I hate the gym. For me, getting there is okay, it's staying there that is hard. I just feel like everyone who sees me wonders "what the hell is she doing here?" I'm not very overweight, but could lose a few pounds, but I definitely don't blend in: everyone else there has super skinny with a fake tan and some walking around with something like "cute" written on their rear.
I'm not comfortable in shorts at the gym either. I usually opt for leggings and a fitted (but not tight) t-shirt.
I also do best taking classes. I'm way to self conscious to walk out in front of a bunch of people and mess around with a bunch of equipment that I don't, but probably should know how to use. With classes I am able to get in the workout I need behind closed doors. It was still nerve-racking at first, but I eventually became very comfortable with the other women in the class and with my instructor and am looking forward to going again.
I guess what I am trying to say is: going to the gym can feel awful at first, but the more you do it, the better you will feel. Right now I am freaking out about a spin class I am going to start in a few weeks. Last spring I went to one class and was totally humiliated. I never went again, and was really disappointed in myself for that. This time I'm going to make sure I go!
| current weight: 134.8