Some of the best selling books, at least in my guesstimation, would have to be self help books and the leading ones in that area most likely 'How to lose weight and keep it off'.
I would like to see one written on 'How to overcome temptation when it is staring you right in the face with all the negative emotionally charged feelings right along side. Is it the sight of food that tempts me or is it something else? I am increasingly becoming aware of how my negative emotions trigger my cravings. Satan sure knows when to turn up the heat and just how to do it.
I got up this morning determined not to allow sweets to tempt me. I was making pancakes of course with syrup. I love pancakes and syrup but I knew I could pass up the delicacy even as began the process. I see clearly now, it is not the sight of sweets and junk food itself that triggers my cravings so much any more, but the negative reactions I have to negativity around me and more especially directed toward me for no good reason that I am aware of.
Irritated, cross and angry words feel like a slap in the face and most definitely does not feel like love and the way I would like and feel I deserve to be treated. I have in the past, depending upon the severity of my wounded pride (thinking I shouldn't have to endure disrespect from my own family members) hidden in sweets. Junk food and sweets somehow soothed the pain.
Oh, they know what they have done and do apologize. But by then the damage has been done. Satan's goal has been accomplished and I have gone on a binger.
I am aware that for no good reason, any of us can become negative at any given moment and it has nothing to do with anyone else. It all has to do with us as individuals. I need to remember not only are others human but I am also and when I appear to be cross and irritable I would like to be given the benefit of the doubt and forgiven as much as others would like that courtesy.
When I was a young girl, my elder brother would delight in walking by me on occasion and punching me in the arm. Of course I would cry and Mother finally got tired of it and told me if I wouldn't cry every time he did that, he probably would stop doing that. Most likely he enjoyed seeing my reaction when he popped me. Well I don't know if I stopped reacting, or mother talked to him or what happened but he didn't punch me any more that I remember.
Is it possible that since Satan enjoys making us miserable that if I just stopped reacting to others and just chalked up their negative behavior as something designed to get me to react a certain way, so I will be miserable, that the poor behavior of others would just go away? Gee, I would like to think so. Could I just immediately forgive and make peace with the fact that others have their own agenda, even as I, and stop taking responsibility for other's actions by reacting? At least I would have peace within myself believing I had done the right thing in face of opposition.
Jesus said in Matt 10:34-36 " Think not that I am come to send peace on earth: I came not to send peace, but a sword. For I am come to set a man at variance against his father, and the daughter against her mother, and the daughter in law against her mother in law. And a manís foes shall be they of his own household."
Why, oh why, would Jesus do that. There seems 'no rhyme nor reason'......except as I turn to other scriptures. Luke 6:32 reads, "For if ye love them which love you, what thank have ye? for sinners also love those that love them." Also 2 Nephi 2:11 reads "For it must needs be, that there is an opposition in all things. If not so, my first-born in the wilderness, righteousness could not be brought to pass, neither wickedness, neither holiness nor misery, neither good nor bad..."
Jesus came to bring the opposition of good, His good, against evil and of necessity it would not be a peaceful situation. There is a war going on if we haven't noticed between good and evil. But god always uses the bad for His purposes and His purpose in allowing opposition to good is to get us to turn to Him and be strengthened in our weakness. It is only in and through Jesus Christ that we are guaranteed victory over the flesh.
Eating wrong and too much, for me, is only a symptom of a deeper need and that is to give and receive love. Charity, the pure love of Christ, is a gift to be given not to be taken at will or something we just decide we are going to have and do. We can not love perfectly without the Lord's saving grace and mercy, quite simply because of the fact that we are human and need Him.
I finally understand why Paul said, When I am weak, then I am strong". That is because he knew that alone he could do nothing and when he humbly accepted that he was weak and relied wholly upon the merits of Jesus Christ to save him, he was then in a position to receive the strength he needed to overcome the natural tendencies of man. It is because Christ paid the price for our sins that we can come to the throne of grace boldly and receive help in time of need. Praise God.
By the way, with a Jesus mindset, I did not succumb to temptation to scarf down about four pancakes drenched in Syrup this morning.
"Now, faith is the substance of things hoped for and the evidence of things not seen." Heb. 11:1
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