Sweetie I know how you feel! Before my cancer, I was living the dream. I was a size 5, long blonde hair. Was part of a vital musical community. All my friends (and dates) were 15-20years younger than me butI could pull it off, I looked that good. I live in a rural area but got to travel often to Toronto, Richmond, Charlotte and other places to see my friends bands perform. Had just started my own one of a kind couture business when cancer stuck out of the blue. One day I woke up and couldn't walk. Now I'm 137lbs ,at 4'11(less now, I keep shin king) hair that's thinned and stringy from all the meds, one boob, my legs scarred from botched radiation, a crooked back and a WALKER! BUT I AM HERE! I thank God every day for the life I do have. I know how hard itbis to look forvthe blessings that are there and I've dealt with terrible depression over this past year. I just try to look for all the good that IS left in life. You live in a fabulous city, you have what sounds like an amazing talent, you can WALK! I envy you that. So many things I used to love- concerts, shopping, the beach are off limits to me now cuz I can't liftvmy walker on my own. Revel in what you do have. Don't let cancer take that ,too!
Work like it's all up to you!! Pray like its all up to GOD!!!!
"Look at your life- who do you want to be before you DIE???"Cruxshadows
| Pounds lost: 7.0