Author: Sorting Last Post on Top ↓ Message:
ABETTERME2015 Posts: 316
1/25/15 8:33 A

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
emoticon AGILEK9S--I do, too!!!! I hope that it will help me lose more!!!!!!

Elise--Middlesex County, NJ

10% at a time

If at first you don't succeed, try-try again!!!!

Moderation is the key.

It WILL happen!!!!!!!


 current weight: 233.0 
 
233
214.75
196.5
178.25
160
AGILEK9S's Photo AGILEK9S SparkPoints: (4,182)
Fitness Minutes: (2,675)
Posts: 50
1/24/15 2:59 P

Send Private Message
Reply
I like the new user name. emoticon

 Pounds lost: 3.0 
 
0
4.25
8.5
12.75
17
ABETTERME2015 Posts: 316
1/24/15 1:55 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
As you can see I changed my username!!!!!! I thought that it would motivate me more!!!!!!

Elise--Middlesex County, NJ

10% at a time

If at first you don't succeed, try-try again!!!!

Moderation is the key.

It WILL happen!!!!!!!


 current weight: 233.0 
 
233
214.75
196.5
178.25
160
ABETTERME2015 Posts: 316
1/23/15 1:30 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
SANTEEME--I did have a good outing. Now I'm going to crochet & read for awhile.

Elise--Middlesex County, NJ

10% at a time

If at first you don't succeed, try-try again!!!!

Moderation is the key.

It WILL happen!!!!!!!


 current weight: 233.0 
 
233
214.75
196.5
178.25
160
SANTEEME's Photo SANTEEME SparkPoints: (2,389)
Fitness Minutes: (967)
Posts: 49
1/23/15 10:25 A

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Elise, that is a very good plan! Have a pleasant outing!

 January Minutes: 967
 
0
250
500
750
1000
ABETTERME2015 Posts: 316
1/23/15 6:28 A

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Today I'm going to the market. Later I'll cook & crochet--that way I could keep my hands busy & my mind off my troubles!!!!!!!

Elise--Middlesex County, NJ

10% at a time

If at first you don't succeed, try-try again!!!!

Moderation is the key.

It WILL happen!!!!!!!


 current weight: 233.0 
 
233
214.75
196.5
178.25
160
DELAND5 SparkPoints: (668)
Fitness Minutes: (30)
Posts: 34
1/22/15 1:33 P

Send Private Message
Reply
Hi I'm not here very often. I don't feel really down or very happy ,just kind of blah, I try to get into exercise and then I talk myself out of it when the time comes. I live in the middle of nowhere and on a major highway so even walking is not safe. Maybe it's just an excuse. I'm really terrible at follow through. Maybe I'm just a whiner.


29 Days since:  soda
 
0
12
25
37
50
ABETTERME2015 Posts: 316
1/22/15 7:57 A

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
emoticon everyone for your support & kind words--I really appreciate it!!!!!!!!!!!

Today I'm supposed to go to the library then read & cook. It has been hard to walk because of the weather--I know that helps with depression but I try to do other activities.

Elise--Middlesex County, NJ

10% at a time

If at first you don't succeed, try-try again!!!!

Moderation is the key.

It WILL happen!!!!!!!


 current weight: 233.0 
 
233
214.75
196.5
178.25
160
FATCRISMATIC's Photo FATCRISMATIC SparkPoints: (9,897)
Fitness Minutes: (7,152)
Posts: 146
1/21/15 4:52 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Happy 2015! A new year to achieve! emoticon With happy meals!

Elise,
emoticon I know I have big shoulders like other support I read here. Spark People says it perfectly - spark people or charge people's motor. I know that sounds silly, but it has got me a bit more motivated. So you are not alone.

emoticon For the last six weeks I have had I guess the flu. The first 4 weeks I coughed none stop. Sleep came with prescription. Then the last two weeks cough has eased up, but sleep was interrupted with coughing. All of this out of control days has left me very depressed. Holidays were lost. (except for Thanksgiving - was in California) I had my celebration last Saturday.

emoticon So, now I've had 2 nights sleep with no interruptions. Almost back to normal.

Just living in the moment.
Chris emoticon

Building my bucket list and enjoying the ones I've accomplished!!! I quit smoking and have visited 34 out of 50 states, WENT TO Disneyland in2014 for the first time, had African lobster in 2014,and wsent to second hand stores in Laguna Beach Cal.

But I want to see the grand canyon, smithsonian institute, eat lobster in Portland Maine, a train trip for two months down the east coast then rent a car to other states I have not been to in the South and have enough money to thoroughly enjoy


 Pounds lost: 5.0 
 
0
7
14
21
28
MILLERISHEALTHY's Photo MILLERISHEALTHY Posts: 6,299
1/21/15 8:38 A

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Hi, I used to post here every day, but haven't in a long long time - it's so great to see there's still so much support on this thread. It warms my heart and reminds me of what's so wonderful about SparkPeople - the people!!!
emoticon emoticon

Hugs to all who need them!!!
emoticon emoticon

Miller emoticon

"The present is what slips by us while we’re pondering the past and worrying about the future. - Ziggy

"The groundwork of all happiness is health."
Leigh Hunt

"Comparison is the thief of joy."
Theodore Roosevelt


 current weight: 202.0 
 
225
213.75
202.5
191.25
180
SANTEEME's Photo SANTEEME SparkPoints: (2,389)
Fitness Minutes: (967)
Posts: 49
1/21/15 7:59 A

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
I do so understand your pain. I wish no one had to endure heartbreak. Stay strong because Spring is on its way!!

 January Minutes: 967
 
0
250
500
750
1000
ABETTERME2015 Posts: 316
1/21/15 7:34 A

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
emoticon PIXIEBURDS & SANTEEME!!!!!!!! I'm feeling better every day but it still hurts. I try to keep myself busy(chores, cooking, reading & when possible walking). I can't wait for the spring!!!!!!!!

Elise--Middlesex County, NJ

10% at a time

If at first you don't succeed, try-try again!!!!

Moderation is the key.

It WILL happen!!!!!!!


 current weight: 233.0 
 
233
214.75
196.5
178.25
160
PIXIEBURDS's Photo PIXIEBURDS Posts: 146
1/20/15 6:11 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Elise, you can use us as a sounding board. We may not have a degree or a title, but we understand. emoticon

 January Minutes: 454
 
0
30
60
90
120
SANTEEME's Photo SANTEEME SparkPoints: (2,389)
Fitness Minutes: (967)
Posts: 49
1/20/15 6:05 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Elise, I'm sorry your appointment was cancelled. Try to stay strong. Perhaps, try 10 - 15 minutes of exercise which should help to kick in some endorphins. A nice warm bath after might help make you feel less stressed and anxious, as well.

 January Minutes: 967
 
0
250
500
750
1000
ABETTERME2015 Posts: 316
1/20/15 2:13 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
My appointment was cancelled at the last minute(oh, well!!!!!!). I rescheduled in 2 weeks. Sometimes I need someone to "touch base" with & there is no one around!!!!!!!!

Elise--Middlesex County, NJ

10% at a time

If at first you don't succeed, try-try again!!!!

Moderation is the key.

It WILL happen!!!!!!!


 current weight: 233.0 
 
233
214.75
196.5
178.25
160
AGILEK9S's Photo AGILEK9S SparkPoints: (4,182)
Fitness Minutes: (2,675)
Posts: 50
1/20/15 11:03 A

Send Private Message
Reply
Hey LE3inmemphis, just remember....... emoticon

 Pounds lost: 3.0 
 
0
4.25
8.5
12.75
17
LE3INMEMPHIS's Photo LE3INMEMPHIS Posts: 105
1/20/15 9:27 A

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Sometimes just reading this forum puts a smile on my face. I'm struggling to get back into working out now I feel like the Nike commercial is whispering in my ear--"Just do it"

 January Minutes: 413
 
0
250
500
750
1000
ABETTERME2015 Posts: 316
1/20/15 6:46 A

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Each day I'm feeling a little better. Today I have an appointment with my therapist so maybe after I'll feel even better.

Elise--Middlesex County, NJ

10% at a time

If at first you don't succeed, try-try again!!!!

Moderation is the key.

It WILL happen!!!!!!!


 current weight: 233.0 
 
233
214.75
196.5
178.25
160
AGILEK9S's Photo AGILEK9S SparkPoints: (4,182)
Fitness Minutes: (2,675)
Posts: 50
1/19/15 7:47 P

Send Private Message
Reply
I was very down earlier today but I had an appointment (already set up) with my personal trainer. I worked out for 90 minutes and that really helped my mood. emoticon

 Pounds lost: 3.0 
 
0
4.25
8.5
12.75
17
PIXIEBURDS's Photo PIXIEBURDS Posts: 146
1/19/15 7:33 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Hope everyone is having a good day. I am three days post surgery on my foot and doing well. Only needed tylenol once. I have decided that I really don't need the Aleeve twice a day that I have taken for years for arthritic pain. I am having NO PAIN! Off now to do some weights workout.

 January Minutes: 454
 
0
30
60
90
120
ABETTERME2015 Posts: 316
1/16/15 5:40 A

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
emoticon for all your kind words & advice!!!!! Right now, it's still to fresh but I will think about all the suggestions. As you know, it's not that easy but I'll get thru this!!!!! Just as long as I have someone there in case I need a shoulder!!!!!!




Elise--Middlesex County, NJ

10% at a time

If at first you don't succeed, try-try again!!!!

Moderation is the key.

It WILL happen!!!!!!!


 current weight: 233.0 
 
233
214.75
196.5
178.25
160
PIXIEBURDS's Photo PIXIEBURDS Posts: 146
1/15/15 10:15 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
I am sorry you are going through this. As others have said, sometimes the heartbreak of a break up can open new doors that you never dreamed of. When my first marriage broke up I was single for a very long time but I was able to put myself through college, and now have a wonderful career as a nurse. My kids actually benefitted too because they didn't have his poor parenting, and had stability in their lives. Today I have a wonderful husband whom I love dearly. Things don't happen overnight, but your life will get back on track. We are here for you.

 January Minutes: 454
 
0
30
60
90
120
PITTER6's Photo PITTER6 SparkPoints: (69,820)
Fitness Minutes: (791)
Posts: 3,858
1/14/15 4:58 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
emoticon it's so hard to break up a relationship, but it can be the best thing that every happen to you. God never closes a door without opening another one, sometimes we try so hard to keep that door open that the good thing that God wants for us is lost.

Lord, bless my diet buddies and help me met my 2015 weight goals of 50 pounds.
Co-Leader "Keep it Simple"


 January SparkPoints: 2,658
 
0
750
1500
2250
3000
ARMOMMI2 SparkPoints: (21,035)
Fitness Minutes: (12,937)
Posts: 640
1/14/15 3:54 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
emoticon Elise. Sorry to hear of your breakup. It's never easy to deal with that. I had a break up after 12 years and it turned out to be the b est thing that ever happened to me. I got back so much of MY life by not having to constantly address the needs of someone who needed to grow up.

Try this: Make a list of all the things you gave up by having him in your life and take them back, one by one. Make another list of all the things you didn't get to do with him in your life and start doing them. If it's possible for you.....take a mini vacation. It doesn't have to be a trip, just an adventure.It can last hours or even a day to yourself. Anything to get you out of the house. When you get back, start to take your life back. There are dozens of things that I like to do by myself such as reading a book, watching a movie, shopping for the kinds of foods that I like to eat, stopping at Panera Bread to have a cup of coffee and read the newspaper . And now I don't feel as if I have to get home at a certain time because someone else expects it. So many times we have an identity that's shaped by other people in our lives and it's empowering and refreshing to be able to make our own decisions as to how we want to spend our precious time on this earth. Take your life back. emoticon emoticon

 Pounds lost: 8.0 
 
0
4.75
9.5
14.25
19
ABETTERME2015 Posts: 316
1/14/15 10:55 A

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
My bf just broke up with me after 2 years & I'm VERY UPSET!!!!! I feel like eating everything in the house!!!!!!! I could use some support & consoling!!!!!! I don't know what to do!!!!!! emoticon

Elise--Middlesex County, NJ

10% at a time

If at first you don't succeed, try-try again!!!!

Moderation is the key.

It WILL happen!!!!!!!


 current weight: 233.0 
 
233
214.75
196.5
178.25
160
ARMOMMI2 SparkPoints: (21,035)
Fitness Minutes: (12,937)
Posts: 640
1/14/15 10:48 A

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Thank you PITTER6 for the reminder. Most of us have those in our houses, but forget the value of adding those to our daily intake to help lift our moods. I have them right on my countertop, but with your reminder, I'll take them with my first drink of water in the morning. emoticon emoticon

 Pounds lost: 8.0 
 
0
4.75
9.5
14.25
19
PITTER6's Photo PITTER6 SparkPoints: (69,820)
Fitness Minutes: (791)
Posts: 3,858
1/13/15 5:18 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
I am taking 20,000 of D and a folic acid with B12, it is helping me a lot during the winter months.

Lord, bless my diet buddies and help me met my 2015 weight goals of 50 pounds.
Co-Leader "Keep it Simple"


 January SparkPoints: 2,658
 
0
750
1500
2250
3000
LINDAMRY's Photo LINDAMRY SparkPoints: (1,790)
Fitness Minutes: (1,607)
Posts: 4
1/12/15 10:36 P

Send Private Message
Reply
Just like a bunch of depressives to all be moping together, eh? It's been hard for me, too, lately. I've got an appointment with my shrink for Thursday and I'm going to talk with him about adjusting my meds again. Those of you who feel like your meds are dampening your moods may want to consider talking to your docs about a change in medication. For those who find that their meds are making them less motivated, definitely talk with your doctor. Different meds work in different ways for different people and I know for me, there have been some that have done that and there have been others that just help me not get so low and have more energy.

Hang in there and take one step at a time. Sometimes the next step is much more doable than looking at the whole day.

 Pounds lost: 0.0 
 
0
12.25
24.5
36.75
49
LE3INMEMPHIS's Photo LE3INMEMPHIS Posts: 105
1/11/15 9:09 A

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
That's interesting what you said about your med. As I started mine I've noticed it is harder to be motivated too. Part of what I don't like about the meds is they dappen all my moods. However for the benefit of being functional they are worth it.I find that my motivation to exercise with other people is still high, but by myself is not. Something for me to think about. Thanks for posting.

 January Minutes: 413
 
0
250
500
750
1000
FEB51972's Photo FEB51972 SparkPoints: (3,897)
Fitness Minutes: (160)
Posts: 16
1/11/15 2:04 A

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
I am starting to get depressed again. I finally got it under control because I found the right med. But now because of having a med that made me gain weight and fall off my diet I can't seem to stick to it more than a day.
I am so disqusted with myself because I was doing so good until that med too me off my motavated streak.
emoticon

 Pounds lost: 65.5 
 
0
39.25
78.5
117.75
157
LE3INMEMPHIS's Photo LE3INMEMPHIS Posts: 105
1/10/15 7:45 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Positive steps and recognition of the factors that bring us down more are important at all times, but it seems they are essential in the winter, where sunlight is difficult to come by. I find myself preferring to be at a table with several windows around. I wish I got more sun. I restarted anti-depressants for SAD about a month ago. They have helped. So do all of you. Please keep posting. We need each other. What are you doing that makes you better or worse?


 January Minutes: 413
 
0
250
500
750
1000
SNARKYPANTS's Photo SNARKYPANTS SparkPoints: (32,079)
Fitness Minutes: (33,870)
Posts: 68
1/7/15 6:19 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Keep on keepin' on, you guys. It's tough when it's cold outside to want to do anything but curl up in a blanket. Kristina, I hope you're doing a little better. Good on you for calling on your support.

I was pretty low the day before Christmas but I'm getting out of it. 2 days of exercise in a row, and some preventative health care (a long-awaited physical) are some positive steps.

When the going gets weird, the weird go pro.


 Pounds lost: 1.9 
 
0
6.75
13.5
20.25
27
ARMOMMI2 SparkPoints: (21,035)
Fitness Minutes: (12,937)
Posts: 640
1/7/15 5:24 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
I had to toss out all the "junk" that accumulated over the holidays and this included lost relationships, lost pets, Christmas treats and cookies that some kind soul thought i needed. Out they went. Making room for new behaviors to come in. I started a challenge that includes decluttering my life, which started with purging the kitchen cupboards, fridge and freezer to make room for my healthy choices. It's slow going, but , what the heck, I'm not doing anything anyway. It's also a workout for me. Up and down the step stool to reach the top shelves, walking back and forth to the trash can......anything I can do to make it a workout. Give yourself a pat on the back for getting up and getting dressed today. Some days are just like that.

 Pounds lost: 8.0 
 
0
4.75
9.5
14.25
19
WHICHWITCH's Photo WHICHWITCH SparkPoints: (2,310)
Fitness Minutes: (1,562)
Posts: 12
1/6/15 11:40 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
I think my depression is keeping me from doing what I know I should be doing. I should be working out...I even keep weights on my coffee table, but all I do is stare at the TV or play games on my computer. I'm stress eating even though I promised myself I would eat better this year. I just can't motivate myself even though I've had all kinds of people and stories in my life to inspire me. I had 2 really big stressors last year...my mom died and I bought a house. But it's been 8 months and I need to move on. I love my house, but I'm not working on my studio like I wanted to this winter, I'm not working out, I'm not working on my jewelry design. I'm watching a show where all the people changed their lives by eating right and I know I need to do that, and yet I just had a handful of pretzels after the handful of Dove chocolates I just ate. I am so disgusted with myself, and yet it's like I don't even care.

 current weight: 180.0 
 
181
178.25
175.5
172.75
170
SALAM4545's Photo SALAM4545 Posts: 555
1/5/15 11:02 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Hi ONICAM, I also suffer from anxiety. I've done deep breathing, and I try keeping aromatherapy oils around (lavender and orange work ok for me). I've taken prescription meds, but I was frightened about addiction (I have a lot of issues with addiction). All I can say is know that we are all here for you, and anytime you need to vent you can totally contact me.

What you get by achieving your goals is not as important as what you become by achieving your goals. Henry David Thoreau


 Pounds lost: 13.5 
 
0
16.25
32.5
48.75
65
KATHERINE0824's Photo KATHERINE0824 SparkPoints: (1,414)
Fitness Minutes: (182)
Posts: 3
1/5/15 1:29 P

Send Private Message
Reply
Hi Kristina, I really understand how your feeling, I'm going through the some of the same feelings at the moment. I don't have all the right words to say, but I will be here to talk to you when you need it! We can help support each other emoticon

 current weight: 253.0 
 
255
228.75
202.5
176.25
150
KRISTINALAMBERT's Photo KRISTINALAMBERT SparkPoints: (7,127)
Fitness Minutes: (891)
Posts: 97
1/5/15 11:06 A

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
I'm having a really bad time right now. Severe depression has kicked in. Probably due to some seasonal issues (no sunlight; SAD). Its like I just can't handle even what is normal work stress right now. I just turned on my Verilux HappyLight and contacted my sister to let her know how sad i feel right now. I kindve wish I was dead... But I'm not actually suicidal. I just want to lay down and do nothing. and hide.and hate myself...

 current weight: 256.0 
 
278
246
214
182
150
ARMOMMI2 SparkPoints: (21,035)
Fitness Minutes: (12,937)
Posts: 640
12/30/14 11:36 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
When we have those days , we do get anxious. Not knowing when the cravings are going to stop. That's when i try to drink more fluids because they, too, are filling. I make sure i dont have unhealthy food choices in the house, but that's not always possible if you have others in the house that have different needs than we do. But when we want those around us to be healthy, as well, then it makes it easier by not having tempting food around. I hope you can find other ways of dealing with your anxiety so that you can get proper rest and start to feel better. Sending hugs and encouragement your way.

 Pounds lost: 8.0 
 
0
4.75
9.5
14.25
19
ONICAM's Photo ONICAM Posts: 11,513
12/30/14 11:16 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
It had been another tough day when it comes to my emotions and how much food I want.

 current weight: 136.4 
 
172
160.25
148.5
136.75
125
PIXIEBURDS's Photo PIXIEBURDS Posts: 146
12/29/14 11:41 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Just keep swimming! Just keep swimming. Take some deep breaths and try to relax. I am sending calming thoughts your way!

 January Minutes: 454
 
0
30
60
90
120
ONICAM's Photo ONICAM Posts: 11,513
12/28/14 10:43 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
I am panicking right now even tho it is 20 til 11 at night. I need help calming down.

 current weight: 136.4 
 
172
160.25
148.5
136.75
125
PIXIEBURDS's Photo PIXIEBURDS Posts: 146
12/28/14 10:29 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
For ONICAM, I am sorry you are having so many stressors right now. I hope your aunt is doing better. And I know it is so hard to even think about losing a much loved pet. Please know that your feelings are normal and that it is ok to grieve. Warm thoughts going out to you.

 January Minutes: 454
 
0
30
60
90
120
NWOODS9's Photo NWOODS9 SparkPoints: (27,741)
Fitness Minutes: (31,618)
Posts: 137
12/28/14 6:37 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Sorry to hear you are struggling today!! emoticon emoticon

Make sure you get some physical activity in today. The issues don't go away but I feel a calmness that allows me to deal with the stressors better.

I don't feel the physical "Ball and Chain" that accompanied my depression. This in itself puts me in a different frame of mind.

I discovered that daily exercise is the key to controlling my depression.

emoticon emoticon


Edited by: NWOODS9 at: 12/28/2014 (18:48)
On my way to a better life. Fulfilling some goals I've failed in the past and pursuing new challenges to achieve my life's journey to wellness.

Wake up with DETERMINATION - Go to bed with SATISFACTION!!!

Know a Higher Power,
Know Peace,
No Higher Power,
No Peace!

Norma Jean


41 Days since:  Lays Potatp Chips
 
0
12
25
37
50
NEEDTOBESLIM3's Photo NEEDTOBESLIM3 SparkPoints: (11,074)
Fitness Minutes: (1,525)
Posts: 870
12/28/14 5:22 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Having a mixed diet, sweet stuff but then fruit to balance it. Got lots of sweet presents for Christmas but going to donate unopened boxes of chocolates and biscuits to local food bank. Its the only way to get rid of the temptation!! Hope you have had wonderful times team. Blessings. XX

My God loves me, he shelters me from harm.
ONICAM's Photo ONICAM Posts: 11,513
12/28/14 3:23 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
I am struggling all day with multiple stressors. My step-dad"s mom fell for a second time this month at 97 years old and my dog at 23 may need to be put down.

 current weight: 136.4 
 
172
160.25
148.5
136.75
125
ARMOMMI2 SparkPoints: (21,035)
Fitness Minutes: (12,937)
Posts: 640
12/24/14 8:36 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
What time is dinner?? emoticon

 Pounds lost: 8.0 
 
0
4.75
9.5
14.25
19
PIXIEBURDS's Photo PIXIEBURDS Posts: 146
12/24/14 6:47 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
I'm with you, I love shopping for healthy foods. I have been trying different grains including faro, amaranth, quinoa, and others. Recent purchases include endive, red and yellow beets, parsnips, turnips, swiss chard, and kelp noodles. You never know what might turn up at my table!

 January Minutes: 454
 
0
30
60
90
120
ARMOMMI2 SparkPoints: (21,035)
Fitness Minutes: (12,937)
Posts: 640
12/22/14 11:22 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
It's so much fun to shop for healthy food. I'm always looking for new markets with fresh, live food. It makes me feel good about myself before I even get the stuff home and cook it up. Good for you. Great start. emoticon emoticon emoticon

 Pounds lost: 8.0 
 
0
4.75
9.5
14.25
19
NEEDTOBESLIM3's Photo NEEDTOBESLIM3 SparkPoints: (11,074)
Fitness Minutes: (1,525)
Posts: 870
12/21/14 1:17 A

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Thank you ARMOMM12. It's good to be back!! Went food shopping today and stocked up on lots of fruit and veg. It's a small start. Xxx

My God loves me, he shelters me from harm.
ARMOMMI2 SparkPoints: (21,035)
Fitness Minutes: (12,937)
Posts: 640
12/19/14 8:58 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
So glad you came back. Great to have the two weeks off over the holidays to get old things wrapped up and get the new YOU on the road again. We look forward to hearing how you're doing. Take Care and rest.

 Pounds lost: 8.0 
 
0
4.75
9.5
14.25
19
NEEDTOBESLIM3's Photo NEEDTOBESLIM3 SparkPoints: (11,074)
Fitness Minutes: (1,525)
Posts: 870
12/19/14 6:11 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Hello Sparkers, I've decided to come back to try again!! I'm not feeling able to do much as my eating has got out of hand. I've started a new job with very long hours and find myself eating unhealthy stuff. I need to start cooking food in big batches and freezing it so I can take healthy meals with me. I've got two weeks off over Christmas and New Year so hopefully after a wee rest I can start doing stuff I've been putting off such as meal planning and unpacking belongings that has been in boxes and bags since we moved in July. Got to have a bit of a rest first though as it has been a bit of a difficult year with bereavements and moving. I had pneumonia and its left me quite tired so I sleep a lot too. So glad that this team is here as I feel the need to connect again. Take care, blessings. XX

My God loves me, he shelters me from harm.
ARMOMMI2 SparkPoints: (21,035)
Fitness Minutes: (12,937)
Posts: 640
12/18/14 7:47 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Good Job FabulousinBlue: Way to put that inspiration to work. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

 Pounds lost: 8.0 
 
0
4.75
9.5
14.25
19
FABULOUSINBLUE Posts: 17
12/17/14 8:48 P

Send Private Message
Reply
Woke up at 4.17am (I'm in Australia). Felt really ratty and anxious. Drove H to work. Spoke to neighbour whose dad passed away last week. Went to gym and rode bike with boot on. Spoke to a few more people. I did all this encouraged by reading how brave you all are. Thankyou for inspiring me on a day when I really hit rock bottom. Doctor is reluctant to put me back on medication but I think I might have to. Like many of you Christmas is a bit hard.
Prayers and good wishes to you all.
Marg.
PS Still trying to understand some of the technical aspects of SP.

Edited by: FABULOUSINBLUE at: 12/17/2014 (20:48)
PIXIEBURDS's Photo PIXIEBURDS Posts: 146
12/16/14 11:10 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
I was able to meet with the local home care agency today and we will start having a worker come in five days a week for 3 hours a day. It will cost about $300 per week or $19 per hour. That is a little more than I make per hour! My husband isn't happy about it, and was a bit hurt that I made the decision without talking it over with him first, but I just cannot jeopardize my ability to work. The agency is going to set up a life alert system for us too and they will become one of the first responders so we won't have to call 911 if he falls. I am feeling much more hopeful now. And I was able to get some sleep last night.

 January Minutes: 454
 
0
30
60
90
120
ARMOMMI2 SparkPoints: (21,035)
Fitness Minutes: (12,937)
Posts: 640
12/16/14 1:17 A

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
My prayers are with you that you can put your plan into work soon. Take Care and do what you can.

 Pounds lost: 8.0 
 
0
4.75
9.5
14.25
19
PIXIEBURDS's Photo PIXIEBURDS Posts: 146
12/15/14 7:30 A

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
I really need some encouragement and support right now. I just started a new job of Friday. When I got home I found my husband on the floor in the basement. He had been on the floor for an hour, but didn't call for help because all the doors were locked. This is the 4th time in about a week and a half that he has needed paramedics to help him after a fall. He is 81 years old and has early dementia and stenosis of the spine and he can barely transfer himself anymore. Anyway, my step-son, who is a fireman, was called in by the Fire Marshal and told that if he continues to fall when he is alone it could result in me being investigated for elder neglect. I am a nurse so if that happened it would jeopardize my nursing license and my employment. I didn't sleep at all last night worrying about it. I have an action plan but it will take awhile to put all the pieces in place. Please pray for me if you feel led to, and if not, at least send warm thoughts my way.

 January Minutes: 454
 
0
30
60
90
120
ARMOMMI2 SparkPoints: (21,035)
Fitness Minutes: (12,937)
Posts: 640
12/9/14 5:02 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
LePre, you are your own person, and we're very proud of you for taking this step toward a healthier lifestyle. Sometimes we have to leave others in the dust and move forward to fulfill our dreams and reach our goals. We are here for you and we will do everything we can to help you reach your goals if you can do this one thing: Just don't listen to the negativity. You do that for us and we'll do the rest. Love and Hugs to take on your journey.

 Pounds lost: 8.0 
 
0
4.75
9.5
14.25
19
PIXIEBURDS's Photo PIXIEBURDS Posts: 146
12/8/14 7:12 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
LePre, don't let other peoples negativity impact you. You lose weight for yourself, not for anyone else. I know it is hard when others, especially family are negative, but you can do this. Remember, you are in control of yourself. And also remember that weight loss is a marathon not a sprint. Don't beat yourself up if you don't hit your goals every single day. It is an accumulation of successes over time that will win the battle. My uncle commented on my weight every time I saw him my entire life until he died. Even when he had Alzheimers! You can't change how others act, but you can change how you react. Good luck to you.

 January Minutes: 454
 
0
30
60
90
120
LEPRE875's Photo LEPRE875 SparkPoints: (1,109)
Fitness Minutes: (70)
Posts: 6
12/8/14 12:23 A

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Well I had been having a good day, until the only time my mom wasn't too spaced out by her personal stuff was to say that I have gained weight. Tried to talk to her all day no luck. Upstairs with her and sudddenly she has all the time in the world to comment on my weight. :( Makes it hard to stay motivated doing this, especially since it is my first day. I haven't told my parents that I have started this. I want to do it without them. When they know they comment whenever I don't go for a walk, or mention anything its negative. I don't tell them and sudddenly its good on me for going for a walk.

 Pounds lost: 0.0 
 
0
27.5
55
82.5
110
SALAM4545's Photo SALAM4545 Posts: 555
12/8/14 12:21 A

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Hi all. I haven't been able to post much due to a lot of things, but I have been reading posts. My thoughts are with you all. emoticon

What you get by achieving your goals is not as important as what you become by achieving your goals. Henry David Thoreau


 Pounds lost: 13.5 
 
0
16.25
32.5
48.75
65
ARMATTHAEI's Photo ARMATTHAEI Posts: 1,965
12/6/14 8:21 A

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
FAIRIEDREAMS1-

Welcome to a wonderful journey of creating a happier healthier life for your self. You are worth it, and this is a team that is willing to help you through those "crash" moments so that you don't feel alone. The members are very supportive no matter what life hands you.

I look forward to getting to know you better. Feel free to add me as a friend or message me.

Blessings,
Amanda, RN

Team Leader of Night Shift Nurses
Team Leader of Nurses Everywhere


 current weight: 200.6 
 
220
200
180
160
140
FAIRIEDREAMS1's Photo FAIRIEDREAMS1 Posts: 6
12/6/14 12:00 A

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Hi :) I'm new to this but I'm tired of crashing in every way and reading posts in here has already shown me I don't have to crash alone.

I'm a whole mess of things. My most recent trauma that fueled my determination with this site was seeing the proofs from our recent family photo session. I was mortified. I realized I need to be getting a grip on not only my physical problems but hopefully getting the snowball effect into my emotional problems which I think are probably interchangeable anyway.

I look forward to getting to know you all and hopefully I can help as much as I need it.

Today starts my new journey of sorts. So far, I'm feeling good about it.

 current weight: 238.0 
 
238
222.25
206.5
190.75
175
LE3INMEMPHIS's Photo LE3INMEMPHIS Posts: 105
12/3/14 9:41 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
This time of year is always tough. I am encouraged by the baby steps so many of us are making despite the weather, family, financial, and other expectations pulling us down. One day we can run, but for now baby steps are what I can do. I have a chime that I hung in my kitchen. When I make a positive/healthy action I run my finger across it to ring. That sound signifies that I can do something to make life better.

Samestuff--you are speaking up for yourself and setting limits for interactions emoticon

My DH gave me a hard time about going over to a friends house to help her garden. For me it was a win-win-win. I get exercise, I learn more about gardening, and I get to take some home. I had to wait a few days but brought it up to him. I support him visiting his friends and I don't appreciate the attitude. He said he thought I felt obligated. Hmmm I would think he would know me better. Samestuff, you encourage me.

 January Minutes: 413
 
0
250
500
750
1000
ARMOMMI2 SparkPoints: (21,035)
Fitness Minutes: (12,937)
Posts: 640
12/3/14 7:21 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
emoticon emoticon Wow! You have taken some very positive steps toward resolving the nagging issues that probably contribute to a lack of motivation. I'm so proud of you. You've met your goals before and you can do it again. Very smart idea to start Dec 1 instead of Jan 1. It's never too late to start over. We do it so many times in our lives, but we don't think of things as starting over. We just do it!! Thank you for sharing. We're here for you. emoticon emoticon

 Pounds lost: 8.0 
 
0
4.75
9.5
14.25
19
DDB333 SparkPoints: (558)
Fitness Minutes: (227)
Posts: 15
12/3/14 6:29 P

Send Private Message
Reply
Starting over in December. January first never worked for me so I decided on December 1st. I haven't been on sparks for almost 2 1/2 months, my finances are a mess, and my body is breaking down and the depression was pulling hard on me.

So I stopped my non-helping thoughts and decided to start over in a way. I joined the 10 minute challenge, went to a financial consultant, and here I am back on sparks.

Not on top but I'm clawing my way up emoticon

LE3INMEMPHIS's Photo LE3INMEMPHIS Posts: 105
11/30/14 3:30 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
The Holidays... when memories come flooding back...when we miss the loved ones we used to spend time with...when we remember all the good dishes and try to modify or each only small amounts of them. We are empowered and endowed--to spread the love we felt and missed, to create healthier versions of food that our families love. I made my revision of my Grandmothers cranberry salad and introduced a new stuffing and bread pudding. I felt good about what I was able to bring and know my relatives who have moved on are smiling on my efforts.

 January Minutes: 413
 
0
250
500
750
1000
PIXIEBURDS's Photo PIXIEBURDS Posts: 146
11/26/14 10:38 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Think on what is good, and what is right, and what is honoring to yourself, and family, and God. Happy Thanksgiving everyone. Be safe and know that you are loved.

 January Minutes: 454
 
0
30
60
90
120
28AR4SQ SparkPoints: (11)
Fitness Minutes: (0)
Posts: 1
11/25/14 9:32 P

Send Private Message
Reply
Think of the positives in a negative situation Thinking of the positives in this negative situation will get you through the negative situation.

MELLYBEANS0919's Photo MELLYBEANS0919 SparkPoints: (24,122)
Fitness Minutes: (19,507)
Posts: 3,995
11/21/14 7:30 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Having a rough go today. It hit me out of nowhere this afternoon. Trying to breathe and focus on one minute at a time. I am going to my therapist on Thur, the soonest I can get in. emoticon to all.

"Don't let perfection be the enemy of good enough!"


GETTINGTOME Posts: 23
11/20/14 11:21 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Guess I'm in that bad place tonight. I'm still unsettled by my co-workers "constructive feedback" i.e. bullying, that I was subjected to over a month ago. Although I now am fully aware that this encounter was inappropriate, mean, and creepy on her part - I still am not over the feeling of shame, feeling small, or feeling of being knocked down. My self esteem and confidence has taken a big hit, which, on top of feeling like a loser, I feel even worse about being so affected by this, sad that I have let someone take away my power, take away my feelings of self worth. I feel like I am too smart to let someone get to me like this but apparently not.

GETTINGTOME Posts: 23
11/17/14 11:48 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
SALAM4545 - Truthfully it made my blood boil that your doctor is giving you a hard time about getting a thyroid test. I am so fed up with doctors and their inability (or unwillingness) to look outside the box and treat patients as unique individuals with unique physiological makeups. But that's a whole other story.

Try a different doctor, one who RESPECTS your ability to know your own body and how you feel, and is willing to order a simple blood test. Good grief! It's ridiculous that someone has to expend so much time and energy to find out something so simple.

However, if your thyroid levels come back in the so-called 'NORMAL" range, consider that you might have a sleep issue like apnea. Good sleep is SO important.

I wish you well! Let us know how it goes.

emoticon emoticon

Edited by: GETTINGTOME at: 11/17/2014 (23:49)
MELLYBEANS0919's Photo MELLYBEANS0919 SparkPoints: (24,122)
Fitness Minutes: (19,507)
Posts: 3,995
11/17/14 10:52 A

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Feeling yucky today despite starting my light therapy this morning. So tired even though I got enough sleep at night. I just want to curl up on the couch and watch t.v. or go back to bed. Thankfully I am off today so I can indulge if I want.

"Don't let perfection be the enemy of good enough!"


ARMOMMI2 SparkPoints: (21,035)
Fitness Minutes: (12,937)
Posts: 640
11/14/14 11:05 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Sounds like you have a good plan to work on. I hope you get a different doctor, too. Keep up the good spirit. We're here for you. emoticon emoticon

 Pounds lost: 8.0 
 
0
4.75
9.5
14.25
19
SALAM4545's Photo SALAM4545 Posts: 555
11/14/14 10:54 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
So grateful my meds are kicking in a little better, feeling a lot better, and my kids say I am much easier to be around right now. Feeling a little bad about my weight, I am a little nervous about going back to the doctor ( he was a real jerk when I tried to ask him for a thyroid test) but I have stayed within the same 5 pounds for months now and my energy levels are way off. Maybe I can get a different doctor at the practice this time.

Thanks to all that sent messages on my last bad time. It really helped a lot, it got me out of my blue funk and out of bed, and being a functional human being. Thanks.

What you get by achieving your goals is not as important as what you become by achieving your goals. Henry David Thoreau


 Pounds lost: 13.5 
 
0
16.25
32.5
48.75
65
GETTINGTOME Posts: 23
11/13/14 4:28 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
SAMESTUFFDIFDAY - can't wait to hear what you think of the book. Right now I am reading about the contemplation phase but I suspect where I am at is somewhere between contemplation and preparation. Something that rang true for me is that people can get stuck in the contemplation phase because they are waiting for everything to be exactly right or making sure they understand every nuance. That is so true for me because I tend to be a perfectionist.

DOLLYBABE57 - hope you are feeling better today. You're not alone in going to that awful place of despair. Hopefully you woke up today and the feeling has passed. One time my therapist told me that it's not necessarily the depression that is so bad but it is our beliefs about depression - that it is undesirable, that it hurts, that having depression makes us broken people - that are so painful to us. This made sense to me. Unfortunately, when we are in that dark place it can be impossible to remember any of this.

emoticon emoticon

KATBYRNE's Photo KATBYRNE Posts: 49
11/13/14 9:12 A

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
DOLLYBABE57 I can only hope today is better for you. Having lived with on/off depression for 20 yrs (I'm seasonally affected) I can tell you it DOES get better. Whenever you have an ounce of energy, pursue ALL of your treatment options (not all at once). Medication, therapy, exercise, light, self-care, etc. Anything that helps. It will be worth it when you have fewer days of pain and the pain is less intense.

In the meantime, do ANYTHING that makes it better. Hot bath, fuzzy slippers, etc. You are ENTITLED to take some time and take care of yourself. Your pain is real and deserves to be treated. You deserve to have a day where you don't have to do anything except take care of you.

All my warmth and hugs. I'm wishing you sunshine and joy.

The only way to loose this game is to QUIT!


 current weight: 204.6 
 
224
200.5
177
153.5
130
PIXIEBURDS's Photo PIXIEBURDS Posts: 146
11/12/14 11:59 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
DollyBabes you are not alone. I know that sometimes it seems like the whole world seems to be conspiring against you. But please know that people do care and that you can get through this bad period. If you have just recently started taking your meds it can take several weeks to reach a therapeutic level in your body. Don't give up. You might need to check back in with your doctor and see if the dosage needs to be changed.

 January Minutes: 454
 
0
30
60
90
120
SAMESTUFFDIFDAY Posts: 727
11/12/14 5:42 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Lady Irish i just checked out your blog, and i have to say i enjoyed it very much, though when trying to join i was told i could not do it to try again later.. Believe me i will try again in little bit. I have been getting back into cooking again, when i was a stay at home mom, i just loved to cook, bread was one of my favorites also, like you said it is great for working out stress and frustration, i used to make 5 - 7 loaves at a time, believe me that was alot of kneading... but so enjoyable. I subscribe to taste of home and simple and delicious and been spending the weekends trying many new recipes.. plus some old favorites.. now if i just had a bigger freezer. Anyway, it has taken me a minute to post this .... i am going to try to join again..

Thanks
have a great evening.
Same

 current weight: 165.0 
 
236
214.5
193
171.5
150
SAMESTUFFDIFDAY Posts: 727
11/12/14 5:27 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Back from the library and the book i ordered came in today, Thanks getting tome, i will start reading thru it this evening or maybe in the morning with my coffee. I made a page to hang on my fridge to not only my exercise but also my days with no ciggies. So far so good, no major cravings or nothing, now will have to tell the brother in law again that no smoking in the house ... he came up this morning and was smoking and now my winter coat reeks of the smoke, and that was one of the other reasons i wanted to quit, tired of smelling like an ashtray.

I need to work on this no sleeping issue now, i have gone about a week now with little to no sleep at all, i am beyond feeling like i am moving in slow motion. Is getting hard to think straight among other things. I don't know what has triggered this round of sleeplessness. But am over it.

Anyway, am off here before i really start complaining.. and get up and get the other half of my exercise done , I can't wait for my Leslie Sansome walk away the pound, and my beginner zumba to come in from the library, right now am just putting on the radio and just moving moving moving... am finally into another pair of jeans, i now have 3 pair i can fit into, to bad i only have bout another 10 pair hanging in closet.... grrrr. Oh well ... a work in progress..

Baby Steps
Same

 current weight: 165.0 
 
236
214.5
193
171.5
150
DOLLYBABE57's Photo DOLLYBABE57 Posts: 2,934
11/12/14 9:52 A

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Things have gotten worse for me I feel that the whole world is crashing down on me. My meds do not help. i am trapped here and dont care if i live or die

 current weight: 200.0 
 
210
195
180
165
150
PIXIEBURDS's Photo PIXIEBURDS Posts: 146
11/10/14 5:59 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
LadyIrish, Some people are just jerks! People who have not experienced depression have no idea how devastating it can be. Try to remember that depression is a medical condition. It is caused by reduced serotonin levels in the brain. It can be situational, or biological in nature. I have situational depression, I had a friend who lived with severe clinical depression her entire life. Please know that there are people out here who understand, and who can relate. You are not alone.

I visited your blog, Cuisine Quest, It was awesome. I tried to leave a comment, but it didn't post. But I added it to my favorites list.

Edited by: PIXIEBURDS at: 11/10/2014 (18:09)
 January Minutes: 454
 
0
30
60
90
120
LADYIRISH317's Photo LADYIRISH317 Posts: 55,768
11/9/14 9:53 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
People tell me I'm "wallowing" in my depression, that I should "get over it." I wonder if they'd tell someone with a broken leg to "get over it" and walk?

"...there's some good in this world, Mr. Frodo, and it's worth fighting for."

"We're children of a fighting race that never yet has known disgrace." (The Soldiers' Song, Irish national anthem)

"Every day above ground is a good day." (Chef Justin Kennedy of New Orleans, on Chopped)

Please visit my blog:
www.cuisinequests.blogspot.com/


 current weight: 389.0 
 
412
346.5
281
215.5
150
SAMESTUFFDIFDAY Posts: 727
11/9/14 6:39 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
PIXIE & GETTING TOME, thanks you for the support and the great ideas. I will be making a chart to put on my fridge of things i could do or have instead of ciggies. Thanks for the great idea.. On the friend issues you are absolutely right, and his ex girlfriend told me that we wouldn't be together long.. is a shame he is hard worker, he pays his bills, he is there for his boys ( not so much his daughter tho ), but all the other stuff just over shadows the good. I had an old phone whose contract was just about up and i think he knew that i wasn't going to get another one, so he got a phone for me, i knew it was doomed when after he gave it to me it was followed by " well now you can't break up with me for 2 yrs.." I'm sure he could have been joking...... ? But yeah,..... NO.

boy have i done the exercise today, did pretty much the whole cardio dance workout DVD today, then walked/ jogged my driveway twice, then jogged in place and did jumping jacks, jump rope, and fast marching to my music also.. plus raked leaves, and played with my dog.

i have done pretty well actually on not wanting a cig today.. They say 36 or 48 hours and they are out of your system, I hope to stay on this path of wellness for the rest of my life. House already smells better.

Getting to me... i am going to see if i can find the book at my library, and see what all else i can do, i need a major change in my life, mostly starting with a job, this one is going to be the death of me, or at least a new client.. I used to love my job now i just hate it. Not much opportunity to meet people or nothing, you are just stuck in someone elses house all day. I would like to find the old me who was outgoing and always had friends around her, that girl has been gone for so long i don't know if i can ever find her again. But would sure like to try. Thank you for the name of it, i hope i can find a copy.

I guess i will get off here and head to the library site.. then put my home made noodles away, i made two double batches today, so i have noodles for the next 2 holidays done. I also made a peach crisp today with some of my moms home canned peaches and it is really good to. Did not make a dinner today and kinda regret that but... Am trying new recipes as i am getting tired of the same old same old. I love to cook just have not really taken the time to do much of it here lately... the change in the weather will help with that though..

Again thanks everyone for the support and GREAT ideas, to try to help me stay on track. Wish me luck, will be checking in regular to keep updated... hopefully it will be good news. Hope everyone had a great day

Baby Steps
Same

 current weight: 165.0 
 
236
214.5
193
171.5
150
PIXIEBURDS's Photo PIXIEBURDS Posts: 146
11/9/14 2:56 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
For SameDayDiffStuff. Your friend sounds like a needy control freak. But the most alarming thing I read in your post is that he took your phone away. You need to get away from this person for good. Such controlling behavior only escalates over time. First it is controlling your time, then your access to family and friends, then your access to escape. Good luck with your quitting smoking. I know it is not easy, but it is so worth it. I am a nurse and I have cared for so many people with breathing problems like emphysema and chronic bronchitis, and even lung cancer. My sister died from her smoking. It is not a pretty way to go. If it helps in any way, make a chart of how much money you spend each week on smoking, then make a different chart and put things you could use that money toward instead. If you post it somewhere you can see it each day, it might be the motivation you need.

 January Minutes: 454
 
0
30
60
90
120
GETTINGTOME Posts: 23
11/9/14 12:50 A

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
SAMESTUFFDIFDAY - Do you still have the one smoke left? Smoke it and get it over with. Then, just be done. I am 13 years not smoking. I am so glad I don't smoke any more. I am so glad I'm not burning up my money any more. I quit twice before, once for 5 years, then again for 2 years. I know this time I will not go back. Still though, sometimes I see people smoking and my eyes get big and I think -oooooooohhhh - that looks so good. Yet - I know it's just not worth it to go back to that addiction. There is an appeal to me of some sort of wild abandon, freedom, independence. I always remember Christie Lahti's line in the movie Leaving Normal, "Mmm, smoking, good". But I know, if I have just one, it will be no time and I'll be back to a pack a day. At that point there's no freedom, it's definitely like being in jail.

I started reading a new (old) book yesterday called Changing for Good. It was referenced in a SP article I read. I REALLY like it so far. It's about the different stages of making a change, and what processes are most useful/effective at each stage. I'm going to try to map a change process for myself using the information from the book. I really want to create a new lifestyle.

ARMOMMI2 SparkPoints: (21,035)
Fitness Minutes: (12,937)
Posts: 640
11/8/14 10:47 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
emoticon emoticon emoticon

 Pounds lost: 8.0 
 
0
4.75
9.5
14.25
19
SAMESTUFFDIFDAY Posts: 727
11/8/14 8:33 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Good evening room, Hoping everybody had a good day.. or at least a productive one.

I did manage to get lots of stuff done, but not the right things.. I did not get my exercise in today and very upset about it. So while cleaning my house this evening i am incorporating some dancing, i have radio turned up and am moving at least.. Am hoping the music can lift my mood to. I have just been so down the last month or so and cannot seem to pull myself out of it. Is so frustrating.

I also started another major feat today, today is my first day not smoking. Well i have had 3 today.. but still is my first day trying not to smoke. I have one left and boy do i want it. And keep telling myself to just smoke it and get it over with. I am praying i can do it. I cannot justify throwing the money away on them any more.. And sick of my clothes, hair and car smelling like em. My house is not so bad as i smoke the most of em outside on the porch. I am hoping the exercise will help with that to.

my " friend " is up to his same old same old games again.. Wants to argue and nit pick and if i am honest with him then i get the cold shoulder and he will wait for me to get ahold of him.. 1.. i am tired of teenage games.. i am not a teenager and did not play these games when i was one. 2. if you want to be treated like a man then act like one. 3. I don't understand when some one opens up their life, home, bed, and other things to you why you still feel like its not enough. 4. How much dam attention does one dam man need. You are not a god, king, or anything else and i have no desire to worship you. I broke up with him in Aug.. the same day we came home from a vacation over his behavior, and he is the one that came back and wanted to try again, i said i was not interested but if he wanted to be friends then fine, so he still wanted to talk twice a day everyday ... if i didn't reply he would get mad, i said we are not dating anymore, get over it. if i did reply it would start off good then he would start nit picking about my behavior and the fact that i did not show him enough attention when he was around and or would not talk to him enough on the phone and that is why he took it away from me.. and what is he doing wrong that he can't get what he wants.. I am at then end of my rope, and have mentioned to leave me be. So why do i sit here and feel guilty and bad. and am really going to have to hate removing yahoo, and blocking him as well as a few friends to get away from him.. have already taken his kids off my facebook, and now the few mutual friends we have are reposting things he is posting so instead of seeing it once or twice i get to see it numerous time.
the internet is my escape from day to day minute to minute life and going to be very upset if i have to leave it off for while for him to get the hint.. GRRRRR.

Anyway another good song is coming on and i better finish cleaning my kitchen and mopping my floors.. and won't be long will be off to bed. Tomorrow is a new day and i get to start it with a clean slate.. No cigs, more exercise, and a cleaner house.. I hope anyway..

Thanks for letting me vent, hang in there everyone.. i keep telling myself it HAS to get better.

Baby Steps
Same

 current weight: 165.0 
 
236
214.5
193
171.5
150
ARMOMMI2 SparkPoints: (21,035)
Fitness Minutes: (12,937)
Posts: 640
11/6/14 10:29 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Sorry to hear you are having so much anxiety and feeling hopeless. The fact that you reached out to us, tells me that you DO have hope and you're not willing to give up. That's very brave. Often we try to shelter our children from life's unpleasantness, but there is much to be gained by teaching them how to cope with these issues. When my children were little, as a single parent, we didn't have much going for us. But now that they're grown, they tell me that they didn't know that was the case. They felt safe, comfortable, had their needs met and they were having a good time. I was stressed to the max, but we made the best of it. We made Christmas gifts, we had Thanksgiving at the local church, we volunteered to wrap Christmas gifts for the local police department holiday drive for Toys for Tots. Those were great memories for my kids. As adults, they still do those things in their communities with their children. They didn't inherit my anxiety. Please know that we are in your corner and things always get better when we're in it together. Thank you for sharing and joining our Team. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

 Pounds lost: 8.0 
 
0
4.75
9.5
14.25
19
THEWARRIOR4's Photo THEWARRIOR4 Posts: 13
11/6/14 1:51 P

Send Private Message
Reply
I am reaching out to all the groups I have signed up for that deal with emotional issues, I suffer with Panic Disorder and clinical depression. My depression seems to be worse as well as my anxiety. I am not feeling much like a warrior, or the warrior i would like to be. i feel like crawling in a hole and not coming out. I am a single mom of 3 girls that are my world. i don't want them seeing me this way and becoming like me. i do not wish my problems on them. i feel like i am losing all interest, and it is hard for me to stay focused and positive about anything. i feel like a hypocrite b/c i try to seperate me from them, i cn't explain it. i know i am exhausted, sad, anxious and stuck. i am on meds. i dont have insurance, dont have a car, worry about how i am going to get to the grocery store or appts. i walk to work i just feel like giving up today. emoticon

Slow and steady wins the race-tortoise


 current weight: 236.9 
 
239
216.75
194.5
172.25
150
JOYCEAM's Photo JOYCEAM Posts: 126
11/6/14 8:54 A

Send Private Message
Reply
I new to this team. But I'm very glad I found you.

SALAM4545's Photo SALAM4545 Posts: 555
11/6/14 2:14 A

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
ARMOMMI2 thank you for the suggestions on getting them to work. I'm definately going to try staying in the room with them! Both girls have been wanting some "me time" so I will suggest that I stay in the room to supervise. Both are feeling the need for some extra luvs right now. I think I'll suggest that if they get things done we can have a playdate at the park, too. Or maybe I'll do some hula hooping with them. Something that involves fun exercise anyway. With a 4 day weekend coming up for us, it would be good to get them away from anything with a screen.

What you get by achieving your goals is not as important as what you become by achieving your goals. Henry David Thoreau


 Pounds lost: 13.5 
 
0
16.25
32.5
48.75
65
SALAM4545's Photo SALAM4545 Posts: 555
11/6/14 2:03 A

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Tiffanie, may I say, since I am also going through a rough time at work ( a similar villanizing) may I just say that how you dealt with it is really inspiring to me? I have been going to work feeling nervous about who I ran into, but you're right: the best thing I can do is be who I am. Sage advice. I am sorry that you had to have it come up again, but I am glad that you were able to share, because I learned a lot from your sharing.

What you get by achieving your goals is not as important as what you become by achieving your goals. Henry David Thoreau


 Pounds lost: 13.5 
 
0
16.25
32.5
48.75
65
TIFFANIEFAITH's Photo TIFFANIEFAITH SparkPoints: (6,830)
Fitness Minutes: (312)
Posts: 128
11/5/14 9:07 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Thank you both.

Still angry and hurt, but I did not have to see the other person today. I have an appointment with my counselor tomorrow, she helps me a lot. I just don't want this event to be the trigger for another depressive episode.

Tiffie :-)

I'd give you a reality check, but my account is overdrawn.

My personal Blog: cowardly-lioness.blogspot.com

My SparkPeople Blog : www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_jo
urnal.asp?id=TIFFANIEFAITH


 Pounds lost: 16.0 
 
0
18.75
37.5
56.25
75
ARMOMMI2 SparkPoints: (21,035)
Fitness Minutes: (12,937)
Posts: 640
11/5/14 9:02 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Tiffanie, if you;re feeling that strongly about the pain and misery of a co-worker who has betrayed you, and as I'm reading the history of this incident, I find that you have found a remarkable way of dealing with it already. In the past, when you were being ostracized, you changed nothing and did nothing differently and everything worked out well. In addition, count it among your most cherished blessings that this person is going to be out of your life and out of your workplace in the very near future. How fantastic! There is no excuse for someone in authority, misusing their position to hurt others. You have already won the battle. Just try to calmly present yourself as the hard worker you are and do what you do. There might be nothing to be gained by letting someone else's bad behavior change the goodness in you. Be brave and let it go.

 Pounds lost: 8.0 
 
0
4.75
9.5
14.25
19
Page: 1 of (16)   1 2 Next Page › Last Page »

Report Innappropriate Post

Other Dealing with Depression General Team Discussion Forum Posts

Topics: Last Post:
Leftovers 1/15/2015 6:29:14 AM
I will miss you all 12/9/2013 2:39:43 AM
Struggles 1/14/2014 12:44:15 PM
working out in front of others. 1/25/2014 4:25:05 PM
Tangible.... 4/14/2014 9:43:23 PM

Thread URL: http://www.sparkpeople.com/myspark/team_messageboard_thread.asp?board=0x953x55407453

Review our Community Guidelines




x Lose 10 Pounds by March 9! Get a FREE Personalized Plan