It can be so intimidating going to the gym. I've been working out with a trainer for about 1.5 years because my doctors wanted me to build up muscle before starting any cardio. I just last week got the ok to start cardio -- slowly. Frustrating. And I'm there doing weights beside people who are doing inverse sit ups (you know, they're nearly hanging upside down and "sitting" up!), and a 10-year-old who's training to summit Mount Kilimanjaro (she did). And me, who is nowhere near their looks or ability. But I keep going as I see a clear difference in my overall energy and stamina (even if I haven't lost weight). You will too! It's like driving - you have to look further ahead, not right in front of you.
By the way, reading your post and the responses has also been motivating and inspiring for me, so thanks for initiating this discussion!
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Pounds lost: 2.4
Fitness Minutes: (806) Posts: 15 2/6/13 12:30 A
You're sure right Debb! I've had more motivation from support in this post than I had most of my life.
Today was good! Despite the minor injury I managed to do some serious Tennis and boxing matches on my Wii! It's incredible how it can bring the sweat out in you if you really put your body into it. My arm feels like it does after class whilst I only did about 45 minutes of Wii time (which flew right by!).
I was reading a blog post about a similar feelings of being the bigger, unfit, or newbie in a fitness class and how after a while, they were commended for their hard work and told they were a motivator for this individual who had been in classes much longer. I've been in situations like that before, where I felt uncomfortable or anxious about myself, and was praised by another individual who told me how much I inspired her.
It makes me think how much we keep to ourselves on a daily basis. Hidden thoughts, you know? Some good... mind you some bad too I'm sure. But wouldn't it be nice if we could just... break away from the awkwardness of telling good things to people, and not being so worried or caught up about how *we* appear? Maybe that'll be an exercise I'll toss in along with my 10 minutes tomorrow :)
I know it takes a lot of guts to try a new class and stick with it. I always try to remember how good it feels to follow through on things and stick with it till say the session is over or whatever other goal you set for yourself.
You are making positive changes and that's more than can be said for many. Be proud of yourself! You can do it!! Come here for extra motivation and support. It's a great place.
Debb from Ontario, Canada (EST)
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Pounds lost: 7.6
Fitness Minutes: (152,231) Posts: 26,631 2/5/13 5:34 P
You can do it! It is always hard being the Newbie, no matter how much you weigh. And you will be the least fit person there, initially, BUT It WILL get better. After awhile, you will be the one rocking the class, and there will be other Newbies taking your place. You are MOVING girl!! Good for you. Be proud of yourself for lapping everyone on the couch!!
current weight: 152.0
Fitness Minutes: (806) Posts: 15 2/5/13 12:30 P
Thank you for the beautiful responses all! Those are great motivators in themselves.
Losing weight and keeping healthy triggers so many different emotions. From happiness to embarrassment - clearly! I do know that nothing feels better than walking out of that classroom or walking into my little apartment feeling sweaty and tired/worked out. Not one negative emotion comes from that feeling your body gives you - it's pure happiness!
My glute doesn't like me much today (haha!) but I'll get something in me I'm sure! Thank you for the support - it was just what I needed to hear. :)
Good job sticking with it!! I too am morbidly obese and have been in a firm and fit class for the last few months where everyone in the class for the most part are in much better shape than I. I was embarrassed but determined and have stuck with it. The other day, one of the "fit" members came up to me and told me how much she admires me and thinks about me coming to the class as motivation for herself to come. This made my day!! Someone looking to me for motivation? New concept
Edited by: NANCYJH64 at: 2/5/2013 (08:02)
You're on your own, and you know what you know, and You are the one who'll decide where to go....
I am so proud of you! I have also found every excuse not to exercise over the last 15 years. It is hard to believe that you deserve to be there - but you do, the other people didn't get fit by sitting on the couch and you have no idea of their personal struggles.
Maybe kettleball isn't the right place to start. Only you can decide that...
You can do this!
Pounds lost: 2.0
Fitness Minutes: (60,312) Posts: 169 2/5/13 3:55 A
It's great that you are changing your life. Take small steps. You shouldn't be able to just walk in and complete the entire routine even if you weren't large. Modify the movements for a while. I don't have a large amount to lose, compared to some, but I would have felt the same way, had I gone to a new class. Fitness takes time, keep up the effort and remember any movement counts. I know you can do it. You have taken the first steps, like a baby learning to walk, it takes a lot of practice!
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Kaylynn You are you, not some one else. Work on this slowly. I have been working out since 2004. This is the first year I have made it through the whole class. It takes time but it does get easier and funner. I have faith in you to come through this broken bottom and be all the better at kettleball.
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current weight: 257.2
Fitness Minutes: (806) Posts: 15 2/4/13 11:37 P
Saturday I started a kettlebell class. I was really excited to have my fiance and best friend go with me and was pleased that I could do most of the exercises. Being morbidly obese puts a huge barrier in things - not only do I clearly not have the same amount of energy and stamina as most people but I also have physical barriers. Despite being incredibly flexible, there are a lot of stretches and moves I can't do either because of my heavy weight or my actual size makes it impossible (having a large belly in the way, for example).
Today was our first class (saturday was an intro) and so I sat in a room with 5 other strangers, all beautifully fit and despite having a great support system, I felt like I shouldn't have been there. Before I arrived I was secretly calculating all the reasons why I shouldn't go: Feel out of place, to be embarrassed, cost, no energy today, bad weather, etc..
I know what I was doing, secretly reasoning with myself. I've done it so often to justify one serving of this or "the weather's too poor to walk today" that I knew what I was doing. I was negotiating with myself and the person I don't want to be always wins.
It didn't this time. I still went. I ended up injuring myself (I broke a butt cheek! Aka, pulled a muscle) and if any of you are familiar with Kettlebell training.. you need that muscle! So yet again I spent another class not up to par with everyone else - in fact doing worse than the week before, but I tried my best despite my injury.
Tomorrow, I'll try something different to get some fitness time in, I suppose.
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