Jock, my pain mgmt Dr recommended the Tens unit. I would not do it. The pain was so bad that I could not bear to touch myself. I could not even have a sheet on me.
What turned the corner was acceptance. This was my reality, it was either death or this pain. I stopped all drugs. Withdrawal gives you a new battleground. I then still had other things I could work on, like repairing my stomach after all the drugs I'd taken. Working on my hand coordination from strokes after surgery. Working on memory after strokes suffered during long recovery period. Death was not going to come to me so I had to continue and fight what battles I could.
It is now 15 months since my spinal surgery. I notice improvements daily. I am so thankful that I have control over my urine and bowels. I'm so glad I can walk at all. I am so happy that I can take care of myself.
Sometimes I yell out in the shower, sometimes my eyes well up, and sometimes I laugh out loud because I'm winning.
| current weight: 162.4