THis is actually where I am in the book so I thought I'd jump in here. I think the biggest key for me so far has been challenging my "catastrophic thinking" I tend to blow up big negative accusations or predictions with very little provocation and they can be my undoing.
Just last night I caught one that was swirling around in my head. I started thinking of a very negative thing that I used to do in the past at my old job when I felt anxious. I would edit my emails before I forwarded them to my boss to make myself look better. (Like if I was afraid that I had taken too long to reply to an inquiry, I would change the date time stamp, etc.)
At the time, I was very unhappy at my job and my old boss and I did not get along at all. I was in a constant state of fear at being chewed out by him. I did whatever I could to cover my butt and escape blame. Anyway, as this memory of my old behavior flooded back I became overwhelmed by it. I felt so awful and low. I really started in on myself and name calling myself and stated at one point very clearly that I had "absolutely no integrity whatsoever."
Then I stopped myself. I challenged that statement. I said that I had used bad judgement and made a mistake. That lots of people make mistakes and I make plenty of them. But it doesn't mean that I don't have integrity. I regret what I did and I won't ever do it again. I am determined to live a life of integrity today. And I felt a lot better. I don't think I have ever done that before. Learning to challenge my viscious inner critic is very key to overcoming binge eating for me.
Edited by: WEN@TBAY at: 6/14/2008 (13:07)
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Total Wt Lost: 44 lbs
| Pounds lost: 43.0