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HANNAH0000
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I cant do the meds either. Green tea with honey seems to perk me up in the afternoon. I do dark chocolate for a kick after dinner:) Its a good brain booster. Getting into a good exercise routine has really been the best therapy of all for me. Have you tried yoga or meditation? It can be very spiritually and physically healing. Have you been finding creative ways to enjoy your healthier foods and lifestyle changes? Hope you are getting lots of support and rockin it out!

"Joy is the essence of success."-Rumi
"When ego is lost, limit is lost."-Anon


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hang in there annie. I just got out out the hospital friday for the 2nd time in 3 weeks. first it was allergies then turned to bronchitis then pneumonia with some congested heart failure. so I have not been able to breath much less move my body. and the depression with this has been terrible. but we will be ok. baby steps always. first you got to heal your body and mind then you can slowly get back on track. my step mom has div. and it is a terrible pain. I feel for you and you are in my prayers. hang in there. hugss

Mary

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Hang in ANAMORPHOSIS. That is one of my diagnosis' so I' kinda can imagine. HUGS emoticon

looking for friends to connect with, get to know, and encourage each other along this journey. :-)


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White-knuckle time. Borderline personality disorder is a butt-kicker but we all have things to deal with. It will be okay.

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The solar storm will calm down soon, so just hang on by your teeth if you have to, but do hang on.

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I posted something in the SparkPeople caf that was bad judgment on my part, about an acquaintance of mine who's been giving me gifts. I took them because I didn't want to hurt his feelings, but people who replied said I've been leading him on. Yeah they're right I suppose but I was too nave to realize it. I'm pissed at myself for posting that. I hate being judged and ridiculed but I should have known better.

Like Gold to Aery Thinness Beat. ~John Donne


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Thank you for sharing your story with me THEPOET. It sounds like your on transition back to the right path. Are you maintaining an exercise and fairly clean diet regimen? Just wondered if you noticed this helping you even with the medications.


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I know well this cycle of depression...mine is centered around sad anniversary of deaths or my anniversary date of my marriage...lost my whole world when my husband of 28 years dies from leukemia in Sept 2008. Two brothers died by guns, one was suicide and the other accidental but deemed a suicide by the doctor.

I am just beginning to get my life together and trying to find a date. It is something that scares me, but I am lonely which is part of my depression. Like you, I would like to be less medicated, but it is unrealistic for me at this time. My medications help my depression, anxiety, OCD, ADHD, and PTSD. Please hang in there, it does get better...I know because I crashed and burned on two occasions and was suicidal, so I voluntarily went into a psych ward for help...once in 2010, and again in 2012. On each of those times, I was because of tragedy or death. In 2010, I found a body in my basement, a renter died from a heart attack, a day later, a car killed my cat: in 2012, my father died and within a month, I was falsely accused of assaulting someone. (I was evicting renters for not paying their rent and that was their revenge on me) The police took their word over mine because it was 2 against 1.

I know this is really saying a lot, but felt the need to give you the full picture of how a person can make a comeback. You look and sound like you are on the right road. I appraise your efforts, because when a person decides to try, it is success...but if a person decides to not try, then that is failure. So please keep trying and I know you can and will conquer this. Have a blessed day.

P.S. Turn to God too, he helped me many times.



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Thank you Carolmon:)


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Welcome! I'm glad that you're here :)



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Hi All! I'm just joining the group and trolling to see what type of results people are having with their depression with the aid of proper diet and exercise. I'm trying to go the medicated-less route and already find it beneficial. I was in depressed mode from Nov until Feb. It's possible that's it's seasonal but last years episode lasted from Jan-June, so who knows. I've tried medication but the peeling skin on my hands and feet PLUS the loss of my sense of taste was too much. I love good food and not being able to enjoy was depressing in its own right. 😜. But anywho, I'm glad this group is here just in case I fall into the abyss again. 😊


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Thanks for having this area for us. I've been down lately, which is nothing new. I am trying though to keep from plummeting today. This last week I followed things so well. I even added in exercise, which has helped my mood some. But the stupid scale, it barely moved. I hate how sometimes the little things make me feel so much worse about myself. It's like little disappointments turn into these huge snowballs. Then as these things get bigger and blown out of proportion in my mind the worse I feel. Ah well, thanks for letting me get the stupidness out of my head, sometimes it helps.

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As I read the posts from everyone, I am reminded how wonderful it is to be able to vent to such kind people via spark people. We may never, ever meet, but I always feel connected and cared about. Please keep posting and sharing. We are all truly on the same journey for health and happiness!


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Hiya team, sorry to hear that people are suffering at the moment. At least the weather is getting better and hopefully we will all be able to get outside more and benefit from Spring. Had a rubbish few weeks but enjoyed church today and I'm going to take my DD out for a Sunday lunch at our local Indian. (shouldn't really as the money is meant to be towards something else but sometimes we have to live in the day we're in and let God take over). Blessings to you all and please know that I am praying for the DWD team and that God is listening. Love. XX

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Hi Bulldawg,
That's a lot of things going on in your life. I'm hearing you as strong person behind it all. Life tosses us a lot of crap sometimes for no good reason. I hope tomorrow is a little better. Hang in there.

A happy heart is engaged in life.


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Hi Hayley,
I just wanted to say hi, and to let you know I was listening. Sometimes I find just keeping one part of my life together is an important achievement when other parts are not. So congratulations to you on maintaining your weight as you go through medication changes! Happy thoughts are being sent your way.

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i cant seem to shake anything i haven't seen or herd from my man in almost a month i'm having health problems and so are my mother in father my mom was with my abusive step dad for 4 years and tricked me into coming over saying he wasn't there i thought i would never get out and i was bullied allot because i have big hair and i tried to sing all the time music was my out lit i had my first relationship when i was 17 and i have my second and current one since the end of February he is helping me out of my slump unlike the other that tried making me feel worse just because i was depressed i still see my ex and his best friend all the time even though that friend was my friend first and kinda is my cousin he turned on me and i learned they still act 5 like childish boys i know i seem young to have problems but if you lived my life you would understand



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I have been out of sorts for a week now. Feeling profoundly lonely. The usual things I do to make myself feel better aren't working. I had a medication change several weeks ago and I know that has part to do with why I'm feeling this way. Even knowing that though, these feelings scare me. I've made it a point to attend support group meetings and get out and exercise, and I'm slowly getting back to normal after going back on the med I was originally on. Trying to manage my depression is depressing in itself. The best I've been able to do is maintain my weight. I've been eating too much sugar because its my one pleasure in life right now. All I can do is hurry up and wait for my meds to start working again, and this episode has made it very clear to me that I need to be back in therapy. Thanks for listening.


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PHATCRYSSY
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4/3/14 5:48 A

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Am just not feeling it today. Had a squabble with my husband last night. Then I couldn't slept. I was cold, hot, had heart burn, was nauseated, tossed and turned, was hungry at 3:45 a.m. But refrained from eating. Today starts a busy day for the next week and a half. It makes me depressed to even think about all that I have to do days to come


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I had that same day yesterday, just wanted to cry. But, today, even after my horrendous BMI figure and my slight weight gain (?), I read an article to boost the mood. I still have to take my meds, I can't do it by "just making myself smile" but I know that if I do "fake it" long enough, my positive self will surface for a while at least.

Don't talk down to yourself when you are feeling blue. It's okay, we are people and we all have good days and bad days. I had one very long bad day (all of December and January) most recently. Now they are just here and there, but like you, don't know what brings them on. Hormones, meds, kids, stress? I believe that people that feel down or are clinically depressed are often very sensitive people. I know I am. I feel everyone else's feelings PLUS my own so deeply. This can be a blessing and a curse.

You have lost weight and that is a great thing to feel proud of! Hope today is a better day, you have me rooting for you today. Yours, Julie (jpaggeo)

Taking it one day at a time, one decision at a time and enjoying the journey to health.


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3/31/14 12:43 P

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Having a very blah day. Almost everything makes me want to cry.

Discipline: Doing what needs to be done, even though you don't want to.


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I agree Crazy hope you feel better soon


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get better fast Pitter


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ya know - Ive come to the realization that I am depressed........................ dont want meds - and I know this is not going to change over night.

So as long as I keep busy - and pretend Im not depressed - and get out there in the world..... maybe someday I will wake up and not be depressed.

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I believe weight loss is more about how much you eat - and exercise is more about toning.


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Hello everyone. I had a meeting with my supervisor at work. I'd sent him a horrendous email "I can't take it any more. Putting in my two-weeks notice." Why did I do that? ((KICKS SELF)) Then another email, "I was having a bad day, changed my mind. He still wanted to talk to me but it's okay now. Unfortunately my supervisor is too understanding. He should have just fired me. I have to work all weekend but will white-knuckle it if necessary. The problem is not the job, it's me and my depression. emoticon

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Hello, team.
Depression is so sapping. Being sick makes it doubly so. I listen to music and go out side. It usually helps lift my spirits some.


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emoticon I get very depressed when I don't feel well. I have a sinus infection and a frozen shoulder. The shoulder has limited my exercise and the sinus infection has made me light headed and dizzy. Don't like feeling like this!

Lord, bless my diet buddies and help me met my 2014 weight goals of 60 pounds.
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Hi Everyone emoticon



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Saying prayers for us all team. XX


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Hi team its been a bit since I posted on here. My depression was out of control earlier this year and my clinician upped the strength on one of my scripts. I has been working but I know it wasn't enough. My depression isn't all concoming like it was but I still feel blah. I still have trouble finding good things to think about and I am still having problems on some days getting out of bed to face the day. I know my depression has gotten worse do to health issues, money issues and the prospect of not being able to go back to work. I just don't know how to make everything better. As my health is not getting better, I find that my depression is getting worse. I never liked going to a councilor or a psychiatrist but I have a feeling that I may have to see one so that I can get a grip on my life.

Thanks for letting me post my feelings. Hope everyone is doing well.
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I have leaned that you cannot rely on others or pets or "things" to make you feel better. BUT when I figure out what it is I will sure shout it to the world.



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Am having a better day. My prayers are with you all today as you go about your day. May you be blessed.


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Hey. I wrote a blog on my page title " Treatment For Depression" that showed a pic of our new puppy. She made me feel so happy since these first two weeks we've had her,but now I'm feeling down again. Sadness,emotions stuck in the pit of my stomach(could'nt cry them out if I tried...does anyone else feel that?) I thought she had cured me.
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I think that everyone who belongs to the page feels that life is hard. I started at the beginning of March to write down three good things each day, which has helped. It doesn't take the circumstances different but makes me feel a bit better.



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I am sorry you are having to go thru this with your Mom. I too had to place my mom in a nursing home in 2012. She did not want to go and I had promised my dad that I would take care of her as long as I could. But the doctors finally intervened and she had to go. I visited her every afternoon after work and on weekends. Please just find the best place close to you. Make sure the staff knows you and you know them . You will get to be able to tell the people that really care and the ones that are just there for the job. Make sure the administration knows you and that you go to all the meetings you can. Volunteer if you have the time. You will find that the people around your mom will become family. The other family members will be a great support for you. Try to get your siblings on board and have them do the same. I had medical and legal power of attorney so that helped with decisions that had to be made. I was lucky with one of my brothers that we talked about things and could agree. The other not so much.



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I am going to have a better day today. I still have some residual headache, but i am going to get out of bed and clean today. everyone please have a great day



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Had a bad night last night. Got to thinking about my children, a boy 16, and 2 girls 14 & 10. I have not seen them in 7 years. My ex in-laws have them and have not allowed me any contact. The past several months I have been thinking very much about my children. Last night I got very depressed nd had as bad crying spell. Then came the nauseted stomach and migraine. The nauseated stomach is mostly gone today, the headache is still lingering to were I am light sensitive, and smell sensitive. Also my face is swollen today. Tomorrow should bring a better more positive day.

Hope that you all are doing well and staying on task with healthy eating and exercise. To those who are having a knot so good day due to illness or other situation my prayers are with you. Keep your head up


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Please feel free to private message me if you want to. I am not an expert in sexual abuse counseling but I am a counselor and would be happy to listen. I will continue to pray for your healing.



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I used to have a psychologist I would see and I liked her except that my insurance is deplorable and I don't have the money to go to her anymore. I am a survivor of sexual abuse. I appreciate your thoughts, prayers and you taking the time to listen/talk to me.


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You need someone to help you reconcile the past so that you can live more fully now. If you were the victim of sexual abuse, I understand. Find a therapist or someone you can talk to so that you can be more healthy. My prayers are with you!!



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I'm having a bad day and what's worse is I have no idea what to do about it. Last night when my husband and I were being intimate I had a flashback/trigger, whatever you want to call it, whereas concerns my past. Another one of those puzzle pieces fell into place and while my husband was able to calm me down, today I feel forlorn, exhausted, wrung-out and wanting to hurt myself, which is the surest sign that it's still haunting me. I don't know if I posted in the right place, I hope I did...meh. Anyway, thanks for listening...


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These days are hard. Does anyone have any information about how cortisol, as a reaction to high stress, works against losing weight?



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Thank you YAEME. Things still sticky here but I have to keep going and growing! Speaking of which, my healthy eating is not so healthy at the moment. It is usually the first thing to go when I feel unhappy or stressed. I hope your weekend will be pleasant and full of happy moments. Praying for that for all of us. Blessings, Dee. XX

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When I feel that way, it helps me to take a walk or do some type of exercise while listening to music...even if only for 5 or 10 minutes.

Failure is not an option


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Having a horrible week. Which is a shame, since my weekEND had been wonderful.

Cannot stop the recurring thoughts of rage and pain, of constant 'futuring' with an excellent but pessimistic imagination. Please send good thoughts.



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After 7 years, I can recognize when I have a bad day because depression kicks in for a short visit.. but STILL, I struggle with it and I feel like crap. I HATE THAT! Just saying it is a big thing. I really hope tomorrow's better!
Thank you for your time! =)

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I really hope that things get better and easier for your family. My girls and I live with my parents and it can be hard to develop new habits when others don't want to

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Thank you Miller, you are a lovely lady. Good luck and hugs for finding the very best place that suits your mum and all her needs. All your friends here are sending you love and support in your search for the perfect housing. XX

By the way, I discovered there is still another weekend of the Six Nations to go!! Yeahh!! Looking forward to that, God willing. Would love to se Ireland win.

I actually went to a pub to watch the game on Saturday afternoon. It was so good to get out and have a bit of a laugh with my friend who I haven't seen for a while. I also saw a couple of people that I used to know ages ago and that was nice too. emoticon

Hello to everyone, things have been tough lately but hopefully I will battle on through. I've decided to be mindful of my own needs as well as the needs of others. I have a family, some of which are not reacting well to me doing things for myself and not doing their bidding as I used to. I felt disrespected because they didn't appreciate what I did eg. not eating the food I cooked and going on to cook something else and having their clothes all over their bedroom floor - ones I had washed and folded mixed up with dirty laundry. I simply stopped picking up and went out. No clean sweaters for school this morning so they had to wear what had been thrown on the floor on Friday. Needless to say there has been shock and horror especially when I went out instead of ferrying to and fro. I'm 54 now and feel the need to be myself instead of scurrying along unappreciated. I also believe that I am God's child and no-one has the right to put me down or diminish me. Those days are gone, with God's help I will fight depression and value myself in order to be strong and mindful of others too. I'm saying a wee prayer for all of us this morning team, that we can overcome thoughts that make us feel so bad and discover lovely things that make our hearts feel joy. Blessings. XX

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Good luck, Miller. I hope you find a place that she loves. I have driven past some really nice assisted living places and always thought they were cool apartment complexes. I think since your Mom wants this, it may be just want she needs. Maybe she will meet some great people and enjoy it. I hope so. I will pray for you that it all works out. I'm sure the right place is out there.

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Thank you for the kind words and encouragement. Best wishes on finding the right place for your mother; I can only imagine how hard that may be. I am an only child so I may have to face that one day; I don;t get along well my mother, but would still want the best for her when it came to a move like that.

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SALAM4545, Im sorry to hear that youre struggling with insomnia, emotions, and conjunctivitis, as well. I know what you mean about any kind of physical impairment making things worse thats exactly the way it is with me. I think pre-planning and journaling are great ideas. Also posting here is good because its so easy to isolate when were feeling down when what we really need is to stay in contact with others. I also think YAEME79 had a good idea about getting some sort of physical activity, especially outdoors. Being in nature has a soothing and uplifting effect on me. Take care and do something good for yourself every day.


YAEME79, its wonderful that you found the right combination of medications to help your depression. Im sorry you lost your job that is such a stressful thing to have to go through. Try not to be hard on yourself, though. Im sure you were doing the best you could at the time and its just one of those unfortunate things that sometimes happen. I hope you find a job soon and you and your girls will have more choices about where to live.


NEEDTOBESLIM3 its so good to see you on the thread again. Kudos to you for learning about mindfulness and working hard to stand up for yourself and put yourself first sometimes thats great! And for those who dont like it, they can get used to it or, as you said, move on. I admire you for taking care of yourself.

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Tomorrow, I'm starting the steps to place my mother in either an assisted living facility or a nursing home. It's a complicated process and I dread doing it for many reasons. I won't have a whole lot of help from my siblings, either - one works, one lives a few hours away and the other is against the whole thing. Mother wants to go because she can no longer care for herself and she's tired of living alone. It's a tough thing to face. I'll be doing a lot of praying.

Goodnight all. I hope the coming week brings a bit of joy to us all.

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Hiya team, its been a while since I've posted on this thread and I'm finally waking up after the winter hibernation!! Things are going ok and I'm working hard to not be the pushover that I have been over the last few years. I'm learning more about mindfulness and it has made a big impression on my life and the way I want to live it from now on. Some people are not reacting well to me putting myself first sometimes but they are just going to have to adjust or move on. Blessings to you all, XX

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I feel for all of you; I am lucky that about 3 years ago my dr. found the right combination of meds for me. I take sertaline ( a form of zoloft) and amitrypaline. When I do get depressed it is usually only for a few days. I have also found that just making myself do some sort of physical activity really helps.especially if it is outdoors. The weather has been getting more spring like and just being outside w/ the fresh air really perks me up and reminds me of better times.
I have been trying to find a job since I let myself get fired from an excellent job back in November; my girls and I are living w/ my mom now and she can be really mean and tries to push her way of thinking on others. I feel really bad for letting this happen b/c I do not want my girls around her on a daily basis; I had a hard child hood kinda; she spoiled me w/ things money could buy; but when she did give me attention it was usually complaining.

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Ugh, I think I'm hitting a downward cycle. My emotions have all over the place, and Thursday I had Major Insomnia (always a bad sign). When I did fall asleep I had nightmares. Even after a nap the next day I was all over the place emotionally. Today I woke up with conjunctivitis. Physical impairment of any type added to no sleep adds up to trouble.

So, I'm going to try to minimize the worst of it by doing a little pre planning and journaling so I don't hit the depths too bad for too long. I'm hoping that monitoring it closely will help me pull out of it quicker. Any tips would be gratefully appreciated.


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Teeny2bee, believe me I know what you are going thru. I agree totally with MPN5621. It was close to a full year that it took for my psychiatrist to find the correct medication to get me started on a normal life again. I still take anti-depressants and will for the rest of my life. Mine is a chemical imbalance in my brain and it took a couple of months with the psychiatrist to convince my wife that it was not something she did to bring on my depression.
My prayers are with you. It is not easy to get thru what is happening but you will and things will be better. Trust me.


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TEENY2BEE, I typed a long reply to you earlier, but I must not have clicked on "Post Message" because it's not here and now I've lost it. I'll try to re-create the significant parts in a shorter and more succinct form.

First, I'm very sorry that you're suffering so much. It sounds like your depression and anxiety and migraines are not being treated adequately. I think it would be wise to return to your medical doctor (have your Vitamin D levels checked and other tests to see if there is a physical cause that can be treated) and your psychiatrist, if you have one, to have your medications re-evaluated.

Sometimes it takes a long time to find the right medications or combination of medications that will work for us specifically. Some people have treatment resistant depression and others, like me, are so sensitive to medication side effects, that we can never get up to a truly therapeutic dosage of medication.

It doesn't sound as though your husband has ever suffered from depression and anxiety. We can have people who love us and everything in the world to be grateful for, but those things can't wipe away the depression.

Please keep seeking better treatment. Life can get better - hold on until it does.

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Hey Everybody. Never posted on here but just documenting everthing I am feeling,hope you dont mind. I am married with 2 kids.I have had my job for 16 years. I have had migraines for several years(have been treated for past couple of years but getting worse because of depression.) I take meds for anxiety and depression. My mother has been in and out of hospitals for the past two years and i never know when it will be her last time. All I want to do is sleep. Be left alone and sleep. I can find no happiness..not in food,not even in my own children. If something prompts me to cry,I cry. Most of the time i just have a feeling in the pit of my stomach just eating away. My husband says everyone loves me and I have no reason to have my 'freak outs or crying spells'. My migraines are worse.

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Allen-I'm so sorry! I used to be a scout leader when I was young and I was getting panic attacks before each bigger outing or trip with my troop. Sometimes I felt like I was going to choke. I didn't understand what was happenning to me and why. I was extremely good at hiding this and acting like normal.
After two years I had to quit this activity, which was sad, but I weren't able to handle my feelings anymore and didn't even know that I could ask someone for help. I was sorry for the kids I left and for myself. I loved scouting, I loved those kids and I was a good leader. After all these years it still hurts.

I'm glad you feel better. And I hope you are seekng help to stop getting these terrible symptoms which hold you from doing things you'd like to do. Hugs to you.


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ALLEN, I know panic attacks can be very debilitating and I'm sure it feels horrible when you get them. I'm sorry you weren't able to go, but am glad you're feeling better now.

Hang in there!







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I volunteered for a project in the RV park a week ago to be done today and had to cancel because I had another panic attack. After I canceled I started to feel better but took all day to get back to normal. I am feeling good now again but hate the feeling when I get them. I will survive.


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Kimberlee, I hope the inpatient treatment, even if it was a short time, was helpful.
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I'm home & doing ok

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Same-let us know how you doing. Prayers and hugs.


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SAME, Im relieved that you went to the doctor today and I hope they were able to help you. You really do sound terribly sick and you may need an antibiotic or something. If you can go outside to smoke, then I definitely think you can ask your BF to go outside to smoke. Get well soon!


PIGGYWAY, the weather is bad here, too, but Saturday and Sunday are supposed to be warmer. I hope your weather gets better soon.


RAPUNZEL, Ive never traveled enough to have jet lag, but I hope yours soon goes away.


Hellos to all!!!

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Same-so sorry you are so sick. My prayers are going to you. My sis has asthma and her DH had to always go outside for a smoke during winter, or she wasn't able to breathe. He went ahead and quit smoking a couple of years ago. He had similar symptoms as you do. I hope doctor gives you right medicine and you'll be better soon. Hugs.


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jet lag misery.....

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sorry things are so bad Same hope the Dr. can get things straighter out


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THE WEATHER STILL BAD

HELLO TO ALL I AM TRYING VERY HARD TO SUCCESS


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I am getting ready to go to the doctors. I am hoping I can finally get over what ever this is. Over a week is to long. Depending on what she says I am asking her for the rest of the week off.. what ever this is I can't manage to sit up or stand up for more then couple hours without getting dizzy and light headed and nauseous ... And I really don't want my ladies catching it.. I am somewhat young and it is kicking my butt, couldn't imagine being in 90's and catching this.

When the BF called me Tuesday morning and said he was coming home for couple days, I thought oh no... not while im sick, this will be 3rd day here now and don't seem like he is leaving any time soon. It wouldn't be so bad I guess if he did not chain smoke... he can have like 5 or more cigs in an hour, and even with air purifier I just can't breathe. Sick as I am he has watched me bundle up and go outside to smoke, you would think he would to. I had maybe 5 cigs all day yesterday and smoked every one outside.. By 6:30 yesterday evening I was getting frustrated and said plz don't smoke so much or put that out I can't breathe. At 7 went out to porch and started coughing so bad I couldn't breathe... his fix was to put purifier on high... Which just threw out more cold air, and couldn't hear yourself think.. Gonna have to tell him today to at least smoke every other one outside ... I can't handle the smoke.

Anyway, I guess I better finish getting ready to go.

Hope everyone has a great day.

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