I understand about not wanting any more surgeries. My mom's tram failed horribly and left her tummy more like the grand canyon than a tummy.
I'm so glad you are ok now and are getting back into shape. I hired a trainer at the YMCA to help me with weight training until I was able to do them sufficiently by myself.
After about 3 10 week sessions, I am now able to do just about anything (with the exception of 2 and that's just because I'm short, not that I can't do them because of the surgeries).
Keep working at it, things do get easier eventually. Sometimes eventually just takes it's time getting here.
| current weight: 137.0