I had a goal weight in my head of 110 lbs (I'm 5'2), this would put me about 5 lbs higher than the lowest weight of my BMI. The reason I chose this scale number was because it is what I weighed about 6 years ago before I became pregnant with my eldest. It has always been the weight I felt comfortable at, not too thin... still a bit of meat on my bones and curves. I was a perfect hourglass figure at 110 lbs with measurements of 35-25-35.
Strangely enough, I reached this weight (slightly under at my lowest weight of 107 lbs) and I looked much different than before I gained weight! I lost my curves! My measurements were 33-26-33, I had lost weight where I didn't want to lose it! A lot of my family, including my husband felt I looked too skinny. I was even trying to go lower because I felt I still was carrying fat on my belly (had this image in my head of myself pre pregnancy where I had a flat belly).
I've since put weight back on and am at 120 lbs... and I look better? Everyone tells me I was too thin and I look perfect now. Lately, my belly pooch has even been looking flatter despite remaining at this weight (it is in fact, I lost an inch there). The fat I did gain back seemed to go to the right places and I got my hips and bust line back.
But I was still trying to lose weight again and go to 115 lbs. I just can't shake this uncomfortable feeling I have about 120 lbs. I know I look better than I did at 110 lbs but 120 lbs is this number I've always associated with feeling a little plump. My whole life this was the number I'd reach where I'd decide; Oh boy, it's time to start watching what I eat and get back down!
I always preach at other women... don't worry about scale weight! It's all about body fat percentage. I feel like such a hypocrite when I'm finding myself fixated on a magic scale number. I can't seem shake this association I have with 120 lbs being my danger zone. I'm trying to remind myself, I look great at this weight! I have just the right amount of fat to muscle.
Last night I finally switched back to maintenance again. I'm going to try to maintain 120 lbs (or there around). I'm just finding it difficult to accept that ***number***. Ugh, why? When I know better?
We're always our own worst critics... I have pics of myself at 108 lbs and at my current weight now of 120 lbs on my profile, did I look way too skinny at 108 lbs? Please give me your honest opinions. I've compared the two pictures of myself and I have a hard time seeing any difference really. I know there is because I put on 1 1/2 inches in a half in my hips, 1 1/2 inches in my bust and an inch in my waist. I've gone from 33 26 33 to 34.5 27 34.5.
I think I just need some reassurance that I look healthier at this weight.
Edited by: JENNILACEY at: 7/30/2013 (08:02)
Take your focus off the Marshmallow. www.leangains.com/2010/01/marshmallo
"Toning" is marketing muscles to women who are afraid if they pick up a barbell, they'll leave the gym looking like She-Hulk. If you don't want to get bulky, lift heavy!
I can bench Nicole Richie, eat more than she does in a day before noon, I have a good 20 lbs on her but could still wear her pants.
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