Earlier this week I noticed 2 things. I have a lump on my breastbone & another in my left armpit. The one on my breastbone is really hard & itchy. The one in my armpit is pretty painful & well is kinda gross. I won't explain that since I don't want you all to get sick.
The problem I had was that my health insurance changed to a higher deductible plan. My employer has set us up with a Health Savings Account & funds it for us. We get $750 every 3 months.
Now I have used the last 2 deposits to pay for my bridge. And I won't get any more money in my account until May.
I just tried to blow it off for now because I get cysts all the time. But the more painful they became, the more nervous I got. So I texted my one friend & asked her what she knew about cancer. I told her not to call me since my daughter was in the same room as me. We texted back & forth for a bit. She said that there are free clinics that I can go to. I had never even thought about that. I actually thought they didn't exist anymore. But she will get the information from a co-worker on Monday & give it to me.
So from what I understand there will be an initial exam then the follow up will involve possible testing.
I have to say that I have become more nervous. Just by texting my friend about it makes it real. And if it's real...well...
So obviously I'm scared out of my mind. I crashed at around 10p but woke up right before 2a with a killer headache. I know why I can't sleep, just so nervous.
Is anyone up at this hour that can chat with me?
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