Hi CATTUT and PATTY. I've been struggling with anxiety and depression since age 12. I have an anxiety disorder (OCD) which has been really hard to treat. I'm so sensitive to medication side effects that I'm never on a truly therapeutic dosage. I feel scared almost all the time. If I stop and ask myself how I'm feeling during the day or night, the answer is always, "I'm scared." I wasn't always this way - I used to be on some meds that helped, but I gained 100 lbs. on them and I had to stop taking one of them because of dangerous side effects.
It's a daily struggle, but I did realize some weeks ago that if I did an exercise DVD in the mornings, I felt much better all day long. The tough part is MAKING myself do it everyday. I have real low motivation. I got off track because of my daughter's recent illness, but I've realized that I've got to get back on track with moving more as well as tracking my food. Doing those two things will at least relieve the anxiety I feel about letting my health get worse and worse. Hopefully, the exercise will help the generalized anxiety, too.
CATTUT, I'm very sorry to hear about your kidney damage. Waiting is SO hard, I know. I'm glad your doctor is doing more blood work and is going to refer you to a nephrologist. At least she sounds like she cares and is on top of things. I know it's hard, hard, hard not to worry about something like this.
Sometimes it helps me to remember this quote from one of my favorite books, "To Kill a Mockingbird," Atticus Finch tells his son Jem, "It's not time to worry yet." I tell myself that a lot when I'm waiting - especially on medical tests. It's not time to worry yet, because we don't know the extent of the problem yet. There will be time to worry later, if necessary, but it's not time to worry yet. Don't know if that will help you or not.
By the way, I spend most of my Spark time on the Dealing with Depression team. It has over one million members worldwide, so it's a very active team. Also, almost everyone there has anxiety problems, too. You'd be very welcome to join us there, as well.
I wish you all the very, very best and will hope for the very best outcome for you. Please keep in touch and let us know how it goes.
Edited by: MPN5621 at: 9/1/2013 (12:54)
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