I went through that same thing for a long time after my ex and I broke up in January 2012. I met someone in March and I kind of became obsessive about it, he was all I could think of. He screwed me over a few months later, completely stopped contact and got back together with his ex. It's hard and it really takes a long time to get used to being alone. I try to focus on the positives of being single. When I listen to my friend complain about her relationship drama with her boyfriend I think "thank god I don't have to deal with that!" I also love that I never have to check with another person before I buy something. My ex was notorious for taking hundreds of dollars out of the bank without telling me, so our account would overdraft. Anyway I know it's hard. I feel like I've been single forever now. I met someone in October on a dating website and I have just gotten to a point where I know that I don't want to be with anyone else. I'm just waiting for him to take the plunge and make us official.
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I left the father of my twin boys November 2011, but we tried to work things out several different times since then. But it has been awhile since we have tried. I also have dated several men in this time period also. I have not been taking the neccessary time to heal and get over the twins dad, instead I fill that void with another guy. I have a hard time staying single its like I am scared to be alone or the older I get the harder it will be to find a man. Well I have been kinda talking to a guy and he stood me up again last night and I was just like why do you keep doing this to yourself just take a break. Also right now I am just working at a grocery store at night bc daycare is to exspensive. So I have been saving money for daycare, because I just graduated from college and I am looking for my big girl job. : ) So working at marsh makes me feel like a low life, like I have nothing going on. I hate that because I should be proud that atleast I am working to support my family. Also I have been training for a half marathon thats in two weeks it will be my 13th one in 3 years...but I am too obsessed with finding a man to celebrate that. It makes me sad, I should be proud. And my daughter just started softball I love watching her play, I am so proud of her. SO I think I need to just keep directing my attention away from dating and just not worry about it for awhile. Sorry for the rant just had so much on my mind
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