In 2003, when I was diagnosed with cancer for the first time, I joined the discussion boards at BreastCancer.org. After a time, I gradually stopped going there every day, especially the short time in between ending my treatment for my first occurrence and beginning treatment for my second.
I usually just check in there once per week or every two weeks, mostly for information. I don't post there a lot any more. I usually "hang out" in the Stage IV forum there. I'm usually just there to find information relating to my condition, or I try to help someone else just starting the same treatment I am on.
But in the last few weeks, there has a been a lot of negativity going on there. People getting into arguments, and unkind words being exchanged. I don't participate in those kinds of discussions, but still, the feeling of negativaty affects me. It just makes me sad to see woman who should be supporting each other fighting amongst themselves. If people want to argue and debate, there are boards for that, but it does not belong on a cancer support board.
Today when I went there, apparently something happened in the last week or so since I last visited; someone was banned, and a whole thread was devoted to an argument as to why that member was banned and why they should or should not have been. Even though it has nothing to do with me, it just made me feel so sad. I don't know why it affected me so much today, maybe it's because even before I went there today, I was having one of my days where I was wasn't feeling my best.
It just makes me apprieciate everyone here all the more, especially our team. I know I can come here and it's a place of support, peace, and kindness. God Bless each and every one of you, and I am very grateful to have all in my life.
My name is Shari; I have been a Sparker since July 2006, and living with Stage IV breast cancer since 2007.
Promise me you'll always remember: You're braver than you believe, and stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think.
A. A. Milne
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