Anyone else have a binging problem? I do - and it's bad. Seasons like the one we've just come through don't help either because my stomach is all stretched out, and so I'm hungry more often. And I HATE being hungry. I'm actually scared of it. Plus with the stress I'm under, binging just makes me feel good...in the moment. And then I feel bad. It's so terrible.
Anyway - thought maybe confessing to some of these issues and talking through them might help.
Last night I came home from my second 14 hour day at work. I was well within my calorie range, had done really well for the day and had room enough for one 250 calorie snack. But instead of measuring out a small portion of leftover mixed nuts (my nemesis) and sticking to my day, I went to the couch with the Costco sized pail of nuts and ate most of what was left, washed it down with full calorie left-over Italian sodas from my NYE party and then ate a whole sleeve of crackers - also from Costco, also left over from the party.
Those are the facts, no emotion in there at all (I'm trying to not hate myself for this).
So I have 3 issues - the first is stress eating. When I get a moment to myself, I am more likely to binge eat than do anything else. Cause it's what feels best. It feels like I'm taking care of myself and soothing the stress I'm feeling in the process.
The second is problem foods in my house - nuts and crackers are issues for me because I adore them and can eat large quantities of them without feeling it. I have tried ridding everything bad from my house, but you'd be surprised with how little that then leaves me with.
The third issue is that I can't throw anything out. I hate wasting food. I try to give what I can away or not buy it in the first place. I could easily have gotten rid of the nuts or crackers and given them to someone else, but I specifically held on to those. Why? Cause they were marked for a binge WAY ahead of time. And now that they're in my house, I WILL binge on them until they're gone. I don't have the power to throw them out. I don't lie when I say I'm a little bit like Gollum. And "My Precious" is my food.
So the challenge this month is to deal with the stress without binging. I don't have time for much exercise. 14 hour days are likely to me my norm for a couple of months now. And I derive ALL of my stress reduction and relaxing from boob tube and food right now. Nothing else feels as good.
Any ideas? Anyone interested in trying this challenge with me?
"It's not who you are that holds you back, it's who you think you're not" ~Anonymous
"It is never too late to be what you might have been." ~George Elliot
| Pounds lost: 106.4