I can see why I never looked at calories before eating something, because now that I'm faithfully using the nutrition tracker, I've become aware of how many calories I used to eat on a daily basis...and it's not cute!
No WONDER I've been the Fat Girl! I mean, here I was thinking that what I was eating "wasn't that much"...even when I thought I was eating lighter, I really wasn't. For one thing, now that I'm using the nutrition tracker, I'm still seeing how even if I'm in my calorie range, sometimes I eat way above my fat range. What can I say, I dig fat.
However, it's making me MUCH more conscious about the things I'm putting on my plate, because I am being rigorously honest with myself -- it if goes in my mouth, it goes on the tracker. I have had some pretty off the charts calorie days, but they're further between since I'm READING all the nutrition info BEFORE I eat things now.
I know that some people have been professional dieters and are probably rolling their eyes at me but seriously, denial is a beautiful thing! When someone once told me how many calories were in a Bloomin' Onion, I immediately thought of the ones I've eaten and seriously, haven't had one since.
This morning I grabbed a muffin, and when I realized that the whole muffin was TWO servings, and that the whole muffin would be 520 calories, I almost keeled over. I cut it in half and gave the other half to some random guy walking down my hallway at work who shrugged and ate it. But I will not be getting that particular muffin again, that's too many calories for half a muffin.
BUT let me also say! I am not getting neurotic or nuts about calories. That's the miracle! I've been struggling with disordered eating my whole life and instead of feeling crazy and obsessive about calories, I am finding that KNOWLEDGE is POWER. It's freeing! When I know what I've already eaten, it's helping me make smarter choices later in the day.
Any one of you come to earth-shattering epiphanies after starting to track your food? Have you found that being honest about what you're eating is freeing rather than making you neurotic or nuts?
Edited by: LBFROMBUFAD at: 4/28/2012 (13:41)
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