I have this really bad habit of when I'm stressed out of using food to calm me down. I'm slowly trying to stop myself from doing that, not letting stress overwhelm me so much, and trying to make myself ealize some things I just don't have control over so I need to
Yes, I know it's easier said then done, but it's a work in progress.
I had started my Bachelors 6 months after my husband & daughter died in 08. I needed something to focus on. I finished that degree this April. Then 2 weeks after completing it I sat down and had a heart to heart with myself. I needed change. I needed new people. I needed new surroundings.
My fiance and I had talked last year about moving to FL but didn't make any plans. I approached him with this idea again after my degree was complete. I explained to him I just wasn't happy in TX anymore. My mom had moved away, I didn't have a relationship with my dad, brother, or that side of my family, that I needed to do something for ME. When I said the words "Florda and movig" in the same sentence he understood where I was coming from. He told me he'd support me in whatever decision I made and that he would go anywhere with me if that was truly what I wanted.
Then the next 6 months were Stressville in my house. I was already lookng at houses so I had to find a realtor. Then once we found the realtor they started sending us emails about potential houses. Well long story short we took a last minute trip to FL in June to meet and look at some in person. I signed papers on a house that weekend. Then came the excitement! Getting back to TX and starting the decluttering, cleaning, packin phase. The decluttering phase took me over a week.I still had all of my husband and daughter's things and had to decide what I was keeping and what I was getting rid of. This is when the stress/emotios went into overload. With Alan and friends support I got through it. I kept most of my daughter's clothes & toys but her furniture I gave to a friend who was expecting a baby girl.
Then came the fun of finding a moving company. We met with 3 and I made a decisio within a 2 week time frame. Orginally we were set to move mid October. Well, I had some issues come up with friends and I was just ready to get the hell out of dodge. We moved the move up a whole month. That last month was stressful but looking back I'm glad I did it. We've been in our new home 6 weeks and I couldn't be happier.
I still have stresful issues going on between getting the TX house rented out (selling it right now is not an option. The market is TERRIBLE in TX.) Plus we are liquidating our business and I'm trying to get things accomplished here. I feel like one of those stretch arm strongs where I'm being pulled in 2 different directions.
So, with all this stress going on I'm eating like crazy every time I feel like I'm ready to pull my hair out. I made a vow to Alan (more so for myself though) last night that I was DONE! I wasn't going to turn to food everytime I stressed. So I've decided I'm going to do two thngs:
I'm going to get outside (weather permitting) and walk OR I'm gong to beat the crap out of my heavy bag in our garage.
I will NOT let stress consume me anymore. It makes me bitchy, distant, and he tazmanian devl when I ecounter unhealthy food for me.
BLC 19 & 20 -- Blazin Blue Bombshells
BLC 21 - 24 -- Groovy Geckos
Starting Weight (May 18, 2010): 233
5%: 221.4 -- DONE (220 11/4/2011)
10%: 209.7 -- DONE (208.8 02/25/2012)
ONEDERLAND!! 199.4 07/12/2012
15%: 198.1 -- DONE (197) 07/30/2012)
20%: 186.4 -- DONE (186) 02/28/2013)
25%: 174.8 --
30%: 163.1 --
35%: 151.5 --
40%: 139.8 (GOAL WEIGHT) --
| Pounds lost: 54.6