A summary of background: I have been unemployed for over a year. I lost my job after missing work due to anxiety about driving to work. I struggle with depression as well. Last year, I dealt with a trauma that re-emerged when the perp was finally caught (after 12 years). I hadn't told anyone, so it was and continues to be a long process of healing. My boyfriend and I have been together for 8 years and lived together for 5. I desperately want to get married and have children, but until I have a job, that can't happen.
Last night, we had a conversation about everything. It was a really honest conversation, and I know he is upset that I don't have a job yet. I also know that it is hard for him to trust people (but he says he trusts me more than anyone). He opened up more than he usually does.
I just had an interview that went well. I'm hoping that it comes through for me, but I've had so many disappointments. My anxiety is really high today. Not being able to pay all my bills for the month isn't helping. And I'm starting to worry about how healthy my attitude really is toward getting healthy (read my blog). I need some relaxation, so I'm gonna do some yoga.
Just needed to vent. Thanks for listening!
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