I reached my goal weight a few months ago but now I'm struggling so much with maintaining it.
I'm suffering from cycles of binging/fasting all the time. I don't seem to eat a well-balanced diet, and it seems like all the will-power that made me loose half my weight and brought me into maintenance is just fading away.
I don't know why I'm binging. I just seem like I can't resist "junk food" any more, especially sweets, and especially chocolate. I tell myself that it's OK to have a small piece of chocolate or cake from time to time, but this "time to time" has become nearly every day, and no, I don't (and can't) stop at one piece.
After a few days of binging and overindulging with chocolate and stuff, I fast, or eat very very little, and exercise vigorously in an attempt to compensate for the binging episode. But after a few days I return to binging again. It's become like a cycle that I don't know how to break.
After the binging episode I feel soooo guilty and disgusted with myself, I also feel physically bad, bloated and heavy. I keep telling myself that this is not good for me and that I don't want to get back to being fat EVER. Every time I get a binging "spell" I tell myself this would be the last, and that I should get back on track and eat healthy like I used to, but at some point I break and fall into binging again.
Sometimes I cry and I'm getting very depressed and upset with myself. I'm really mortified that I gain back the weight I've lost. I feel like I'm falling. I need help. Has anyone had a similar experience? How can I get back on track and compensate for the binging? How can I STOP binging?
One contributing factor that I know about is that I live in family whose members are all obese. They don't seem to take care of their health (although the keep claiming that they're trying!) and they have an obsession with junk food. They buy chocolates, cookies, crackers, biscuits, and chips in bulk and store them at home. I literally just have to watch them all the time walking around the house with something to eat in their hands, or munching as they watch TV or talk on the phone or study or do anything! I tried to get my own "healthy" snacks, like carrots, lettuce, and cucumbers to eat when I feel like snacking. But I used to slip and fall for their foods occasionally, which has now become much, much more frequently.
What can I do? Any advice is much appreciated and thank you all in advance!
-Failure is a temporary condition, giving up is what makes it permanent.
-Mistakes are a part of being human. Appreciate your mistakes for what they are: precious life lessons that can only be learned the hard way. Unless it's a fatal mistake, which, at least, others can learn from.
Treats when I (re)reach my goal weight:
1. contact lenses
2. hair cut
| current weight: 123.0