I know how bad it can feel too. I forgot my meds for three days and had bad side effects and still feel sick and sleepy. I don't have a good friend to share things with. My husband claims he gets it and is supportive but if he gets angry and screams at me or the kids and I confront him he reminds me I am the one on "psych meds." Not sure I would want the unsympathetic boss or spouse. We all deserve so much better but I bet like me, you are not rich to just get up and leave for a new boss etc.
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Dearest TBEAR6, I can absolutely tell how hard it is for you! I have gone through periods of my life like that. It was especially hard when the first meds I tried were not working. I simply was ready to give up. I clearly remember sitting on the couch with no hope for the future and unable to even move. I got through it! It was NOT easy. I had counseling (had to change people here - just like not all meds work for you, not every therapist will) and medication. I am still on meds and will probably be forever. And forever advocating for meds as well. Please hang in there!
I'm a worrier, too. I've been this way since I was about 5 years ago. Most mornings I wake up scared. I have anxiety disorders (OCD & GAD) so I guess that's why. Some days are better than others. I guess we just have to take it one day at a time, one hour at a time, or even one minute at a time and then try to remember that things will get better.
"Create the kind of self that you will be happy to live with all your life." - Golda Meir
"Let me not miss all that I am by punishing myself for what I am not." - Anonymous
My name is Miller :)
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I woke up feeling, I guess worried. I have read medical articles in the past that worry is the biggest cause that puts people to the hospital. It is a killer. I have always been an avid worrier, but over the years, I have worked with myself mentally not to worry. I don't worry near as much as I used to, but there are days I wake up worrying.
This morning I woke up worrying and it is depressing me. It is a struggle to begin the day. I do not have any energy. I feel lifeless. I wish I could just skip days like this one.
If you think you can, you can. If you think you can't, you can't! -- "I don't remember who wrote this."
You have only to move in the direction of your dreams. To meet with the success in the expected incoming hours. --"from Earl Nightingale recording"
Do the thing and you will have the power, but they that do not the thing don't have the power. --"from Earl Nightingale recording"
oh that's a shame. people who jsut dont' get it drive me nuts. i know it's hard to grasp if you havne't dealt with it and yes, well technically it is all in our heads since it is a MENTAL disorder, but that's about it.
do the best you can, maybe you can get a doctor's not that you're diagnosed with depression at least for on your record? even if your boss doesn't believe it, that's besides the point. although i'm guessing you'd worry that he'd treat you funny because of his thoughts.
I cant tell my boss. He's a firm beliver depression is all in your head and you can control it. He has a brother who suffers from it and we've talked about him in the past. I will continue to take day by day. I start tomorrow with the 50mgs.Boy its been a long two weeks from when I switched. I have a "meeting" to discuss my performance this afternoon. I will take a xantax and hope to make it through without a major crying or blowing spell.
Thanks for your support. Today hasnt gotten any better, slipping down further. I was just told that someone made a complaint on how I treated them on the phone on the 10th of this month. Now it seems that my fake smiling act doesnt work either. I dont remember talking or saying anything to this guy, but I guess he was upset and went to my boss. Now what, I'll be thinking and dwelling on this for days....weeks? Something else to "handle" when I'm not handling things very good now. Any suggestions on how to get past this, just how to let it go? I've already said I was sorry...puts me in a egg shell situation now.
hey there. if you want to think you're whining, well then go ahead and think that, but we're all hear to listen to each other. if we're not here for the bad times, how will we know how good the good times are? so whine away.... besides, you really weren't whining, just looking for answers.
I am currently on Lamitcal. The first week of being on 25 mg was tough, but my psychiatrist kept me on my zoloft, clonipam, and the hydroxizine, so that helped me. I went to 50 mg and that went better, when I was suppose to go to 100 mg, I only had a few tabs. left, so I did a dose of 75 mg. I was all itchy, so I went back to 50 mg. I am happy with my current treatment. I was on Geodon a while ago, but it gave me some side affects, so I am not able to take it anymore. I have to adjust my meds atleast every year, for some strange reason. Good Luck
Good catch, YogaBiker. Please don't think that you are whining by telling us how you feel and how you are struggling. If you can't talk about it here, where no one will judge you, where can you? Isn't that why we have DwD in the first place?
We are a family and WANT to be here for you just as, someday when we need it, you can be here for us. Take care and be gentle with yourself, especially during this tough change.
Some days it's peanuts and some days it's shells. Either way you make the best of it.
I wake up depressed, go to work and put on somekind of fake happy face, go home depressed and go to bed. I'm recently diagosed bi-polar and I'm taking Lamictal and Lexapro. I've only been on the Lamictal 25mgs for a week and a half moving up to 50 mgs this Friday. I was on Geodon and it was working great, had energy, exercised nearly everyday, ate right but had to switch due to the cost. Now, since I've been off I've really been OFF. Down and beaten is how I feel. Nothing makes me happy, no exercise, still trying not to binge eat, but I cant deal with anything or anyone. I trying to wait it out and see if it will "lift", but nothing so far. Sorry for whining, but just needed to cry a little.
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