Ah to disclose or not to disclose and how not to scare the crap out of people when you tell them you aren't doing well..... These are really difficult I think for anyone to figure out.
Basically, my acquaintances and my volunteer work I don't disclose to. I don't talk about it or mental health issues on my Facebook page. I do here but on those other sites (not set up like this one) for health and fitness that have a community, I don't disclose to that community either.
I have a bible study and basically I'm disclosed half and half right now. Two ladies don't know my diagnosis, and the leader warned me ahead of time that it might not be the best idea to disclose to them my issues, and three do (including the leader) and are as accepting as anyone could wish. (But I spent over six months before I disclosed to them)
Some people go through life trying to think "What Would Jesus Do?" In the same sort of way (not meaning to knock it, because I am of the faith as well) I have the slogan going through my mind "What would a rational person/mind think of this?" And I try to go with that over my paranoid and anxious thoughts, the ones that manage to break through the medication anyway.
I try not to shock people, so sometimes, even with my SO I gloss over or just generally tell them what is going on without details, because the more detail I put into it the more freaked out they tend to get. "I'm hearing voices again" rather than "The voices are telling me I am a shoplifter and a thief again even though I've never stolen anything and its upsetting to me" or "I can't concentrate right now, I'm not feeling well.." if they look blank or ask for more questions at that point I just say "mentally"
The one person that I really talk to is I make sure I can see a therapist at least once a month. Right now I'm seeing one each week. They are the only people I seem to be able to tell everything to without shocking them and I know they are paid to seem unflappable, but sometimes I surprise even them, because they see all types of people, but even they are usually expecting something different in a SZ patient.
I don't know if this helps any. It would be nice if I could be totally open with my SO like Oona, but even though my SO has the same diagnosis, it really upsets him for me to exhibit mannerisms related to my diagnosis or express my symptoms verbally
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