I have a friend on Spark who is a mutual friend of the person it would be directed at. I don't want my private thoughts to have a game of "telephone" played with them. So, my would be blog goes something like this
My Theme Song!
I love Sparkpeople. I truly do. I have suggested and highly recommended it to anyone who was willing to listen. Some checked it out, others didn't. We are all different. What works for me may not work for you. I just believe that it has a tremendous amount to offer.
I have been a member for a LONNNNG time. lol I have lost weight while using the site before. I am not sure what is different this time, but something inside me just is. I honestly want to be healthy. I long to be fit. I am getting there. All of the tools here are wonderful. They make this journey that much easier. The awards, articles, trackers, and recipes are great. But what makes this site so wonderful for me is the people. That's right readers. It's You and You and You! :)
I am feeling great. I have more energy. I am happy. I expected all of that. What I did not expect is for my journey into health to ruin a very good, solid, long lasting friendship. After all how can your best friend not be happy for you that you are turning your life in such a positive direction? How can they treat you with disdain when you speak of your accomplishments or your goals? I am dumbfounded that this has happened.
She has been an AWESOME friend the last 7 years. In fac,t she has been the best friend I have ever had. She has been a monumental help to me more times than I can count. I have also been there for her. We have seen each other through so much. We have had so many laughs. I do not believe it is only my healthy lifestyle that has gotten in the way. First there was my boyfriend. No I didn't stop calling her because I had one. Then her husband who used to fix my car did something shady. Then she was struck with Cancer-AGAIN for the second time. She has been pissed off ever since. She has been selfish ever since. She has been resentful of anyone's happiness ever since.
Please do not misunderstand, I am not faulting her for being angry. I don't know who wouldn't be? The whole story is too long but the jist of it is she has shut me out.
She claims she wants to lose weight and to be healthy but she eats like crap and barely exercises. I have asked her to walk with me repeatedly, or to come to the gym with me and she won't. When we talk she is fine as long as she is talking. I believe my success is a reminder of her failure and that is a terrible way for her to see it. She can do it. She is one of the toughest people I know. She just has to work. She is seemingly unwilling to put in the effort. As Ashley said in one of her blogs, it takes "heart." She clearly is ignoring hers.
With every achievement I make, she only gets more hateful. Your best friend, any friend, hell- any stranger should be happy for your successes. It should lift you up to see people, especially loved ones succeed. It should increase your confidence that you can achieve great things too. It should make you feel proud not angry. It makes me sad for her. She is breeding and feeding new illness. Not to mention she is pushing a very good friend away.
I guess in life some things just come to an end. I will love her to pieces till the end of time and always celebrate her happiness.
No matter where this path of healthiness takes me-I've gotta do me.
Nothing is gonna break my stride
So sing the chorus of my theme song with me
Ain't nothin' gonna to break my stride
Nobody's gonna slow me down, oh-no
I got to keep on movin'
Ain't nothin' gonna break my stride
I'm running and I won't touch ground
Oh-no, I got to keep on movin'
Real glory springs from the silent conquest of ourselves.
-- Joseph P. Thompson
"People often say that motivation doesn't last. Well, neither does bathing- That's why we recommend it daily"
| Pounds lost: 7.2