Back to work for me!
I am making the transition somewhat easier - her grandma is going to watch her during the day...I have some reservations. But grandma seems so excited to have her there that I'm feeling better about the decision.
My reservations are:
1) Grandma smokes (she wants to quit - maybe this will help her)
2) Grandpa died 9 days after Heather was born so grandma has some depression issues to work through
3) Grandma has fibromyalgia
4) Grandma tends to stay awake all night and sleep all day
5) Grandma is a HARD sleeper
However, she has stated that Heather is THE most important thing so I'm REALLY hoping that Heather will help her work through her issues. Grandma started by not sleeping today so I'm hoping she sleeps really well tonight. And she started smoking outside so Heather is not subjected to her 2nd hand smoke. I'm aware of the 3rd hand issues but I can only deal with one issue at a time. *sigh* I'm telling myself that I was raised in the same kind of household (my parents smoked as did my brother) and I'm none the worse for it.
I had it set up for Heather to be in a friends home but every time I thought about leaving her there, I broke down in tears which means I wasn't comfortable with it. I've felt so much less anxiety about this because I know Heather means as much to grandma as she does to me and so I hope she'll be put first.
Sorry for the rant!
Edited by: KATHY_NATURELVR at: 5/9/2010 (23:40)
"We can't become what we need by remaining what we are" - Max Dupree
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