep at night.
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| I found that the medications also affected my weight gain which was all the more depressing. I've tried many different types but find that it's easier to deal with when I can think clearly through the problems. I didn't find it much easier to focus in on the problems until after I was off the medication. I know bipolar must be much different from just clinical depression though. A friend of mine was also diagnosed with bipolar and had a very tough time dealing with. I always wondered what he went through because I could never fully understand the mania he would talk about.
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FLIGHTATTENDANT
3/3/06 3:14 P
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| I suffer from Bi-polar Disorder which is Major depression and Mania alternately. I have been hospitalized three times for depression with suicidal feelings. I currently take three medications: Zoloft, Abilify and Wellbutrin. I put on about 80 lbs six years ago when I started taking antidepressants and I have taken many different ones in order to find the right combination for myself.
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| i would have to agree you may need to talk to the boss
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| about the co-worker I would talk to my boss about the situation since your problem involves work.
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I sure hope you can work that out.
It must be more difficult if you are a sensitive person. I am not very sensitive unless I am in a bad depression and everything makes me cry.
I have been charting my depression and it is much worse near my period.If I can understand it more, I deal with it better.
You will be in my prayers.
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I think that it's working out better than ever before now. I've had problems but have worked them out over time. It's taken a very long time but it's getting a little better. I just need to learn my limits and boundaries. I just need to learn how to deal with problems effectively instead of leaving them to rot for so many years. I need to face the problems head on and deal with them.
I'm having a problem with a co-worker right now and want to deal with it but don't know how. I've decided in my mind to forgive her for what I had a problem with but am unsure of how she feels. That's what I mean by facing things head on instead of avoiding those kinds of problems. They just grow if they're left. I'm going to try to talk to her again soon. I hope it all works out.
These are the kinds of problems I worry about even though they seem so small at second thought. There are a lot of other much bigger things right now but I'm dealing with them as they come.
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| That's horrible. I hope everything works out for you.
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I have tried many different medications but found that they all affected me in different ways. Some would upset my digestion, some would make me shaky, and some would make me unable to concentrate and even more anxious than usual. I've tried effexor, zoloft, prozac, and many others I can't remember the names of.
I decided many times that I was going to get through it on my own but always seemed to find myself getting down again. I'm 26 and have been in a depression for the last 10 to 14 years depending on how you would describe depression. I was in university for six years and found myself getting depressed and having to withdraw a few times. It has had a huge impact on my life. I once received this letter stating that I should consider whether I am out of my depression before considering coming back to school after withdrawing one semester. I was like, I'm a psyc student, I know that many people never come out of their depression but still need to try to lead normal lives. I think I'm one of those people. I am a very emotional person and very sensitive. I cry a lot and feel down even when there's nothing really quite wrong. I still have to work and still have a job to do at home as a wife and parent. I'm not on anything now but find that during times of grief (there was a death in my family recently), times of conflict (with a co-worker recently), and times of stress (my daughter got pneumonia recently), I was unable to cope and wanted to give up my entire life (e.g. my job, my home, my money, etc.). I just wanted everything to be over. Now things are getting better again and I'm trying to put myself into a better frame of mind without meds. but have found it quite difficult in the past. I'm getting better. I've seen psychologists and counsellors as well and, one in particular, helped me through a very tough time when I was pregnant with my daughter. I also went through postpartum depression and couldn't handle being a mom for a short while. I was crying all the time and wanted to be away from my home a lot. Now things are getting better but need to control my feelings a little more.
Hope you've all found ways to cope, I always wish that this kind of thing didn't exist just like all the other diseases and disorders in the world, but it does and we just have to get through it. If you're here and open to talking about it with others, you're taking a big step in the right direction.
Kim
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| I am very sorry but I know how you feel. I have alot of anxiety issue. But after two years of feeling bad and nothing else was working my medicine I am on it is not a big deal. I am glad I am taking medication now. I have noticed that I don't shake anymore. Oh sorry let me clarify that. Before I started taking Lexapro my hands would shake uncontrollably when I was getting my nails done or writing checks. But now I don't shake at all. Every once in awhile I do but that is about it. Like if someone startles me.
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| My husband is also taking Effexor along with other anti-depressants. His dr. recently upped his dosage. It seems to be working for him a lot. I am on Prozac(in the morning), and Lorazepam(bed time). It is working well for my anxiety and depression. I guess everybody is different. I could not tolerate Effexor. It would make me feel dizzy and etc. Good luck to you! I hope you feel better soon! I will keep you in my thoughts!
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| ive had some trouble with depression. the doctors asked if i wanted something after i gave birth of a stillborn two years ago. i had told him no becuase i hate taking meds. and i dont want to be dependant on something but that is just me. so i had a couple of visits with him and several with a councilor and no one said anymore to me about it. im doing better as time goes by. but there are days theat im down and dont want to be bothered
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| I am sorry about that your medicine is not helping. My doctor told me that Lexapro works for 95% of the people who take it and I am glad he gave it to me I only have to take one pill a day and I take it at bedtime. And it seems to be helping me a whole lot.
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