I'm trying. That's about all I can say.
I've tried since yesterday to get on and leave a message to let everyone know I'm "ok".
I'm the guy that tries to be upbeat, fun for everyone at least in appearances......
A few months ago I was suffering from some depressive thought/feels. Obtained some counseling and medication. Then I went on vacation and experienced a real set back upon returning home. Fighting the tendency to escape -- hide --- withdrawal. I know I haven't been very supportive --- encouraging like I want to be.
I've had medication adjustments. Kicks in the seat of the pants. Wonderful messages here on Sparkpeople, on FB and texts as well .... just about every way someone could reach out -- I've had my SparkFamily reaching out.
Please know it helps so much.
The plus to the whole thing -- I think my weight has only fluctuated about 2-3 pounds.
But I have no motivation -- I have some goals --- but they seem like they are just floating above me.
I am receiving help --- and I know "this too shall pass".
I'm trying to streamline things --- obtain some balance. Writing this helps -- I know it's probably more of a blog --- but just wanted to share with my FSC family.
By the way -- I've thinned some SparkFriends -- if I removed you in error -- please let me know. There were just so many people that have left or changed names and I had all of them on my list.
I've also left all other teams accept 2 very special teams.
Thanks for "listening".
| current weight: 296.5