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Dreamed-I am glad that you found an opportunity to assert yourself. I am passive/aggressive. I tend to let all these things happen to me instead of making things happen. And I let it keep happening to me until I can't take it anymore and then I explode. I see it as being assertive others see it as being just plain nasty. I am learning slowly to soften my approach. A very simple "I appreciate your offering to help but I got this." has become my new approach and it is so much more welcome than my typical methods.

You can't control how people are going to accept your assertiveness. Many who have come to count on you always backing down may get annoyed or downright disgruntled by you suddenly standing up for what you want. Don't let that stop you! BE YOU. Unapologetically. Your sister WILL come around.

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12/19/14 7:48 A

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I am having a particularly hard time. It started when my psychotherapist said to assert myself which I find very hard to do. My sister said she got someone to help with something. I thought doesn't she think I can do it myself? Aha I thought a chance to assert myself so I said something to my. Sister and now she is not taking my calls. In the condition. I am in I am finding the rejection very hard to take. I am surviving by telling myself put it off your mind until you see my therapist again. That way I don,t dwell on it and drive myself to despair. Thank you for listening

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12/18/14 5:13 P

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Your trip sounds awesome!! Congrats on losing weight while on vacation!! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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Haven't posted for a while. Thought I would check in. Went on a vacation with the family that included a hike up the inside of an extinct volcano. It was a short hike. But it was very steep. Happy to say we made it up and looked around and down in less than the recommended time :). I am also happy to say that I lost weight on my vacation with even indulging a little. I mean who goes to Hawaii and eats healthy the whole time? Lol. And now I have been back to work. And my mood has actually been high the whole week. Happy almost weekend everyone!

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12/17/14 4:44 P

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So glad she was supportive - that's wonderful!
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12/17/14 6:45 A

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Thank you all for the wonderful advice and support. I know now that calling the Salvation Army or Red Cross would be our best option. I plan to call them today.

Strangely enough I called my mother back yesterday to apologize for being whiny. And to my surprise for the first time since I was a very small child my mother was angelic in her response. She said words of comfort in a tone that told me she loved me and the best thing she could have said was "Sweety, if you can't whine and complain to your mother. Who can you complain to? I love you and you are going to be ok."



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12/17/14 12:52 A

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Thanks so much for the Welcome Back!!
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12/16/14 11:44 P

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By the way MILLERISHEALTHY, emoticon emoticon

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12/16/14 10:49 P

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Mommy_Rx, I know that this is an incredibly hard, stress filled time, but please know that you do have the strength to get through this. I'm sorry about the conversation with your mother, it must have hurt.

I was in a similar situation a few years ago, and I remember that feeling of wanting to give up. I confided in someone (I am sure God put her in my path just then, because she was the perfect resource) and she told me to call our local street sheet. It's a contact list for charities and resources. If you have a local 211 contact, they can put you in touch with resources as well. Sometimes it's just a one time help, sometimes it's ongoing til you get back on your feet.



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12/16/14 6:17 P

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MOMMY_RX, I'm sorry your Mom wasn't more sympathetic - I'm sure that really hurts. POPEYETHETURTLE great you great advice and I hope the Salvation Army can help you. Lots of charities pay their CEO's huge salaries and very little actually goes to help people, but The Salvation Army is different and they really do use their funds wisely. In regard to no gifts - that's really hard. My brother and SIL were in a similar situation years ago when their kids were small and my SIL pawned her wedding ring to buy Christmas for the kids (she got it back later).

I heard a radio show this afternoon where the expert on the program was saying that the time you spend with your kids at Christmas is much more important than anything under the tree. I know my daughter always loved to get presents - but if there was one thing she liked more than that, it was to have me play with her one-on-one (dolls, play-doh, drawing, crafts). She craved attention more than material things. I hope that reassures you that it isn't necessary to have lots of gifts for them on Christmas morning. That said, maybe Salvation Army could help you provide Christmas gifts for your kids, too. I hope so.

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12/16/14 1:59 P

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When I was younger, I was in a situation similar to yours and I know some of the feelings you are experiencing.

One day, in a fit of rationality, I realized that jumping off a bridge wouldn't help my family at all - in fact, it would hurt them more than they already were hurting.

All of my life, I had been a giver, not a taker; a donor but not a donee; a giver of charity, not a receiver. I was proud I had always been able to stand on my own, and that pride nearly lost me my family. I had a huge problem with asking for help, it didn't seem that particular gene was in my genetic code.

When I finally realized there was nothing else to do, I went to the Salvation Army and asked for help (I didn't want to go to my family or church for help, my pride there was still too much to overcome). In my time of need, they came through for me for a little more than five months - it took that long to get a job and to pay my immediate bills.

It took me more than eight years, but I finally paid off the bills from that time of my life and I have been a continuous donor TO the Salvation Army since that time.

I don't know if they can help you as they did me, but the gracious way they helped with no looking down their noses, no hurtful remarks and the kindness will always be a remembrance to not let my pride stand in the way of getting things done for my family.

To add to that, my wife never made a negative comment about how I had embarrassed her by not being able to provide for our family. Much later she told me how happy she had been that I went beyond my stubborn streak and did what was needed to get us into a better place.

Don't give up the ship, don't ever give up the ship. Try to steer it to shallow waters so that sinking never means going completely under. Sometimes, finding a tug boat will get you to a place you never thought you could reach.

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12/16/14 12:44 P

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I haven't checked in with the team in awhile cause my life is just falling apart around me.
We were evicted. We need to be out by Jan. 1st
We found a great apartment that is at the highest end of our price range. It is taking every spare dime we have to come up with first last and security. There is no money for Christmas or the two girls birthdays. So we got a kitten cause she was free. We figured her arrival will help soften the blow of having to give our family dog to my Aunt. The apartment allows cats not dogs. Then we figured once we move in and it isn't costing us $200 a week in gas we can afford to do all the vet stuff with her.

Anyway as if things can't get worse, my Aunt can't take the dog anymore. AND it turns out in this area of where we are moving they require deposits to turn all of the utilities on. So we have a home but we will have no heat or electricity.

I called my mom to tell her and she was less than sympathetic. She was all "well your the one that picked out that gas guzzler car" , "Well you want to stay with your husband..."
The last thing I need from anyone right now is that look down your nose crap.

My life is a mess. I don't know how to fix it and I am getting dangerously close to just throwing in the towel.

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12/14/14 7:05 P

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12/14/14 2:34 P

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Trying to get back into things here on Spark. Tracking, posting, etc. Was absent for a while - hard year with my mother's illness and death. Looking forward to 2015.

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12/13/14 11:17 P

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I have been (mostly) even keel for awhile, although I have had a few really intense outbursts. I think it's because I am finally starting to deal with my PTSD and allowing myself to cry. Also, a court date with my ex is coming up on the 18th, so I have been doing a lot of work, remembering a lot of our past and writing about it. The pills help, of course, but I really believe I am starting to get to the root of some of my issues.

I've had a lot of computer issues, so I haven't been posting, but I have been reading others posts. I am in awe of how much strength I find in these pages, and it really motivates me to get back on track. THank you, all.

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12/8/14 11:47 P

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When I read everyone's posts, I'm always amazed by how strong you all are. We all deal with so many tough things and keep on going. It's also heartening to know that I'm not the only one who struggles. When I am around people at work, they always seem to have such perfect lives and seem to be so successful. I feel very alone in these aspects. Maybe they are all just keeping their walls up so that nobody knows them on the inside. I guess I do that too - to protect myself from being hurt. I'm grateful to come to this forum and just be able to be real.

You guys rock!


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12/8/14 7:04 P

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New sleep pills from the chiropractor work for Husband I need to add Calcium or mussel relaxer.

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12/6/14 2:53 P

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Hello all,

I have been in fibro fog for the last two days but still was able to get exercise in and get to work. I have been adjusting to the changes caused by Cymbalta. I tend to sleep in spurts and not through the night. I have been having active legs at night. I need to make an appointment with my rheumatologist to maybe up my Neurontin.

I continue to journal in order to cope with my anxiety and negative feelings. I combine my prayer journal with my personal journal. I find that combining them allows me to talk to God about my feelings. Reading the Bible then gives me many positive affirmations. I have a life recovery and a celebrate recovery Bible that really help me when I feel depressed.

Hope you all have a great weekend.

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I like this thread. I don't know if it is SAD, or 'empty nest-ness' or what, but I struggle with Mondays. Maybe if I had a way to express that to people who understand, it would help me through the day. The afternoons are getting more and more difficult now that we are back to standard time and I am trying my best to find support through the season.

So, yeah...Monday was rough, but I made it through without a set-back. Tuesday was a good day as well. I was emotional after meeting my boys for dinner, and went to bed as soon as I got home.

Today is Wednesday, and I see a light at the end of the tunnel. I am having dinner with my sister who lives in Hong Kong. One day at a time, Sweet Jesus!

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I am having a terrific day! I feel real good. And it's not manic either. Yesterday I hooked up with an old friend. We went to lunch. I haven't seen her in like 5 years. That was very nice.
To Talamar if I can feel good anyone can. Hang in there; look up. It is normal not to sleep well sometimes

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I've been having a hard time sleeping. I am concerned that this might be an early sign of depression. Every few days I will sleep well, then I start waking up between 11pm and 3am.

Last time I was depressed I had a difficult time sleeping. Usually, though, the depression comes first.

Maybe I'm worrying too much. Tonight I'm going to try to go to bed at 10pm instead of 8pm. My meds were causing me to sleep 10 hours. Maybe my body is going back to an 8 hour cycle.

Patience. Balance. Moderation.

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MommyRX how are you doing?
I had a good day today. I kept my mind on the good things instead of just telling them to myself once and then forgetting about it. I went on a ride ( we take a ride every Sunday where I'm living) and that was fun.

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I agree with FLOJOBEFIT -- slowing down and dealing with one thing at a time creates a sense of accomplishment, even if you've done the absolute easiest task you have on hand. It gets you into a positive frame of mind.

I'm trying to brace myself for the week ahead. My husband will be out of town all of this week. He'll come home on Friday or Saturday and then he'll leave again Monday morning for another week out of town. Difficult!

I wish you all good luck with your goals and lots and lots of motivation!

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I know it doesn't help a lot but I see if things get too much for me. I slow down and try to do it one step at a time. Then I can oversee everything better. And then you have satisfaction on step at a time, you enjoy you victory intenser. Keep on trying MommyRX!! You inspire us all.

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MommyRX You're doing great. You got the good court decision. And remember you are going through something- the operative word here is going through. It has an ending. Just keep on truckin!

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11/24/14 11:52 A

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I need support today.

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I feel depressed but I am not giving in. I did good today; I volunteered giving out Thanksgiving baskets next store at the church and I went on a bus ride around a beautiful neighborhood. I kept my mind on the ride instead of my problems. So why am I depressed?
I don't know I'm at home in it. But I am not going to go along with it!

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When I read how much difficulty others have, mine are so small. I do believe God is helping you. All the best to you and your family. Keep hoping for the best outcome. You inspire me also to not give up hope no matter how hard the challenges in life.!! emoticon

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Reading through the posts, I remembered a positive affirmations book I used years ago. One I kept going back to was Stop, Breath, Feel. The breathing part was difficult because I tend to be very hard on myself. I think that is part of why the holidays are difficult. I can never do enough (to satisfy some imaginary person in my head). When I stop and think of small things I can do and focus on one of those at a time. It is not so overwhelming. I will not have a decorated house, I may not even get a tree up. Yet small items can make the difference. If I give a gift to someone each day, that too can make a difference. GIFT? no not necessarily an item (though cooked gifts work) Better is the gift of a kind word, smile, or just not griping in the first 10 minutes after my DH gets home. Yikes that's hard. It is still a gift and I can celebrate that! Today I am doing well and still not feeling SAD. Got to go walking....

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Went to Court on Monday and we have until New Year's Eve to vacate the property. All debt forgiven and the eviction is not being put on our credit report!

I did have 1 day of relapse into depression once I got the verdict. The stress of having to move and the fear of being homeless for the holidays all of it just hit and I slept for almost 20 hours. Broken sleep but it was still very unlike the norm. Not sure if it was depression or my cycle. My cycle has been so messed up never know when it's coming and never know how hard it will hit.

Either way, feeling very positive today! I wrote in my blog today that there is a possibility that we may be able to go 'home'. Our house was foreclosed on back in 2010 and we had to move back to our home state where our families are. It was such a heartbreaking experience. But our realtor found a house for rent in that same town where our original house was! At first we were afraid to go back there. Didn't want to be shamed for losing our house but after reflecting on things I realized that this house for rent might soften the eviction blow for my kids, cause they would get to go 'home' where there friends were.

Really feeling the Hand of God in my life right now. Feels like this is just meant to be. The street has the word Bloom in it! lol Can't miss that message....

Time to go home so that we can bloom where we are planted.

Crossing my fingers and praying a ton that this House will be the one for us.

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I did well with my stepdads surgery! I got anxious in the waiting room because it was so full of people, but otherwise I did well!

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I've been struggling as well. I'm still adjusting to my meds after coming out of the hospital. Ive been overeating as well. It's very frustrating. Today, I didn't take my steroids, instead I'm going to take them this evening and see how that works out.
Hope everyone stays strong today : ) we can do it!

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i am struggling this past week. i am switching medicines and the new one makes me not feel full and i have been craving chocolate/sugar all week. i have over eat all most every day and have gained 5-8 pounds. i am hoping that it will calm down because i hate feeling so full you feel sick but then still wanting to eat. my depression feels good and i haven't been feeling it coming back.

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I agree with Janzdiet- you have to look to your higher power. I struggle to do that but feel if I could only do that it would solve a lot of my problems.
Today was ok. I did have a certain degree of depression. Not knowing if I should turn to my higher power or to depend on myself is a big sticking point with me. Some times I am successful and sometimes I fail miserablty But I just don't know

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I haven't been in here for a while and have been doing very well. But we are back in the holiday season and it is cold. I am uncomfortable this year and so very tired from working two jobs. It is now taking it toll on me and I can feel it.
We are suppose to be celebrating what we are thankful for and I am struggling because of others attitudes of what they expect of me. I have opened my home to family and friends out of the kindness of my heart and wanting to see them all again. But someone does not like the menu or want to watch the big ball games and I do not have tv (I cant afford it). I am doing the best I can and have found out that I have to work Thanksgiving day. I am not thankful right now for very much because I can not afford anything extra and I just feel that some folks who have so much more feel that I am not trying my best or that I am not as good as they are.
I know I should be thankful for the things I do have and that I have a nice place to call home and I do have two jobs when so many are out of work, but why do the holidays have to bring out the worst in people. I hate the stress of what I dream of being able to do for those I love and the fact that I don't have enough money to even pay for my dental needs or the new glasses I should get.
I know I am not on any kind of assistance so I should be thankful for that but many who have less get help and I am in the area of the void. My life could be worse and I keep telling myself this, but it isn't helping right now. I do not want to have to go back on meds but if it gets any worse I will probably have to.
I used to love the holidays and now they just mean more stress and greed for those around me.
I know I may offend someone but I hate Black Friday and Thanksgiving shoppers, their greed is astounding to me. What happened to family time and homemade Christmas' with lots of love? Now it is who can afford to get the most expensive gifts. Money isn't everything folks and you can't buy happiness, but love is free and so easily accepted!

Sorry!

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I am doing well so far. Tomorrow I will be in the hospital while my stepdad has surgery. We will see how that goes and how I handle it.

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After the wind, cold and ice of earlier this week, I am looking forward to much warmer temperatures this next week. Of course, along with the warmer temps comes the gray days and the rain, but my light box will help out with that. So far it has been a really pleasant month. I'm actually looking forward to Thanksgiving this year, since we are having it here at my house. Sending out positive energy and hugs to all that need them. Take care and God bless, Deb

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11/16/14 11:33 A

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I think my Seasonal Affective Disorder may be back this winter. One of the tell-tale signs is sleep and the past few days I have been getting ample sleep (8-9 hrs) and still needing that extra more and feeling tired earlier in the evening. I may need to pull out my light box. I am hoping to keep the eating in check by eating more nutritiously this year.

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Today was pretty good. Mostly I goofed off. But I did do 2 good things. I included a woman I really don't like into the conversation and I went to visit an elderly friend.
I had pizza and ice cream for lunch but I limited myself to one piece and ate light at dinner.
MY symptoms were relatively minor today

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Read some of the previous posts and can truly RELATE - a few years ago I lost my job and experienced grave financial difficulties.

What worked for me: having faith in a Power Greater Than Myself; consistent MEDITATION; allowing myself to GRIEVE the loss of my job; being GENTLE w/ myself; group & individual THERAPY; and, a mild, doctor prescribed, ANTI-DEPRESSANT.

I am a kind of paranoid in reverse. I suspect people of plotting to make me happy. - J. D. Salinger


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The last few days at work have been BRUTAL!!! Thank goodness for weekends!!! emoticon

I am a kind of paranoid in reverse. I suspect people of plotting to make me happy. - J. D. Salinger


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Today was a good day.

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Still up and down. I haven't felt bad just kinda in limbo for a while, which I guess is OK. Better than the alternative.

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My job was outsourced to India over 2 and a half years ago and still no job so I know what it is like to worry about not having a roof over your head. I meditate every day and try to exercise daily. I also make up signs to put on my refrigerator. The one I have up now says "Even a small step forward is better than doing nothing at all".

Good luck to all and don't give up!

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Dreamed- I am sorry to hear you are in similar financial distress. I know it can be so disheartening.

You know what I think really helped me start to come out of the CLOUD, was the passing of time. I saw kids I had diapered suddenly graduating high school, and supportive family members suddenly greying around the edges and I realized I was starting to miss out. Then I started becoming really aware of the dire straits my life had ended up in due to the depression, and instead of getting depressed, I got ANGRY and I started fighting back. That fight propels me to keep trying, to keep moving forward, and to keep reaching out.

Something has to give. And the fastest way to get anywhere is to TRY. So I do and I am. And we shall see where it gets me. All I know is I am not going to give up! I have lost the desire to sit in my misery and collect regrets and disappointments on my sleeve.

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MommieRX your telling of your recovery from depression was so inspirational.! And with all you've got going on too! I may be in a similar situation as the place I am now I have just so much money for. Infact when I get out of here I will have no place to live. I applied to housing about 3 months ago but haven't heard yet.
Well also today I asserted myself and I feel so good about it. I was supposed to go to this meeting but I didn't want to go . I want to go to the library instead. So though I was difficult for me I bowed out of the meeting. My day is good so far.

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Talamar-Don't jump to the depression diagnosis just yet! I thought it was my depression too. But my doc looked in my throat and said "You have Sleep Apnea." I guess they can tell if our throat lining is thin....apparently a product of snoring. I was told that Sleep Apnea is a very common affliction for overweight people and that it can cause exhaustion and that all over achy feeling can be due to the lack of sleep. My suggestion would be that you contact your doctor. It can't hurt.

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It's funny you know, I suffered from depression for 15 years. I slept 20 plus hours a day, sometimes even a couple days straight without waking. I had difficulty interacting socially, I had no drive, and felt down. Like severely down.

And what's odd is that even though I have MORE reasons now to be depressed than I ever did, I sleep my 8 hours. I get up and deal. I am sociable. And I am full of drive. I just don't get it.

I won't say that I am cured. But I will say that whatever was going on with me, I am thankful it has chosen NOW to hide cause I really need to be ON right now.

Next Monday, we go to court for the eviction. Our landlord had offered us a deal. They said be out by November 30th and you don't have to pay us a dime. But it doesn't look like that is going to be possible. We can't find a doable apartment in the area we need to be in within the parameters of their time frame. So we will fight in court and hopefully the judge will allow our family to stay here until we can find a place. It is so hard finding an apartment with hardwood floors (for my daughter's asthma), on the first floor (cause my husband will be in a wheelchair after his surgery), that allows dogs (cause my son is SO attached to our Basset Hound) that is in our price range and not in the ghettos....Something has to give. And sadly it looks like it is going to have to be the dog. How do you take a boy's only friend away?

Anyway, off to a bad start with food choices. Had 5 oreos for breakfast. Don't really have food for lunch gonna have to eat whatever I can find. Supper has to wait for hubby to get home. Will try to squeeze in a workout today atleast and push my water.

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11/11/14 7:01 P

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I have had a time change, but that's never been a problem before. I'm sleeping for 12 hours which is very unusual for me. I am also feeling very sluggish like I haven't had enough sleep.

Patience. Balance. Moderation.

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Have you had a time change this fall? I find that I'm up and down for a few weeks until I adjust to that change. Just one hour makes a difference in our internal clock.

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I'm worried because I have been sleeping longer than normal. I'm scared that a depression might be coming.

Patience. Balance. Moderation.

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I have been a little up and down lately. Mostly good, but something about the weather and time change has gotten to me a little.

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11/11/14 2:13 A

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Many of us suffer from seasonal affective disorder, as if the rest of the year is any better. emoticon Not to make light of it, but as we push forward, we will get better at dealing with those kinds of issues. We know ahead of time that the season is coming, so each year we look for and find new ways of dealing with it. Thank the Good Lord that we have such a knowledgeable and helpful team to encourage and support our difficult days. There is so much good advice on this page, that we can use to help ourselves and eachother to keep pushing forward. thanks everybody for the information, advice and encouragement. You are the BEST!! emoticon

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Today I had another pretty good day. I went to CVS. When we got on the bus a woman that I don't really like talking to sat next to me. So I maneuvered a way that I didn't have to sit next to her on the way home. It's a small thing but it's one of the ways my therapist told me to assert myself. She also said look for little victories and I'm calling that one.
I did pretty good diet wise. The only thing I went over was an extra cup of coffee(wit h milk and sugar. And I walked this morning even a little extra

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Hello all,

I have been recently diagnosed with Fibro. I am presently on Cymbalta for focus and depression as well as Neurontin for nerve pain. The Cymbalta really works well with my focus and depression but it kills my sleep. The Neurontin handles my pain but does nothing for my focus. Together they work great but have to settle on sleeping only 4 to 5 hours a night.

I am doing good and seeing my doctors regularly. I take things one day at a time and that really helps. Journaling about my feelings really helps me as well.

Hope you all are doing well

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Hi Mommy_RX. Thanks for the advice.

I got back from Dad's yesterday and I am up 4 pounds. Few people were showing up for the moving sale and the sewer was backing up during the sale. When my brother went downstairs to get something there was about 2" of sewer water on the whole floor.
Dad is doing OK at his new home and chasing the pretty women as fast as he can move at 93 years old!
Now I need to get back to my own issues and find time to work on some crafts and get out and walk.

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Struggling with food today...Our pantry is just about empty and can't afford to get more. We laughed that we actually have more dog food in the house than we do people food and that is only because someone gifted it to us.

Had 2 donuts for breakfast and a peanut butter and jelly sandwich. Lunch we are having hot dogs. Snack I ate a handful of candy. I am already over calories for the day and there isn't a whole lot I can do about it. No milk, no bread, just canned vegetables, corn muffins and bread.

Sigh....this is just ridiculous.

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to Debdeveltah I intend to apply all the advice you give Warrior. It is a good breakdown of what we all should do. I have been getting in to eating better and I don't usually think of that as a way that could affect my depression but I read that it does.
I am having a good day. I am trying to change my basic negative attitude which is really the basis for all my problems. It's such a simple thing but it is the little thing that makes a big difference.

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Hi THEWARRIOR4, I am so very sorry that you are having such difficulties and are facing so many challenges right now. Have you spoken to your doctor about having a medication review if you are on meds or the possibility of being put on meds should you need them? Do you have a therapist? Have you gone in for a check up recently to be sure that there isn't something physical that might be exacerbating your physical symptoms? This time of year it is very uncomfortable for a lot of us. Trying to get out of the house for a simple walk around the block for some fresh air or to stretch your legs might help you break your housebound habit. I am agoraphobic too. I have found that the combination of medication and therapy has worked wonders for me the past couple of years. Certainly paying close attention to your nutrition is an important part of being able to function well. I agree with Mommy_Rx there. She has given you some other good ideas as well. I hope that you are getting adequate rest along with proper hydration. All of these things factor into how we feel on a daily basis. I am sending you some positive energy and hugs to help you through your day. Take care and God bless, Deb

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TheWarrior4- If I lived close by I would come over and help with the girls so that you can get some rest. Are you drinking enough water? Are you forcing yourself to eat fresh fruits and veggies? You won't believe how much those simple steps can help lift you up. Also there is a vitamin water (the brand) that has potassium and b-vitamins in it, it's a purple-ish pink color. It's called Revive. When I get like how you are describing I grab a huge one of those and drink it down. It helps.

As far as the house goes do what you can do. Lower your expectations. Give yourself a break. And just do what you can do. I keep clorox wipes in the bathroom and wipe down as I get out of the shower or after I use the facilities. Dishes when I feel like how you are describing I tell myself to just wash 5. Then I give myself a break then I make myself go wash 5 more.

Get outside just to sit and enjoy the fresh air. It helps it revitalizes. Take a nice slow leisurely walk. I used to struggle with agoraphobia too, but over time it lessened in to a fear of bugs and then it finally went away. The trick is to keep facing your fear! DO not let it have control!

Is there family you could call who could come help for a little while? Or are you affiliated with a church or something? Or maybe even a social worker who you could talk to? Ok no you said you don't have family near by. Try to get to know other parents...the kids friends. They can help with carpooling and things and its just nice to know someone who you can call up and be like hey can you grab me a gallon of milk when you go to the store? THERE are resources out there for people in your situation but you have to ask. In our area there is a place called Abbey House for mothers with children...they give all kinds of support. REACH out to your community. Find the resources you need. It's hard but worth it.

As far as your work goes, do you have FMLA? Family Medical Leave Act....you may be able to get your doctor to sign off on it so when you can't make it in your work can't fire you over it or give your position away.

I am here if you need to talk feel free to sparkmail me.

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