I proposed meself be the person i wanted to be. i visualize meself that way 6 monthsa ago.
i knew i could lost weight, because i did it on the past. ocasionally i exercised, i was happy like that.
last year like in september, i realized being the person i wanted to be means change, inside and outside, and i needed to commit and work harder, after all if i destroy my body in the past, for sure it won't be easy reconstruct it in a short time.
for you to understand my history i have to go a lil bit further in the past...i never was overweight until i came to usa, i am not originally from here, i am from nicaragua, and over there everything is so diferent. my life was much active over there, i used to walk a lot, and NO MATTER WHAT I EAT, my weight almost never fluctuated. that changed in USA. the same food consummed in Nicaragua over here made me gain weight (too much filler?) i got depressed missing my family, and yes i was conform...
at that time i was 130 pounds, i gained 50 pounds in 6 months..i was 180 in 2000..like never in my life, My body couldn't handle it, my skin was ripped, and as a result my arms, behind my knees, belly, got covered of strech marks...i was 20.
i got pregnant of my DD with 183, i ate very healthy on my pregnancy and i managed to gain 25 pounds. 2 weeks after my baby born i was 200 pounds.
ok, i manage to lost and get back on track @ that time, i was eating better, dieting, walking, drinking water etc. and i recuperate meself, i was 135 again.
fast forward 2008: since i lost my weight in the past, with diets, and a lil bit of walking, here i am again, now i have 2 kids, my son born in 2006, and with 157 pounds. i managed to keep my weight from 140-150 but i HATED IT...it was a battle. in sep i hit the 155 and i was shocked! it took me sooo much effort lost all that weight before, i could not let that happen, it was hard, and i got tired of living like that. i neeeded to do something diferent. so i told meself, "I AM GOING TO CHANGE FOREVER..." BUT how? what diferent i have to do?
i got my turbo jam videos, (they were with dust) i love turbo jam, i always do, but i never, really....never commit with my mind and heart TO BELIEVE i can go and do anything i want. i keep meself quiet, i did not want people to ask me, or feel bad if i failed. i was not sure of the results...i was 155-157 and i was not considerate "fat" maybe a lil bit overweight...but people used to tell me ......YOU ARE A MOM NOW! i guess, they try to say, it's ok to be chubby..now everything is diferent.
IF YOU ARE HAPPY BEEN OVERWEIGHT, i don't have any problem with that! but i wasn't! i was sad, i wish SECRETELY feel cute again, i am 28!!!!!!!!!!! my life is entire ahead of me, and even if i were 45, age is more in the mind than body. i wanted to wear cute clothes, to feel like the old me. yes i might look ok with clothes ladies, but the mirror doesn't lie. in my privacy i used to see all those tires of fat around my belly, that i used to cover with loose t-shirts, or bigger pants. and see things of meself i wish to change but i was thinking i was dreaming too high...................
i started again in october, my plan this time was besides of eating healthier, exercise more, that will be the diference this time...remember before i used to walk and exercise but not seriously....i was still unaware of the future, and i have the goal of weight like 125? (i was afraid to think it, and fail) and hope to fix my body @ least 10 percent.
sooo here we gooo turbo jam again, i had @ that time all the videos but not the balls ones, so i ordered them...i started coming back to this forum and love all the advices, i love this place! but i am not much or a writer...i read about chalean extreme...BUT I CLOSE THE POST...i close it because i felt that was too much for me, too tough...but some day i wish i can do it.. it was in my mind, but i did not want to spend money in something i did not knew if i will be able to acomplish....so i decided to see if i can handle my new exercise routine, and i set my goal if i still ws on track after 3-5 months exercising i was going to order chalean...
i started with my turbo jam, day one...i was close to death! lol, a few jumps and my heart hit 181..i was so out shape...i was afraid of fail, and my body was in pain too....but i keep doing it. i got better with the weeks, but the 1st month if i have to be completely sincere....exercise for me WAS A DUTY...a punishment, i remember meself, counting the time for the workout to be over....but i was very discipline too.
month 2....I DID NOT DID ANY DIET....i started to lean, and love nutrition, learn how important vitamins, nutrient and fiver was, learn about clean eating, and reading labels...i got hooked! i love nutrition! it's not a 6 month time trial, is a life changing style, and that love for nutrition, made me realize exercise doesn't have to be a punishment, is a lifestyle!!!!!!
in month #2 i felt so diferent! it was like my brain got changed and my goals diferent, yes..i want to lost weight, but i want to be healthy, really healthy, and forever, and keep exercising even if i lost those pounds. and i started to LOVE exercise! weird uh? i started to wish for the time of the day that i have to do my turbo jam videos, or jillian michaels, or running on the treadmill...
in march, i reached my 1st HUGE GOAL.....i lost 20 pounds! i was i can't remember for sure but 133 or 135...i was sooo happy, and i was not suffering, and i love to run and jump with chalean!
also i started in oct with the treadmill, with .25 miles and almost dying, in march i was already running 3 -5 miles.
so it was time to my second step...CHALEAN EXTREME, i did not had big exeptations to tell the truth...because my body was very loose, loose from the past when i gain 50 pounds on 6 months, but i told meself " at least tone 30 percent" and i will be happy!
NOW HERE I AM....GOING TO WEEK NUMBER 10 OF CHALEAN EXTREME TODAY, in the lean phase, almost in tears writing this....
my body changed 100%.....I AM BEYOND MY DREAMS! i am stronger, i feel stronger, healthier, happy, secure....and I DISCOVER I AM A STRONG PERSON, MENTALLY I AM.....i set my goals, i reach my goals!
and i love my new life! I NEVER, EVER....going to stop exercising, i feel so full of energy and happier, WHY I DID NOT DID THIS BEFORE? i guess maybe it was not the time, it wasn't my time, or i was not mentally ready, to reach the sky!
CHALEAN is amazing!!!!!!!!!! so far in 10 weeks i lost 10 pounds, just in my waist i lost 13 inches! i started with 39 inches, today i am 25.75, NONE of my clothes fit, i have ALL SIZES of pants, from 13, up to 3....so the 3 that longggggggggg time ago was tight with 110 pounds now it's FALLING with 121 pounds! CAN U BELIEVE THAT?
ok, some bad thigs, that bugged me a lil bit is, people comments...
OHHH MARIA, YOU ARE SICK, u look sick and not healthy!!!! ohh, why you just drink water and no sodas? OHHH THAT BODY IT'S NOT FOR YOU! you look weird and BONY!
yes.....people see me now, ok, i was 133-135 in march 1st, i lost 20 pounds since oct, BUT ONCE i started chalean the fat started melting! maybe my metabolism was ultra fast? i am now @ 121 and people really annoy me saying that i am lying, that i look 100 not 121...
HELLO BEFORE I WAS COVER ON FAT, fat that acummulate for years, and now it's muscle, muscle is heavier than fat.....i guess it's hard to understand if the people around you are not in the same page, and not share the lifestyle that u do.
ANYWAY, I AM SO HAPPY!!!!
nothing is impossible, but for reach any goaL really you have to COMMIT...........u have also to imagine yourself as u want to be, and just think, all this work is hard, yes...but it our own fault, i used to say that to meself, when for example i was running on the treadmill i used to do it in underwear, and when i feel it like quiting, i used to grab my TIRES and think, " this doesn't came for free" and it is not going away "overnite" ....
i post a gallery with my so far 8 week transformation, since i started chalean, i post some embarrasing pics of me..of my belly, or my saggy and flacid skin, but i am not shy anymore, that is part of what i am, and because of that i am this new person.....by the way, FOR 9 YRS, i used to cover my arms, with chals, sweeters, long shirts etc, my arms were saggy, and full of strech marks, and people starred @ me and that made me feel bad, so i just covered it....NOW IT'S GONE...the strech marks on my knees are invisible, on my belly since i started chalean they are almost invisible, they are they, but u can bearly see them...and on the arms, they are almost invisible too...actually since my arms reshape, the skin got tight!! AND the marks got like pushed inside of my arms, not outside like before, and they are almost fade, people can really see them!
HERE WE GO!
ps... since i started chalean 10 weeks ago, i also keep doing my cardio...running, doing turbo jam, jillian michaels, and the last 2 weeks, i substitute one of the cardios from chalean for p90x cardios! those are super hard too, and i guess they help too...i am eating 2000+ calories per day, drinking lots of water, and this is because i don't want to lose more than 5 pounds in the next month 1/2 that i have left with the extreme program, i want to keep this weight and if i lost, lost maybe 3-5 pounds, that is why i am eating soo much, and i love it!!!
| current weight: 121.0