All of your posts sound familiar. More than 10 years ago I googled "Sugar Addiction" and came up with a site - radiantrecovery.com - I spent the next few years there getting involved with their program and learning all about sugar addiction.
I'm not involved with them any longer, but I learned a lot while I was there. And after battling this for all those years, this is what I've learned about myself:
1. I can't eat sweet. Period. If I go off of it even for years, which I've done before, and then try to have a little, within weeks I'm back to binging. Back to needing my fix. Back to my life being a mess. I can't even do artificial sweetners. I can however eat most fruits in abundance.
The good news is that the longer I'm off of it, the easier it is to pass up. I can even serve cake and ice cream at parties, getting it all over my fingers and not be tempted to lick them. When I've been off of it for a while and am good and strong.
2. To get to that strong place when I'm off sugar I have to - get enough sleep; eat lots of protein; eat often. If I'm tired, have low blood sugar or am protein deprived, I'm setting myself up for failure.
3. The four day thing someone mentioned, makes total sense. I learned through radiant recovery that when we are sugar sensitive (sugar addicts lol) our bodies/brains react to sugar much like we do heroine. They both mess with beta endorphins and serotonin. When we eat sugar (or carbs that turn into sugar), our beta endorphins (BEs) spike and then they fall. If we keep eating sugar, they spike and fall every day, sometimes several times a day. When we go off sugar, days 3-5 are the hardest because our BEs have tanked and we want our fix. If you get past those days, you will get stronger and stronger.
4. When I'm off sugar, life just works better. I'm less moody, which means my relationships work better. I'm more organized, which means I'm better at my job and my house, purse and car are all cleaner. I'm less needy and less like an addict, so my addiction to spending money, shopping, eating too much in general, etc. All that goes away.
Really, for me. It is simply amazing.
So why can't I stay off sugar? Because I truly am an addict. LOLOL. It is a sad fact but after years of battling, experimenting with "I'll just have a little now and then" and true abstinence, I can't fool myself any longer. Dang it. There are times that fact really p*&&es me off.
I'm on day 28 without sugar. I'm willing to do it with you guys.
| Pounds lost: 18.5