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GEORGIA_KAY
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10/27/10 2:07 P

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Thank you Lisa. You're very sweet and understanding. I'm thinking of putting this prologue on my blog and going public with it. It might help me rid myself of some of the baggage I'm carrying around.


Habit is habit and not to be flung out of the window by any man, but coaxed downstairs a step at a time.
~Mark Twain~

The difference between try and triumph is just a little umph!
~Marvin Phillips~


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LISA0517
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10/27/10 10:51 A

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Your story really touched my heart. I can feel your pain and loneliness in the words you write. Your husband truly sounds like a wonderful man. I'm happy for you that you have his support.

I tend to slink off when I feel like a failure too. We will have to not let each other do that!

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Lisa, Flowood MS
Crimson Butterfly, BLC 21
Starfish, 5% 2013 Winter Challenge (US CST)

I am in charge of my choices, and I choose what is healthy, empowering, peaceful, and joyful.


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GEORGIA_KAY
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10/26/10 8:44 P

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my overdue prologue:

I was a thin child until I was around 9 years old. Both my mother and older sister (she was 23 years old) died that year. I'm pretty sure that's when my love-affair with Food started. I lived with my father and brother. Although I knew my father loved me, he was not very involved in my life and spent most of his time working. I'm sure he was dealing with his own grief. I had one brother still at home who was 2 years older than I was. We were very close. I had another brother, much older than me, who was married and lived in another state. I rarely saw him and he doesn't really figure in my younger years.

I think I turned to food for comfort and to ease my loneliness. We always had lots of food in the house and anything in the way of sweets or goodies I asked for my Dad would buy. We also lived across the street from a grocery store where I could (and did) buy anything I wanted and was allowed to put it on our bill-which my Dad would pay at the end of the month. I was never reproached for overeating when I was younger. I developed lifelong bad habits from these unrestrained years.

I was very active when I was younger and being young and strong the added pounds didn't really bother me. I always had friends and it wasn't until junior high school that my years of eating finally caught up with me. Going from a small elementary school where I was known and accepted regardless of my size to a bigger school where I was virtually unknown finally exposed me to humiliation and ridicule. I of course dealt with that in the way I knew best. I ate even more.

I was a rebellious teenager who managed to get in all sorts of trouble. It wasn't until I had my first child at the age of 19 that I finally settled down. I was around 200 pounds by that time. I was unmarried, still living at home with my Dad, but now had a reason to straighten up my life--for my daughter's sake. Part of that involved wanting to lose weight so my daughter wouldn't be ashamed of me.

That started me on what would become 30+ years of trying every diet in the book. Weight Watchers, T.O.P.S, The Cambridge Diet, the grapefruit diet, the drinking man's diet. Atkins's diet, diet pills, the list goes on and on and on. I tried everything that came down the pike--up to and including weight loss surgery in 1992. These yo-yo attempts went on for years and years. Oh I always lost weight--always! But each time I would manage to re-gain the weight--and then some.

During that time I managed to meet my darling DH in 1984 who somehow loved me despite my weight (I weighed 240 when we met) we've had 2 sons and many wonderful years together. He's the best husband and most loving father to all of our children. And he has never criticized me on my weight--- even at my highest of 460 pounds. He still tells me I'm pretty. Amazing man!

I joined SP two years ago, but it wasn't until very recently that I truly decided to do whatever it takes to get this weight off. I'm determined that this time will be different for me. This time around I'm going to use all the tools that SP has to offer and try and change myself not only on the outside, but on the inside--where the problem really lies. It will take a lot of work, but I'm finally ready to do it. I've made a promise to myself that I won't give up, I won't quit and more importantly--I will NOT disappear and slink off in guilt and shame at the first time I derail from my eating plan. I am SO determined to overcome that "All Or Nothing" mentality that has crippled me for so long. I am going to take small steps forward everyday. I am going to change my life slowly until I am the person I always wanted to be.

Thanks for reading this. I know it's long and disjointed, but some of these memories have been tucked away for a long time.


Habit is habit and not to be flung out of the window by any man, but coaxed downstairs a step at a time.
~Mark Twain~

The difference between try and triumph is just a little umph!
~Marvin Phillips~


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LISA0517
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10/23/10 8:58 P

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I do think it is more important to take your time with your prologue than rush to post it. So take your time!

I'm delighted she has joined us too. I'm teaching her to do surface embroidery, and I feel so honored to be able to help her with that.
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Lisa, Flowood MS
Crimson Butterfly, BLC 21
Starfish, 5% 2013 Winter Challenge (US CST)

I am in charge of my choices, and I choose what is healthy, empowering, peaceful, and joyful.


 current weight: 220.6 
 
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GEORGIA_KAY
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10/23/10 7:24 P

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Great Prologue Lisa. You seem to have had the same issues with your weight as I had when I was younger. Writing about these issues and how we feel about them is a very good idea. I think it will help us so much to really take the time to think about where we've been--so we can try and figure out where we're going.

I'll need a little time to think about my prologue. I want it to be truthful and accurate. I don't have the necessary time tonight with my grandson still here--but perhaps in the morning.

Thanks for posting this, Lisa. It may be just the nudge we need to open up and delve a little deeper into ourselves. I wish I could adequately tell you how much I appreciate you being my diet buddy!

Oh--and thanks for telling your friend LSFANNIN about our team--she seems like such a lovely person and I'm so happy she's here!



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Habit is habit and not to be flung out of the window by any man, but coaxed downstairs a step at a time.
~Mark Twain~

The difference between try and triumph is just a little umph!
~Marvin Phillips~


 Pounds lost: 25.4 
 
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87.5
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LISA0517
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10/23/10 3:53 P

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Lisa's prologue

I have not been overweight all of my life, but I have had food issues all of my life. Pre-teen, I was chunky, tall and gangly. When I hit my teenage years, I slimmed down, way down, to 110 (I'm 5'7"). I obsessed about NOT eating all during my teenage years. When I was 18, I had gained to 120 and was very distressed about that, and went to a quack "diet doctor" who gave me amphetamines and thyroid shots. Well, that worked, so for a period of my life I depended on diet pills to keep my weight off. After I had my daughter, those pesky baby pounds just wouldn't come off, and I've gained ever since.

I have tried every diet out there. I did the high protein low carb diet even before it was called Atkins. I've tried South Beach, Weight Watchers several times, the Mediteranian diet, the raw food diet, the weird cabbage soup diet, you name it, I've probably tried it. And nothing has worked for me. Sure, I've lost weight, but it always comes back.

So I have decided I need to figure out what is going on in my head that makes me turn to food for everything. I want to shift that thinking, and develop a healthy relationship with food. I want to be able to enjoy it, but in a normal way. I don't want to feel bad because I am eating a bad food. I don't want to dread the holidays because I know it will be a constant battle against food.

I'm looking forward to listening to these podcasts and learning how to have a normal, healthy appetite, how to work with my body instead of against it.

So, that is my prologue. Anyone else? emoticon

Lisa, Flowood MS
Crimson Butterfly, BLC 21
Starfish, 5% 2013 Winter Challenge (US CST)

I am in charge of my choices, and I choose what is healthy, empowering, peaceful, and joyful.


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LISA0517
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10/20/10 11:04 A

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I just went and looked at the IOWL team, and under the prologue discussion there was a suggestion that you write your own prologue.

Maybe we could do that this week? Write our own prologue, what led us to where we are today, and what we hope to accomplish?

Lisa, Flowood MS
Crimson Butterfly, BLC 21
Starfish, 5% 2013 Winter Challenge (US CST)

I am in charge of my choices, and I choose what is healthy, empowering, peaceful, and joyful.


 current weight: 220.6 
 
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LISA0517
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10/20/10 10:59 A

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Georgia, I agree, she has a very lovely voice.

I enjoyed listening to the prologue and hearing her story. I identified with a lot of what she said happened in her life.

I really appreciated the concept of inner alignment that she talked about. I think that is what I am really searching for, except I am looking for it with all the comfort foods I love to eat.

I will listen to Episode 1 at lunch today.

Lisa

Lisa, Flowood MS
Crimson Butterfly, BLC 21
Starfish, 5% 2013 Winter Challenge (US CST)

I am in charge of my choices, and I choose what is healthy, empowering, peaceful, and joyful.


 current weight: 220.6 
 
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GEORGIA_KAY
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10/19/10 9:19 A

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Renee Stephens sure has a lot of great stuff to say and WOW what a voice! Her voice alone is soothing and calm.

I like her whole precept of an "Inner Journey for Outer Transformation". It just makes sense. She said this transformation doesn't have to be about denial, deprivation, starvation, discipline or even will-power or self control. In fact, she talks about "Self Expression" instead of using the term "Self Control."

I know I would love to have all of my trigger foods make me want to feel relaxed and calm instead of wanting to binge. She has made this work for her and I think if I just take the time and try to imagine it working for me too that I'll get a lot of benefit from her advise.

I'm going to listen to the first episode this evening.

So far, so good!


Habit is habit and not to be flung out of the window by any man, but coaxed downstairs a step at a time.
~Mark Twain~

The difference between try and triumph is just a little umph!
~Marvin Phillips~


 Pounds lost: 25.4 
 
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43.75
87.5
131.25
175


LISA0517
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10/18/10 10:52 A

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Hi everyone. Here is a thread where we can discuss IOWL Prologue. You can find these podcasts here: personallifemedia.com/podcasts/216-inside-
out-weight-loss


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Lisa, Flowood MS
Crimson Butterfly, BLC 21
Starfish, 5% 2013 Winter Challenge (US CST)

I am in charge of my choices, and I choose what is healthy, empowering, peaceful, and joyful.


 current weight: 220.6 
 
240
217.5
195
172.5
150


 
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