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MPN5621 emoticon Don't forget, you are not alone and that means: there is hope. emoticon



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Hellos to everyone and big hugs to those that need them!
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I wish I felt like encouraging everyone individually today, but I've had the worst day I've had in a long, long time. I'm at my wits end and feel like I'm hanging on by a thread. Tomorrow HAS to be better than today has been.

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Thank you, Ignite Me...Sweetie got out of the abusive mode and by morning was back to being Sweet. He reacts badly to fear, and he was feeling afraid and vulnerable.

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SILVERHAIR8 lol! I am laughing at me because you sound like me when I was 30! I admire your tenacity to accomplish! After reading that you have silverhair, that is.
Now, I don't have the pressures of a full time job, the children, etc. I am semi retired, more than semi, actually.
I don't have any fires to put out today, tomorrow, or, etc.
I have to take care of me and prioritize. emoticon
Could sound like I am procrastinating, but I am not.
If/when there are pressing issues, I have to learn to keep it all in check, right under the head of taking care of me, and that comes (or should always come) after my chats with GOD.
I must admit, now that my daughter and 1 yr. old grand daughter ARE HERE, the need to take care of me and prioritize is even greater!
The list will always be there. I have this life and I have finally got it prioritized.
This is the season I am in, for today.
Tomorrow I may be right next to you, saying the same thing.
For everything under the sun, there is a season! A time to laugh, a time to cry, a time to dance a time to mourn.........
What ever season we are in, please, we must take care of us first. We can't take care of anything else if we don't.



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Not exactly having a bad day ... just very discouraged that it is still so hard to have a "good" day. I set one item to be done yesterday, and I am half way done with it today. That means today's item isn't getting done, and tomorrow's item is going to be tough. You would think that I should be able to accomplish one productive thing a day. Not so far.

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SAMESTUFFDIFDAY I have seen gravel free on Craigslist! Go to your state and city, and just look and find out if it may be the same there where you are. Yes, you would have to rent a truck but that is cheaper than the gravel, maybe?



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Laurance Hello! I hate to see that there any kind of abuse from 'sweetie'. Praying for you to have wisdom~ and lots of grace.



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AYLAMAY You said it's just a little spark of hope now, but if I gently kindle the spark, perhaps it will become a bright flame of hope. emoticon THAT IS THE ATTITUDE that will take 'us' ALL OF THE WAY~~ to our victory!!!




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emoticon Aylamay! The great thing about this team is that we all know how it feels to be depressed and/or bipolar. We are here for you! So glad that the therapist is giving you some hope. I think the right therapist can make a huge difference. Hope all is okay now with the embolism. That is so scary!

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BLT in many states there is help through the pharmaceutical company itself. Have you tried that? Also at times, there are clinical trials that will pay you if you show up. I know GOD is a healer, in His time, so don't prayer! I will be praying for you, too.



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Hi Aylamay and welcome emoticon I love your attitude, you have a great approach to things. You are right, those little sparks can become huge fires with the right attention. Just be aware of your limitations re exercise as you have been through a lot, there are probably exercises you can do but check it out with your doctor first. Every little helps though and even a small amount helps your body and mind. Keep posting and mind yourself!!

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Hello, Aylamay...it looks to me as if you're on a 12-step-program.

Yes, exercise and weight loss do help. I exercised hard yesterday and it helped me break out of a bad depression.

It's not a cure-all, but there are those awful days when it does help for a while.

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Hello all,

My name is Aylamay and I have never posted on this page before. I am bipolar & currently depressed, but hopefully coming out of it. I was just in the hospital, came out three days ago after being in for two weeks with a pulmonary embolism--a blood clot in the lung. I have become very inactive over the last year, and have gained back almost all the weight I lost. But I hope I can muster my energy and try again to get back in shape.

I have a little hope that the depression will lift, because for the first time I have a counselor to help me, and I feel a surge of motivation in me that I didn't have before. It's just a little spark of hope now, but if I gently kindle the spark, perhaps it will become a bright flame of hope. I have to say that to myself. One day at a time I will get through this world and my many troubles, and I will keep on going, because I know it's going to get better soon. I am going to work on my eating and I know the exercise and eating better will also help improve my mood.

Having the Boards to post on here at Spark are a great source of support for me, and I appreciate having all of you to be suportive listeners.
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All I do is sleep, not getting anything done. When not sleeping I am very stressed thinking what am I going to do. I am taking half of my celexa every other day to make it last and know that is not working, no money, no insurance no help



I WILL go confidently in the direction of my dreams!!

I am worth it!!


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Thank you, Miller...we got home, and it was a rough evening and restless night. Sweetie was not at all sweet. He was horrible and abusive, and having to deal with that is so exhausting. I need help that I'm simply not getting. He's too hard to care for, and the harder things get, the more depressed I get and the harder things are.

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Dolly - Sorry to hear about your brother, Just remember you always carry a piece of him with you. I know what you mean when you say your not happy with everything, I to have been feeling that way with myself and everything else.

MLehto - This trouble with sleeping has been an ongoing problem with me. I don't even feel human anymore. I am just using a generic OTC aid, and most of the time it helps, but for some reason its not helping anymore, I guess it is time to switch to something else. I don't want to become dependent on it though. I have been thinking about trying the melatonin and it is on my list to look for or pick up.

I tried unisom last night and I did get some, but I also took 2 pills.. if 100 mg don't help me I don't know what else will.

BF is home for the first time all month, and due to no sleep last nights dinner was awful.. and told the boys sorry before I served it, told him to that if he was not home I would not have cooked at all.. and he said well you should have said something I would have went and got something... hopefully tonight dinner will be better..
Am also going to have a houseful this weekend and that will make me nervous.. his boy and a friend is coming down to go hunting, so have a lot of people to feed this weekend. And not a fan of having company, and his boy is a chatter box... so after an hour will feel like my ears are bleeding, or will be wanting to run and hide. Wish me luck that it is not as bad as I think it will be.

Am glad it is Friday but not going to be able to sleep in ( if I sleep at all ) as my boy gets his final drive time in tomorrow.. Finally !! He started his drive school in July and just now getting his last drive in.. now for the final test and his license. Am so happy it is almost done. Now will just have to listen to him wanting to drive all the time, or wanting his own car. which of course can't happen yet as I don't have the money to buy him one.

Still trying believe it or not to have my driveway done. I have been trying for almost a year to get this done. And still in limbo. Don't even have gravel yet. And we are getting snow all around us, and most of the driveway is down to mud. Think that is one of the reasons I am not sleeping. Called 3 more people this week, and will see what happens now.

I hope everyone has a great day and I hope I will be back in here later on today. I will probably be in my room hiding, so might as well bring the laptop in there with me and serf the web..

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I wrote a blog I thought some might be interested in reading. Its title is 3rd time is a charm written OCT 25TH 2013
IN IT I DISCUSS PTSD AND HOW I AM OVERCOMING IT WITH THE HELP OF THIS GROUP.



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ANGELBELIEVER, youíre very welcome. Iím glad Wellbutrin works well for you Ė I have a friend who gets good results with it, as well. My husband gets a lot of joy from playing and singing at church, too Ė heís in the adult choir for the traditional service, plays guitar for the praise band at the contemporary service, and chairs the AV committee Ė he loves it all! :D


SAME, Iím sorry youíre having so much trouble sleeping Ė itís a miserable feeling, I know. I donít know what OTC sleep aid youíre taking (Benedryl works for some people, but it makes me hyper). My daughter takes Melatonin (a natural supplement in the vitamin section). Congrats on losing the 10 lbs!!


DOLLYBABE, Iím sorry youíre feeling depressed, angry, and dissatisfied. I can relate since Iíve had days like that recently (been withdrawing from one of my meds). It also sounds like youíre very sad about your brother. I canít remember reading how you lost him, but Iím sure it hurts very much to miss him so much and to think about what could have been. Iím sending you warm thoughts and virtually hugs and I hope things gets better soon.


MLEHTO, I just read your post about having trouble sleeping and it suddenly struck me that you and SAME both said youíre eating more fruits and veggies. Iím not even close to being an expert in anything, but it occurred to me that maybe you both are withdrawing from carbs. Carbs tend to make people sleepy and I wonder if that could be a factor in the insomnia youíre both experiencing. You could try eating a carb (like a piece of toast) as a bedtime snack for a few nights and see if that helps. I could very well be wrong Ė itís just a thought.


IGNITEME101, I hope the person you were responding to can find some help - those were good suggestions!


LAURANCE, Iím so sorry about Sweetie having to go to the ER. Iím very glad there were no broken bones, but I know ER trips can wring a person out Ė itís just so emotionally draining. Try to do something soothing for yourself Ė a warm bubble bath or hot tea and a good book. Hugs!!!


Hope everyone has a good weekend. Hugs to all who need them and a wish for many blessings for everyone!

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Right now I'm feeling very stressed. Sweetie was in the emergency room today. Thank goodness no broken bones. But I'm totally burned out and unable to do any more.

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MANY STATES have STATE Pharmaceutical Assistance Programs (SPAP) BASED ON NEED. there WERE TIMES, EVEN THOUGH I HAD MEDICARE THAT this program picked up my entire bill. Thankfully, I recovered and need no extra help now.
You said her insurance would not cover her med. Can her dr. look at their list of covered meds and see if any are comparable?
I know you said you have tried all you know, but I feel certain there must be help out there some where.
In some instances it requires physical participation, etc.
Maybe you are right and all ways to get affordable meds are exhausted. I would still try local churches.
Dept. Of Human Services should have a list of churches that are willing to help.



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Wow, everything you wrote in your post resonated with me SSDD (Same Stuff Different Day).

I've been having trouble getting sleep all week and I am really dragging. Normally I try to make some headway with catching up on the weekend but we have our annual company manager's conference this weekend so being able to sleep without a schedule is not going to happen.

My food is okay. I'm eating more fruits and vegetables and trying to get my protein in but I still don't feel as if I'm making progress.

I just have to keep reminding myself to keep putting one foot in front of the other and it will get better.

Hang in there.

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THE 2ND OF nOV. MY BROTHER WOULD HAVE BEEN 65. sURE AM MISSING HIM. bEEN REALLY DEPRESSED AND ANGERY LATELY. dIS SATTIFED WITH WORK, HOME, AND ME.

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Hello room.
Been a long week, it is Thursday but seems like this week has gone on forever. I am back to not sleeping, and so far this week I might have like 8 hrs total. I am running on empty, and I am cranky and hurting all over. I don't know what is wrong with me. Even with an over the counter sleep aid I cannot seem to get more then an hour of sleep.

Have tried exercising, having only one cup of coffee in the morning, and no ice tea or hot cocoa in the evenings. And nothing is working. I guess I might try my hypnosis CD again. Maybe that will help me relax a little.. Worth a try I guess... Well only if I can find my portable CD player.. or one that works anyway.

Been eating better, been having a banana for breakfast, been chopping up 3 celery sticks and cluster of grapes for lunch and eating lots of chicken and veggies for dinner.. on top of drinking even more water since I have backed off the coffee and tea and such. I have managed 10 lbs.. but for some reason I still can't fit in my jeans. I know exercise is the key, and I am back to finding something fun to do inside as hunting season has started here and you never know who is in the woods... So walking the driveway and trails is out of the question til spring. and since I always seem to have a houseful of people on the weekends these days ... dancing or as I like to call it.. jig a boo'ing is out of the question. I do not dance in front of people...

Work has gotten a little easier, she is slowly getting better, and giving her a little more space now. She is still meaner then a snake but that is a given with her.

Anyway, I have moaned enough and I need to finish getting ready for work... even though all I want to do is go back to bed...

I hope everyone is doing o.k. and will come back this evening and read some of the post..

I miss everyone.. and with the weather change maybe I can get back in here a little more often. I hope I hope.

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Dear MPN, Thank you for your kind words and encouragement that I can be of help to you and others even though I seem to be ok at the moment. I am glad I am here and it's good to know that you will encourage me when the time comes, and it will at some point. I just pray it's not for too long a time. At least I know the warning signs now and can talk to my doctor about them. It's been a couple of years since we had to up my dosage of Wellbutrin.

Just got back from rehearsal at church for Sunday morning. Playing music and playing for the Lord always lifts me up. I praise him every time I play for the talent he has given me.

Have a good night everyone. Again, thanks for your kindness. emoticon

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SILVERHAIR, I'm glad the day has been better so far. Speaking of the men not solving the world's problems - I had to smile a little because it reminds me of my niece and nephew. My sister's daughter is a liberal - thru and thru. My brother's eldest son is a conservative thru and thru - there have been some very "interesting" exchanges between them on Facebook (to say the least)! I think one ended up "un-friending" the other once. It seems that no one can make much headway in solving the world's problems these days!
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ANGELBELIEVER, thank you for wishing to help everyone - you have helped just by letting us know that you've been where we are and know how we feel. You definitely belong if you've ever experienced depression or even have a family member who has. Even though you're doing well now, you can be a big support to others, as you mentioned. And we'll be here to help you should you need it.
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Hi everyone. I wish I could do something for each and everyone of you. I have been there and I know what you are feeling. Maybe not the same situations, but many of the same feelings. My medicine works but sometimes it's too good as I have a hard time feeling emotions. But that's better than being unkind, moody, and crying all the time. I almost don't feel like I really belong here but I do have depression and have been diagnosed for years. I hope I never get down as low as I did the year before I was diagnosed with chronic depression. But for now I will be here as a support to others and one day I may need more support from you. I have up and down days, believe me, but not like that first year. emoticon

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Today is a much better day so far. Even the whining of my 2 yr. old granddaughter isn't getting on my nerves nearly as much as it did yesterday. I would really like to know where these intense mood shifts come from. Actually, I just want them to go away, but I would settle for knowing what triggers them.

Thank you, LAURANCE, MPN, and DISCOVER. When I come back and see responses, I do feel the support. DISCOVER, I usually find sardonic, dry humor creeping into my writings. I'm glad you liked it. Humor is one of my coping skills and works very well if I don't hide my true feelings behind it.

Well, the men didn't manage to solve all of the world's problems last night, so I guess I need to get to the pile of work next to my computer. Bye for now.

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DISCOVERLLH, we got a light box last year for my daughter when she was struggling so much - it really helped! I think I need to start using it, too! I always feel more depressed on overcast days and we've been having a lot of those recently.

My daughter is 22 now, but I used to stress out SO badly whenever she'd have a birthday party or a sleepover. I'm not a natural-born hostess and I have social anxiety so having guests is hard. I used to clean like there was no tomorrow and try to get everything just as picture-perfect as it could be. My eldest sister would always say, "Miller, the kids aren't going to care about that stuff - as long as they have something to eat and drink and can have fun together - that's all they care about." She was right and looking back, I realize I stressed myself out so much about things that didn't ultimately matter. That said, I STILL stress out when "company" is coming! I think your idea of just focusing on one task at a time is a good one - I'm sure you'll get everything done and I hope it's a great party filled with lots of wonderful memories!

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SILVERHAIR and LAURANCE, I start feeling very edgy and anxious if I can't get some time alone in "my own space." I'm sorry you both have to deal with that everyday.The weekends are the worse for me. Sometimes I've actually gone out to sit in my car or drive up to the shopping center to a drive-thru to buy a Diet Coke from the dollar menu just so I can get away and get some peace.

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First off, I just want to thank you all so much for giving me support yesterday. It really helped. I got my lightbox done and made a point of just taking one thing at a time so I didn't get overwhelmed. I feel much better today. This is a wonderful team!

SILVERHAIR - Although I'm sure it wasn't funny to you at all at the time, I did get a laugh out of your post because I could SO relate to it! It definitely IS like "Calgon take me away", isn't it? You are a wonderful writer...I could just picture the scene in my head! I am one of those people who just can't think when other people are in the room talking, debating, etc., so I could feel your angst. Hopefully you will be able to get some "me" time today. emoticon

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MACLOVIAITA, thank you so much for the advice and encouragement. I woke up this morning with a renewed feeling of determination for a new start. I like what you said about facing the fact that every day we have to start new. Thatís true Ė and it actually makes me happy to think about that because it helps me remember that we only have to take it one day at a time Ė we donít have to live the whole future Ė just today. Thatís very freeing and banishes some of my anxiety. I feel very hopeful that Iím back on track!
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Hello, Silver Hair...I can identify. While my situation is rather different, I, too, have the feeling that I don't have personal space. This was supposed to be my house, my private place, but ol' Sweetie has me feeling so invaded. There's no place in this house that is mine, no place that he doesn't feel entitled to come into. This situation aggravates my depression.

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Don't worry Dear mpn . We are all going through the same thing. There will be days when you are not secure as to what you really want to do. We all have these days we are not perfect,
It's good to face the fact that every day we have to start new . beginning from the moment you wake up. Do some meditation to clear your mind free of any thought and talk to yourself as to what do you want to do today and what steps you are going to take to help you carry out your Promise to yourself. Make a list of the foods you are planning to eat today and try to stick with it . I put a little lemon in my water and that helps me to drink more readily.
Pretend you are starting today as it is a brand new day. Have a great day my friend emoticon emoticon emoticon

I started a month ago , but I didn't go nowhere.
Why? I am finding everything I do tiresome and very difficult. I am trying to continue and get somewhere with my fight for a better life. My health has been going down in the last 5 years. I am 73 and recently I am experiencing quite a bit of pain with this injury of a sciatic nerve. Of course that has nothing to do with my continued to eat things are not beneficial for me. I believe depression is the cause of wanting more sweets, is my weakne


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Hi everyone! I'm sorry I haven't been around lately. I used to be so good about checking this thread several times a day and replying to each person. I hope I can get back to checking in more because I truly love this thread.

My OCD is so bad right now. It's always with me, but it's really, really rearing it's ugly head even more than usual. My own home feels contaminated. My own body feels contaminated. I'm just so tired of fighting this monster in my head. Then there's the depression and generalized anxiety. I feel like screaming!!!

Also damaged my knee and am in a lot of pain. It makes me sick (and sad) that I let my body get into this state. On days like this, when I'm hurting very badly (I have fibromyalgia, too) and my OCD is driving me crazy, I worry that I won't be able to do the things I'm responsible for doing for the rest of my life. I fear that I've handicapped myself to the point that I might have to someday soon depend on others for some things and I don't want that.

I've got to lose this excess weight! I was all fired up and doing great with not overeating before my mini-vacation. I had lost 11 lbs. Now, it's harder to stay on track. I keep thinking, "what's the use?" and "what else do I have to live for except the enjoyment from food?"

I know it can be done - I just have to get my mind back where it was a few weeks ago.

Hope everyone has a good day tomorrow. Hugs and blessings to all!

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Right now my husband and son-in-law are in "my" space discussing emphatically the economy, politics, and who should pay for how much government. Meanwhile, I am trying to get stuff done on the computer [like track my food] and wind down after a very full day. Calgon, or ANYONE, please take me away. [Oh, goodie. They have finished with the depression era and have now moved into why we cannot as a country today sustain the level of spending we are doing.] I've never been really suicidal, but my lack of personal space in my own home is definitely pushing me toward aggression!

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I hear you! The weather has been particularly foggy the last few days here and I know that it really affects my outlook. Hang in there and keep reaching out, we're here for you.

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just take one thing at a time and yo emoticon u will be ok. that way you won't get overwhelmed.



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I am feeling very lethargic and borderline depressed today. It started yesterday, and I thought perhaps I had forgotten to take my medicine. The sky is very gray and it is cold, so I am sure it is related to that. Time to pull out the lightbox! I am trying to just take one thing at a time but feel overwhelmed by everything that has to be done by my daughter's birthday party Friday (inside) and before the snow hits (outside). Thanks for being there, team! I appreciate you.

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Yes! Seeing people, reaching out to others, and family help make the world go round! emoticon



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I'm starting the day off feeling pretty depressed. But today is one of my two book clubs, and I'm always glad to see the people there. And my daughter will be over after she gets out of work, and that will be good.

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home insurance will not pay for roof or trees as the trees did not hit the house at all. Because my mom has part D Medicare...the med company will not help...but the med is not on part D list so they will not pay either. will check out aarp thanks

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LAURANCE, I have been there, done that.
The bible talks about cycles, there is a season ...... a time to laugh a time to cry, etc.
and this season will change if you hold on to what is real and true.






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I seem to be having a number of bad days happening back to back.

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Can your mother get supplemental insurance?

I'm on Medicare now, and I got supplemental insurance through AARP (and there are other providers of this supplemental insurance) and I pay far less than any $264.00 for it, and I also have prescription insurance which is much cheaper and costs less than $264.

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emoticon It's what you do now that counts! What's behind us is in the past. Learn ~ let go and move forward!




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I started out good.... at my birthday party I said no ice cream or cake. Then afterwards I had a pint. Now I am feeling bad about myself and drinking dr pepper. I told myself it was ok if it was a indivdual pint and dr pepper. I have the Spark solution book so I think I am going to curl up with that. I am not going to let this start my week bad but end a week badly. emoticon

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Your home insurance should pay FOR THE DAMAMGE RE THE TREE AND THE ROOF! YOU CAN GO ONLINE TO THE MANUFACTURER OF YOUR MOM'S MEDICATIONS AND REQUEST THAT THEY GIVE YOU HELP TO purchase the medication. Most manufacturers will have a phone number to call. In fact, many pharmacist will make that call for you.
So Many of the manufacturers will let you have it free of charge or at such a reduced price! Don't despair.

Try these methods.
I realize if you don't own your home you may not have home insurance. But then you will have a land lord. ?



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Hi
In the last year life has taken some ugly turns on me and I am at my last straw to hang onto which is God. So far this year my Mom had a stroke and needs 24 hour care, my well has went out on me so had to get money to fix that so I could live there, while I was living at my Mom's a storm took out my power two different months and my sump pump went out and flooded my basement destroying a lot of my things both times, Another storm took my two 35 foot blue spruce trees and up rooted them and smashed them in my front yard and my 50 foot high one was busted down and thrown all over my back yard. They want a couple thousand dollars [that I do not have] to clean it up. Since it is not being done quickly a I can only get to do it a little a week with a hand saw and hedge trimmers the neighbors are complaining and say they are going to take me to court for an eye soar clause in our neighborhood. Then also while I was staying with my Mom to take care o her another storm blew and my roof leaked and flooded my family room as I was not there to see it, ruining more things and causing my ceiling lamp to fall threw the ceiling and made my ceiling panels fall. I am fixing things as fast as I can but cannot get things done due to time and expenses of it all. Now my Aunt died yesterday which is my mom's only sibling left who she could talk to and now she is worse. I had to retire early to take care of Mom so money is even tighter than it ever was but to pay for care for her was just way to out of my limits to meet. I have three siblings but only one will help a tiny bit but I thank God for him as he makes me feel not totally alone. I have lost energy, and need foot surgery and have a hernia that needs attention but have no time to do them as they take recovery time and I have no one to help with Mom. I am also diabetic now and have high blood pressure problems I am trying to work on. I have lost 25 lbs this year. I am doing my best to trust in God to take care of things ...and still more things just keep happening to me. My husband left my girls and I several years ago and I have just been trusting God to bring him around to work on the marriage but he just does not have anything to do with me. My one daughter has 4 children under years of age and has not time to help as she cannot bring kids here due to mom's nerves and they are little. My other daughter helps me with Medicines and getting things from the store but she is married too and pregnant and sick most days. My Mom has to have medicine that Medicare will not pay for to the tune of $264.00 for 30 pills each month and that is about the car payment. I am losing it! I need some prayer help if you would please remember me when you pray. Thank you so much.


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Thank you for responding, Less Big Bob. I don't know what it will take for Sweetie to get serious about his health! He's more and more like his mother every day. She was morbidly obese and seriously diabetic, blind, kidney failure, stroke, heart problems, cancer, every disease known to mankind. But ol' Sweetie simply cannot get it through his head that this is where he is headed. Immediate gratification, with no ability to think of the future.

I'm doing what I can, even though IMHO it isn't really that good. But Sweetie simply does NOT cooperate in his own health care. I'm not going to nag and try to force him. I remember when I was a 12-year-old kid and my mother nagged and scolded and dragged me kicking and screaming to try to force me to do my physical therapy exercises while I whined and howled.

I just don't have it in me to nag and scold and try to drag a 235 pound man who is kicking and screaming and won't cooperate. I've tried to sweetly ask him if he'd like to walk with me, I've tried to say positive things about his health. I've tried to do healthy things. But this man is more than I can carry.

I do make an effort to keep myself healthy. I do go to Curves and Jazzercise, and I try to get in at least a half an hour of exercise a day, and 10,000 steps. I'm glad to say that most days I do get the exercise in and I do get the steps in. When I walk to Curves I get both the half hour of strength work and half an hour of walking.

I get that you appreciated your wife's effort even when you weren't ready to do for yourself. My Sweetie does love me very much, and he does appreciate what I do, all the caregiving, all the rides to the doctor, all the medicine management, all the everything I do to try to make his life good. But he needs more than appreciation. He needs to learn to cooperate. Otherwise he will follow his mother in her downward spiral.

The day is almost over for me now. I'm tired and I need to quit for the day. I'll worry about medicine and caregiving and all that stuff tomorrow. I do set a limit and I do want to be able to stop in the evening and have some time when I'm not worrying and hustling and running around for him.

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Laurance, not much you can do unless he decides to do something himself. You might need my wives advice more than mine. I know I appreciated her help, even when I wasn't doing much for myself, and I did hear her concern for my health, but it wasn't enough. He has to decide to change. For me it was seeing a vision of myself as an invalid, when I couldn't get out of bed without help, due to how bad my back was. I don't know what will wake your guy up, I hope he doesn't get too bad before it happens. You need to watch out for you, and set some healthy boundaries so it doesn't drag you too down.

LETTING_IT_GO, oh my, I can't believe how much you have had to deal with! I am so sorry for your loss. I am so impressed, that you came on the site and expressed how you are feeling so well. I am glad you have your little buddies with you, to comfort you. Prayers that you have calmer waters ahead.

Janet, it's very understandable to feel worried about your difficult situation. I know you said your family is busy, but this sounds like a time to ask them to take time to help you. I know if asked if I was busy, I'd say very much so, but if asked to help I would. Is there anyway you could arrange any at home care for your husband- Insurance, government program, church? I don't know, but with your health problems be careful you don't over do it.

I have really been looking forward to the weekends lately, since I have been so wrung out by the end of the week, and in need of rest. This is the first weekend in the last month that I have felt up to doing anything but rest. Nothing big, bungy jumping will have to wait a week- hah! We went out for lunch, and I was pleased to find a really healthy meal for me at the Mexican restaurant. We did some errands, and got groceries at the health food store, good to do and such a relief to feel able to do something with my wife.


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I'm in a particularly vile mood today. I'm burned out on caregiving. So much time at the hospital, and yet more and more for me to do.

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very sad today I think I am starting to feel it




I WILL go confidently in the direction of my dreams!!

I am worth it!!


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Hello, I am new here and don't know anyone. I'm disabled and can barely walk even with my rolling walker with seat and I am very much overweight, which adds to the problem. My husband helps me with a lot of things that I can't do and usually drives me around and gets my walker in and out of the car, etc. I have a hard time just making it from the house to the car. Well, my husband suddenly became very sick 3 days ago and I had to take him to the emergency room. It was in the evening, dark and pouring rain, and I hadn't driven a car in a year and didn't even know my way to the hospital, which is a 30 minute drive from our house. My husband was admitted to intensive care with a severe case of pneumonia, and heart and kidney problems. He's still in the hospital. I'm really struggling to take care of myself, my mentally handicapped daughter, 6 large dogs, and 8 cats. (We foster dogs for a rescue and have 2 fosters plus 4 dogs of our own). I'm not used to being home alone as I've been married for 46 years and have always been a stay at home wife and mom with my husband nearby, and he's been retired for about 15 years and we do pretty much everything together. We do a lot of volunteer work but do it together at various places. I'm not too confident of my ability to make trips to the hospital on my own and to get shopping done and all the other things that need to be done. I already had problems with depression and I take Effexor for that. I had to cancel my appointment for tomorrow to take my certified therapy dog to work in a city an hour's drive from where we live. I don't drive expressways and I need to go up to the hosital. I'm just feeling alone and kind of scared being on my own when I can't get around well. I also have some other serious health problems, lung disease, asthma, throat and voice problems, and more. I have some family living in the area but they are very busy and I don't really have any close friends, just casual friends from work, church, and dog rescue. My husband is nearly 71 and I'm also worried about taking care of him when he comes home from the hospital. Once before he broke his ankle and I had to take care of him and it was a terrible struggle for me just to keep our basic needs met. Just 2 days before my husband went to the hospital, my favorite cousin died and I'm still in shock from that. I just thought I'd try to reach out for a little bit of support. Thanks for listening. Janet

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Bob,

thank you so much for your support. It was just what I needed, until the call I got Thursday night informing me of my father's death.

We were estranged but I've felt nauseous and as though my skin is vibrating since I heard the words. I thought I'd already mourned him when I was forced to walk away from my family. He had quickly advancing parkinsons disease so I always knew this day would come sooner than later. Still, the words "my father's dead" are different than the words, "he's dead to me". Even worse are the words, "my mother's a widow." watching her sit on the floor next to his corpse for two hours tonight gave me new understanding of their love, instead of their disfunction.

I haven't been afraid to go to bed since my husband left me more than 20 years ago. I am afraid to go to sleep right now. Tonight's reality is a numbing one. Tomorrow begins another new reality, and I'm not certain what it will be or how I will feel. All I can think is tomorrow is a new day and a new version of adulthood for me.

Thankfully I have my spunky Pomeranians to cuddle with tonight. Hopefully they can help soothe my vibrating skin and the child within.

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Thank you for your comment, Less Big Bob.

There are reasons to be depressed. I'm a caregiver, and I'm tired. My Sweetie is hard to care for, he's loving and appreciative of the care, but he doesn't cooperate well. He's entry-level diabetic now, and it will be a nightmare getting him to do what he needs to do.

I'm glad that you're Less Big now, Bob. That's so important. If my Sweetie were a Less Big Sweetie, like, say, 40 pounds, or better yet 50 or [gasp] 60 pounds, it would make such a difference. If he would walk with me, even half an hour, it would help so much.

But he doesn't, and now he's gone diabetic. If he doesn't take it seriously he'll be in even worse health than he is already.

I see that you have chronic pain. So does my Sweetie. And he loves Coke, but he wants the sugar kind. Whatcha gonna do?

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Rainy day, which was good for the garden and good for me today, since I got to take off. I had an intense day accounting yesterday getting numbers up for an insurance audit, and have a killer head ache. Depression ok, anxiety still high, with the move and personnel probs. I am so burned out going from one crisis to another, itís been hard to get rested or recovered.

I have done well not over eating while anxious and have done really well cutting down on snacking. I also have really cut down on drinking so much diet coke, because I have been too tired to go out for breakfast. It seems to be helping my chronic joint pain, and my anxiety, but I am concerned about not going out in the morning. Itís my most non-work social contact I have, and though itís good for the wallet, and diet coke drinking, I have to watch the isolating.

SAME- Watzzz up! Thanks for the howdy yaíll! Sounds like a lot on your plate, but sounds like you are spinning them pretty well. Hope the driving test goes well for all involved, itís a big step for a boy / mom. I need you with me burning up all my stuff I have to move / decide on.
Angieís list? Finding someone to help? CraigslistÖ.good luck getting help.

LAURANCE- Good attitude, good that you are expressing it also. It is what it is, look at it clearly, and look at yourself clearly, good work.

IAM60YOUNG- Great advice. I really agree with what you are saying, about helping others and counting your blessings. One thing that has really helped me on Spark, is posting on the Thanksgiving thread. I always try to come up with 5 things each day, and usually donít have much trouble coming up with them. When I have been away, and in bad shape, I start back on Spark there finding things to be thankful for, and gradually open up again.

LETTING_IT-GO- Turn off all communication devices and do the happy dance with your dog! Wow, lot to process, there is a lot of sorrow there, it sure is hard to be there for others some time isnít it?

BLT-52- I hope you can find a program to get your meds. ? can you contact the makers of Celexia to ask if they know of any programs to get it? Good luck with that, and getting the unemployment help set-up, itís there to help you, your taxes go to have it there for you.

take care, bob

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I am very sad now.Why? I got fired from my job. I feel as though some part may be discriminatory. I got wrote up a couple of weeks ago for calling in to much. I was told being full time I had to work at least 35 hrs, If I were to call in again I would be bumped down to part time. I made one little mistake on the register and I was let go. There is a little more to it. I am not sure how I will be able to pay my bills. I am filing for unemployment and will be trying to get help with food, medical and housing.I feel very worthless!!
Without insurance I have no way to pay for my celexia.



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Honestly I'm not certain what kind of day I'm having, unless a yo yo day is possible.

Started today with a wonderful text from a friend. She's already adopting a new dog after loosing two over the last three months. I was so happy for her since she lives alone and lost her parents 2 years ago, within weeks of each other.

The afternoon was marred by another friend calling with news of her 46 year old cousin passing away yesterday and the ensuing drama it brought. One 14 year old son, two ex-wives, a live-in girlfriend, and a wacky set of aunts and his mother have made a horrible situation the worst it could be. It was so bad that I started searching the boy's state laws regarding inheritance laws and protecting the minor's interests. Our conversation wrapped up with her informing me of the sentence passed on her nephew's murders' this week. So much drama made me more stressed than I've been in a year.

This was all preceded on Monday morning by another friend informing me of his niece's death from an overdose. In today's mail, my invitation to his middle son's engagement party.

Up/down/up/down/up..... I'm not certain if I have a concussion from being rocked around an emotional room like a super ball or if I just have emotional whiplash. Either way, I've prescribed myself some Bryer's Heath Bar Ice Cream ... and I have no regret about it.

I'm off to watch my dog do her happy dance as we get ready for our bedtime walk. Ya'll have a great day!



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Hello again room, i made it back in here ... yeah

Still doing my exercises, that is a good thing, and somewhat have my eating under control. Am really really trying to be good. It is really really hard sometimes.

I hope everyone is having a decent day. And i know some days are easier then others. I am battling the blues right now myself, I just can't seem to get the real important things done and off my list. It seems like no body wants to work, and it really needs done. And i can't do it myself. But am at my limit with patience where other people are concerned. Am going to make a few more phone calls this morning if that does not work i don't know what i am going to do.

Anyway, i am getting off here to make those calls now.

So i hope everyone has a great day.

I hope to be back in here soon.

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We all know that dealing with depression does not make you a bad person. I too deal with depression and we all have those bad days. You know what has help me with my depression most of the time (not all the time) is thinking of others and seeing what I can do to make the their day a little easier, or find out what I like to do and take time to do it, even if it is 10 min., like read a book, pray, take a walk, count my blessing. At one time I was in that deep black hole so deep I couldn't even find one thing I was thankful for, but I did. It was something I took for granted, Like smelling things, the sky, peace, Every day I would add another thing I was thankful for. Soon I would have a page full.
Just remember you are not alone. We all are here for you and each other.

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Right now I'm busy respecting the fact that I'm really depressed and that there's a reason for it. I"m not a bad person for being depressed.

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Hello room, i am having so much trouble getting in here again.. I have been staying pretty busy. My lady fell and was in the hospital, so i have been going to new clients houses. Met some real sweet hearts last week. I am also back on my machine and getting out and walking up and down the driveway. Still waiting on someone to come and fix the driveway, and have called at least 6 people. I guess no one needs to make any money. I also realize that they might not want to haul their equipment for a job that won't last but a couple of hours, but still who else could make over a $ 1,000.00 for about an hours work ?? I guess no body around here.

The boy finally got his wisdom teeth out and is finally feeling better and getting back to eating everything again. And he finally took his 3rd drive. One more to go. I had to call and get on them as they just seemed to forget him. I am hoping that he gets his last drive in this weekend, then at the end of next month he can go and try for his license. And that is one more thing crossed off my to do list.

Have gotten so much work done around the yard and house last couple of weeks. And lots of stuff done inside to. Can finally see the floor in my junk room. Been burning lots of boxes and old library book finders. Had a fire going for almost 2 days, was throwing and burning stuff out of the garage to. my new guy is having a couple of his brothers come down this weekend and haul an old refridge, and deep freezer out of the garage to. That should make some more room, and help his brothers out a little bit. I could use the money from them but i say what goes around comes around.. i know they could use a couple extra dollars to soo...

BOB - am so happy to see you stopping in here again.. And i am glad you had a day of rest and a good book. a new office sounds great !! But i know what you mean about dealing with difficult people. but is nice when the meeting are over and everyone is still alive and kicking and hopefully no worse for wear.. lol/

To those of you who are sick, i hope for a speedy recovery.
Temps are slowly dropping here, and i am already dreading the cold weather . There is no stopping it though.
I am going to try to read more posts and see who is new and what is happening with everyone. I hope and pray to be back in here tomorrow to log some more exercises.

To the newbies - welcome to a great room.
To the regulars - I hope everyone is doing as good as you can. Hang in there.

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This weekend I pretty much had to just rest and recover from the stress of last week. Nerves pretty bad all weekend, but rest and a good book helped. Not too bad of a day today. I was stressed about a meeting to go over a new design with a lady that can be tough to deal with, but it went pretty well. I met with people about the new office today, which was tiring, but not too difficult.

Dot- I hope you get feeling better very soon! Boy a good nights sleep is a real blessing, isn't it. I hope your winter prep goes well. Down south here, we are having cool mornings, but still have hot afternoons. Thanks for all your well wishes.
REDISCOVERLLH- Good luck getting ready for the cold. Prayers are with you, though of a Buddhist nature from me, hope they are still welcome.
FORTYPLUS56- Good luck with the light! I have used one before and it seemed to help. Be sure to read the information that comes with it, the angle, height of the light and some other things are important factors. Hope the sun comes out!
FFUSCO- Hope to see you around!

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I was just thinking about how the weather is affecting me. I am in Richmond, Va and we have had rain every day for the past week. I thought I was handling it pretty good. But then I get to work and it's freezing in the building.

I can feel a bout of depression coming on. In fact I have been trying to fight it for a few weeks now. I even ordered one of those special lamps to help depressed people during the dark winter months. I will let you know how it turns out. And I will say a prayer for you as well. Take baby steps and you will make it thru this day. emoticon

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IMAGINGPRO.. things are going to get cold here very soon, as well. I am feeling very stressed about all that has to get done before the cold weather hits. It's not depression yet, but an overwhelming anxiety of not knowing where to start that often leads to depression for me. The weekends just seem to go by so fast, even the three day weekends! I could use prayers today for those of you who are believers. Thanks!

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Hello All,

It is a little bit cold here, but we are suppose to be use to it. I like the summer months better.

I am doing sort of ok this morning. Was able to sleep better last night. I was really happy with that. My stomach is cramping up this morning, too. It started to do it yesterday afternoon. I wasn't doing anything heavy or anything too intense. I do have a lot of gas so that might be the problem. I am hoping that it goes completely away before Wednesday. I have to go to the eye doctor to see if my eye's have changed or my glasses are wrong.

I want everyone who is struggling with their Depression to know that I am keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. I do hope that you will be doing better pretty soon. I wish there was more that I could do for you.

We are trying to do somethings before the real cold gets here. Anything that has to be done outside needs to get done pretty quick. Stuff that is in the house to do, doesn't matter what the weather is like.

I hope those of you that have today off is enjoying your extra day off from work. Those of you that have to work today, I hope that you will be doing good too.

Hope that everyone can enjoy their day.I hope that everyone is having a good day.

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Somehow I had forgotten just how honest and relevant the Dealing with Depression forum is. I plan to visit more often, as it seems so many with feelings I can certainly identify with do so. A daily, or near daily, check-in of sorts would probably be a good thing for me right now, as I have moved, and am now in between (and temporarily) without therapists.

Hope to continue seeing and reading you all.

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I am sorry I havenít been on the site all week. Oy vey what a week! My hopes for spreading out the work last weekend to get all my employees time cards reviewed, didnít work out. My nerves were so fried, I couldnít do anything but rest, and have quiet. I had to ask my wife to take off, and to help me Monday, copy 10 months of time cards and review them, and told the employees to take off, since I wasnít feeling good. It was hard going doing the review for the employee that thought I wasnít paying him right, and dumped on me, but I hung in and with my wives help, we got it done by the end of Monday.

There were only 3 small errors, 2 of which were in the favor of the employee, and only one half hour error on one time entry in 10 months- wow! So, I was exhausted doing this, but felt very affirmed that I had done things right. The first day I worked with the employee that dumped on me, was tense for me, but I tried to keep things positive and professional. I was on site a lot, to keep training the new people, and did pretty well physically.

I also had to struggle all week with a big snafu with my business insurance, that my agent of 25 years screwed up. I still am not clear what has to be done, and am waiting to see how he reacts to my email stating how displeased I was, and how I expected him to take some responsibility. Stressful, but at least I didnít cave.

We finally started moving into our new office finally on Thursday. I have to move out of the house, due to an OSHA complaint, and I have wanted to get the biz out of the house, but I am not totally sold on the place I got. It should be ok, but itís not the perfect place I had before. I also finally got used to working at the house, which I hated at first, but finally got used to it, about the time, we had to move. I have decided to move slowly, and not get into one of my all obsessed totally tunnel visioned projects. We are focusing on moving the shop so the employees are out of here, and move the office part later, after taking time to fix up the office section, get security, internet, etc.

Too wrung out from the week to do much today. I have worked on organizing my pins on Pinterest better to follow them up and use them, then just collect them. I finished a really good book on Rome, and am back in into a Sci-Fi book I started reading a while back. The Rome book was great to ďtake me awayĒ, and help me relax.
take care, bob

ps. I wanted to get back posting before I got back in the habit of staying away, so Iíll have to jump back on later and read your posts, and comment, I just needed to get my post done. I do hope everyone is well, and doing ok.


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I am sending all of you hugs who are struggling today. I wish I could be there to you all in person. I am grateful that i am doing alright now. Annie, I will pray for your husband's surgery to go well and for you to have strength to help him recover afterward. I am also emoticon for everyone on the team. I believe in prayer very strongly.

Going to Curves in a half an hour and meet my friend. After we always go for coffee. She's a dear friend and she's 77 and has more energy at times than I do! emoticon (I'm 65) We may go to T. J. Max after if I like the jacket she bought there.

Have a better day than yesterday everyone. emoticon



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I am so down today. I have been really working hard at working out and staying within my calorie counts. Last week I lost a few ounces. It really was so discouraging as I stayed on my plan and really pushed exercise. Now I came down with the flu. On top of that my Hubby is having another surgery tomorrow and I am so worried that I will get him sick. Tuesday he had a procedure and found more polyps in his upper stomach area. They did remove mulitple ones and took samples of others for biopsy. They are going to start him on a very high dose of Celebrex to try and halt some of his tumor and polyp growths but he has to be off of it for 5-6 days before surgeries and it seems he has so many that when will he be able to benefit from the med? It is never ending .....

Every surgery he is down for the count recovering and it is so hard for me. Working full time and trying to take care of him. I am so tired. Another big surgery in mid November to look forward to as well. I feel so bad for Hubby but I am worn thin.

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dont know if its my diebetes or surcumstances that has me so blus. It is hard to functsion
this way. I hope things get better for you rediscoverllh.

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I have been having a horrible couple of days in terms of eating, which is making me depressed, emoticon which of course makes me want to eat more. emoticon emoticon emoticon I'm trying to get some of my energy and motivation back, but it's so hard when you get caught in that downward spiral! Does anyone else out there get the feeling when you make a mistake that it's all over and hopeless? Even though I have been doing well, all of the sudden I now feel that I will NEVER lose weight! emoticon Stinkin' thinkin'! Gotta turn it around... emoticon

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glad to see you here Miller hope all is well with you. tell your Hubby that is good advice I will TRY to remember to do that everyday.
Saw sis in law last night they have her in a room with a horrid old women that swears at here and insualts her company. Still fighting a daily battle with Mom, she does not want to have some one take care of her but she complains a great deal when no one comes to visit her.
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Wow - it's been a good while since I've been on this thread, which is a shame since it's one of my very favorites - no much great support and encouragement here.

WIPEOUT57 asked about Zoloft (many posts ago - sorry I'm so late with this) and I did try Zoloft years ago, but it made me very angry, so they took me off of it. My daughter took it for two years and felt better on it, but it caused some insomnia. I do agree that it's not good to get off of it cold-turkey. Hopefully, you've already asked your doctor about it, but if not your best bet would be to get your doctor's suggestions on how to wean off it that's what you decide to do.

I don't know if this will help anyone who is struggling today, but my husband says his mantra for living is to try to get a little happiness from each day - even if it's just something very small or simple. I try to remember that and it really helps me sometimes.

Hugs and Blessings to everyone!!!

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Good Morning,

It is good to hear positive talk about depression. It really is hard to accept that it's not something we are doing to ourselves. I too have suffered with depression most of my life. When I was a teenager I thought it was bad pms but once I was diagnosed in my late 20's I realized I had an illness. Still I didn't come to grips until I was over 40 that I had to live on medication.

I would always take the medicine until I felt better and then get off of it. Needless to say I would then get sick and have to start all over. At this stage in my life I would rather encourage others who suffer than talk about myself.

I noticed that recently about myself. I tend to go off to myself when I am feeling low. I don't really know how to express my feelings and I still think people are judging me. I especially hate the comment "Snap out of it". I am thrilled to finally get involved with a support group of wonderful people who understand one another.

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First I want to thank Pam for the welcome message. I appreciate it Pam. . I've was diagnosed with depression about 25 years ago and I am doing well now but felt I could help others here and also get support here for those times I do slip back into depression, although it only lasts a day or so once in a while now. If it lasts longer I go and see my doctor. A few years back we needed to change my medicine as I had lost all interest in everything I enjoy doing. I didn't have any energy to do anything. Everything was a struggle. That is another symptom. Anyway, enough said.I'll end with this statement: Depression is a chemical imbalance. I didn't cause it, I can't cure it but I can try and manage it with medication and giving and getting support here.



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Dot- You are too kind with all your support. Yes it is a shame when family relationships donít go well. I really had about given up hearing back from my sister, but thought Iíd do one more, maybe two more attempts and then I had to stop, since it was starting to upset me. Thanks for your prayers, Iíll take all I can get, especially when we talk, since any mis-statement are jumped on. I can give a lecture to 500 people and be relaxed, but I am so worried Iíll say something wrong to her, that I stutter, and fumble for words. Baby Bob steps, weíll see.

You are a great inspiration on the storage. When I lost my office two years ago, we got a really large one and filled it up, planning to get rid of stuff slowly. Boy, has it been slow, or actually nothing gone. I just rented a new office and hope to clean out old stuff from storage as I go. Love the Salvation Army idea, maybe Habitat for Humanity? Anyone know of other worthwhile places to donate, where it doesnít all go to the staff?

MELLYBEAN- What is a drop in group? Is it group therapy you can just drop in on? I hope it helps you, and your day went well today.

KRISTA- I am so impressed you posted after having such a bad day, I am not good at it, you are a good example to me. I hope your mini-vacation gives you some rest. Sometimes you just need to veg out, do what you gotta do.

Today was epically lousy, with a big personnel problem, and I am exhausted, but wanted to post since I pooped out yesterday. The person accused me of all sorts of things, said really bad things about me, and took responsibility for nothing. I am glad I stood up for myself, and kept to my schedule despite being really stressed out, and thinking of just calling the day off after the bad scene at the first.

I also did good not losing my cool and getting too angry. I was careful not to transfer my agitation at the one employee to the others, after he left. I did keep the rest of the day positive and did a lot of training, and didnít fall, so I did my best with a really bad situation.

I did come in and skip one small job at the end of the day, since I had gotten overheated working, and was royally pooped. It also went over pretty well, not working the guys late Friday.

I have to copy a ton of records for the person, who accused me of not paying them properly, I am going to try and spread it out over the weekend and not get too tired. I am so ocd, I couldnít cheat someone if I tried, and will work until every penny balances out. The reason the checks are low is he misses work often.

Well I am ranted out. I am going to watch some shows I like, do some pinterest, and read. I do hope everyone has as good of a weekend as they can. Do what you can, and be gentle with yourself. take care, bob


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Hello All,

Bob, thank you so much for the feedback. It is greatly appreciated. I am so happy to hear about your sister answering your email. I know how hard it is when your sister grows away from you. I also have a sister that grew away from me. No matter what I have done to bring us closer again, hasn't worked very well. If I want to know how she is doing, I am the one that has to contact her. Otherwise I would not hear from her at all. It is so bad that your's and mine relationship with our sister's has to be one sided. Hope that your relationship with your sister is starting to improve and is on the mend. Hope that all goes well with you. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.

Dollybabe, I am very happy that you went to the retreat. Glad that you really enjoyed yourself and got some rest that you really needed. Hope that your week is going ok.

Krista,

I am so sorry to hear that you are having such a bad day. I know that you would probably want to do something different on your mini-vacation instead of staying home. Hope that if you do have to stay home that you get caught up on some rest and relaxation. I will keep you in my thought and prayers and hope that things get better for you.

Hope everyone is having a good beginning to their day.

I don't have to go to any more doctor appointments this week, Yeah!

I have some laundry that I have to do. Also, have to find a place to put somethings that we took out of storage yesterday. We have a bunch of baking pans, silverware, cook books, and some other odds and ends, We are only keeping the stuff that looks the best. We have a whole lot of stuff that is still in storage, When we moved here 15 years ago, we didn't have room for everything, so we rented a big storage space and put all the extra stuff in it. We have been taking out a little at a time and going through it. If it isn't anything that we want to keep, and it is in pretty good condition, we give it to the Salvation Army. At least some other people might be able to use it. We still have a long ways to go, but we will eventually get there. We only can bring so much home with us because we only have a medium size car.

Everything that we are keeping as far as cooking stuff is going through the dishwasher first. I wouldn't even consider using it before it was totally sterilized.

I am also going to try and catch up on my SP emails. I have been doing a little bit as much as possible in between other things that I have to do.

Hope everyone can enjoy their day,

Best wishes to you all.

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Today was pretty terrible mood wise. Saw my therapist, going to be going to some drop in groups starting tomorrow. Hoping tomorrow is a happier day all around.
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KRISTA987 I'm sad to hear you are having such a bad day.
Tomorrow is a new beginning! I can't control who pays attention to me, so I pay attention to myself.
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I had a horrible night. I'm almost too exhausted to even vent now. I haven't felt this bad in a long time. Luckily I have one more day till my mini-vacation......which I will be wasting away at home doing nothing & being ignored again. sigh.

No matter how slow you go, you are still lapping everybody on the couch.


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Today went pretty well. I had a good morning training new people on site how to prune properly / naturally. I didnít have any missteps or fall- whewww- and wasnít in too much pain when I left. I bent over a bit too much, and my neck discs hurt all day, so back to the chiropractor. I did have one encouraging thing happen with a family member.

My sister sent me a sweet return email to the one I sent her yesterday. It was a big surprise. The last 12+ times I have contacted her I havenít heard anything back. We used to be super close, but grew apart the last 10 years, and had a blow up last fall, so this was the first contact back since a cursory note at Christmas.

IMAGINGPRO / Dot- Thank you so much for your kind welcome back. I know what you mean about just getting sick of hurting all the time. I too feel that way, and hope and pray you find some good answers for yourself. Great news from your doctor. Sounds like you are doing things right and working well with your doctor. Fingers crossed for the cardiologist!

DOLLYBABE- I donít know you yet, but you'll find that doesn't stop me from telling everyone what they need to do- it's so much easier than doing my own stuff! I like hearing you took time for yourself and went on a retreat- Way to Go! It is a bit of a shock / let down to come back to the ole grind after them, but I bet you do better now that you recharged your batteries some. Sending sleepy thoughts your way.
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I am totally on happy at work. last year it seemed I was more needed and had a pupose. This year I am with the 5th graders and they are totally different from the 4th graders. I love the new teacher though. I am so tired I just want to sleep all the time. I dont find any happiness in any of my useal hobbies. I just got back from a womens reteat and really had a good time, but now that I am home I am just as blue.
Wishing all my team mates a great day and week also

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Hello All,

Bob, Welcome Back. Glad that you were able to find it again. I am very happy to hear that you are feeling better from all of your illnesses that you had. It is really good that you were able to over come them and be strong.

I couldn't read all the post from the laat time I came on, but read what I could. I am really sorry for not coming on more often. Time just slips away from me.

I also haven't been feeling too well. I don't know what is going on, but I am really tired of it.I hate all the pain that I am in all the time. There isn't anything that the doctor's can do. I am going to try some different things on my own and see if it makes any difference.

I hope that everyone is bringing in October with a smile. Hope everyone is staying on track and eating healthy. I know we can all make a difference.

I am feeling a little bit better today, even though I have not had much sleep. I had to go to my primary doctor yesterday morning. I was just finding out how the results came out on the blood tests that she had ordered. They all came back good. I was happy with that. It was basicily because the last time I saw her she increased my Blood Pressure medication. She wanted to make sure that my liver & kidney were ok. They were. I don't have to go back to her until December for a complete physical.

Today I have to go and return the heart monitor that I have been on for 2 weeks. Then I have to go back next week to see my Cardiologist and find out what has been going on with my heart. I am hoping that it isn't anything serious. That's all I need.


I will keep you all in my thoughts and prayers.

I hope that everyone can enjoy their day.

Best wishes to you all.

Best wishes to all!


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TERRIANLEA, setting goals is the only way I ever get anything done!




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Hi guys! I was looking for the thread, 'HELP, I'm Having a Bad Last 8 Months' or in lieu of that the 'Summer Sucked' group. Oh well today was a peach enough to let me on this group, so howdy ya'll again.

I did have a siting on spark in July, but had a bad fall, and disappeared quickly. I very much have missed this group, and put off posting, until I had time to 'Do it right', well we see how great that has been working, so I thought, what the heck I'll just jump over and post even if short, and not "perfect".

Fortunately my string of illnesses and injuries that overwhelmed me in the winter/early spring have let up after about 12 different problems- oy vey! Some good came of this time, when I tightened up my diet after a blood sugar / diabetes scare- doing well, no diabetes. I have lost about 30lbs. since the winter, when it had gone back up last fall.

My biggest problem has been getting exercise, since my joint problems have worsened. A fall in July set me back, and another fall two weeks ago, didn't help- at least my Chiropractor, could get that new ski boat he wanted, with all the work I've given him this year. Pain somewhere is daily, but I am still mobile, and I know better off than many- might need to go to PT for a booster of that, always see people having it far worse than me- don't get me wrong I still complain, but less. My depression has been baddish, and the anxiety way high. I am trying to work away at things and lessen this, but it's slow going.

I have made a lot of progress on taxes- aided by a very nice IRS agent, who pretty much left me no choice, but bent some, and we are at least are all current with all old forms as of last Tuesday, if not old payments. She has given me a stay of execution- time to catch-up, and has been most helpful getting rid of some past penalties. I told her if she needed someone for a commercial for the IRS to call me, they really have been helpful, but boy do they get bad press- can you see me prancing....hobbling through a field, sun on my shoulders, talking about how helpful they have been...huh! You see it don't you...might have to give that list of side effects at the end of the commercial though.

Facing the monster of being years behind was the hardest part, but the hours doing it have been hard to- especially on my back and neck- and have left little time for anything else. It's been very odd to not 'have to do taxes' on the weekend or not do them and feel guilty about not doing it, my focus for years.

Well you all know, I hate to go on....(old joke, but hey it works). Wish I could say I'll be around a while, but stability is not my middle name as you know. I'll do my best, and will hope it's more than in the past. Deepest thanks to those who have checked in on me with Sparkmail, and missing person reports. take care, bob



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Never thought about setting daily goals. I will put some thought into starting that and taking it one day at a time!

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How many goals do you set per day? Even if you don't make them all any accomplishment is a step in the right direction. I am reminding myself right now that today is a new day and tomorrow is still another. Whatever we don't do today, we can strive for tomorrow.

Remember dealing with depression we can only handle baby steps most days. So I for one am proud that you reached any goals you set.

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I have been good to myself today, AND not demanding of others. Yet I feel a bit disappointed that I didn't meet all of my goals.
TOMORROW IS ANOTHER DAY!
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Tired. Oh so tired. And I just got up from a good nights sleep. emoticon Work later today, going to nap before if I need to (which I think I will.)
Thoughts and hugs to all of you. Keep pushing. :)

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You are right Luarance we do have a lot of similar things going on. My husband is at doctors all the time and has had many many surgeries. He has a disease called FAP which caused polyps to form in his organs. He also has Gardners disease which causes tumors to form as well. He lost his colon around 7 years ago, then his gallbladder and he is fighting to save what is left of his retum. My 22 year old son has the same disease but also has Autism. Unfortunately there will be no end in sight as this is a progressive disease with no cure. As you have done, I have to put so much on hold as you never know when the next emergency will come up. Hubby gets blockages a lot and is in hosptial for a while when this occurs. There is no prep for this. I had gotten to the give up stage and for the past year or so I had only gone to work and come home to sit on the couch with hubby. I lost touch with friends stopped doing my favorite activities and people know not to call on my to go out.

You are right I have to take care of me. Having depression makes it so hard but I am eating right for the first time in over a year and started to work out.

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Uh-ho, Annie...it sounds as if you're going through some of the things I'm going through. You have a hubby who is going to have surgery. I have an ol' Sweetie who absolutely LIVES at the doctor office and in the hospital, and when I plan things, I explain that something may go wrong and I may not be able to come.

I see that you're worrying. I was there. I used to worry, since Sweetie has no end of health problems.

But somewhere along the line I got really tired of all the stress and anxiety. I couldn't deal any more. I don't know if I could be called apathetic. I love Sweetie and I do care deeply. But I can't hold it up any more. Bad things may well happen. And that's that.

I hear that you have your own health issues. So do I. Mine became important to me. I absolutely MUST exercise, and I get that vigorous walk in somehow. My weight is a little more than I want, but I'm pretty much holding on, and I hope to lose at least a little weight over the holidays. My best friend and I will probably make a pact to that effect. I have to. I cannot afford to lose my health. Caregiving takes a lot out of me.

I can identify with you.
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I guess we just have to keep hanging on. Take it day by day. Some days I just can't get it together. Exercise does help but my body is so out of shape it can't keep up. I know eventually I will build stamina but then something always comes up with my hubby to throw me off track. He has two surgeries coming up in October which means more hospital stay and recovery time. I worry about him so much so I lose sleep. Hard to juggle it all with work, home and my own health issues...

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I'm starting out feeling pretty crummy. So what I am going to do is walk, and walk strenuously the long way to Curves and do my exercises. Exercise frequently makes me feel better.

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Hello All,

I am doing ok. I didn't sleep very good last night. I was up at 4:00am. We had our new front door put in this morning. It looks really nice and we will save on our heating costs a lot. My back and legs/knees are still hurting and I now know that they will always be in pain.

We are going to a cookout at our neighbor's tomorrow. They live right across the street from us. It is probably going to be our last one because our weather is starting to get colder.We are pretty lucky to be still having the temperatures be in the 70's and it is going to be really sunney and warm.

I know that we will have a good time. We usually do. We just visit and talk about different things. They are the only friends that we have that are close to us. They are great people and we help each other out too

Hope everyone enjoys their weekend.

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Thanks, SameStuff...yeah, I put one foot in front of another, but sometimes I really get tired. I'm tired and burned out today because I had to take ol' Sweetie to the doctor AGAIN. That's what we do. We go to the doctor and we go to the doctor and we go to the doctor.

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MONTIKARLA, you seem to be doing what you need to do to calm yourself. That is the first step to solving any problem. You can not work out dealing with others until you can deal with yourself. Do what you need to get healthy, and then decide what you want to do about the other people in your life.

This is not a medical website, and we are not medical experts. Having said that, I have just started learning about SPD (Sensory Perception Dysfunction) because of our efforts to diagnose my granddaughter. Your comments about touching sound very familiar, and we are having to learn when touches can calm and when touches can kick off a meltdown. The 2 year old can't say, "Don't touch me right now ... I'm on overload!", but you can. And when the family is educated about the specific treatment for active symptoms, there is a lot less offense taken. You might want to look into this when you reach a calmer place.

Either way, thanks for sharing. I came out here full of my own panic emotions over an event that just occurred, but writing this to you has helped me think through my own situation. In your own way, you supported me through the "crisis" response and into the "thinking" stage. I'm doing much better than I was when I signed on.

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Montikarla, I can get really sensitive to touch too... let them know you need space, it's not them its you, and you have a RIGHT to have your own space and if you need help you will ask (make sure you do!)

Sending best wishes that you feel better soon..

-Lia Lee :]
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