Something I want to share.
I found out yesterday I have diabetes ! Needless to say I am freaked out about it !
Long story short, I thought I had a flue bug I could not get rid of, off and on for about a month now - then yesterday my vision went really blurry... I got right to a eye Dr who told me the news which was confirmed today by my regular Dr.
I am very sad that the damage to my eyes is permanent, from the sugar levels or something like that. But thankful with a strong pair of glasses I will be OK.
The changes that was explained to me are many and they are all BIG...
Can I really make such a huge change? There are no baby steps to take, there is no figuring it out or taking my time, or making small changes. There are huge changes that need made TODAY!
I need to pour the pepsi down the sink, crush the cigs and toss them away, I need to start drinking water, I need to exercise -
I have always been willing to change - TOMORROW! But as we all know tomorrow never came for me.
My weight came from many of sources, some being emotional, some from my back injury, and my thyroid, but most of it from unhealthy choices which are now unhealthy habits.
After a very blessed day in July, I received a lot of emotional healing and was doing pretty well with my changes and had even lost some weight, but I was doing it all slowly.... within my comfort zone.
With this wolf coming through the door, I don't have the luxury of a comfort zone ------
I need to create a whole new ME in all the ways I live.......
I must admit - this scares me.
It is almost 3AM and I just needed to ramble.
Never Give Up!
| current weight: 243.0