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7/28/14 9:02 P

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To ArtisticJen, Sounds like you are going through a really rough period. Health concerns can be so frustrating. Please know that you are not alone. Try to make some positive steps for yourself so you can have some control in your life. Even making a choice to drink water instead of a soda this time is control. Good luck to you.

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The days of the coffee clatch may be gone, but we can gather here and support one another.

I think "back in the day" we also had the "mother's little helper" that the Rolling Stones sang about. Sometimes I wonder if I'd do better emotionally with whatever they prescribed back then, or if I'd just be a zombie?

Of course, zombies are really popular these days, along with the vampires ;)

Anyway, just wanted anyone in pain to know you're not alone. I've been applying the humor and fake-it-til-you-make-it approach to the point of exhaustion. Hope tomorrow will be a better day, somehow, for you all.

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Exactly!! Some people look like they have it all together but they really don't and that is sad. I at times look at people and think I would love to live in their shoes for a day, but in reality, my life isn't so bad at all.

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When I read the past few comments, it made me think of the reality shows of the various cities. Like Orange County, New Jersey, Atlanta. All these women have money and act like high school drama. On one show a wife and husband are in trouble with the law for fraud on taxes, loans, and a few other issues. It's oh this poor family! Yet the house has not been sold with its gold chairs and other over priced items, not counting the wardrobe. I believe family should stick together, but this couple put themselves in this mess by not being honest. Unfortunately the victims turns out to be the three children. But the aunts and uncles are stepping up to the plate. But the poor me drives me nuts! Jail time along with selling off or the IRS confiscating there stuff including the mercedes is justifiable.
Would like to be a fly on the wall when the cameras are not taping. MMMMMMMMMMM-I would have alot to talk about at a coffee clutch. LOL

I guess my depression isn't as bad as I thought. I have gone through my solitude, now it's time to get back to life. emoticon

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Made my day as well!!!

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7/18/14 8:51 A

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This is our coffee clatch. My mother belonged to a card club, met once a month, all women on the block. Oh the things they said.

My mom also had coffee with her best friend down the street almost every night, Always at our house, cause my mom was a widow, so Aunt Marian liked to get out of the house and chat. My mother worked during the day.

Thanks for bringing up the coffee clatch --- makes my day

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7/18/14 2:33 A

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Ladies,
I just read a lort of the posts. Ya know what we need which is not a medical doctor of the mental issues. The old fashioned coffee clutches of the 50's. Talking to one another in the old neighborhood about our families. The mental doctors came about in the 80's when the good old neighborhoods did not exist. Neighborhoods stopped existing. So what kind of local clubs can we create to vent about husbands, lovers, boyfriends, family, children and local neighbors. Really Think about it. The past is not always nostolgiac, but perhaps a necesity of this day.
Silly me, in the past with the old coffee clutches.
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OMG!
Are you people angels waiting for me to relate to you? Or are you all heaven sent?

I checked out of SparkPeople because of a computer problem. At the same time I was having a time in my life that was very disturbing. I thougnt I had a handle on it all but two issues bombarded me. Wooo as mi! Boo! Hoo! I can handle this. I'm 62 Yrs. Young. Oh! I can do this.

Not true. I did have computer problem for 5+ days. But I hid. I do want to face reality and what my youngest is bestowing on me. Did I really work my life or living my life to bring me to this? So different from my mother and she was a good mother yet so different and the same. Wow! reality hurts.

I will continue to move forward, but I have to say it hurts and I worked so hard for things to be differently only to learn that with all my efforts nothing changed.

I thank all of you for reading this and yes in my personal life I will move forward but I carry with this effort much shame.
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I'm sorry things are so difficult for you. I know from personal experience that everything is harder when you can't sleep. It might be a good idea to check in with your doctor to see if he (or she) can do something to help you through this particularly stressful time.

One thing that might help is to not try to make too many changes regarding your diet and exercise all at once. Baby steps is the what SparkPeople recommends. That might mean just drinking more water each day. Or replacing one unhealthy snack with a fruit or veggie. As far as exercise, just try doing something for 10 minutes a day - walking or marching in place or dancing to some music. Or you could just try to get more rest during this time of high stress.

Sometimes when I'm feeling overwhelmed, it helps to remind myself that I only have to take things one at a time and I only have to face one day at a time, or even one hour at a time, or even one minute at a time.

Everything will work out and things will get better. Just hang in there until they do and please consider contacting your medical doctor or psychiatrist (if you have one) to get help in the meantime.

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I've been up for the past 48 hrs. I am so depressed I can't sleep. I am so stressed about life, school, trying for SSI and dieting with exercising. How am I going to get through.

God bless and have a great day.


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FROMNSIDE, I was recently told I have PTSD issues, too, and I'm seeing a counselor who specializes in it. It was a surprise to me. I don't have flashbacks, but I am hyper-vigilant and always on the look-out for danger. I have definitely suffered from depression and OCD for years and the doctor said one reason I may not have made more lasting progress with the OCD treatment is because of the trauma in my past. I guess it won't hurt to be treated for the stuff I've been carrying around all these year, and it might very well do a lot of good.

I hope your treatment does you a lot of good, too. Sending you lots of hugs!

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emoticon ~ i don't call it a Bad day just different.
last Tuesday, i went to a new clinic and the assessment lady assessed me with having Severe Depression. Today, Tuesday, was my 2nd appt and i met with the Therapist one-on-one. She upgraded my Major Depression to Moderate, but added PTSD. I suppose I already knew that. But, when she was asking me the questions and talking about the DSM requirements it was emoticon to think about all the Muck I've been carrying with me for years. emoticon

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ARTISTICJEN, I'm sorry to hear about your depression and health problems. I wish you could get a new therapist, but the wait does sound really long. I hope things get better for you soon.
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JXNCHICORY, I'm sorry your table and chairs were stolen - that's really mean of whoever did it. Sometimes I just don't understand people at all. Sending you hugs.

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7/13/14 12:43 A

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Ug.

My therapist is useless. Want another one, but the system is always backed up, so a new one would take a year to get and I'd be without anyone in the mean time. Right now, she's the closest to social activity I get.

My health issues are creeping up on me again. I'm scared that my liver is going to get worse because I can't get my stuff together. I'm not eating right so I'm gaining fluid again.

I have no prospects for the future. I sleep, I get up, I sit here in pain, eating everything I shouldn't. Lather.Rinse.Repeat.

I got some happy/crushing news. I could take some pills and cure one ailment in order to do something I probably shouldn't. But it may be my last chance. Not sure what I'll do, probably nothing.

Everything is just feeding the depression. Usually, I just let myself feel the depression and not fight it. In my case I've realized it passes quicker when I just go with it. But right now, there's just too much going on, too many stresses.

Sorry for the vagueness, Not real excited to air my personal dirty laundry, at least not certain things. Just had to vent some of this out.

You can read a little bit more in my blog if you're curious.

Thanks for letting me vent.

Jen



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7/11/14 12:29 P

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And now, last night while I was volunteering at our neighborhood PEACE camp for kids (where we have about 50-some kids attending for the month), someone stole the table and chairs from my front porch. They were just plastic, but nice looking, resembling wrought iron. I'd had them for about 12 years. So very sad. And, yes, it feels like another straw ....
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Yes, it's fine for you to post here - welcome!
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Hoping tomorrow is better and brighter for you.
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I guess it's ok for me to post here--not tech savvy and still learning how message boards work lol. It wasn't a bad day in the sense that I woke up and decided to make the most of it, but I just feel isolated in my new city. I'm angry, too, because right before I left my old home, I started developing a deeper relationship with someone I love, and I have an overwhelming feeling of hopelessness--we'll never get a chance at something great now that I've moved. In the scheme of things, it's small, right? But when you are depressed, it's the small things that are the straws that break the camel's back. I'm trying to hope and trust that tomorrow I will see things more clearly.

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Bad day for me, too. No real emergencies. Just a long week, trying to do too much as a volunteer, tired, and discouraged. Sorry.
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Praying for you and your family. May the Lord lift you out of the darkness that is around you. May He lighten your load and heal you and your family body, mind, and spirit. May He surround you with HIs heavenly angels to guide and protect you . I ask this in the name of Jesus. Amen emoticon

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PHATCRYSSY, I'm sorry things are so hard right now. I hope everything gets better soon. Take care and hang in there.

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This is whats going on in my life this past couple weeks. Hence my depression is throught the roof.

We are still going through a bunch of mess. Sunday we had to rush my father in law to the hospital by ambulance. he came home from mowing a lawn and went straight to bed, got up 30 minutes later with sever leg cramps that mad him scream. then he quit breathing, he turned grey and we got him to breath again but it was shallow and raspy, he couldnt focus his thoughts or see us. could not make a sentence. then his left started to droop, and his right arm tensed up and contorted. and he passed out.

he has been in the hospital on fluids and they have started him on insulin, they are making an appointment for him to see a neurologist . he is coming home today, but has appointments the rest of the week. Final diagnosis, SEVERE dehydration, and altered mental state. Mom is freaking out because she can afford to take any time off work. But dad wants her to be in his sight at all time. Dad has been crying and depressed all day. My husband and I are cleaning all day today in the house. those house jobs no one likes doing ( cleaning carpets washing all the bed linens, mopping the tile). Just continue to pray.

My Husband had to be reseed at the e.r. on thursday, his bronchitis was no better so they gave home more steroids and STRONG antibiotics.

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Thanks, Bridget, it's good to know the MRI techs will work with patients to help them through it. Even though I made it through these MRI's, when they were over I promised myself I wouldn't have another unless I was given some medication first. I really thought I wasn't going to make it through the one on my neck. I prayed, focused on my breathing, and listened to the music they had coning through the headphones. Even with all that, I felt so panicky at one point that I wasn't sure I could stay in there.

Thanks again!

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MRIs are NO fun. I went in thinking it was no big deal. Really not understanding what it meant for me with my depression, anxiety, PTSD and OCD. The first day, I put on my brave face and tried to convince myself I had it. I promise you, I did not last 2 seconds. I could hear and not see. HUGE issue for me. I had an amazing tech who said, come back tomorrow and take your meds (double my script and since I normally only take 2.5 mg, 10 mg was a HUGE jump). Taking the extra meds caused even more anxiety. I thought they would have to put me to sleep. However, the tech, was very understanding, let me watch part of one, showed me how to escape, handed me a panic bulb. It got the the point the noise of the machine was comforting.

Anyway, I say all of this top say, do not be embarrassed to speak up about things. You would be surprised at what techs, doctors, and nurses are capable of when you say I have ...., so please do not.....

I do this ANY time I go to the ER (which, believe me is a LAST resort). I do not want them coming at me with me needles and shooting me up with stuff without telling me what it is, why I need it, what it will do, etc. Yeah part of my PTSD and such is I am a control freak. I am working on it. rofl

Glad to hear you got through it Miller! That is AWESOME!!

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Hi!

I read your post and just want to say - please don't fake it. It's really important to see someone when you are depressed or feeling down. Some professionals in the field of psychiatry and psychology are really good - it may take some shopping around, but I've found someone that I see for four years now and I've made GREAT progress with her.

I think you can make great progress too and feeling better about yourself will help you with your healthy lifestyle changes. I wish you the best. Julie

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PHATCRYSSY, Wow - you have been going through a lot. I hope the stomach flu and bronchitis are gone now and stay gone. Sorry you're getting the blame for things - that doesn't seem fair. Hang in there!
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Have not ben ignoring you my friends, Just going thru some mess. In the past couple weeks I have had the stomach flu, and turned 38, then my husband and mother in law got the stomach flu and my husband turned 35. Along with the stomach flu my husband got Bronchitis and we spent 7 hours in the emergency room on his biethday. I am getting less sleep, and less nutrition, less of everything. I am putting on a happy face so that i dont get blamed for all that is wrong but some days I get blames anyway.


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CHRIS, yes, my MRI's were this afternoon and I made it through them. I almost freaked out during the neck one (for some reason) but I hung in there and got through it and the lower back one, as well. Thanks for asking!


AKALIE, I'm glad today is going better and that you'll get to talk with your doctor about possibly going to a specialist. Take care and keep in touch!


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With depression, faking it until you make it only goes so far. I am glad you are seeking help & reached out to this supportive team also.

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Today is going better. I had a friend who said I could send him whatever I needed to share yesterday. He didn't respond after that message but he didn't complain about my venting, either. And today I am talking to my doctor when I get home from work. It's only my primary care doctor, and she is only going to be going through a questionnaire to see if she should send me to a specialist, but it should be alright.
I know I could fake it and get through the damn thing, but I should probably stop doing that sort of thing.

Thank you, guys.

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Kudos to you Akalie! Realizing there s a problem is the first step to mental health. Plus you took another step in the right direction by contacting your doctor. Smile! Your doing great and should be proud of yourself.

I agree with others advice of meds, doctor, counseling whatever it takes. Earlier on this forum I wrote a trick I use. Read it over for a short time it might help. I also write in a journal once in a while. It was a great place for me to vent. Once on paper the problem didn't seem so bad afterall or I released it in thin air. Poof! gone. Not an easy task, but doable.

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AKALIE, don't give up. Keep talking to your doctor and pursue treatment for the depression. It's not uncommon, in my experience, to feel let down or sad when you finally admit you need help and you take steps to get it and those actions alone don't suddenly make you better. But the truth is, those actions are necessary, but that alone won't fix the problem. You're going to need treatment, just as if it were a physical disorder like a broken arm or diabetes.

Don't be afraid to do what your doctor recommends - medication, counseling, therapy or whatever. We've all been there and while it's hard sometimes, you can do it. And what do you have to lose? Just your depression - and we all want to lose our depression and feel better.

Take care and big, big hugs!!!
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Even though I have been avoiding seeing a doctor about it, I have know that I have problems with depression for about 4 years. But today I realized that I have probably had some degree of chronic depression for more like 6 years. And for some reason realizing that or admitting it to myself hurts a lot more than trying to pretend everything is ok, which is generally how I stay functional (I have had a few episodes, maybe two, where I had no energy for anything and just dropped out of life for a couple of weeks).

I let my doctor know in the most cowardly way possible last week that there is probably something to be worried about as far as emotional health goes, and she is supposed to be sending me a questionnaire but her email isn't allowing her to attach it. So I let her know this morning that if we can predetermine a specific time I can talk to her on the phone like she wanted from the beginning.

I just don't know what to do about all of this. I thought knowing was half the battle and getting help was supposed to feel better but I am almost dizzy, my chest hurts, and I have to keep making sure I don't cry.

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Okay. Just read your post. Your lounge chair is on the beach! emoticon

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MILLERISHEALTHY my heart goes out to you. I hate those enclosed MRI! so I'm sending several angels to keep you company while in the MRI singing "Oh, Happy Day" while you imagine a calm time laying on a summer lounge chair with sunglasses on and your favorite beverage. Life around you is laughing.

Sorry about the song. It just popped into my head and now I can't get it out. emoticon



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My happy time was on the beach. I love the ocean, sand, breeze, and sound of the waves. All I have to say or think is "beach" and it makes me happy.
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So glad you enjoyed my tip. What was your happy time? emoticon

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Found out today that one reason for my pain is degeneration of discs in neck and lower back, added to the arthritis in lower back. Also have calcification (plaque) in femoral artery. Having two MRI's on Tuesday. A little scared of being enclosed in such a tight space for so long. I've had an MRI before, but it was on my knee and my head wasn't in very far - this will be different. Ah well, I'll just take it as it comes and hope for the best.

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BUBBLEGUM FAIRY, I hope you found someone to exchange emails with. I’m so swamped with stress from family interactions - trying to coordinate care for 90 yr. Mother who has dementia and siblings who disagree on what to do - that I’m afraid to offer to correspond. I do hope someone offered to give you some input. If not, you might try Spark mailing one of the Dealing with Depression team leaders. They're all great.
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SALAM, wishing you lots of lots of courage to persevere through all your struggles. Hang in there – things will get better with time.
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CHRIS, thanks for the idea to think about one positive happy time and label it – I’ve already chosen one since reading your post!
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oh! Kudos to all of you that have made progress on your weightloss journey!

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Depression is so ugly. Not only can it be inherited,other things add to it. I'm 62 and have read so many motivational books to create a positive attitude or mind I could be a motivaional speaker.
Although one book did give this advice and I try to use it: Think of one positive happy time in your life and label it with one word. For me, I've gone on a cruise to the carribean. So my word would be cruise. When I start feeling bad I say cruise to myself or outloud. The author of this book said to follow this procedure each day. She felt that within a month, the feelings will get a positive vibe istead of a negative. No she was not a pyscologist. Just a normal person giving her advice. She also said the words that put a smile on your face or made you laugh even for a second.
About 20 yrs ago I used this technique while working. I just kept a smile on my face. So many asked what I was smiling about. My standard answer was "Life".
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Hi everyone. I am going through a horrible time right now and need lots of courage. May I borrow some from all of you until I find my own?

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Hi team. I am going through a tough time right now and just need some one on one advice, if anyone wouldn't mind exchanging spark mails. There is a problem I am struggling with and just need some input. Thank you. emoticon emoticon

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Here's hoping you get a car and everything else you need. It's great news about the playground!
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I am not going to list a lot of situational stuff (fertilizer) going on right now, because I don't want to feed the negative. I just wanted to tell someone that I am stressed to the max and feel like my nerves are stretched as tight as harp strings. I've already begged God for help and relief, and I want to trust God in spite of no visible solutions right now.

Just a few minutes ago a neighbor came to my door wanting to give us outdoor playground equipment that they don't want to transport on their out of state move. Awesome! Grandma will finally have a playground!! There is not a day that goes by that something good doesn't happen. Now if only someone would come to the door with a drive-able car for the kids.

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Pills work and then they do not. Smile it at least helps some . Even if you make someone else it makes the day better. emoticon emoticon think emoticon

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Thank you MILLERISHEALTHY, that is good advice. It reminds me of the breathing they had me do when I was in labor. As I recall, it kept me from leaping off the table and throttling the nurse, so there may be something to the idea that it calms you down. emoticon

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SALAM, I went to your page and read some of your blogs and I'm really sorry you're having to go through all this stress. My therapist told me to do some deep breathing when I'm feeling anxious (she's treating me for an anxiety disorder, depression, and PTSD), but if you feel you can't catch your breath I'm not sure how well it would work. I guess it couldn't hurt to try - she said to breathe in for a count of 3, then hold the breath for a count of 1, then release it with a count of 3. She said to repeat that four or five times. It does seem to help, as it focuses my mind on breathing slowly, deeply and evenly and it also gets me more oxygen.

Big, big hugs. I hope you feel better soon.

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I am really struggling with anxiety right now. I have good reasons...read my past few blogs and you'll have the gist of it...but in the meantime I feel like I can't catch my breath. I'm trying to distract myself...cleaning, reading,meditating, checking the Sparkpages...but I am FREAKING OUT!

I let my kids play at their friends house so they wouldn't see me like this. I need to get it under control.

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You have every right to vent and complain - just because someone else's problems may seem "bigger," that certainly doesn't diminish what you're going through.

It would drive me crazy if I didn't have a place to get away from others, so I can understand your frustration. It sounds like you just don't have any privacy or "down time" and that's really hard on anyone.

When my daughter was living in a college dorm for a few years, she actually had to learn to get used to wearing those foam ear plugs to block out the noise. She also had to learn to wear a sleep mask to keep out the ambient light. That's why she lives at home now - because she couldn't sleep well or concentrate on homework with all the disruptions at school. She also has trouble sleeping and her depression and OCD are worse when she's sleep-deprived.

I don't know if something like that would help you block out the early morning noises, but thought I'd mention it just in case.

I hope you're able to rest tonight. Hang in there!
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I feel like my problems are so small compared to others, I have no rights to publicly complain or vent, but I think that is also one of the many reasons I end up depressed every month or every other month... I push it all down and try to bury it. Today is one of those days where I am so irritated by the fact that I have no bedroom to take a break from everyone else, and daily walks outside aren't cutting it.

Since I have no actual bedroom, I sleep in a corner of the living room. This morning I woke up to my almost 2 year old nephew screaming and carrying on, throwing a fit, and my brother just letting him go on and on. Usually I try to fall back asleep anyway, but the dog was whining and she needed to go out. Only one or two mornings a week does someone else take the initiative to take her out, and she's not even my dog. I'm so irritated with family not taking responsibility for anything or only doing a half job when they do something, which makes more work for me. I feel like a mother to everyone and no privacy! Even when I get a shower, at least half of the time someone knocks on the door or comes in there. I guess I'm just feeling overwhelmed by everything. I definitely feel the depression coming back but I'm trying to fight it with every fiber of my being. When I'm stressed and sleep-deprived, I snap at everyone a lot.

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Hugs SWEETPEA and SALAM. I hope things somehow get better for us all.
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I am having a really tough time. My ex really feeds into that. I'm having to ask for a restraining order and sole custody of my kids, so I know things are about to get very ugly. I have issues with depression anyway, and when my ex starts fanning the flames it gets very scary. I find myself doing what my therapist calls detachment behaviors...reading for hours, surfing the net, focusing on anything else. Frankly, I'm afraid of where I am heading mentally.

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So I had a rough night eating wise. I didn't get enough calories through out the day so I made up for it last night and went over my goals :( Not giving up though. Just wish I wouldn't do that because I know better, when I over do it eating wise it doesn't help with my depression. emoticon

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Please don't give up and I too suffer from depression so I know these feelings all to well and we cannot beat ourselves up when we have a bad night, we just have to try to move forward because if we keep looking back, it will hold us back for life!! I am on an antidepressant and it does help me but just every so often I feel down but my doctor said that it was good that I can pinpoint what is wrong and why I am feeling down. I hope this helps you along your way. emoticon It does get better CYN5200 is right about that!!

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CYN5200, I'm sorry you're feeling the depression creeping back again. I definitely understand the feeling of wanting to crawl into a hole, as that's how I felt last night. This morning, I feel a little better because the sun is shining and I feel like there might be some hope.

My psychiatrist has me trying a new antidepressant called Brintellix. It's made me feel less depressed, but I'm struggling with some side effects that most people don't have and it's frustrating. If I could find a medication that helps, and which I could tolerate, I would take it forever.

If you're not on an antidepressant, consider trying one as they can help very much. If you are on one, you may want to contact your doctor for a med check. Sometimes we need the dosage adjusted or other times they need to add another one to augment the one we're taking for the best results.

In any case, hang in there and don't give up. Things may get worse but they always get better again. And keep posting so we can support you.

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I feel my depression creeping up on me again. I feel overwhelmed. I feel like crawling in a hole.

"Ideas are like rabbits. You get a couple and learn now to handle them, and pretty soon you have a dozen." John Steinbeck


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Thanks very much for replying and for giving me such good advice. It's serendipitous that you should mention my getting out and doing something plus breathing deeply, since my therapist told me just yesterday that my homework assignments were to get out and exercise - maybe even join the local wellness/fitness center - and to do deep breathing exercises 5 times per day. It sounds like that's exactly what I need to do in order to help me cope with all this.

Thanks again!!

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Hey there Miller... So sorry to hear about your mom. You must be feeling kinda desperate. I know that feeling, when you just want to vanish into a hole and never come out. All I can say is, force yourself out, force yourself to do something out of your comfort zone but that you will enjoy. That little bit of time out of your own head will feel like a holiday from all the worry and stress. Just take a time out and give yourself a chance to breath, deeply, and you will find you feel much better and more able to cope.

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Thought things were turning around, but feel like I've just had a blow to the gut. My mother is definitely being kicked out of the nursing facility where she is currently living and we haven't found a place for her yet. She has dementia and is used to this place, so I hate for her to have to start all over again. Plus, the folks that work there found her lying on the floor at 5am this morning. Apparently, she had fallen out of bed and they didn't know it. She didn't get hurt, but this is no way for her to live.

I'm trying to make progress in getting more healthy while dealing with the depression, OCD, and new-diagnosed PTSD, but it sure is hard when I'm worried about my mother so much. I just want to give up and climb into a dark hole and never come out.

Sorry this is such a downer, but I literally have no one to talk to.

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Milladamen:: Be kind to yourself. You're taking some important steps towards good health. I'm wishing for you to have peace and enthusiasm and positive energy in the days ahead.

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Since I'm on a 100% sick leave, the rules in Norway say I can't do anything that counts as a paid job. So I'll just have to wait, and eventually go on a hike tomorrow to get my mind off things.

Looking on the bright side, I get paid just as much being at home as I get by working when on a sick leave, but my head hates me for it. And my mood.

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MILLADAMEN could you go back for a few days then full time the week after?

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I was so motivated to start my new job tomorrow, but then my doctor said I'll have to wait until next week. I know that the doctor is probably right, and that I probably need some more rest, but I get extra depressed when I'm not doing things. And also, now I'm fearing that they'll get a bad image of me, since I'm on a sick leave, and can't start when I was supposed to.

I don't really want to spend five more days at home.

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Ty miller and yes I have tmj also, but this is a simptum I have never had. Ty for the well wishs emoticon back

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DOLLYBABE, I'm sorry you're feeling so bad. Your sore jaw and ear aches remind me of the pain I have with TMJ and teeth grinding. I grind my teeth at night anyway, but when I was on Prozac it was much worse. Don't know if any of your medications have the side effect of teeth grinding, but it might be something you want to check into. I hope your surgery goes well on Thursday. Big hugs!!
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I hate going to the Dr. and I am sick of all the pills I have to take and the cost of them. I AM having my 12 operation Thursday. This time its carpal tunnel . And now my ears ache and my Jaw is so sore I can hardly chew. I need to lose weight but not this way. Sorry for the whine

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I had a crying fit half an hour because I managed to pull out the headphone wire while exercising. Still exhausted. I think I'm stressing about stuff again.

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5/30/14 9:13 P

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I had a confusing therapy session on Thursday, but I see my new psychologist again on Monday and hope things will be clearer after that. I'm anxious to find out the treatment plan going forward. I started a new antidepressant called Brintellix. I'm really sensitive to side effects, so I hope I can tolerate it.

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SAME, thanks. I believe the facility my mother is at is a good one. That's not to say it's 100% perfect, but she's being taken care of as well as I could hope for. It's a local place near her home that's been around for a long time and we've known lots of friends and relatives who have stayed there (for rehab and/or nursing home care) off and on throughout the years. The only problem is the dementia seems to be making her combative now and they didn't know her when she wasn't this way so they probably think she's just mean. I'm afraid she'll eventually alienate all the folks who care for her there.

Your lady sounds like a real handful - it's a wonder they can get anyone to stay with her at all. I really do think you deserve a raise. It's an incredibly hard job and I know I don't have what it takes to do it - that's why I'm so grateful there are people out there, like you, who can handle it.

I hope you have a good weekend and don't work too hard!

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5/28/14 8:07 A

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Miller - sorry to hear about your mother. I know there comes a time when taking care of the family member at home just becomes impossible. I hope she is in a good care facility. It takes lots of patience and lots of love when dealing with altzhimers. My lady was mean and hateful to begin with and with this to she is sometimes very very hard to deal with. She goes through aids like most people go through socks. Most just can't handle the mean and spiteful behavior. Lots of luck and prayers sent your way.

Was glad to see a familiar face in here... gonna have to try to make it in here more often and get to know all the new people. This is a great site and a wonderful room. I miss my spark peeps.

Finally getting house to myself again, well i have my boy here... but BF and his boys have all finally departed. Now can spend 2 days cleaning then might feel better again.. lol.
Was a good weekend though. Everybody was safe and had fun.. That is most important thing.

I hope everyone has a great day. Will check in again soon.

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5/27/14 3:09 P

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Depression is not something you always cure on your own. If you need to get help, then get it, don't even hesitate. I think it is GREAT you are trying to deal with it all natural and I certainly hope it works for you but just in case it doesn't again don't be afraid to get help. Most primary care phycians (although not all) are pretty understanding and educated more now than ever before. I lost my husband 5 years ago and thought I would never get over it. I did and now life is finally looking good again, like I have something to look forward to for the first time. Hang in there and keep up the great work! P.S. this is my first post so sorry if it is choppy..... :)

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Thanks for the advice Harris. I'll try looking into something else to make new friends. I signed up to volunteer to work with the junior birders but haven't heard anything back yet. Now that Summer is here there is so much more to do! Book club sounds like fun. I love to read also!

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SAME, I admire you for doing the work you do. My mother recently had to start living in a nursing home (at age 90) and I just went there today for another visit. She has dementia and isn't the most nice and positive patient they have there. She's deteriorating pretty quickly. I feel sorry for the workers and sorry for my mama, too. I always try to make it a point to thank the folks who care for her for all they do - I know the job is incredibly hard and I wouldn't have what it takes to do it. I hope you get the pay increase - you certainly deserve it.

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5/25/14 5:18 P

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Been so long since i been in here. I hope everyone has been hanging in there, and are doing well. Same old stuff happening with me, work, work, work, and now that the weather has greatly improved even more work to do. But at least it is outside work, so not only getting exercise but also fresh air and sunshine. Had a get together with the families this weekend and turned out nice. Some of my family actually showed up and stayed a little while. Was very happy about that.

I can't say I am losing much weight since i last been in here but clothes are fitting better, and actually fit in more then one pair of shorts from last year. So i guess i am happy about that. Now if just the pounds would disappear to.

Work is still a hassle, but what does one do. When dealing with the elderly and one with dementia or altzhimers what does one do. At least i don't have to go there on the weekends. I do another lady on weekends and she is a real sweety, or is with me any way, The office is saying she is getting difficult and they are having trouble covering her hours on the weekend, I told them if they offered me the same deal they did the last time i was working with her that i would take it again, Sooo marked my paper with the pay increase now just waiting to see if they honor it. Keeping fingers crossed.

Other then that, ( like i said same old same old, or same stuff different day ) things are going o.k. i guess.

Just wanted to drop in and say hello.. Took me awhile to find the recent post tab again, kinda changed the site since i been on here.. And need to take advantage of this site more and start exploring it again, join some challenges and logging more of my stuff in the trackers again. Just finding the time to do it all i guess..

Anyway, again i hope everybody is hanging in there and doing the best they can. I hope to check back in soon,

Have a great rest of you holiday weekend.

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5/23/14 10:45 A

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Hi Immortaldebra,
My problem is I have girlfrieds but I just dont want to be bothered half the time. Try meetup.com and maybe you can find a group of women who actually get together to get aquainted, and support oneanother. There are groups for everything you can imagine, i recently joined a book club, and I am excited to read the first book and attend the meeting. My therapost told me I have to make more efforts to connect with people who make me feel good about myself, and want my company. If you take a minute and think, there may be someone you haven't even thought of befriending, just look around you at the doctors office, the grocery store clerk you see all the time, and your local library.
I know how hard it is to connect with people, but you wan to make connections that will add to your life- not takeway.

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Hi Teeny2bee, I did the same thing when I was going through a depression. I bought the most beautiful male pug dog I could find, and after about two weeks I was ready to take him back. House training him was a nightmare, but once we got past that it was easier. Now I concentrate on how he makes me feel when I come home from work, he is the first one to greet me. I can hear him barking hwen my car pulls into the garage. Now five years later I cant imagine my life without him. Recently I was under so much stress i thought about putting him up for adoption, my husband and son were not in agreement so I didnt do it, I felt guilty that my depression was causing me to sleep more than I would spend time walking him.
One thing I live by is to never make any permanent decisions based on a temporary situation. Things do get better, and you will feel better, just keep living.

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Hey, I get anxiety attacks when I drive! I didn't realize what that was until I read your post. Maybe that is something you and I can work on together!

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I took an herb class like that once. It was a six week class, and during that time I couldn't get one person to talk with me. I tried making conversation, but to no avail. Whenever I get involved at my church or doing volunteer activities, it is a totally different story. The people are warm and accepting. Try a different group or activity. You have special gifts to give, and the right group of people will be really glad to know you.

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