I understand all too well what you are going through. I am separated from a husband that doesn't trust anyone - including me. He is verbally abusive. I have filed for divorce but he won't sign the papers. I moved back up to Michigan from Alabama a year ago to be with family and still don't have a job. Things just aren't going my way. Don't apologize for needing to vent - we all need to do that or we'll really go crazy. I am sending hugs and best wishes your way in hopes that you get a job soon. Good luck to you.
God grant me the serenity to change the things I can, to accept the things I cannot change, and the wisdom to know the difference.
A summary of background: I have been unemployed for over a year. I lost my job after missing work due to anxiety about driving to work. I struggle with depression as well. Last year, I dealt with a trauma that re-emerged when the perp was finally caught (after 12 years). I hadn't told anyone, so it was and continues to be a long process of healing. My boyfriend and I have been together for 8 years and lived together for 5. I desperately want to get married and have children, but until I have a job, that can't happen.
Last night, we had a conversation about everything. It was a really honest conversation, and I know he is upset that I don't have a job yet. I also know that it is hard for him to trust people (but he says he trusts me more than anyone). He opened up more than he usually does.
I just had an interview that went well. I'm hoping that it comes through for me, but I've had so many disappointments. My anxiety is really high today. Not being able to pay all my bills for the month isn't helping. And I'm starting to worry about how healthy my attitude really is toward getting healthy (read my blog). I need some relaxation, so I'm gonna do some yoga.
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