Hi everyone... Been struggling lately...
These past few weeks, I made a huge change in my attitude toward food. It's not meant to be a permanent way of life, but I needed a mental "reboot." I was focusing TOO much on what I was eating. Balancing daily nutrients and percentages is certainly a goal to work toward, but doing that became a negative process for me.
I start agonizing over cravings later in the day/evening, entering and reentering and finagling different food options to accommodate both what I wanted and my needs. Of course, the two were never the same! I was spending way too much time and mental energy manipulating amounts, without actually NOT including what I did eat.
I was feeling more and more out-of-control. Then I vowed to simply eat what I wanted - whatever and whenever I wanted - and enter it all AS EATEN on my tracker; no more trying to manipulate the amounts to make my totals balance and to be in range (which was mostly carrying-over calories to the next day, and the next day, and the next day...).
The basics I'd learned to stick to because of Spark - fruits & veggies, fiber & calcium - stayed intact and kept me basically on balance. I didn't want to BINGE, per se; I just didn't want to have the pressure and struggle of figuring it all out beforehand, feeling forced to eat what I didn't want, and deprived "all" the time.
Amazingly, my totals the 1st week were close to my "usual," but without the angst! The 2nd week, the totals were higher, but only slightly over my calorie needs, with proportionate ratios. The 3rd week, about the same calories; with less fat, and more protein, fiber and calcium. (I haven't weighed in, and I'm not going to for awhile.)
Now it's the beginning of the 4th week, and my cravings and anxiety have substantially subsided - that's why I think I can write about it now. I find myself easily looking ahead on the tracker, and planning what to eat. Overall, the out-of-control feelings are no longer present, even late at night when they're usually the worst.
I'll see where this all leads...!
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