I have been lacking motivation since i started this endeavor, but I realize today that this is a life style change, and I'm the one who has chosen to change my life. I have watched my mother battle with her weight all her life, (for as long as I can remember) and it seems that at 73 years of age she has given up.
After numerous angioplasties, insertion of a recent pace maker, and COPD, she appears to have given up. We went on a cruise and she was in a wheel chair with an oxygen tank. She was not feeling well, and was lethargic and tired. With the abundance of good food, she ate very little. Afterward we found out that she needed a blood transfusion. Something which she had declined when she had the pace maker inserted six weeks prior. The pace maker was inserted as a precautionary measure in case her heart were to go into defib, as her heart is only working at 30%. I'm no doctor, but I think that if she were more active, her heart would be stronger. She is 4'11, and weights probably 200lbs plus at the age of 73. Yesterday her hemoglobin was 6.2 where it should be at 11+, her blood sugar very low, because she has no appetite. She was hospitalized last night for a blood transfusion. I speak with my father in regards to mother and her health, about getting more active. My father tells me that Mother tells him to go to hell, when he tries to talk to her about her activity level which is non-existant, and her eating habits. She just doesn't want to listen. She sits in her chair and has chosen to give up. Perhaps there is something undiagnosed, that causes her to not want to try, but it has instilled in me motivation.
I want to have a wonderful life and retirement. One not restricted because I chose to make bad choices as far as my fitness and eating choices. I want to be able to rock climb as 73, or at least be able to go on a cruise and enjoy my family. I'm very sad right now, I love my mother and have not given up on her.
I only hope and pray that I can help her to help herself. But I can learn from this. Life is all about choices, and today I chose to eat properly, and to fit some exercise in my schedule, no matter how tired or busy I am, because I want to enjoy my life and family to the fullest for a very long time.
To Thine Own Self Be True
| current weight: 155.8