I am in my mid-50's and it is sad that I allow others to silence me in this respect. The community I live in (plus my family) is into Christianity and any other form of thinking is basically persecuted. [Sometimes I wonder if my previous life in Salem, Mass. has something to do with my fear]. Anyway, I was talking to man (who was way far-right, politically) in a bar several years ago and because I spoke up for feminism I was called a heathen, pagan, satanist, and the list went on and on. By the time he was done spewing I was portrayed, rather loudly, to others as a Satanist and Communist which is not a good thing to be in a conservative rural town in Iowa. I know that is extreme, but I really do not wish to repeat that experience. Now my sister (bless her) has "found God" BIG time and she "helps him with all of the decisions in running the world and others lives." Just ask her.
So basically, I guess I do not have the energy nor the will to fight this discrimination in this society just to share my beliefs with others.
But after saying that, I guess that isn't right either. I do try to share my personal understanding of the world in regards to magic and mysticism all within the cycles of the medicine wheel; the never ending cycles of days, seasons, years, and lifetimes along with the lessons and the intertwining of lives during those lifetimes. This has become such a part of who I am that I guess I share a form of this with the children I work with since I use nature therapy when I work with children who have been abused/neglected and are in the beginning stages of healing from abuse.
After looking at it this way, I guess I am not just cringing and keeping quiet about my philosophy on life. I am openly applying my philosophy and beliefs about the Universe.
Wow, sorry about the spewing part, but I guess I needed that. It has been over 14 years since I have had the opportunity to speak to others with similar beliefs or even open to exploring other ways of viewing our perceptions. Hope you excuse my mild rantings and accept me as an individual who appreciates our Earth Mother and the blessings we have and will receive.
By the way, I did not get to make the solstice cakes, ran out of time, and since I need to cut down on the sugar
I went for my "first alone one mile walk" for the first time in many, many years. It was such a charge for my whole Being. I forgot how wonderful it is to be back out communing with "Mother Nature." Happy Solstice everyone. Be Well. Julia
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