Well, As the name implies, this chapter deals with challenging our self-doubts. I have a lot of work to do in this area. I am becoming more aware of "Harriet" (the inner critical voice leftover from childhood development) every day. She is relentless! (BTW:I cannot tell you all how helpful it has been to me to finally learn that this is not "me" talking to myself inside my head! It is not a split personality or the devil! I am not crazy, and do not require a lobotomy or an exorcism!)
It has been really help for me to sort out reality once I recognize and challenge her "input". For example, just this morning I was feeling kind of down. A friend that I ran into when I was dropping off Sarah at volleyball camp this morning seemed kind of distant, not really happy to see me, etc. I started thinking about it while I was making my juice and suddenly I heard from Harriet! All kinds of lousy things like, "apparently she doesn't really like you...she is just being polite b/c your daughters are friendly...she's probably trying to avoid you...you're really annoying....most people probably feel that way too..." and on and on in this downward trend. I had to stop myself and say wait a minute. "Sherry is going through a rough time right now... she just lost her dad a month ago...she was probably bringing her friend up to speed about it when I walked over...and yesterday was her 1st Father's Day without him..." I realized I was overreacting to my perception of her reception of me and was not taking into consideration anything that she might be feeling or going through...I immediately resolved to give her a call and offer to take her out for coffee one day this week.
Before SY I would have probably let all those self-doubts balloon into a giant swirl of negative emotions until I could not longer bear it and reached for the food. And I would probably not have even known why or where it all originated from.
But every time I successfully nip one of these in the bud, I feel a real sense of accomplishment and am "feeding the right wolf" so to speak. It feels so good to take the reigns of my emotions and stop the cycle of binge - self hatred - beat myself up - binge. It is this real hope of lasting change that has got me so amped up.
I am so grateful for this book and for being able to share it with all of you.
Edited by: WEN@TBAY at: 6/16/2008 (17:48)
Life is a gift! Tear into it!!!
Total Wt Lost: 44 lbs
| Pounds lost: 43.0