thanks everyone for the comments -- goodies and messages!
It is so true that before I would quit things without giving a thought. But I've been with Sparkpeople and FSC for several years now. It hasn't been perfect (never will) and it's not been quick (as far as the weight loss) --- but I've made lots of progress in healthier choice making -- exercise and made wonderful friends here.
I feel a little bit better today. Helped to go talk to my therapist.
She asked me to do ONE thing today that I haven't been doing. I first thought tracking.
But for today - it's posting to this thread. Tonight if it's not raining -- pumping the bike tires up and riding downtown for a sub.
Tomorrow I will look for another thing to do.
There's a list of things I need/want to do: drink water --- any amount would be better than my recent days. track food exercise - tracked or not (I have been able to get to the gym intermittently. My favorite exercise is walking and I've been to keep that one up --- pretty faithfully.
I know there's light at the end of the tunnel -- and exercise tells me it's beautiful sunlight and not the proverbial train.
One day at a time --- one step at a time -- First Step Club!!!!
We can't choose our family -- -but so happy I've found my SparkFamily.
Someone mentioned a gratitude list -- and I started that while waiting for an appointment -- will add a couple more things to that today as well.
so glad to hear you are working on it... motivation sometimes evaporates and I always used to give up... but I think it helps to have places like SP where we can just say, hey, i'm struggling... we all get that now & then, that's ok... take care of yourself, spark when you can & when you get the urge(s) to do something anything, grab hold... you'll be back on your feet again... you may not know it the moment it happens but you'll look around and realize you're walking again... in the meantime, please try not to feel guilty for struggling... it's a natural part of the process we go through... all of us... kind of a normal thing! (((hugs)))
You're not alone, Randy! I've been there before too. Just keep hanging in there and doing the best you can for now. You're in my prayers.
*~ Lainie ~*
Southern California - PST
"In everyone's life, at some time, our inner fire goes out. It is then burst into flame by an encounter with another human being. We should all be thankful for those people who rekindle the inner spirit." - Albert Schweitzer
Randy, "IT'S OKAY!" 'Nough said! We are here, and whatever you need, we'll be around! Do whatever it takes to make YOU BETTER, then take the NEXT STEPS, on the path..... I'll be waiting on the "Bench" for you!!!!
Lifestyle Changes, One Step at a Time, One Day at a Time....this I can and will do, to the best of my ability!
As for 2015, it's not where you start, it's where you finish!
Randy, I know just how you feel. I went through a bout with depression as well. I am finally feeling like I can function again. You are doing what you need to do and soon you will feel better. Hang in there. You need to take care of you right now and we all will be here when you need us! Try a gratitude journal, and keep on writing and talking as much as you can......it does help! Sending a prayer for you.......take care!
Wendi North Dakota
"Fall seven times, get up eight"~Japanese proverb
"Listen for God's voice in everything you do and everywhere you go; He's the one that will keep you on track." Proverbs 3:6
No matter how slow you go you are still lapping everybody on the couch.
Be the girl you were too lazy to be yesterday.
current weight: 359.4
Fitness Minutes: (4,083) Posts: 1,148 5/21/12 10:26 A
Lots of bad stuff happening here too with Dh and lots of medical probs for him, since his op (op successful, afterwards not so good) so not posting much as I don't want to bring people down all the time.
Sue, Derbyshire UK
GMT time in UK...5 hours ahead of EST
Pounds lost: 12.0
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Must be something in the air. I'm in that paring-down-to-the-essentials space, too. Mostly, I just try to be fine with where I am, even if it's not ideal, because I'd rather have a contented life than a perfect one. Let's just hang in there and stay with our friends. We can do it. *hugs*
-- Serene, The More Girl More veggies More fruits More grains More exercise More energy More love
I've tried since yesterday to get on and leave a message to let everyone know I'm "ok".
I'm the guy that tries to be upbeat, fun for everyone at least in appearances......
A few months ago I was suffering from some depressive thought/feels. Obtained some counseling and medication. Then I went on vacation and experienced a real set back upon returning home. Fighting the tendency to escape -- hide --- withdrawal. I know I haven't been very supportive --- encouraging like I want to be.
I've had medication adjustments. Kicks in the seat of the pants. Wonderful messages here on Sparkpeople, on FB and texts as well .... just about every way someone could reach out -- I've had my SparkFamily reaching out.
Please know it helps so much.
The plus to the whole thing -- I think my weight has only fluctuated about 2-3 pounds.
But I have no motivation -- I have some goals --- but they seem like they are just floating above me.
I am receiving help --- and I know "this too shall pass".
I'm trying to streamline things --- obtain some balance. Writing this helps -- I know it's probably more of a blog --- but just wanted to share with my FSC family.
By the way -- I've thinned some SparkFriends -- if I removed you in error -- please let me know. There were just so many people that have left or changed names and I had all of them on my list.
I've also left all other teams accept 2 very special teams.
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