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5/28/12 4:28 P

I know exactly how you feel and what you're talking about! Reading your post was like reading my own words. I, too, have a history of not being able to focus. I have been to so many different schools and stayed for one year, and then moved onto the next one. I have huge difficulty feeling like 'I belong' (to a group, to a place, to a particular career path that I have chosen) and it causes so much anxiety that I always find it best to quit. Right now, I'm a first year college student studying hospitality and hotel management, and I just started my internship as a hotel receptionist today. Today, as I was standing there behind the desk, I wondered if I'm a masochist for choosing such a job!! As someone suffering from panic attacks, it's definitely not always easy for me to communicate with people when I feel very nervous. Customer service is definitely challenging for me and I'm forcing myself outside of my comfort zone.

I'm rambling, sorry... My point was this: I am very afraid to get a job because I'm afraid I won't be able to handle it. I've quit and run away from so many things in my life that there was a point when I was beginning to wonder whether or not I could actually live like normal people. I'm trying very hard and I'm committed this time to graduating in two years time. Every day I try to be just a little bit stronger and challenge myself to prove to myself and to everyone else that I can do this. I know we both can! Best of luck to you!!!

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10/14/11 12:49 P

I was reading your post and thinking about how it sounds just like me. I got my Bachelor's Degree in 2007 and have only barely used it. I have little confidence in myself, especially when it comes to job interviews. I'm working right now for a company a couple hours a week after being hired for three days. The boss is a tyrant who thinks she's the only one who knows how to do things. Maybe someone can shed some light on the subject for us.

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10/14/11 10:08 A

and you've done great! Going through the studies and exams, I think you can do anything you set your mind to! And, how exciting to start an on-line business! You'll do great and keep us up on how things are going!

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10/14/11 9:26 A

im wondering if there are also people like me who are scared of getting a job? Uhm, I'm scared because i have a history of not being able to focus. I used to be a nurse but i quit because I cant carry on with the job, always anxious, always confused. It makes me sad because my other friends are moving on with their lives while I am here, stuck. I am currently studying for an exam, the NCLEX, the nursing exam of nurses in the United states. My mom wants me to take that. Yeah, the future is vague because it feels like im not going to be a nurse due to my sickness at all.After studying for the nclex, I plan to study so that i could be a teacher. For kids. I think i can do that. I will also do baking on the side with a friend. Where planning to build a small store of baked goods or to sell it online.

I hope that there is still hope.