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Welcome Grace. What you are saying does make sense and we look forward to getting to know you as well. I have not been on the site for long, but everyone seems to be very supportive. I know that you will find others who not only understand but care about how you are feeling.

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Hello Everyone!

My name is Grace (Graciouswriting). This is my first time posting in this team.

However, I've just finished reading some of the post here and was very at ease about what I was reading. No one's afraid, here, to say how they, as people dealing with chronic depression really feel on the inside: how life just turns itself upside down when you think you've finally got it leveled out.

It is good to know that there really are other people who feel the same way. I find myself having good days and bad days due to depression. I was diagnosised with depression when I was in high school.

But now I have medical and health issues to deal with as well as just getting up in age. No matter how young we may feel on the inside the outside is still getting old. Regardless of what we do to keep ourselves looking young, the body the mind the eyes are all continuing to age.

So now I know where I can go to get something off my chest when I'm having a bad day. It's no body's fault that I have a bad day and so I am thankful for a place like this. Some place I can come and be understood, encouraged and inspired, but yet respected for my bad days too.

I'm not sure if any of this makes sense but I look forward to getting to you all here.

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2/28/15 7:57 A

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Yes, that's a good idea, and I've gotten it to work for me, too. I set a timer and then work work work till the bell rings.

Another thing I've done is put on a piece of lively upbeat music and work work work while the music is playing. I choose something that lasts some fifteen minutes or so.

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2/27/15 10:00 P

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I'm sad to hear that so many people on our Team are having tough times. It's hard to be prepared for life when it throws us curves. We all have to work at taking care of ourselves so that we can be the best we can be when others need our love and care.

Just a few things that I've used to "trick" myself into getting things done when i really don't want to do them: I set a kitchen timer for 5 min or 10 min. Once the timer starts and I'm doing the chore, I stop waiting for the ringer to go off. Sometimes I'm able to finish the task and do a little more, just like I do with short workouts.

When I'm particularly busy with everyday things and I know the dishes will be piling up, I have decided to use festive paper plates, cups and disposable utensils in nice colors so that I feel that I'm treating myself and then I throw them away. No dishes. i don't do it often because I am environmentally conscious and don't want to fill up landfills with my "junk." But, hey, sometimes we just need a break.

I have to surround myself with upbeat people that I don't want to have to discuss difficult times with. Just someone who is fun-loving and knows how to enjoy life. i learn a lot from friends like that.

Sometimes the smallest distraction pumps us up for the day. One of the nicest things that anybody ever did for me was when I was on medical leave from work. A dear friend of mine hired someone to clean my house. What a gift! it's exactly what I needed to start feeling more in charge of my life. I have since done that for another friend because I remembered how great I felt when it happened to me.

This is the Chinese Year of the Goat. 2015. It represents strength, stamina, endurance and sure-footedness. It reminds me of my lovely Team out there who has the strength to get thru anything life throws at us. This is the year to show our stuff. We are strong, we are wise and we are working this out together. Thanks everyone for continuing to show up on our Team pages and reaching out to eachother. We CAN do this!

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I'm haven't been by this thread in a while. I'm sorry to read about everyone's struggles.

I had a really bad time last week, then things got a little better. Things are kind of hard again now, but that's probably the way it's going to be. My FIL passed away on Feb. 16th and my husband and I have to figure out where and how my MIL will live. She can't afford to stay where she is, but she is totally against moving. We're looking into elder housing where her rent would be based on her fixed income, but some of the waiting lists are two years long.

She has a long history of spending money she doesn't have, borrowing money in secret, and hiding bills to keep others from knowing how in debt she is. Her house was totally paid for at one time, but over the last 25 or so years, she's borrowed so much on it that now she owes more than it's worth.

My husband and I both have some health problems and I have chronic depression and severe OCD. My husband's job is very stressful and I just went through years of helping care for my own mother until she passed away last July. Now it feels like we're starting all over again with taking care of his mother. I was hoping we'd have a nice long break before we'd have to cope with extra stress.

I read a quote the other day that said, "We must free ourselves of the hope that the sea will ever rest. We must learn to sail in high winds." I like that - it reminds me not to expect a smooth life, but to learn to live and thrive even in adversity. I hope I can learn to do that.

Hugs to everyone. Hoping things will get better for us all.
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2/27/15 10:38 A

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Today is a bad day. I'm so tired and sensitive. I'm thinking I may have to cut out my Thursday nights with my BF. By the end of the week I'm so tired, I just can't get enough sleep Thursday night and I wake up exhausted on Friday. Which wouldn't be a problem if I didn't have to come to my internship at 9am and work on paperwork and seeing clients. Then I get about 45 min at home before I have to be on my way out to my real job tonight. Going home and getting extra sleep on Thursdays would be the smart choice, but with how little time my BF and I have together as it is I just don't want to think about not seeing him.

Found out last night too that the kitten we foster at my internship will very likely be put down next week. No one take the time to take care of her or play with her, other then the Friday's when our receptionist brings her over here, and no one has stepped up to adopt her yet. She'd already be mine, except for the problem that she has feline lukemia and I already have 4 cats that I can't put at risk. It just makes me even more sad.

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I am not the best about housekeeping either. But I find that if I do whatever while I am thinking about it I am more likely to finish. My big nemesis is putting away the laundry. I do ok getting it into the washer and dryer, but then I lollygag around and forget to fold it, or it never quite makes it back to the closet. I hope everyone has a good weekend. emoticon

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2/20/15 7:44 A

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Hello, I've been reading recent posts about trying to keep up with housework when depression strikes. There is a website called FLYLADY.com that encourages you to tackle chores a little at a time and to establish routines that help you to function better eg laying clothes out the night before and getting washed and dressed including shoes even if you are not going out anywhere. Hope this helps, Blessings. ps even if I'm feeling lethargic I try to follow the very basics and its enough to keep me from going under. XX

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Hi CHROMEDRAGON20, I'm sorry to hear that. I get days where I'm pretty low like that too. Especially overwhelmed when it comes to the house work. I hate dishes!!! I've had to start taking things in little steps. Don't look at it as the whole kitchen - look at one counter. Or just load the glasses. Break everything thats overwhelming into small chunks. Maybe even just say I'm going to clean this for 10 mins, or 5 mins. Whatever works for you. This is the only way I can manage the cleaning that I do.

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I guess actually I'm having a bad week/month. It's been bad for a while now. I hate this time of year. Cold, dreary, short days and I almost always get super depressed. I am on meds and really don't want to up them if I can keep from it. Truth be told my husband and I are thinking of starting a family and, if I get pregnant, I have to stop taking the meds I'm on anyway.

I am trying to stay busy but I hate doing housework and will usually procrastinate until there are literally no dishes left to eat off of. My husband helps but he gets the same way too. Oddly enough we both call it a "Funk" too.

Think is, when things start to fall behind or get messy I get even more down on myself. I call myself lazy and just get into a spiral of self hate. When that happens, it's really really hard to stop. Anyone have any good ways to deal with this? I'm looking for ways to keep up with my housework. Any tips/help is appreciated.

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Laurance, I wish I could help you somehow. I know how depressing it is to care for someone with a mental illness. It can tear your life apart and when you have to institutionalize them, even though it's best for them and you, you have so much guilt.

I'm here if you ever need to talk.

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Floradeb, I'm sorry to hear that your dear cat is gone. Losing a beloved cat is so hard. I've always loved my cats so much, and it means grieving so hard when they die.

We're in Pennsylvania, and thank goodness for Medicaid. If I had to pay for Sweetie's care, well, I couldn't. If I'd had to pay for him I'd be completely bankrupt. I'd have absolutely nothing. I don't know where I'd live. No income, no home. I don't know that I could sleep in doorways. And we don't have a good soup kitchen. This man has major health problems, and things are only getting worse and worse.

Floradeb, I hope you can get to teh Free Clinic tomorrow morning! How bad is the weather in your state? Here it's below freezing, and sometimes below zero. I hate having to go out, but it becomes necessary. I'll be so glad when spring arrives.

It doesn't help that I have an awful cold right now. Sneezing, runny nose, stuffy sinuses. But it's temporary. I have to remind myself.

And yes, I'm severely depressed. I hope that if I can get Sweetie into our local Nursing Home things will be better.

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Hello, Discover...it's been several days since I posted, I see.

I've had meniscus tears twice, and two operations. And finally I had to have a knee replacement. That was January of 2010. I call it, "my Brass Knee", and while it isn't perfect, it's better than what I had going, much better.

So there you are with a faulty meniscus and a daughter with a broken ankle! One thing after another.

As for my Sweetie, he's my partner of some 31 years. We are not married, and the relationship has been very difficult due to a number of things, primarily his mental illness issues. It was not my intention to have him living in my house, but the reality is that Mental Health was useless, and Social Services and various agencies were not helpful. So he's here. I wanted him to learn to be independent, manage his life, but that couldn't happen. So now I'm the burned out, exhausted, depressed caregiver to this difficult old man.

Yes, I love him. He loves me. But his health is dangerously poor, and it's more than I can cope with. Agencies are useless for his situation. We tried home nursing, and home physical therapy, no go. I won't even try Meals on Wheels, it only makes the situation worse.

I want him to go into our local nursing home, and the doctor and I are working on that.

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I miss my cat so much, but I only have six more months here, and I can't pay my landlord a $200 nonrefundable pet deposit to get another pet. She always cuddled me when she knew I was sad. I had her for 13 years, so it was so hard losing her.

I've had a lot of bad days in a row now. One day will seem like a good day, then it quickly dissolves into a horrible day. Every day I make a "plan" that I'll do this or that starting tomorrow, and I never do. Every week, I want to go to the free clinic on Wednesday mornings, but every week the weather is either too cold or rainy. I'm at a loss as to what to do about that, because I have absolutely no money for doctors and obviously, no insurance.

Those of you with good insurance or who live where medical care is free or even those who live in states that expanded Medicaid, count your blessings. I could be on my deathbed, and no one in this state would care. I really need to move to an Obamacare state, but they are all so far north and the cold just makes me so ill all the time.

Who wouldn't be depressed?

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Not sure how these boards work or where I should post. I went through a depressive relapse this winter and had to double my medication. Starting to feel better now. I am lucky to have good medical coverage for this. It was scary. When things are going well, I feel like I've vanquished "the beast" and then it returns and I feel devastated. I had been exercising 5 days a week and lost 20 pounds, but regained it.

My concern now is a recurrence of sciatica that limits how much I can do. I spend too much time cooking and feel frazzled. I feel overrun with things not done all the time. I decided to make dinners totally simple so I feel better and have more time.

I read through the thread and send you all best wishes. I had some of that kitty cuddle therapy this morning. Look forward to getting to know you all.

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Thank you so much, everyone, for your kind thoughts! Yesterday went from bad to worse. After I wrote, I went to physical therapy for my knee, which was agony. Ended up in tears. I I saw the ortho doctor, who told me she doesn't think it's arthritis after all, but a meniscus tear (which I told her I thought it was a month ago at my first appointment). She gave me a cortisone shot in my knee (which made me cry again....it was one of those days!) and scheduled an MRI for this morning. THEN I got a call from my daughter's school nurse that she had most likely broken her ankle in gym class....so it was back to the hospital for that. I was emotionally and physically drained yesterday, between the no-job stress and the physical drama! Thankfully, I actually was able to sleep last night because of the steroid shot, and I can actually walk today. I hadn't realized how much the chronic pain over the past 4 months had been wearing me out. SO....much better day today!

This is a wonderful team! I am so happy to be "meeting" you all.

LAURANCE...Since I am new, I am not sure who your Sweetie is or what is going on. Is this a spouse?

PIXIE ....Wow, I can't even imagine being a caregiver for two people in wheelchairs! You must be absolutely depleted emotionally and physically. I hope you are able to somehow take care of yourself a little bit today.



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Hello everybody, I did not sleep well last night and I am in a funk today. Trying to pull myself out of it, I am at work and I know this feeling will pass, just hate it.

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Thank you. I needed that! emoticon emoticon

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Just stopping by to offer hugs to anyone who needs them today.
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I know how hard caregiving can be. My mother lives with me and has a history of stroke and she has vascular dementia. My husband is in the early/mid stages of Alzheimer's disease. They are both in wheelchairs too. I had to quit my night shift job to be home at night, and had to hire caregivers to come in five days a week. Right now I am basically working for home care for two weeks of every month, because his insurance is dragging their feet. It can be hard when you can't get any relief. I am just hoping we can maintain for another three years until I can retire.

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Doctor day today, and I am glad to report that the doctor is working on getting my Sweetie into the Nursing Home. There's light at the end of the tunnel, and I sure hope it's not an oncoming train...

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Thanks, Miller...my son-in-law got laid off through no fault of his own (and my daughter and I are angry about this, poor management and poor decisions on the part of the person hiring, and now this wonderful guy is job hunting, and it's hard here in central Pennsylvania for a man in his '50's to find another job), and maybe he can get in touch with these other guys and find out about who is hiring.



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Fuzz Therapy! YES! That's a great name for it! It's getting close to bedtime now, which means Fuzz Therapy Time!

Wow, and I'm sorry to hear about the No Job problem. There's a lot of that going around. My son-in-law got laid off through no fault of his own. And I'm sorry to hear about the knee problems.

I can identify. My right knee is artificial now. I jokingly refer to it as "my brass knee", and now the left knee is misbehaving. So I can sympathize with you and the need to walk, and the difficulty in doing so.

I sure hope a decent job comes along for you, SOON!

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I'm sorry to hear about your struggles. I've done that before (quit my job without having another) and at first it was a relief, but then later it was stressful because I felt I was floundering a bit and didn't quite know what to do. I'm sure things will get better for you with a little time so hang in there!

If you need another job right away, maybe try contacting friends or old co-workers from previous jobs and see if anyone knows of a job opening or knows who's hiring right now. Back in 2004, my husband was laid off from his job (after 17 yrs.) and he didn't get much feedback from just sending out resumes. He found a job by networking with old co-workers from previous jobs. Don't know if this will help you, or not, but it's definitely worth a try.

Also, don't know if you've stopped by the Daily Check-In thread lately, but several people there have mentioned they're out of work and looking for jobs. So, you're definitely not alone.

I hope your knee gets better soon. Mine has been bothering me, too. I couldn't even get on my recumbent bike yesterday, so I did a short Spark video workout (9 minute arm and shoulder). Sometimes it helps my pain if I take a hot shower.

Sending you hugs and hopes that tomorrow will be a better day for you. Keep in touch.

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LAURANCE, my daughter struggles with anxiety and does the same thing with her cat. She calls it "Fuzz Therapy"!

I am having a really rough time today. I quit my job last week without having another one, and now the reality is hitting that I have no job and no money. Definitely feeling unfocused, overwhelmed, and depressed. Normally I would walk to clear my head, but I've also been battling severe arthritis in my left knee and can barely move. It's so hard to try staying on my weight loss plan when the emotions start taking over.

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Hello, Miller...I was just now posting on the Caregivers' Support Team and saying that the best anti-depressant I know is my cat. She likes to get in bed and snuggle up against me and purr. And now it's about bedtime, which means Cat Time!
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Hi Laurance, yes this winter has been too long and too cold - it'll be so nice when spring arrives.

I'm sorry you're not able to get much real-life help. I'm sure you're burned out as you've been caregiving so long. I hope you can get him into a nursing home - I know it's sometimes a long process to find just the right one and iron-out all the details, but hopefully things will fall into place.

Sending you big hugs and all my best wishes for the very best. Take care of yourself and keep in touch.

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Hello, Miller...and thanks for writing. I'm just very tired and burned out, and winter isn't helping. I want to get my Sweetie into the nursing home. He's just too much to care for.

I'm on the Caregivers' Support Team here at Spark People, so there are other people online.

But there's not much of any real-life help here. People suggest that I call the Office of the Aging. I've done this six times and gotten nowhere. People suggest Meals on Wheels, but that would only complicate things and create even more problems.

Oh, this is me grumbling. Don't pay me no never-mind. Spring will eventually come, and I hope we'll eventually get this nursing home business taken care of.

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LAURANCE, it was good to hear from you. I hadn't seen you around for a while - of course, there were months when I was away when my mother was sick so I missed seeing a lot of folks on the site. I hope you're able to get some breaks from your caregiving so you can get some relief and rejuvenation.

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I appreciate the kind people who responded to my grumbling on that little forum on the site.

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I used to tell people we move around like fleas on a dog's back! I also used to say it must be time to move when you get tired of the arrangement of pictures on the wall. LOL

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Pixieburds, thank you so much for your support. I know there are so many people who have gone through and are still going through what I have. We feel guilty about still being in this position 5 years later, like we should have somehow magically pulled ourselves up by the bootstraps. I'm praying that this will be my last move for awhile, and that I can finally save money for ME, not for moving.

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Some days I feel good & some days I feel so-so. Mainly because of my heart problems-it worries me. I'm cured" but I feel OK.

Today I'm staying home & relax.

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I know how hard it is when you have to move frequently and when you go through a devastating loss. I had a house fire several years ago and it was pretty horrible. It seems like we moved every year for so many years and it is so hard to ever get out from under the financial burdens. I hope things improve for you. Please know that there are those of us who understand what it is like, and who are thinking of you and praying for you too. You are not alone.

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I'm new to the team, and I joined because I'm having a bad day, week, month and year. My life has been in chaos since I lost everything back in 2010, and I just can't seem to get it together. I'm always having to make decisions based on money which end up costing me in the long run. I've been moving and moving for 5 years, have spent thousands of dollars going from here to there and just can't seem to find a place to settle. Now I have to move yet again in August, and I'm struggling to come up with the money. I'm just ready to give up and get rid of everything I own and get a room somewhere. Please don't tell me to see my doctor, because I've taken every anti-depressant there is, and because of my addictive genes (I'm not an addict -- only one in my family who wasn't addicted to something), they don't ever work long. I have been diagnosed as "untreatable" by one of the best depression doctors in my state. I just don't know what to do anymore.

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I set my alarm on my cell phone to remind me to take my pills every day or I forget too.


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PIXIEBURDS, my heart goes out to you - it really, really does. My mother passed away in July and she had dementia. It was one of the hardest things I've ever been through. She was a vibrant, intelligent, and hard-working woman and it felt like we lost her before we actually lost her. You will get through it - one day at a time. I wish you and your husband all the very best. emoticon emoticon

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I'm seeing more and more signs of my husbands dementia. He is living more in the past. He has mistaken me twice in the past few days for his late wife Madonna. Today he thought he needed to take her to work. He hasn't been able to drive for about 6 years now. It is so sad seeing someone who was so vibrant and funny and wonderful slowly slip away. I just hope we can keep holding on until I am old enough to retire in about three years.

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Thanks, Millerishealthy, that's amazingly thoughtful. Going to enjoy the yoga vid :)

As for finding a new therapist... The last one advised I take a six month break, and I did want to stop, as I felt battered. But starting to question the judgement of the kind of therapist who regularly says, 'let's talk about this next week' and never does. Maybe I'm not overreacting/ impossible to help/ ready to go it completely alone... Your comment really gives me something to think about.

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QWESTING, I'm sorry you're having a hard day. You're right that they don't last forever and things do get better - hold onto that. I'm also sorry your yoga was cancelled. I looked under the Articles & Videos tab on the toolbar near the top of the page and found a basic yoga video there - here's the link if you're interested.
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Are you thinking of getting a new therapist? Even though it didn't work out with one, it may work out with another. I stopped seeing my last two therapists because I didn't think they were helping me. One of them actually told me she didn't have the expertise to help me. - sometimes it takes a while to find one you fit with.

Give yourself a big pat on the back for talking a walk in the snow - it's great that you got some exercise and fresh air - that should help! And keep posting here so we can support and encourage you!
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Feeling hopeless today. Trying my hardest to be proactive and not mope - been for a nice walk in the snow - but yoga got cancelled because of the weather, and having been given up on by my therapist, I really needed to be keeping busy today.

The days that are a hard slog don't last forever, but I hate that they do keep coming around...

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It's VERY cold here!!!!!!!!

Today I'm going to the mall to get my haircut. Afterwards, I'll have lunch & window shop.

Be careful if you go out!!!!!!!

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Hi Kristina,

Hang in there and figure out a way that you won't forget your pills. One thing that having your family gone may be doing is teaching you to take better care of yourself! It may also help if you can get out of the house a bit, perhaps window shopping or a movie.

Keep letting us know how things are going. We care.

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Thanks so much millerishealthy! Your right I need to try to enjoy this while I can. I also missed my antidepressants on Saturday amd Sunday. No family to help remind me. Lol. Some times you don't know what you have till it's gone. It's so true.

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Spent Saturday night with my B/F-came home late afternoon Sunday. This weather stinks!!!! Where is spring? Staying in today to do a few things around the house.

FFUSCO-Where do you live in NJ? I live in Middlesex County.


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Kristina, I'm sorry you're feeling so alone right now. It is surprising sometimes how alone we feel when we thought we'd enjoy the solitude. I've been on a few trips all by myself and I really thought I'd enjoy them more than I did. I have to confess that I spent a lot of the time feeling lonely and thinking about how much I missed my daughter and my husband.

I wish I could think of something to say to make you feel better. Try to remember that your family will be back before you know it and then you won't have the chance and freedom of being alone that you do right now. Sometimes it's fun to have the house all to yourself. You can dance around and be silly and sing all your favorite songs as loudly as you want to. Make the most of the time - watch whatever you want on TV, fix and eat whatever you choose, sit in the best chair in the house, stay in your pj's all day if you can and want to. Just generally try and make the best of the freedom while you've got it. (Safely, of course!).

And keep checking in with us - we'll be here for you!! Hugs!!!

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I'm feeling really alone right now - my family went on vacation without me. but I've never been actually alone and not able to contact them before. I thought I would enjoy being alone. But instead I'm just alone.

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Yeah, I was right about too early for buds on trees. So far today we have about six inches of snow, may get a few more inches. I am not sure I will make it to church today. Guess if I don't I will just have to worship God at home.

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Plenty cold here in Jersey, but remember that Feb. is the shortest month and it does not pass without sweetness (Valentine's Day).

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I keep telling myself to just hold on for 4 more weeks and February will be over. It may still be cold in March, but March always feels like it's in the "spring" category to me - so I'm holding out for that.


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I was looking for any signs of buds on trees, too early yet. But it's coming.

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I'm getting cabin fever with all this snow!!!!!!!! Spring isn't coming soon enough for me. Oh, well!!!!!!!!!!!!!! emoticon

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one perk of my new job is that it is light out when I go to work, and eventually it will still be light out when I get off too! Quite a switch from when I was working nights.

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More snow is on it's way for Sunday & Monday(3"-5")!!!!!!! I'm getting sick of it!!!!! Where is the spring?

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Dinner at your favorite restaurant sounds awesome - and dinner without the kids will be a rare treat, I'm sure!
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PS - Happy Anniversary!!! (a few days early)



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My only consolation is that my wedding anniversary is on Sunday and we have our friends watching the kids on Monday so we can do to dinner at our favorite restaurant. Dinner without the kids - do I even know that that is anymore? LOL

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Oh, one other thought... at our local convention they won't sell you a ticket on Sunday, but you can still walk around certain places for free & see the cosplay and take pics, etc. I know you wouldn't get to go to any dealer's rooms, etc., but it could still make you feel a part of it (maybe?)

Hang in there!

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Yeah, sometimes it seems like being an adult is all responsibility and no fun. I'm 60 and I still can't get used to that! :( Maybe you could plan something for next weekend that you'll enjoy? I know it won't be the same as going to Comic-Con, but is there anything low-cost that you could plan and look forward to? Maybe have some friends over for pasta or pizza and a cosplay Doctor Who or Game of Thrones marathon? Maybe that's a silly idea... just trying to think of something...






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Being a grown up sucks. I had made the commitment to watch a friend's kids today and tomorrow. We are also in a financial hard spot. So the Salt Lake Fan Experience is this weekend and I couldn't go because of my other commitment and we couldn't afford my ticket. So the hubs is with his best friend geeking out with some of my favorite folks from Game of Thrones, Doctor Who, etc because he managed to get one ticket from his work for free. And I get to stay at home.

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SANTEEME--Yes, I did get out. It was wonderful to break the cabin fever!!!!!! Today I went to the library--got out 3 books. That should keep me busy for a little while.

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HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY!

Wow! the east coast definitely had an aweful blizzard. My warmth angels are on the way!!

You all need lots of emoticon !

Building my bucket list and enjoying the ones I've accomplished!!! I quit smoking and have visited 34 out of 50 states, WENT TO Disneyland in2014 for the first time, had African lobster in 2014,and wsent to second hand stores in Laguna Beach Cal.

But I want to see the grand canyon, smithsonian institute, eat lobster in Portland Maine, a train trip for two months down the east coast then rent a car to other states I have not been to in the South and have enough money to thoroughly enjoy


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