Dear WantTobeslim - I TOTALLY understand what you are going through. I had bil. mastectomies completed on Sep. 11th, and went through the tissue expansion process, until I had my permanent implants placed in Dec. 4 of 2008. Unfortunately, doctors often don't prepare women for what can be experienced by some as excruciating pain with the tissue expanders.
All I can say, is that the expanders felt like hard rocks jammed in my breast, and was quite excruciating post operatively.
I had to sleep at a 45 degree angle on my couch for about 7 weeks, just because the pressure/pain laying down flat in bed was too painful. I took narcotic pain pills my doctor prescribed, along with flexeril (a muscle relaxer) probably for the first 8 weeks around the clock, then was able to switch to motrin/flexeril combination.
As the expansion process went along, and post operative healing, the pain got better.
The switch to permanents was like night and day! No pain per se after the surgery. So BE ENCOURAGED. Just get throught the expansion process. It is worth it, once you get to the final result.
I chose saline implants and am very happy with them. I am 10 weeks out from my exchange to permanents, and am back to weightlifting and cardio.
I would highly recommend that you check out the website "BreastCancer.org". They have a discussion board where you can post your questions, and get tons of helpful advice and support. In particular I want to mention the discussion thread entitled "Continued expander pain". That particular discussion thread and wonderful ladies helped me SO MUCH through the expansion process.
You will hear so many women share their experience, what works for them to help with pain during the process...tons of emotional support.
Just knowing that what I experienced was actually quite typical, helped me to feel I wasn't alone, and that I wasn't some "unusual case" out there, but what I was experiencing what was common to MANY women.
If you'd like to private mail me, I'd also be happy to answer any more questions you might have. It really will get better.
Hang in there.
God bless you,
"God is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to His power that is at work WITHIN US" Ephesians 3:20