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3/11/13 6:57 P

I have found that beyond Cognitive Behavioral Therapy and Prolonged Exposure Therapy, there is the bliss of yoga and meditation to heal trauma and find a happy feeling that will help you cope today. Yoga and meditation make me feel better, and the way I respond to trauma is numbing of the forehead and nasal area and sometimes a heaviness in the skull and chest.

All I desire is good coping and good mood, and I achieve that through yoga and meditation. I have tried various therapies and happiness points to these two.

Some days are good and some days are tough, so I just take it one day at a time, and can feel myself gradually healing. There is happiness beyond trauma, and even healing. There is hope.

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1/16/13 12:25 A

Thank you Linda. It isn't my story, but that of a friend who suffers from pTSD - sometimes really bad!

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1/16/13 12:15 A

Very good writing....yet, so sad.

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1/15/13 7:48 P

Here is another poem. I have hesitated putting it here, but i don't know why.

Fear in the Night
16 May 2012
Evelyn Cruze

Last night I awoke in fear
Remembering what put me here.
It could have happened yesterday
It was so vivid in my mind.

It happened so fast in broad daylight
But I never saw it coming.
I was hit and hit hard.
Then my brother flew in to cover me.

All he got for his efforts was getting hit, too.
I remember seeing him with blood flowing,
From his head. It spurted and
splattered until I thought he was dead.

He was in bad shape and got to go home.
So many years and I miss him still.
He didn’t make it you see,
all because he tried to save me.

When awoke the sweat was dripping
And my heart was pumping hard.
As I reached for my meds I wondered why
Why was it him instead of me?

How long would these nightmares last?
My meds are here but they don’t always work
I see my therapist once a month.
But still I wonder why was it him and not me.

I don’t know how much more I can take
of this remembering and seeing his face
and all of that blood along with his fate.
All because he tried to save me.

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12/31/12 1:04 P

Wonderful posts on this thread by all of you!

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12/16/12 1:57 A

"Through humor, you can soften some of the worst blows that life delivers. And once you find laughter, no matter how painful your situation might be, you can survive it."--Bill Cosby

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6/16/12 7:32 P

Ev- you are a wonderful poet!

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4/24/12 11:44 P

That is great! As I read it, I thought, "Wow! This applies in all areas of life!". Now if I could just apply it to myself - especially when I have depression/anxiety wash over me so that I can hardy function!! Great job!!

Edited by: EVWINGS at: 4/24/2012 (23:46)

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4/23/12 5:40 P

I will not.....
I will not beat myself up if my weight goes up.
I will not feel down and keep a frown.
I will not be suprise and not believe my eyes
I will chart and make a new start.

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4/19/12 10:47 P

Ev!!

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4/19/12 8:36 P

My Pit
Evelyn Dabelko Cruze

Yesterday someone said the words.
They are just words.
Yet, they drew me in and
pushed me over the edge
into the abyss below.
As I sank into the nothingness,
I knew I was entering a place
where I used to go to hide.
It is a place of long ago and
I believed it to be gone forever.
Evidently I was wrong.
I thought I was past all of
that and healed.
Yet once more I find
I am not.
As I try to come back
to a brightly lit world,
to this place and time
where I feel safe,
the struggle gets to be
too much. And I give in
and cry.
The crying always helps
cleanse my soul and keep
me from the anger and pain.
I thrash about and scream,
but no one can hear me –
only my own mind.
There is no answer.
Once more I shall have
to discover a way to recover.
And pray God this will someday
have an end.

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4/18/12 11:20 P

Very good, Ev.

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4/18/12 8:33 A

I like The Push!

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4/16/12 3:26 P

The Push by Evelyn Cruze



Last week I fell again because I was pushed.
It was one of those “Excuse me”
pushes - you know the kind.
It is when someone passing by bumps you
backwards using a body part
other than the hands – and then says,
“Excuse me. I didn’t see you.”
RIGHT! At my size you couldn’t see me!
Another response – “Excuse me –
I didn’t realize you were that close.”
Am I so inconsequential that
I am invisible to you?
All I know is I hurt –
physically and emotionally.
Trust has been broken.
And, no, I don’t think I shall excuse you.
Right now I just cannot.

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4/16/12 3:22 P

I m glad so many like the idea.

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4/16/12 11:42 A

Very good thread!!

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4/16/12 7:50 A

This is a great idea!

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4/15/12 11:02 P

Several of us have written about how we feel with our PTSD that help the healing process. This thread is for all members who wish to share. And it is very important to let everyone know that we want you to post only what you feel comfort posting on an open team. The postiings can be anything that helps you heal. It can be poetry, essay, story, thoughts and feelings. Quotes you use. The only rule is the Spark rule - everything must be your own and in your own words. With the quotes, if it is from someone else, pease credit that person.

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