Hi HANNA4ROSE - I am wondering if this feeling is increasing again. There seems to be something about this time of year for you??
Apart from that, have you touched base with your Dr yet? I remember your comment a wee while ago saying something like she didn't understand!
You have the benefit of knowing what the depression is doing to you, and deep down, you know what you need to do to allow others to help you more - you need to reach out in your physical life rather than telling yourself that you need to be reclusive. A good therapist and your Dr can help you there! Sometimes we just have to bite the bullet and take that leap. Another thing is to walk to the letter box and back - a little more exercise and fresh air. Rather than NOT having a shower and looking for excuses, if you have a bath as well, run it, put some favourite perfume into the water and have a really long soak with some gentle music playing in the background. That often helps a person to feel better about themselves, and I am sure that you enjoy that fresh feeling after!
I hope that within the next couple days you will come back here and tell us that you HAVE made an appointment with your Dr. IF you find that your last line is getting to be a reality and you are a danger to yourself, please either phone 911 or go to the nearest Emergency Department for help.
Below are a list of phone no's for you - print them out to keep in your handbag and by the phone.
National Suicide Hotlines USA
Toll Free, 24/7
1-800-799-4TTY (4889)- Deaf Hotline
For individual USA State hotlines:
http://suicidehotlines.com/ and select the dropdown for your State
ē Call 411 and ask for: Suicide Hotline
ē Dial 0 and ask for: Suicide Hotline
ē Check the FRONT of the phone book for:
ē suicide prevention
ē crisis intervention
ē hotlines - crisis or suicide
ē community crisis center
ē county mental health center
ē hospital mental health clinic
ē Or. call 911 and ask for help. Tell them you are in suicidal danger.
For additional hotlines, use The International Suicide Prevention Wiki (ISP Wiki) which is a worldwide directory of suicide prevention hotlines, text-lines, and resources.
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