Hello my dear Sisters,
I have come to you again seeking Godly council. I am doing a Beth Moore study on David: A Man After God's Own Heart. If you know of Beth's studies, you know they can be VERY CONVICTING.
I feel the Lord tugging (hard) on my heart to give up a dark secret from my past (college years). When I have said it out loud to a few friends, no one blinks an eye. BUT TO ME, it is festering and creating "sin sickness" as Beth calls it. She encourages us to confess it before God, repent, accept forgiveness and the cleansing of the blood of Jesus and bask in His love and compassion and restoration. Oh, how I crave this.
She also tells us to be cautious about how we go about it. Not to shout it in front of the congregation, to bear our souls and basically "throw up" on our church family. Earlier this year the Lord convicted me to share a secret I had been keeping for 20 years about depression with my bible study group. I did in obedience,but it wasn't easy and I cried through the whole time. My ladies (as I affectionately call them) were wonderful!!! I could never have imagined the love, support and matter-of-fact manner that they took my confession in. Then we had snack.....they still loved me. I was afraid they would never look at me the same and kick me out of the group. The unburdening sensation was AMAZING!!!! And to this day I can be very matter-of-fact about it too. THAT IS A MIRACLE. 20 years of wasted energy.
But now I do not think the Lord is calling me to "do it same way". I am soooo wanting to be obedient, but paralyzed as to how to do this. I plan to spend the day in confession to the Lord and repentance for passed sin ( I don't need to turn from the original sin, but I do need to stop lying about it!).
Any advice you may offer would be so appreciated. THe Lord has work for me to do and I want to crush Satan's hold on me with this and move on the work the Lord has me to do to HIS GLORY. Praise Be to God. Thank you Jesus. And thank you dear friends at a distance. This means so much to me that you would consider helping a sister in Christ you have never met.
My HE bless you adundantly.
Blessings to You, Real2Me
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