I need a rant - I normally blog, but I feel my Cysters are the only ones who will understand!
I am now in a healthy weight range, after losing more than 60 lbs since Mar 2011. Using metformin and birth control. In December I started taking folic acid to prepare my body for pregnancy - at an increased dose as per doc's orders.
In March, having hit my weight loss goals (for the most part, I could still lose up to another 10 or so, but I'm in a healthy BMI range now) I went off birth control, and now hubby and I have been trying. First period came right on time - awesome! Second one was about 3 days early - not too worrisome. I spotted today. 9 FREAKING DAYS EARLY. NINE.
My doc wants to wait about 6 months before rechecking my hormone levels and starting on Clomid for conception. I'm okay with that. I'm okay with not being pregnant this very second and having menstruation! I'm *not* okay with the cycle being so off. I forgot what it was like - I had been on birth control for 9 years!
So today is a sad, angry, frustrating day. A part of me, while grocery shopping, stared at the ice cream (my gateway drug, truly) section for a solid 3 minutes with a big ol' "poor me" attitude and it felt like when I had first been diagnosed "why bother?!"
Don't worry - I removed myself. I know I've come too far on this journey to sabotage my amazing success.
SparkHubby is being fantasticly supportive. I have wonderful people in my life I can lean on - just sharing my frustrations with people I think may understand!
Thanks for the vent!! I'm normally the big supportive motivator, but sometimes we need help too!!
Lost 65lbs in 15 months to get healthy and in top shape to try to get pregnant, and succeeded! Had our first baby in February 2013!
I only gained 32lbs in my pregnancy (and immediately lost half within a few weeks of his birth). April 1st is my full restart date.
| current weight: 152.5