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It is always a sad thing when relationships bite the dust, and I am so sorry this is happening with you and your best friend..... but you will be much better without that drama in your life....

I'm glad the steak Diane turned out.... It is a good plan to prepare several meals in advance for the freezer as it will save work when you will already be tired from the middle of the night feedings.....

Any time you want to rant OR post a long message, it might be wise to write it in a word processor program first. Then you can always copy and paste into your blog..... It makes it much easier to repost if your message gets lost..... not to mention you can just edit out the word that Spark rejected..... Just don't delete the file until you know it has been posted into Spark...... Just a thought.....

Hope you have a great week....

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Just wrote this huge, long, detailed rant...to have it erased by SparkPeople because I wrote the word cr*p-ton. Are you kidding me?

Well, to whittle an hour's worth of typing (and internal screaming) down to a short post...I have un-friended my best friend and his wife, both on Facebook and in real life. I have discovered that they just don't want to come to my baby-shower and have bad-mouthed me on a few occasions. I don't need that high-school petty drama in my life, especially not from 45-50 year olds. All because we bailed on a Halloween party 3 years ago due to a freak snowstorm. Grow Up!

We are also not going to be seeing my wife's brother at the baby-shower. He has class on that Monday so couldn't possibly travel the 5 hours Friday night and then spend 3 hours with us Saturday afternoon, and then another 5 hours to go home...not when the day after the next day he has class in the afternoon. NO, of course not. So, any gift sent from him will be returned to him, unopened. Those are my wife's decisions. It's hard for her, but it's been a very long time in the making.


In terms of the Steak Diane...it turned out YUM! Little - I think I will use a more marbled piece of meat next time, though this time the roast just fell apart, it was so moist. Made another BIG batch of meatloaf last night, cooked 2 loaves and froze 2 loaves. Tonight I put together some stuffed chicken rolls, some for freezing and some for cooking tomorrow night. My goal is to put at least 2 nights worth of meals in the freezer a week between now and the baby's birth. I would LOVE to be able to really just enjoy the time with her and not be constantly cooking. Spent way too much money on food this week. But knowing that my wife and I are eating good food this week and not spending as much on eating out...that's good to know...and to have some meals stashed away for easy grabbing once the little one is here, much nicer. Now that root veggies are in season I think I may grab some, pre-chop, and freeze so I can just toss with EVOO and salt and roast them up this winter....mmmmm. Nothing I love more than roasted root veg.


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9/25/14 8:56 P

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So happy things are going downwards for you again.....

I have never eaten Steak Diane so don't have a clue as to what it is, never mind how to ramp up the fat percentage. Do you brown the steak before putting it into the slow cooker? And could you maybe use a more heavily marbled piece of meat? What about adding some cream cheese?

As I said, I don't know what the dish is, so I am really not much help, but just throwing a couple of ideas out there. I don't know if they are appropriate or not....

I am so sorry to hear about the problems with friends/family and the baby shower. It definitely is times like this where people show their true colours..... I mean, if someone gets sick - really sick not just says they are sick - that is one thing, but for anyone to say they will come and then not, that is mean spirited of them.

I have always thought it was better to say I could not go somewhere or do something and then later go or do it, than it was to agree to go or do something and in the end not go or do it.... I have a niece who I asked if she could sew something for me and she said yes, but she never did it, and after a while, a long while, I asked my sister if she had ever done it, only to find out the item I had asked to be repaired had been thrown out and she was just too busy to do things like that..... Well why did she say yes then? I would have understood if she had said no.....

So, back to the issue at hand.... If they really want to stay friends, they will find a way. If they don't, then you will find them around less and less as time goes on. Fewer phone calls, fewer get togethers, missing Christmas cards, etc. If you decide to keep the friendship going, it will all be on you, very one sided. (Boy, aren't I just full of light and sunshine here - but I have been there, done that so only speaking from my experience)

As for family, there is not much we can do about that, is there? We don't actually pick our families.... we can only do our best to keep the the peace but that doesn't mean we have to have them forced upon us. (again speaking from personal experience.....)

Good luck and Best Wishes to you whatever you decide to do.... emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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Thankfully my excess weight is coming off quickly. I had actually gained 8 pounds in 2 weeks and had reached back up to 257. Ugh. Today I'm back to 253, and that's after 1 fat fast day and 2 normal Keto days (couldn't do the fat fast the second day was just starving). So 3 days and I've gotten rid of 4 pounds, during that TOM as well. Drinking tons of water and eating really well. I still can't seem to get my fat percentages over 75%, I've been hanging around 70% most days, but am making sure to make the best choices possible. Been keeping the carbs below 30 g a day, not doing the net-carb thing.

Steak Diane slow cooker recipe turned out well enough. I want to make a few changes to it, see if there's any way I can add more fat to it...it's very high in protein but not as high as I'd like it to be in the fat arena. Any recommendations? I've got beef (a roast), full fat beef broth (not homemade), and finish the broth at the end with heavy cream. I also added a TBSP or two of butter....but still I'm much higher on protein than fat. It's a very simple recipe, beef, onions, mushrooms, brandy, broth, and some spices. Don't know what else I could add without completely changing the composition of the meal.

Baby shower is coming soon and the responses we are getting are pissing me off. My wife's brother still won't confirm if they are coming (had pulled out of our wedding days before and cost us a lot of money) and their excuses keep changing, my best friend and his wife said they are too busy, and my other dear friend has decided he'd much rather spend the long weekend across the country with the boy who just dumped him but keeps him hanging on. People we assumed were not coming are, and people we assumed were definitely coming are not.

I'm just afraid we're going to run into the same problem we had with our bridal shower, which was horrible. We invited over 50 people, 35 said yes, and then only 15 showed, mostly my sisters and our parents, and it cost my parents a lot of money. It was highly insulting and humiliating...it was raining and everyone used that as the excuse...what? I think this baby shower is really going to prove to us who our real friends are and who is just going through the motions. We never ask anyone for anything and are always there when our friends need us....yet here we are, a couple weeks away and people are jumping ship. I'm pissed about it but have resigned myself to the fact that this is just what happens when you have huge life changes as an adult, but my wife is taking it really personally. She has actually said that she wants me to call each of our "friends" who have said no and scream at them. I don't see the point. It will just ruin a friendship that is petering out on it's own, and make me angry.

I hate this part of change...the expensive, relationship-testing part. The introvert in me just wants to huddle up on the couch under a blanket and binge-watch Dexter all day...the extrovert in me is just excited to see all the people who really do love us and be able to enjoy the time together. UGH. At least there will be tons of food at this thing that I CAN eat. I made sure of that when my sister-in-law was planning the menu. The dessert/candy table is going to be tough, but as long as I keep myself full and occupied it will be fine. After all, there is about 20 pounds of candy sitting on my dining room table right now and I haven't touched it, which is a huge success in my books.

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Thanks Little.

I was doing so great for a while...I think I just burned out. I felt like my life revolved around food, 24/7. This time I'm trying to chill a bit about it. Not going to push myself too much to do IT ALL. Now I'm just focusing on making the best choices possible and paying attention to my body.

Making a new recipe tomorrow, very excited about it. It's a Steak Diane in a slow cooker. The recipe sounds super yummy and I'm working from home tomorrow, so perfect opportunity. LOVING the weather changes. Nice and chilly! Now to get all my sweaters out of storage...let's hope some fit. Just have to keep reminding myself that I don't need a new winter wardrobe..I'll be on maternity leave most of the winter...just need a few decent pieces to get me through. I hope to come back from the leave at least 20 pounds lighter. I think that's possible in 2 months.

Big goals, small goals....

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Sorry to hear about your slip up. Glad you are back on track again. You CAN do this. You have done it before, and you can do it again.

You are WORTH it.....

P.S. If you are in charge of the dessert/candy table, make a list of healthy foods and only put that on the table. People can have great snacks without them being sugar laden.

Best wishes to you....

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Wow...totally fell into a black hole back there. Mostly filled with guilt and a little self-loathing. Back again, though. Not sure what my trigger was this time...but just couldn't seem to get my stuff together. Couldn't plan well, my recipes were a disaster, and I kept cheating. Then I gave up and spent a few days REALLY being bad. Then all hell broke loose.

So, today I am back...well, tomorrow I'm back. Today I did shopping, prepping, planning, set up my new laptop (clutzy wife killed my old one a couple days back), fixed our dishwasher, and got some laundry done.

Needed a good reminder why this is so damned important. Met someone I hadn't seen in years and was so excited to see them and tell them all about our new changes. I was going on about how we hope to get our children into sports early and I saw the doubt in his eyes...as if he was saying "why bother, you aren't active, what makes you think you can keep your kid active?" He was perfectly pleasant, but that look hit me hard. Then I took a look in the mirror, saw that I was breaking out in zits and rosacea again. It was time.

I have a baby on the way and I'm still WAY too heavy. I had hoped to be down to 230 by now, but I must easily be back up to 260 with the way I've been eating the last week. I don't dare weigh myself until tomorrow. I'm also forcing myself to take a 2 day fat fast to jumpstart things and am going to begin walking an hour at lunch time at work.

I have too many reasons to do this, right now, permanently, and only laziness and gluttony are keeping me from my goals. Tomorrow starts my new month of eating right. October 11th is our baby shower and I'm in charge or the dessert/candy table...but I think if I can stay good until then I should be able to get through this without falling off the wagon...just have to keep myself well fed, well rested, and keep the stress down.

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9/8/14 6:36 P

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That has happened to me..... I just gotta have that soda !

At one time, that was ALL I drank. diet pop. when asked why I bought diet I said because I liked it better than regular, lol

But I hated the taste of water. I girl can get into a lot of trouble drinking in excess of 2 litre bottles of that every day.

In order to get me to even taste the water, I had to buy it from the grocery store. It has to go through the filtration and osmosis to get rid of all the chemicals and sediment and chemically taste.... Now when I just can't handle it anymore, I add some MIO to my water and that does help a bit, but it's still not very good for me.... That usually does the trick, but if not, then I break down and have a glass (or 2 or the whole bottle) of diet soda....

Your recipes are coming along. Great job!

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And thanks to some diet soda I am NOT 248...I'm at 251. I had soda on Saturday and Sunday. I knew that it made me retain water and yet I still drank it. I was having a stressful weekend, an exhausting weekend. I know I ate well, was on target, and the only thing missing was all the water I SHOULD have been drinking. So today I'm back at work and have access only to water to drink...and so I shall. I will drink my 72 oz of water today and see what happens tomorrow. I'm going to guess that tomorrow I'll be back around 249...then if I can do it right on Tuesday as well I think I might be able to get down past that.

I KNOW how my body reacts to diet soda this way, yet I still drink it if I'm given a chance. Ugh. Silly rabbit...

Made an AMAZING meatloaf last night and I'm going to put the recipe on here once I've updated it in SparkPeople Recipes. WOW was it good. Glad I made 2 batches so I can have it for dinners and lunches. Also made a Chicken version of stuffed shells. Stuffed the yummy stuffing into rolled up flattened chicken breasts and then baked, then added some tomato sauce and mozzarella. MMMmmmmm. Good stuff. Tonight I make a batch of Sweet Potato/Bacon/Chive Biscuits. They are low carb and they sound delicious! If they come out good I will add the recipes here as well.



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Oh!!! Oh!!!! Look! 249! My scale caved today and finally said 249! FINALLY!

It's taken me a full year to get out of the 250s...well, from 275 to 249. Could have done so much better, but this is a number I haven't seen in about 3 years. I'll take it!

Today has been crazy and I've still stuck to my diet. I'm thinking that my salad dressing at a local restaurant probably kicked me almost out of ketosis...way too sweet to not have sugar in it... and I know I should have asked for no dressing or at least a ranch, but I forgot. It didn't occur to me until I got home.

When I did get home, though, I totally rearranged our living room furniture and vacuumed, went to BJs and got some seriously heavy stuff and lugged that around...so I'm hopeful that my spurts of big movement and heavy lifting has burned through the sugar in my system.

We shall see in the morning. Oh man....I think if I see 248 I will do a little happy dance!

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I like SS just fine, but it's not quite the same and tends to make the sauces a bit watery no matter how well I drain it. My wife hates it. She's not exactly a veggie lover. She was one of those Italians who had the same thing each week, on the same day (Spaghetti and Meatballs on Monday, Chicken Parm on Tuesday, Steak Wednesday, Veal Parm on Thursday, etc, etc....and very few vegetables if any)

Weight loss recovery...I LOVE IT!



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Have you ever tried Spaghetti squash? Many italians would probably think it is sacralidge, but I like it as a spaghetti substiture. AND yes, I do put my sketti sauce over the strands. Not exactly the same texture as pasta, but close enough, and with the meat sauce, and pharm over top, YUM

emoticon Good for you on your weight loss recovery..... Oh, not sure if that sounds right, but I am sure you get my drift.

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Oh, no problem, but thanks!!!

Yeah, I have a texture issue...but I did cook them in a way other than the package recommendation. This weekend I will try again and see how it goes. I REALLY want this to be a good option for me. I live with an Italian who is eating pasta all the time in front of me and it's killing me. If I could have something I could put my sauce over I would be a happy girl.

Oh, and today I weighed in. 250! Finally. 3 days of a fat fast and 1 additional day of Keto and I'm back to where I was before I screwed up. Only took me almost a month! Man, I have to get better at my learning curve.

I plan to be GOOD for the next month and see if I can match or beat my 12 pound loss from July. That would bring me to about 238 by the end of the month, which would make me very happy. That's the weight I was in 2011. Another 10-12 pounds and that is what I was at my wedding in 2010. If I could get into the 210's by December I would be over the moon. That means I might have a chance at being under 200 by my birthday in January...which really is my big goal. I don't want to go into year 37 with this weight looming over my head.



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I have heard several people mention something called shirataki (?) noodles and they say they love them...... I have never seen them here but I think they can be purchased through amazon or something......

From what you have described, I know I would not be able to eat them. I cannot handle things with weird textures, tastes, or smells.... (or stuff that looks funny either....)

Good luck on the next try....

OK, I just looked these up and apparently Miracle Noodles is one brand of the shiratacki noodle.... Sorry, I thought I was giving you another option....

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Okay....so the trick to Miracle Noodles HAS to be cooking them appropriately. I read online that it's helpful to rinse them, then nuke them for 2-3 minutes. I did that and they did NOT turn out so good. Kind of weird texture. The package says to put them in boiling water...so that's the next attempt. I'll let you know if it gets better, because if not, I don't think I can choke them down...I HATE weird textures.

Still compiling my weekend list of food and recipes. Woohoo!! Think I may need to spread this out over a few months. I'd just like to get a couple months worth of food ready to go before the baby comes, because the last thing we're going to have time or energy for is to cook healthy foods and I do NOT want to spend the winter months eating out all the time.

One more day until I weigh in. Should be interesting. I know that a few days before the fat fast I weighed 254...I'm thinking I may be down to 250 now. Would be nice. That's where I was before I went off the rails. I haven't changed my profile here yet because I WANT to be at 250.

It will happen, I will get there....it's just a matter of patience and will power (and preparation).

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I've been bugging my wife to let me buy a freezer and a sealer for SO LONG. I just get so frustrated when I see all the food we waste. Then she complains about how much we spend on food. Then I yell about how we waste the food and let it go bad and how we could save money if we had a system like this, and it's just a big circle of being frustrated...so with the extra money came the hopeful solution.

Now that we have our baby coming and my wife will be pumping breastmilk, we needed the freezer for the supply. I also plan to make our own baby food because that jarred crap has none of the original nutrients left in it after they pasteurize it within an inch of it's life. Me, some veg, a blender, and baby happiness. I'd like to be able to make it in bulk, not ridiculous amounts, but enough to make it worth doing.

We also have a membership to BJ's and it just feels like a waste because we never buy actual FOOD there. We buy the papergoods and the lady products, toiletries, and cat litter, etc. Now that I have the freezer space and a sealer that will hopefully last me a year at least, I plan to buy some meats and cheeses and veggies and fruits. I'm already putting together lists of recipes I'd like to make in bulk and coming up with a list of ingredients I can buy at BJs to make the prep/cooking that much easier and cheaper. It turns out that I can save over $1 a pound at BJ's over my usual store on almost all their meats. YAY!

Well, today is my final day of my fat fast. It hasn't been overly difficult, especially since I KNOW that it's only 3 days. You can do anything for 3 days. The wife is happy I stop tonight. Me too. There's only so much almond butter, brie, nuts, and small chunks of meat a girl can eat before she needs something of substance!

Very excited to say that I have a package being delivered today of Miracle Noodles. Everyone in the Keto blogs I read keeps raving about them so I plan to have them tonight as my celebratory end of fast meal. I've been skeptical of them as I'd heard not so nice things about their flavor, smell, texture, etc. It appears, though, that they've gotten much better and the only thing that lingers is the smell...which can be mitigated by rinsing them thoroughly and then microwaving them for a couple minutes. NOODLES!!!! I really hope they are good. I'll let you all know. They won't freeze, so no making spaghetti in bulk for this girl, but if they work I will have a whole new venue of meals for my family....and my uber-Italian wife will be so happy!!!

Still not weighing myself but my morning Keto-stix happily showed a moderate level of ketones so I am marking this fast as a success. Now to keep myself in Ketosis for longer than a month.

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emoticon on the freezer and the food saver..... Sis had one that stopped sealing so she got rid of it and never got another.

The first one I had was by Phillips and it just had a tiny wire to heat and seal the bags. Needless to say, it did not hold for longer than 2 seconds. So I replaced it with a Food Saver, and it worked great for awhile, but then it started not sealing so well. So I replaced it with a new model a couple of years ago, and it is fantastic.....

I don't know how to buy small quantities of anything. I always buy bulk and repack when I get it home..... I have had strawberries in my freezer for well over a year (they got shoved to the back and forgotten) and they were still beautiful, not freezer burnt at all.

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Thanks LittleWind!

Day 2 and I'm still on track. Loads of water, same types of food. Wife is none too happy about this as she doesn't seem to believe the reasons behind what I'm doing. I keep telling her that I'm not doing this for some big whoosh of fat loss, this isn't some sort of crash diet that I'm going to be following. This is a very short term way of getting my body back into ketosis, limit the length of time I'll have the induction flu-like symptoms, and is perfectly healthy as long as I keep to my plan and eat enough calories (which I'm doing). I know why she's worried though, but I can't seem to get her to realize what I'm doing. Years ago, when we were first living together, I went on a severely low calorie diet with days of high calories...it was all based off this amazing new diet system that I had seen in Women's Day or some such trash magazine. In the end it turned out that the Diet guru was actually a currently extremely obese woman who had faked everything and the doctor/specialist quotes were all BS. People had died on the diet. When I found this out I immediately stopped. I must have been on it only 2 weeks. I felt like crap, though. I remember clearly feeling like I was always hungry, I had no energy, and I felt like I was really, really sick all the time.

This is so not the case this time. I'm eating good foods, I'm eating enough of them to sustain me, and I'm actually feeling pretty damned good. I'm also only doing this for 1 more day. I've seen some women stay on this for up to a week...though I would never recommend that.

I keep telling her, sure, some people lose a lot of weight on this, but they gain a good portion of it right back. What's the point of eating so little for 3 days to just put back most of the weight on Day 4? Maybe it's pregnancy brain...she can't understand what I'm getting at. I'm not losing much sleep over it. My body is happy, my understanding of how this will affect my body makes sense to me, the food is all food I'd usually be eating anyway, and it's super-short term. It's a hell of a lot better for me than spending a month eating carbs and gluten and sugar.

Sorry for the vent today...just frustrated with the constant worry from the wife. I just keep telling myself, one more day, one more day. Thursday I can eat normally again (keto, of course)

Oh, in exciting news...I got my big freezer this weekend and now we have a food saver vacuum system! Now I can finally start buying in bulk and saving some money. The wife got a big bonus at work for some special projects she had worked on and we decided half into savings and the other half to help us save. Yay!

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Wow...was this a week of ups and downs. Things went well about 60% of the time...the rest of the time I was completely out of control. Today is the first day of a new month and I'm starting fresh.

Today is Day 1 of my 3 day Fat Fast. I'm kickstarting my diet back in again and with a big change. Hope my body doesn't rebel too much. For 3 days I'm eating between 1000-1200 calories of almost 90% fat (in 4-5 meals of about 200 calories each) It's all from items like guacamole, nuts, nut butters, BP Coffee, some cheese, and some fatty meats. This is supposed to kickstart your body into Ketosis. You can do it up to 4 days but I've decided 3 days should be fine. Many people do it to lose big pounds fast, but I don't care as much about that as I do about getting back into ketosis. I just kept screwing up, kicking myself out, and then having crazy tough cravings.

So today I started and the plan was some liverwurst, BP Coffee, guacamole, nuts, almond butter, and some brie...with plenty of water and a healthy multi-vitamin. Day 1 is almost over and I'm finding, surprisingly, that I'm not overly hungry (thank you fat!!!)

I haven't weighed myself, and I'm not going to until Friday. This isn't about weight loss this week. This is about getting myself back on track. The only thing I'm monitoring is the Keto-stix.

Hope you all are doing well!

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All cute names.....

Have fun with the in laws. It's great that you get along so well with your FIL. and have been able to earn the respect of your MIL.

Glad you saw the scales move again. Best wishes for a healthy week and weekend....

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Day 44!

Thanks ladies! I love posting...I have to get used to writing more as I plan to start my own blog soon and start sharing my new recipes, life, and being a new mom.

It's hard to believe that I'm actually about 15 weeks away from being a mother. It's been such a hard road. People have no idea what it's like to struggle getting pregnant until it happens to them...and then the soul-sucking knowledge that YOU aren't going to be the one getting pregnant. Maybe I'll share the story one of these days...but not today.

We have several names picked out, and it's helpful knowing that it's a girl, but we have agreed not to "name" her until we meet her. Our top contenders are MacKenzie, Morgan, Dylan, Ella, and Kennedy. My wife wants to keep Gianna in there but I put up a fight. The kid is going to have an Italian last name so she needs a piece of her Irish/Celtic heritage in there, period. Her middle name will be Elizabeth, this we know. It's the name of my great-grandmother who died 3 years ago at the age of 103. She had such an impish and loving soul that it was a name we both wholeheartedly agreed on.

This morning I woke up to a big dip in the scale, which was a HUGE boost to my sagging will-power. It looks like a lot of the "weight" I had gained during my bad week was mostly water weight.

This weekend we head to NH mountains to see my in-laws and that will be a huge challenge. They have huge breakfasts at a place that makes the best pancakes and add toast and the best home-fries to EVERYTHING they serve, and then they eat dinner at 4pm, in bed by 7pm. It wreaks havoc on any diet I'm on. Then my Italian father-in-law looks at me like I've spat on his mother when I say I can't eat the carby Italian dish he's just made for me even after we told him I can't eat carbs. "What you talking about, I made gluten-free, you eat it. No carbs." That's not an Italian accent, by the way, he lost that many years ago...that's the New York accent he picked up living in Queens for 30 years. He's quite sweet, really. He found out I liked Root Beer (so does he) so he buys me Root Beer; every time we come up it's chilling in the fridge, and it only took him a year to realize that I'm usually on a diet, so now he buys me Diet Root Beer, my favorite brand too. It's the only time I allow myself soda, is when we visit once every other month. My wife and sister-in-law are shocked at how much her father loves me, as he hates all his other in-laws. I make him laugh, I tease, I cajole, and I protect and love his daughter and he's seem that first hand. I think that's why he and I get along so well. My wife's mother isn't the nicest person on earth and one weekend she ripped into my wife so bad that even my wife was speechless (NY-Italian, that does not happen), and I ran in screaming at her, telling her just what kind of person she was, how if she kept it up she could expect the remaining years of her life to be spent in a nursing home with no visitors, and I let her have it but good and held nothing back. My father-in-law had a new-found respect for me after that. My mother-in-law likes to pretend it never happened but she hasn't ripped into my wife like that since then.

If I had time I would prep a bag/box full of keto-friendly foods for the weekend, but there just is no time this trip. My wife is being super-supportive and has promised NOT to let me binge or blow it. Man, I hope so.



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I am right there with you, Jacqui.....I absolutely despise telling people that I've fallen down. It's just so hard for me to believe that, after doing SO WELL, that I let go and failed. It makes me struggle to believe in myself....and thus, I don't want other people to stop believing in me too. Tough stuff.

You are doing great....I enjoy reading your posts. YAY on your little Nugget being healthy and big! YAY!! What are some of your favorite name ideas? I'm really happy to hear that seeing her on the ultrasound helped get your head back in the game....that's totally awesome and totally what this is all about. REAL LIFE. Love it.

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Sorry about your slip..... but you landed square on your feet so that is a good thing..... Corporate life can play havoc with our meal times. Not like most manual labourers, road crews, construction workers, etc, where they just put down their tools at noon and sit on the side of the road and eat.... (Sorry, I am not trying to be catty, but it is true...) My ex father in law walked into the Department of Highways once and told asked where he could apply because he really wanted to work for them. They asked why and he said he wanted to be able to sit around and drink coffee and wave at all the cars sliding into the ditches all around him because the roads had not been ploughed of snow, or sanded or salted, or anything....... )

That is such good news about the baby. I am so happy for you..... When in December is the expected happy day?

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Starting this week with a little more honesty....I did not do well this past week. I got to about the middle and failed. Not only did I fail, but I failed smack dab into a large hot fudge sundae. I tried, every day I tried. I ate 2 out of 3 meals completely on target, but it was that one big mess up that landed me face first in fudge last night.

I gathered myself, cooked up a storm, and am right back on track this morning. Although the timing of my meals leaves something to be desired (ate breakfast at noon, now lunch at 3pm, dinner at 7pm) I am thankful for a busy day that has managed to keep me away from transgression.

I also have wonderful baby news. Today we had our 24 week check-up and our little girl is getting bigger! She looks super healthy and based on measurements she is weighing in at 1 lb 10 oz, which is a little bigger than the average at her age. Nice BIG head.

I had a wonderful day at work as well. I was hosting a meeting between some tough folks in HR and our IT development team on a very touchy subject and was able to keep everyone on topic, keep us rolling on the agenda, and got everything done and only 1 minute over the expected time. I was able to assign tasks, recap information, and at the end of the meeting everyone commented on how it was the most productive and enjoyable meeting they had had in the last month at least. WOOHOO!!!! I don't host any meetings, usually, but I love the fact that when I do they go so well...I just wish my boss had been there...he is from Germany and loves a well organized and executed meeting.

I wish you all just a fabulous week of successes and weight loss. I'll continue to try to keep up with my posts. Can you tell that when I'm embarrassed about my failures I don't post? I keep checking the team but I don't post. Boo me!

Well, back to work now.

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Day 38 - and ugh...I've been a bad girl.

I almost threw in the towel, my inner fat-chick was screaming that I had failed a couple days in a row so who was I kidding....and then we saw the ObGyn and I got to see my little girl floating around in there and I remembered why I was doing this. It's not just me...I don't want her to grow up in a home surrounded by bad food, bad choices, and no activity.

So today is a new day. It's almost 10am and I haven't had anything except my BPC, which is so yum now that I have a sugar free syrup for it. I brought some BH eggs for breakfast but meant to eat them before now and haven't had a chance...now I have morning meetings that will keep me occupied until it's lunchtime. So I have my shrimp/sausage, HB eggs, and a veg souffle to fill me up. Should be enough. Then tonight is Kielbasa and sauerkraut....why they feel the need to make smoked sausage low-fat and fill it with soy products is beyond me. I can't wait for Applegate to make their own...maybe then it will be something I'd feel good about eating.

I was doing so well....just need to jump back into it.

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Things have to be very bad for me to throw it away. I usually just scrape off the freezer burn and go ahead and use it. Even if the "burn" is a bit more that superficial, if I can salvage at least half of the article, I will use it...... I guess that comes from coming from a very poor home where nothing, (and I mean NOTHING) was ever wasted......

Having said that, emoticon on the new freezer. Remember to label everything you put into your new freezer and rotate your foods so there is less chance of anything getting freezer burned.



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Day 36 - was able to keep it together, so far.

The sugar cravings are still bad but I'm managing.

Bulletproof coffee in the morning, HB eggs for breakfast, 2 oz Macadamia nuts for snack, and then my shrimp/sausage skillet for lunch...all that fat is certainly helping keep me in check.

Been drinking loads of water today as well. Woke up this morning to 253....ugh. I deserve it, though. I messed up and my body needs to adjust. It's just frustrating. I could have done so much better this past month, but the decisions I've made have made it harder for me.

I am NOT giving up though. Not happening. I'm still learning from my mistakes and I'm already starting to put together my food plan for next week...something more realistic, more fiber-full, and we shall see how things go.

The exciting thing is that my wife surprised me by buying a freezer for me! Yet when I pulled out all the frozen items I was hoping to thaw and use this week from my current freezer I realized that they were frost-bitten to death. ARG!!!! So now I need to research a food saver. I am somehow leaving too much air in there. There's no point buying in bulk, cooking in bulk, to save money if we just end up throwing it out anyway. I just have to keep reminding myself...spend a little now to save more later.

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Noooo!

Day 35....not such a good day after all. I woke up, had my first BulletProof Coffee (yum), came to work and was a good girl. Got to lunch and was really hungry so I ate my lunch that should have filled me up and then I was starving again. I went into the kitchen to wash my dish and there sat a bowl full of fruit (they give us occasional fruit at work). I lost my control and grabbed a pear, which sent me into a massive sugar spiral. The pear led to PopTarts from the vending machine, and the PopTarts let to a bunch of choco-choco cookies that someone left in the kitchen.

I've managed to stop myself and am pounding back the water like it's my only salvation. All I can think about it sugar, sweets, chocolate.....what the heck?!?!

I blew it for lunch but I'm going to be better for dinner. I have to. I've been stalling on the weight loss and I have to get this under control or I might sink right back into my old unhealthy eating habits. I cannot do this.

Oh great, now I have hiccups too.

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Sorry you are experiencing this stall. But that is quite common with weight loss, and it may not have anything to do with water retention. It could just be your body trying to catch up and adjust to the weight you have already lost..... Don't despair. It will start to adjust downward when it is ready (and hopefully that will not be too long to wait)

If you are still loosing inches and your clothes fit better, that is proof that you are loosing FAT and gaining muscle.

Have a great Sunday....

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Oh, it's a girl and we're torn between a bunch of names, so we're waiting until she's born to name her.

This morning I woke up to another weight gain...I just don't get it. It has to be water weight because I was PERFECT yesterday.

Today starts my no-dairy-month and I attempted Bullet-proof Coffee this morning. Definitely helped keep me full this morning. Lunch was a mix of meats, veggies, and fat. Unfortunately, the veggie casserole I had bought and eaten was almost all my carbs in one day. Who knew that this tiny little egg and veg casserole could contain 25 g of carbs! Not buying those anymore.

Drinking tons of water today, got loads of yard work and house work done today...I'm just hoping I wake up tomorrow to see a big improvement on the scale. I'm not about to give up, no way. I've been doing this too long, but still...I would like to see some kind of movement soon...it's been over a week now and I still haven't pushed past 250. Here's keeping my fingers crossed.

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That IS inspiring. Good for you.....

Had to laugh when I ready you call the baby Nugget. That is so cute..... Do you know yet if it is a boy or a girl? Glad she appears to be healthy. Way to go....



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Thanks LittleWind, I hope so too!

I begin my new eating venture on Sunday...Saturday is shopping and prep. The plan is to make a few skillet meals for the week (a shrimp and sausage with veg, the other beef and pork with veg), start drinking Bulletproof coffee in the morning rather than getting a regular coffee with cream, and to have my regular dinners which don't tend to include dairy anyways.

My wife and I have decided to clean out the freezer so I can start making larger portions of what I need and thus be able to buy the ingredients in bulk at BJ's, hopefully saving some money in the long-term. She is still going to buy her lunches and breakfasts at work...one step at a time.

My wife is doing well with her pregnancy. She hasn't gained any weight in the last 2 months, which means that she is actually losing some of her own weight. She's been making some good choices and eating more veggies and fruit rather than processed food. I know that she's eating healthier than she was before she got pregnant and I know she's getting enough vitamins and nutrients to the baby. The doc is thrilled with the progress. The baby (I call her Nugget) is thriving and moving around a lot. She has now begun kicking up a storm whenever she hears my voice. Quite cute. We go in to the ObGyn next Tuesday for our check-up and I can't wait to hear what they have to say.

I have spread out my goals on my calendar now and have formulated a plan for the next 4 months. At the rate I'm going, throwing in the occasional bad day, water retention and planned Egg Fasts once a month, I should average about a 0.4 lb loss each day, give or take. I also plan to join the gym by the end of this month, so I know that this will at first make me appear to gain and then help with a faster weight loss down the road. Averaging it all out I think I can lose around 10-15 pounds a month over the next 4.5 months. After that, I'm sure I'll have more stalls, start to lose less, etc. If I can maintain this for at least 4 months I should be at about 210 by the time the baby is born. This is almost exactly the weight I met my wife at. This averages out to be a total of 53 pounds lost in 6 months.

The more I think about this the more I come to the realization that I could be under 200 pounds by my birthday in January....and that has been my big goal through all this. I haven't been under 200 pounds since 1994. It's sad to think that I've been over 200 for 20 years. More than half my life. But I feel more in control of my body now than I did at 16, so I KNOW I can do this. I have tried everything and finally understand how my body reacts to things. Life is experimentation, and I've done plenty on myself. I'm hopeful that I can finally get to that point I've been striving to for 20 years....under 200 pounds....if feels like a dream. I have dieted many times before and have hit 205, 201, 208...but never seem to crack 200. It's like my body just rebelled at the thought....but I'm going to do it. I will NOT enter year 37 of my life being over 200 pounds. I WILL NOT. 2015 is going to be the year of the 100s.

Right now my BMI is 40.4....if I get down to 199 it will be 32.2....Almost out of the obese range....wow...talk about inspiring!



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Sorry to hear about your tummy troubles. I hope your new plan will work for you......

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Day 31

So it's been almost a week since my day of cheatdom and my body is still holding on to extra pounds like a life-preserver. The good news is that it's 2 pounds less, so I'm wavering around 252. Still not happy about that, but I'll take what I can get.

I've been miserable the last couple of days. My TOM has come and hit me upside the head in the worst of ways. My cravings for chocolates and sweets went through the roof. Instead of succumbing I chose to eat more veggies. This seemed to work...so while I continue to struggle through this I am increasing the amount of veggies I eat to see if this somehow helps. I've also been struggling with horrible digestive issues. I've stopped talking all my extra vitamins, eliminated my sauerkrat and limited my kombucha intake, hoping to clear up this issue. This hasn't worked, so now I'm working on another theory. My wife made me these really yummy keto-friendly brownies this weekend using Swerve. I have been eating them, at least one, each day as I struggle with these cravings. I'm beginning to wonder if the Swerve and my colon just don't agree.

So, starting today I am NOT eating the brownies anymore. I'm putting them in the freezer and will see what happens. I'm also convinced that I'm eating WAY too much dairy and , being lactose intolerant, this is adding to my digestive distress. I'm not sleeping well, my stomach is bloated, I'm in pain...something's got to give.

I'm struggling, but I refuse to give up. I'm not losing anything, but I'm not going to measure my success by that damned lying scale! My clothes are fitting better, people are beginning to notice, and my doctor is thrilled.

Next week, my foray into the next full month of this new WOE may be completely different. I'm coming up with a plan for myself that eliminates 99% of dairy products and want to give this a month and see how my tummy handles things.

I'll keep you informed, of course.

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Okay, my body is really messing with me. So I had gained 4 pounds on my cheat day...lesson learned, right? No, apparently not. Here I am, 4 solid days later and I'm still sitting here at 254, 4 pounds still there. WTF????

I've kept my carbs low, under 50, I've been eating plenty of fat, nothing off plan, drinking plenty of water, and NO MOVEMENT.

Today I decided to test things and I've just had a huge salad....easily 45-55 g of carbs worth of lettuce, tomato, etc. I typically eat only a cup of veg a day, today it's easily 3 cups. Let's see how my body handles that. I'm just desperate to punch through this 4 pound weight gain...even if only by half a pound!

Lesson I'm learning from this? My body REALLY doesn't appreciate me messing with it like that. This should not be taking so long. Maybe my diet change today will shock my system a little bit...can't hurt the digestion, all that fiber.

If this doesn't clear up by the end of the week I'm going old school keto next week...20 g carbs, no new recipes, totally clean, eggs and meat and fat, oh my.

I know something is up because even my Keto-stix are registering NOTHING, not even a slight pink...

Ugh...I was doing so well. I know this is just a blip, and I'm not giving up, no way. I know I just need to figure this part out, make some adjustments, and I'll be on a roll again...but I'm just so ticked at myself for being so damned cocky about my cheat day.

Okay Universe? Lesson Learned! Now leave off!!!

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Day 27 -

Still rocking those 4 pounds, despite being very good yesterday (though slightly higher in my carb count than I wanted, 60g rather than 40g). I didn't cheat, just seemed to not really track my foods and before I knew it I had eaten quite a few carby foods. Really need to track my foods, even on weekends.

I never used to be a tracker. I hated it! I like the SparkPeople nutrition tracker, though. I track religiously during the week but tend to be a little tech-lite on the weekends. Not that I need to be. I'm a part-time transcriptionist, so I'm on the computer all weekend whether I like it or not.

Things in my world are doing okay. My boss has been away from the office now for 2 weeks and will be again this week so my schedule is very flexible. Yay! WFH days! So work is going okay. Still not getting the kind of work I like, but getting things resolved at work is proving a huge pain. I've been there almost 3 months now and they are still having issues with my new hire stuff.

Also, finances are getting snug again. We just traded in our car and got a new one so our payments have gone up a bit. Now I find out from the wife that once we have our baby and we start paying my mom to care for her we won't have any extra to put into our debt. BUMMER! We've been working so hard to pay down the debt and now this?? We are nowhere near where we hoped to be. What does this mean? This means that I need to pick up more transcription work, we need to pay much more attention to where we are spending our money, and I need to find some better, more inexpensive ways of eating the way I do. Right now we are easily spending $150 on groceries a week for 2 people. AND my wife eats lunch at work every day, another $50 a week, easily. AND we both get coffees in the morning...another $20 a week. We have got to find a better way of doing this.

I've been toying with this idea, or plan really, to start my own blog. It would be sort of a diet/recipe blog that focuses on my own weight loss, fitness, the nutrition info I am obsessed with, as well as all my geeky/nerdy loves, starting a family, and trying to do it all on a budget. My ultimate goal is to lose this weight, inspire others to do the same, being able to bring in a little extra money from the blog, and use that to finally stop doing the transcription, which is mentally and emotionally exhausting (I can't take listening to any more tales of sexual predators, fraud, abuse, etc). My big, huge, pie-in-the-sky, dream would be that the blog would be so successful that I could use it to help me pay to become a personal trainer and nutritional coach and then be able to quit my corporate job and do the PT, blog, and coaching full-time, being able to spend even more time with my family. Well, that's the dream anyway. But I have to start somewhere.

Sigh.....time for me to stop dawdling and get back to work. The typing, cooking, and cleaning aren't going to do themselves.

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Thanks! I do plan to keep going and posting. I really appreciate the nice words and encouragement.

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Jacqui. ....I love this journal! You are doing fantastic, it's fun to read about how you are doing and you and your wife's baby and the plans there, and you are a great writer! Can't wait to read more. ... And to read your blog too!

Crossing my fingers on your health scare. Hopefully all that you are doing with your food intake will help your body fight back. Keep us posted, okay?

Keep up the great work and keep posting! I love it!

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Yeah, all that sodium in the soda pop probably did it...... But it won't take long to come back off.

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Day 26 - aka Recovery from Cheat Day

So, as I mentioned before, yesterday was my cheat day. I had bagels, chocolate milk, rice, popcorn, a Twix, and ice cream. I started feeling it shortly after the bagels. The pain in my stomach. I should have listened to that. But I didn't. The thought of the other things I would get to eat kept me limping forward. By the time I went to the Hibatchi place I was in a lot of pain but didn't stop. By the time we stopped for ice cream I couldn't even taste it.

What did I learn? Well, having spent so many days without these sugary and super-salty items I could really taste a difference in them. Turns out that I don't love ice cream as much as I thought I did. I also learned that I probably should keep my cheat days to more of a cheat meal.

The damage? Well, an evening full of stomach pain and a LOT of trips to the bathroom. My poor bummy is NOT happy. I also woke up this morning to a 4 pound weight gain. Is that possible? No way. I didn't eat enough calories throughout the day to account for that. Since I drank a lot of soda and NO water to speak of I'm going to assume that about 2.5-3 ounds of that is pure water retention.

I did go grocery shopping yesterday and today I am totally back on track. I have my bottle of water next to me, I have my recipes ready to go and I am psyched to try these new recipes out! I am SO ready to be back on track...something I have never felt any other time I've ever been on a low-carb diet.

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I was going by what you said "Doing Keto is supposed to help your body become more resistant to insulin)

But I think you meant to say "doing Keto is supposed to help your body become more sensitive to insulin". As I said, I am already very resistant to insulin and do not want to become even more resistant.....;

Being insulin resistant means the cells in the body cannot adequately use insulin which takes up the glucose and just leaves that glucose floating in the blood. The cells are resistant to the insulin, not to giving up the fat........

I hope this helps clears it up for you.

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250!!!!

Woke up this morning and BAM! 250! There it was. Woohoo! So I have now officially lost 25 pounds in the last year. A year ago this month I met a woman who changed my life. Jillian was a friend of a coworker who I happened to be following on Facebook. She is someone who had gone from 100+ overweight to a lean, mean, boxing machine! She had a heart of gold and her story really kicked my butt.

It took me a year to get here, but here I am. 250. Wow.

Now, tomorrow is my cheat day (we moved it up one day so that I can have all weekend to readjust and be back to normal for work on Monday) so I am sure that I will not be 250 for long. But, I'm hoping that since I've planned this well ahead of time that I will be able to get myself back on track quickly and undo any damage I've done. I'm sure many rail against cheat days or cheat meals, but I just know that I have to do this. I've been dieting off an on for 25 years. I know what works for me and what doesn't. Here I am, just a couple days shy of being 100% perfect for 30 days, but I can't keep that up for long. I need a goal to strive towards that is more short-term than my weight. I need to know that if I refuse temptation I can eventually give in and have a day/meal when I can just not think about it.

Tomorrow the plan is still to have a bagel in the morning, a decent keto-lunch, and then sushi for dinner and ice cream for dessert.

In the meantime, I have 2 new recipes I'm getting ready to make this weekend that are completely Keto-approved and I'm sure they will help me get through this next week and in my new goal of hitting 240.

Man, it feels good today!

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Little,

All the books I'm reading call it insulin-resistant, the state where your body cannot regulate insulin accurate, which makes the cells very resistant in giving up the fat and the muscles overly sensitive to the insulin you do get. Resistant, sensitive, close enough ;)

Maria has an odd set up on her blog. Each post starts with a success story, then she either goes directly into a recipe or talks about a specific keto-related subject. I like to use the key-terms on the right hand side of the page to filter content. There's little blocks near the bottom of the page and there's also a drop-down box at the top.

I've heard of a lot of people being able to come off of or significantly being able to reduce their insulin on a keto-diet. Maybe it will just be a matter of time for you. I will keep you in my thoughts.



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The problem is that my body is already very resistant to insulin. (maybe you meant sensitive?) I need more insulin sensitivity so the cells can take up the glucose and not leave it floating around in my blood to do all that nasty damage to kidney, eyes, liver, heart, and so forth....

I spent years on various pills, including Diabeta and the big Metformin. I was very resistant to the idea of taking insulin because I have always been deathly afraid of needles. But once I finally took the plunge, I wondered what all the fuss was about and WHY didn't I just bite the bullet and go that route much earlier. If I had, I am sure I would not have some of the complications I am facing today.... I can adjust my dosage if need be, but insulin is a fat storing hormone so I have to watch that. Just because I can take extra insulin to cover that bowl of spaghetti does not mean that I should eat that bowl of spaghetti.... lol

I have a tendency to forget to take my insulin shot sometimes, so a couple of years ago I was looking into getting an insulin pump, but .... Canada has some strange rules on that. The main one being they are only approved for Type 1 Diabetics.... And more recently I have developed a reaction to tape (maybe the glue of the tape?) so I would not be able to use a pump anyway..... Not to mention the extreme cost of supplies and maintenance.

I think you mentioned Maria Emmerich in a previous post. I did try to look her up but the one hit I got was very difficult for me to read.... I forgot to go back and try it again the next day when I had fresh eyes....

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Being diabetic and trying to lose weight can be really tough. I know a lot of people who have tried it. I would highly recommend you take a look at Maria Emmerich's blog. She has enormous amount of info on keto-diets and people on insulin. www.mariamindbodyhealth.com

I'm reading through her books now, and if I see anything in them that may help I'll pass it along.

Doing Keto is supposed to help your body become more resistant to insulin. Are you using the self-medicating shots of insulin or are you taking the pills? I have read a lot that it's better to use the ineluctable insulin than pills because it's easier on the body and you can regulate it better. My father-in-law was NOT told that by his doctor and the pills he was on for a decade did significant damage to his liver. Now he's on the injectable insulin and while the damage has been done he's not getting much worse. Hopefully the more you work this new WOE the more sensitive your body will become and the less insulin you'll need, as your numbers won't spike and fall as much.

Again, if I see any good info I will copy/paste for you ;)

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Being on insulin, it is harder for me to go for long periods of fasting. Even when doc wants the cholesterol done, it's only a 9 hour fast for me. The first time I went to the lab and they wanted to know if I had fasted for 12 hours and I said nine, they tried to send me away but I told them look at the requisition, doc writes on the top of it 9 hr fasting.... then they asked if I was diabetic and I said yes. They don't hassle me anymore, but they do write down how long I have fasted.

If I can ever loose some of this weight, I am hoping I can rely less and less on the insulin. Maybe my body / pancreas will start to work normally again.... But I am having such a hard time loosing anything and I cannot seem to get into ketosis.... Actually I read somewhere that insulin helps prevent ketosis so not sure if that will ever happen for me..... But I keep trying.

So happy that you had another loss. This is emoticon emoticon

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Day 22 - Blip is over and then some.

Woke up this morning a see that the 2 pounds of water weight gone AND an extra pound. Now I am 2 pounds away from being at my next goal, 240-land. I haven't been there in a couple years. I'm tracking myself off of 10 pound small goals. It's the only way I can do this, especially when I look at my 100+ weight loss needs.

Working from home today, so being good should be easy enough. I have a hard time with boredom at home, though. It's now 10am and I haven't eaten anything. That's actually around when I eat my first thing of the day. I try to eat no later than 8pm at night, so that gives me a day of 10 hour eating span, so 14 hours of fasting. I've read a lot about intermittent fasting and if you can eat only within an 8 hour window it helps you burn more fat versus lean muscle tissue. I'm not there yet, but I'm working on it.

None of my clothes are fitting any differently, which is frustrating, considering I went from 275 to 251 in one year...but I'm sure things have stretched and shrunk in washes..clothes these days really are shoddily made. Boo!

Just a reminder to myself - my ultimate goal (dream goal) would be to get down to 210 by the time the baby is born in early December. I've hit 12 pounds in 3 weeks, so I don't think that about 10 pounds a month is so unreasonable. It's very aggressive goal, but I do plan to join a gym in September, so I'm thinking that will help a lot. Even if I can't get to that weight, I'd at least like to be back in a comfortable size 16, rather than a 20. I have a lot of work to do.



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That really is the key, isn't it..... planning and being prepared for the slight blips and getting right back on track.

Good for you! Have a great week!

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Day 21!

Okay, I haven't lost anything this weekend, in fact I gained 2 pounds!

I'm not sure exactly what is happening except for the fact that I have stopped doing a couple of the things I had been doing before (daily apple cider vinegar, loads of vitamins and supps, regular kombucha and sauerkraut). I still am eating ONLY keto-appropriate foods but I'll be honest that I did not track the foods I ate this weekend.

Saturday I had an omelete with bacon, tomato, and a white cheddar sauce for breakfast, for lunch I had a few bites of my eggplant lasagna (though I really wasn't that hungry), and dinner I had a Chipolte salad. In thinking about it I did have an enormous amount of diet soda this day, where I normally have NONE. I didn't drink nearly as much water.

Sunday I had eggs and sausage for breakfast, had a Panera cobb salad for lunch with my own dressing, and then had a little of my slaw for dinner with my kombucha....again, still didn't drink nearly enough water.

I can only assume that I exceeded my carbs both days and then also had too much artificial sweeteners and soda. That has to be what's done it to me. I doubt that this is real weight gain and more likely it's water retention. I certainly didn't eat enough calories to bring on 2 pounds of fat.

Today I'm right back on target and my meal plan for the day looks good. I'm going to try really hard to stick to under 30 g of carbs all week. Saturday is my cheat day and we have the whole thing planned out. My wife is being very helpful.

Cheat Day Plan: Get up late in the morning, get a salt bagel and veggie cream cheese for breakfast. Go grocery shopping for all good foods. Go out to see a movie and eat popcorn (only if in the mood, no sweets) and only drink a root beer if they have them (if not, water). Eat lunch at home and eat keto-friendly food. Prep foods for beginning of the week. Go out for dinner at Japanese Hibatchi place and have steak/shrimp hibatchi with fried rice and yum yum sauce, maybe a couple pieces of sweet potato or eel maki.

I figure this way the only truly bad foods are the bagel, maybe popcorn and soda, and the rice and maybe sweet potato. And on Sunday I'll wake up to a couple pound water gain, but with my fridge full of keto-friendly foods so I can start right back up and have no bad foods around to tempt me. It will take a day or two to stop getting the cravings, but then I'll be right back on track.

I just know that I can't sustain this lifestyle 100% of the time and that if I feel too deprived I may hit a wall and binge. By planning 1 cheat day into each month I have something to look forward to as well as an opportunity to remind myself what these foods do to me. My hope is that as each cheat day comes and goes I will plan it better and better, and keep it more and more keto-friendly, until I don't feel the need to have cheat days. This way I also have something to look forward to. I've been doing this for 21 days as of today, and that's a major accomplishment for me. I really have not cheated since I started.

I am also really proud of my attitude through this. I've been tempted MANY times and it's been really hard, but I've stuck it out. I bought a new car this weekend and the sales guy went out and bought me a Dunkin Donut's frozen drink, my favorite sour berry flavor, and I had to turn him down. I felt so bad that I lied and said I was a diabetic...but thanked him profusely for the kind thought. I've also given myself a lot of slack. I'm not nearly as negative towards myself as I used to be. I keep things in perspective and remind myself that this is not a sprint. I'm honest with myself and tend to prepare myself more for the small blips along the way. This morning, for example, when I got on that scale with the funny expectation of seeing it down another pound from Friday, yet saw a 2 pound increase, instead of berating myself and getting depressed, I looked myself in the mirror, reminded myself of all the soda I drank, how little water I drank, and how far I had come and took a deep breath. It's just a blip, and once I get back on track that water weight will fall off again. It's just a blip.

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LittleWind, I totally know what you're talking about. I've studied both a lot and I just keep reminding myself that the basic difference between the is that Ketogenic diets are focused on HIGH Fat intake and VERY Low Carb and the Paleo diets are focused on no processed foods, all natural, only found in nature, kind of foods. Some paleo people get really crazy about it and some are really relaxed.

I like to think of diets like religions. You have Christianity, Judaism, Muslim, Buddhist, Hindu, etc., and then even within those religions you have subdivisions: Protestant, Catholic (and even further deep down than that, orthodox, etc, etc. (don't mean to demean any one religion, just generalizing here)...then you have the low-fat diets, the low-carb diets, the vegetarians, and inside those are even further broken down: Vegans, WWatchers, Ornish, Paleo, Primal, Atkins, New Atkins, Raw-foodists, and so on and so forth.

I am following Keto but I allow myself up to 50 grams of carbs, which isn't exactly standard...so I'm bastardizing Keto for my own needs....kind of like I do with my own religion...I'm kind of Buddhist, kind of new agey, with a little Catholic guilt thrown in, etc. Hah!

Where religion is truly just about "faith", I believe diets are really just about "health"...and we are all trying to figure it out and understand what it means to us, and how to find space for it in our lives.

At the moment I'm more aligned with the Unitarianist-Keto....but in time I may morph into an Orthodox-Paleo...who knows?

All I know is I LOVE learning about this stuff. I've been a huge fan of recipes since I was little, I started my own cookbook collection when I was 10 (stole my mom's), and can't leave a B&N without at least one cookbook in my bag. Most of the blogs I follow are recipe blogs, and most of the Pins on my Pinterest accounts have to do with food or fitness.

Maybe I can count on you to leave the very first comment on my very first blog post :)

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emoticon Great about the weight loss....

I am sorry you are going through those health scares. I will add you to my prayers for a speedy and complete resolution.

I have trouble retaining things. It seems a lot of things I read about, I have forgotten just minutes later..... for example, I am trying to find the difference between Paleo and Keto. I did find an article that explained the protocols behind each, but now I can't remember where I read it.... (sigh) I used to be able to print such articles and put in a binder for future reference, but for some reason (I think I got a computer virus or something) my computer is not talking to my printer so I can't print anything at all.....

Cookbooks are and exploding market right now. A cookbook of Keto compliant recipes would be awesome....

Have a great day....

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Day 17! Wow...it's been a long time since I can say with 100% conviction that I've stuck to a diet this long. Woke up this morning to a real treat, one I needed desperately, a 2 pound drop! So now I've lost 10 pounds in 17 days. Woot woot!

On a more frustrating note I am back to the doctors offices for more tests and blood-work. I have a history of getting weird diseases, rare cancers, and strange disorders, so when I started bleeding on Monday night (a week after the end of that TOM), I knew something was wrong. Saw my lady doctor last night and she wants me to go for thyroid tests, a pelvic ultrasound, and a uterine biopsy. Joy. Why the hell can't I just be a semi-normal human being? I now am a survivor of a rare cancer, living with a tumor on my pituitary gland that will never go away, and now this. Oh, geeze! Wouldn't it be amazing if all my attempts to live an incredibly healthy life actually helped me get rid of all this?

Okay, enough of my pity party. The great news, other than my weight loss, is that our baby is looking great! We are now 5 months pregnant (my wife is, not me), and the fetus is 13 ounces, has a great heart-rate, is moving like crazy, and we can't be happier. I now have to start all the housework that needs to be done before we can bring this little one home from the hospital. No, not baby proofing, as that's going to take a while before it's needed, but rather getting the nursery into shape.

I'm also trying to come up with what I'll do to keep myself from going crazy while we're on maternity leave. Luckily, though I don't get maternity leave from my company I will be adopting my daughter and they cover 6 weeks of adoption leave. So I'll have 6 weeks of no work and nothing but baby. I'm certain she'll keep us busy, but I know I'll need something to occupy my mind. My plan is to finally start up my blog. I've wanted to be a writer since as long as I can remember, and I was for a while. Now that I'll have some time I've decided to go for it and see what I can make of myself. Since I love all things nutritional and science-related I think I may stick to a blog about weight loss, nutrition, and being a crazy busy person (soon to be mom as well). I've put together a plan that I've been tweaking and plan to learn all I can about blogging well before the baby is born. Yes, I really am that anal retentive.

I'd love any of your ideas of things you might like to see in such a blog. I plan to talk about health news, recent nutritional and diet studies, recipes, and how to manage a keto/paleo lifestyle while super-busy and/or while being the mom of an infant. My ultimate goal would be to write a couple cookbooks, maybe have the proceeds of the blog and books pay for my further education in the subject, and then, fingers crossed and super-wishful thinking, perhaps pay for me to work from home doing it full-time and maybe helping others with their struggle. Wow...that would be the ultimate dream for me, really.

Okay, back to reality...and my 2 pound loss. WOOHOO!!!!!

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Thanks! I'm starting to do a few things differently now. Instead of cream in my 2nd cup of coffee in the morning I'm using unsweetened vanilla almond milk. I just can't get rid of my cheese, but I'm reducing the amount of it. We'll see how things go.

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This is from a Paleo site. I am still not sure what the difference is between Paleo and Keto, but this just might give you a few ideas of some diary substitutes....... Good luck.
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When your low on fat and need to boot it a bit, there are several threads here for recipes and some of them have fat bomb recipes. check them out.....
I have not made any yet because my pension "payday" is at the end of the month so have to wait until then to get some coconut oil. It is another good fat without being dairy... I don't know what I would do if I couldn't have dairy.....

Other than than, I am still trying to figure this all out myself, so don't have any pearls of wisdom for you....

Congrats on the slow pace of loosing..... When you are at a comfortable level, it makes it easy to stay on plan. Going too LC too fast is a recipe for failure in my opinion..... Too easy to get frustrated and "give up"

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Wow, 5 kinds of cheese! I only use 2. You're making my wheels turn :)

I'm now on day 14. Hard to believe that I've done this for 14 days. I would have to say that I've been 99% perfect. I say 99% because I went to lunch with friends I hadn't seen in a while and went to an Indian food buffet and I'm pretty sure they thickened their sauce with flour...but there was NOTHING else I could eat there.

This morning I'm weighing in at 255 for the second day and I'm pretty happy about it. This makes 8 pounds in 2 weeks. I've seen a lot of people say they've lost even more in that amount of time but I'll be honest, I'm just trying to keep my carbs to below 50. To be truly fat adapted you should be at 20 or below. I wanted to push myself to stay low-carb for a couple weeks, get past all the cravings, and slide into a more strict WOE down the road. This level, 50 g a day, is actually working for me well. I don't feel overly deprived, I'm not having loads of cravings, and I'm feeling really good.

I've added a few things into my life to try to encourage my gut microbiome to recalibrate. I'm now drinking about 2 TBSP of organic apple cider vinegar a day, eating .5 cup of sauerkraut daily, taking Vitamin D, Folic Acid, and Spirulina each night, and having 3 servings of kombucha per week. I also just bought some probiotics to try to help as well. From everything I've read this will help increase the bacteria in my system and feed what's there as well. I'm still having bum issues but I think it's more that I'm eating so much dairy and I'm lactose intolerant. I need to find a way to limit the dairy without making myself miserable.

So, overall I give myself a solid A. I'm seeing results at a reasonable speed, I'm feeling good, I'm staying on track, and this could be something I could certainly continue.

Next week is another week of sticking to my plan, under 50 g of carbs and keeping my fat/protein percentage highly in favor of fat. I plan to do this for 2 more weeks (so a full month) and then spend a month dialing back the carbs to about 35-40 g and limit my dairy a bit more. Need to start thinking of some ways I can get lots more fat into me without it being dairy. Any suggestions would be appreciated. As it is I'm always choosing meats that are fatty, eating chicken skins, eggs with butter, bacon, sauteeing my veggies in butter or coconut oil and boiling them in full fat beef stock. I could probably add in some avocados. My original thought of using Almond Milk in my coffee rather than regular 1/2 and 1/2 may not help me on the protein/fat percentages, but it removes some of the dairy in my day.

So many things to try...and a lifetime to figure it out. Just have to keep reminding myself of that. I don't have to, and shouldn't expect to, lose this all in a couple months as it took me 20+ years to put it on. This is all about creating a healthy, safe, and active place for my growing family, starting with myself.

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You can make noodles of any number of things. There is even a gadget that you put our zuccini in and spin and it makes strips that looks like noodles. I personally like spaghetti squash. It shreds to look exactly like sketti and put a nice tomato sauce on, and it's delish....

My lasagna recipe (that I don't make anymore) used about 5 kinds of cheese.
Cheese slices )which I am eliminating because it is processed)
Cottage Cheese
Romano
Cheddar
Mozza.

It is so sinful and decadent, but it sure has the fat..... So you could try adding more high fat cheeses to your lasagna.... Good idea to add some pork or sausage meat to the mix. Veal is usually quite lean so I would not use that unless you know the fat content. The other option would be to buy fattier cuts of meat and grind your own. Then you know the meat is fresh AND fat....

Good luck....


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Day 12 and I'm up a pound. I was waiting for this, knew it was coming, and prepped myself. I had eaten a LOT of salty foods over a two day period, had drank way too much coffee, and I knew the water weight was coming. Thankfully I was prepared. Yesterday I was up 2 pounds, today back down to only 1 pound, and today I'm drinking loads of water, keeping my coffee intake to normal, and not eating much salty foods....spicy, yes, salty, no.

I've noticed a huge difference in the way I'm thinking about this as well. I'm not wanting to cheat nearly as much anymore, and it's like my brain and body are finally in sync. I lay in bed at night and go over things: what I ate, what percentages I've been having, what that may look like on the scale or on the keto-stix, how I plan to handle that, reminding myself of how great I'm doing, giving myself a pep talk, and figuring out how I'd like tomorrow to go. It's helping a lot. I'm also doing it on the infuriating car ride home (my 45 minute commute is up to about 1.5-2 hours now thanks to heavy traffic and construction).

Tonight we hit Whole Foods for some Maine Root soda for my wife. She's been craving Coke for a very long time and I won't let her have it due to the HFCS. She's agreed to eliminate it from her diet as well as artificial sweeteners, as long as she's pregnant and breastfeeding. Maine Root only uses sugar. It's not optimal, but I'd rather her have natural sugar than who knows what raging through her body. I won't be drinking any, regardless of what's in it. The only fizzy drinks I'm allowing myself are flavored seltzer and my Kombucha, twice a week. The rest of the time it's water, water, water.

Have to spend some time thinking about my food for next week. I've been eating the same thing every day for lunch now for the past two weeks and the thought of eating it one more time makes me sick. I need to change it up. We made this delicious eggplant and beef lasagna the other night (eggplant being the noodle), and it is delicious....though not as fatty as I'd like it to be. There are two different types of cheeses in there, whole milk ricotta and whole milk mozzerella. It's got 85% lean beef (because that's the fattiest I seem to be able to find locally). I wonder if adding in some ground pork or veal would boost the fat levels a bit more and make it even tastier. I could eat that for a week. MMMmmmmmm. I also want to remake my chicken caccitorre (sp?) sauce to put over zucchini noodles or Spag. Squash. It's so delish but I had stopped making it because we were eliminating pasta. Makes a big batch, too. Maybe I can freeze some. Mmmmm, another good recipe (thank you Jaime Oliver). Too much to cook and not enough time or money. Damn!
Well, I hope you all have wonderful days! I get to see some old coworkers for coffee and then another group of old coworkers for lunch...it's a trip down memory lane for me today!

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Thanks for the directions for the Lemon Fat Bombs..... I love lemon, butter and cream cheese, just never tried them all together before. Not sure what that sweetener is though. I am trying to limit artificial sweeteners so will have to research that.... Is it too sour without a sweetener?

Coconut oil is so expensive here and I am on a very limited disability pension, so I have to buy where I can get the cheapest price.

emoticon Congrats on your weight loss. I can't seem to even get into ketosis (and I am thinking it is because of the insulin I am on) and I haven't lost any at all..... Hearing other people's success stories gives me hope....

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Thanks all! I'm so happy to have found this group! My wife is now 4 months along and doing rather well. She hasn't gained too much weight but is struggling with other health issues. I'm hopeful that if I can get real healthy by the time I get pregnant (a couple years away) that it may go a little easier for me...fingers crossed.

Lemon Fat Bombs...super easy to make...a little tough to get out of the muffin tins I put them in. I should have known they'd stick in there and not want to come out. Now I'll try them in a silicone tray mold so I can bend them right out. I doubled a recipe I found online and added some lemon zest as I LOVE lemon. It's just softened butter (1 stick), softened cream cheese (4 oz), 8 TBSP Coconut Oil, 8 TBSP Heavy Cream, 2 lemons' juice, 1 lemon's zest, and cream it all together. Add your favorite sweetener (I used 7 tbsp of Swerve). I find my Coconut Oil at my regular grocery store. They are starting to carry it in the strangest places now. Even Market Basket!

Today is Day 9 and I've done some experimenting on myself. I know that my Kombucha habit was kicking me out of ketosis, so I now limit myself to once during the week and once on the weekends. I still want the benefits it gives my gut bacteria/flora, but would rather not throw my ketosis off every night. I'm also going to start adding a little Apple Cider Vinegar to my nightly glass of water. I've heard wonderful things about it and have read that it does not kick you out of ketosis. Since my goal is the best health possible AND weight loss, I think it's worth a try.

As for weight, I'm now down a full 6 pounds, Not bad for 9 days. I'm sure it won't keep up, but I'm ready for the plateaus. If I can lose 30 more pounds in the next 3 months I'll be super-happy. That's just 2.5 pounds a week, so definitely manageable, especially once I add a little exercise into the mix. I'd love to be in the 210s by the time our baby is born. I haven't been that size since I met my wife over 8 years ago. What a thought!

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Hi Jacqui. Nice to meet you. Best wishes to you that this is the one that sticks.

Where did you find your recipe for the Lemon Fat Bombs? I love lemon. When I can get to the Health Food Store to get some more Coconut Oil.... I should be set to make some Fab Bombs myself.....

Congrats to you and your wife on your impending arrival.....

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Hi Jacqui!!! I'm so excited to see your journal here! So sorry that I haven't been by sooner to say hello....just a crazy week....well, I guess it's just a crazy year, really. ha And now I'm going on vacation tomorrow and won't get back on here until probably next Monday. I would love to hear how Days 7 & 8 have been for you!!

Way to go on getting yourself healthy for your new baby. That's awesome. Congratulations! When is the baby due? Is your wife supportive of your choice to follow keto?

I am very curious to hear about your findings about the Kombucha! Definitely come back and post about it!

I hope you are doing great! YAY, Jacqui! You can do this!!

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Day 6 - Woohoo, still kicking it! You may not think 6 days is good, but I've had 6 perfect days, days where I stayed within my goals and had NO oops moments. I am so excited. Its great not really being that hungry all the time, training my body to eat two meals and one snack a day rather than eating ALL day. Now that I have all that pressure to cook, buy, prepare, relaxed I'm beginning to explore new options for me. Like FAT BOMBS. Tomorrow I attempt lemon fat bombs. I do find that occasionally I'm not quite where I'd like to be on my fat intake so I'm hoping this will give me that opportunity and be a nice occasional treat.

I'm still really enjoying my Kombucha teas each day. I got some Keto-stix to see what it does to me in terms of keto. I know there is natural sugar in there, not much, and I'd like to have a better understanding as to what exactly it is doing to my body, besides being awesome for my gut and immune system. The ingredients are 100% natural and whole food, so I know it isn't "bad" for me, but I'm curious if it's kicking me out of ketosis or not as I'm not losing much weight at all, or at least not as much as I usually do.

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Day 4 for me....not doing too bad and really proud that I've avoided some major temptations. This isn't my first attempt at weight loss, god knows, but probably number 112th. First time with Keto, though. I've done well with Paleo diets in the past, low carb and Atkins, but none really stuck for me. I really have had to think about things differently this time. I have a baby on the way (my wife is pregnant) and I have to think about what kind of life this poor kid is going to have with two sedentary and morbidly obese moms for role models. I was raised by an obese mom who didn't encourage much activity, I will not do the same for my child.

Today I stand at 5'6" and 261 pounds. Not my heaviest, this time last year I topped out at 275. There is an amazing shift in personality when you are morbidly obese...the resentment towards yourself, the anger and disappointment, the feeling of failure and disgust that you've let yourself get to this point. I've been living with this for so many years I can't even count. 36 years old and I've lost some of my most active years to ice cream, cakes, candy, and carbs. I've damaged my body to the point of broken bones and food sensitivities. So much processed junk has passed these lips that I just don't know how I've escaped a horrible case of some auto-immune disease or another.

I'm a firm believer in food being a healing thing and that you can heal yourself if you get your body back into equilibrium. I've seen it happen. I've studied exercise and nutrition so much that, at a recent nutritionist appointment, I've shocked specialists at how much I know. You can see in their faces "how does this fat chick know so much about nutrition and yet is still so huge?" A look I'm used to. I used to give advice to a Cross-Fitting-Paleo-diet-following guy in my last job and he ate it up. At first he was shocked, but soon realized that I knew my stuff. People laughed, I saw it and heard it, but I was so thrilled to have someone coming to me for advice that I didn't care.

It's time to stop talking the talk and start walking the walk. I've decided that before I put anything into my mouth I'm going to take a moment and ask myself if this helps my body or hurts it. Will this food help me create the lifestyle I want for my children or not? Is it more important for me to eat this thing or take another step towards finally living the life I really deserve? So far that thinking has gotten me through 4 days.

As for food, it's hard. I work a long day thanks to a long commute, and I have a pregnant wife who is much pickier with food than I am. Most days I seem to stick with a 65% fat, 25% protein, and 10% carb food plan. I drink loads of water and am taking a Folic Acid and Vitamin D supplement, soon to be followed with a fish oil supplement until I can convince my wife to let me cook more fish. I indulge once a day with an organic Kombucha tea drink I discovered at Whole Foods (Whole Paycheck). It has no added sugar in it and contains the only carbs I eat outside of veggie carbs, but I'm sure my body benefits more from the amazing bacteria it adds back into my gut than it would without it. I have yet to purchase Keto-sticks so I don't know if it's derailing my fat burning or not. At this early point in the game I am willing to take that chance. The first couple weeks, as far as I'm concerned, are about getting used to the food and the mindset. It takes several weeks to make something a habit and I'm only 4 days in.

So here I go, 4 days in....here's to another 40. Here's to be being healthy and active by age 40!

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