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10/20/12 11:54 P

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10/20/12 10:18 A

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Thanks for the advice. I have only been on it a couple of weeks. Maybe I am just wishing the depression will all go away fast. Its the worst feeling in the world not wanting to go anywhere or do anything. Plus I have anxiety that speeds up my thoughts. its an endless battle.
Again thank you again for your kind words of encouragement.
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10/19/12 12:24 P

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I took Lithium years and years ago when they first diagnosed me as being "manic depressive". It wasn't very effective for controlling my symptoms at that time. I quit taking my medication, thinking, quite wrongfully that I had my symptoms and the disorder under control. As I said, this was a good 20 years or more ago. Many, many years later when I was diagnosed a second time, this time as being bipolar one, they put me on Depakote for the mania (and racing thoughts) and I take that and Wellbutrin/Abilify for my depression through this very day. I had no bad side effects from the Lithium that I can remember,nor can I remember the dosage, I just remember that it wasn't very effective for me. I may not have given it a chance to work well before I stopped taking it. You don't say how long you have been on the Lithium, and it can take four to six weeks to become effective. It may be that you haven't been given enough time for it to become effective. I would definitely ask my doctor about when you should feel the effects from the drug and what you should expect as a reaction. If you have been on it at least six weeks and still feel no effects, I would go back to my doctor for a review of the medication. I am no doctor or nurse, I just know how it affected me. I wish you great success with the medication and I hope that it brings you some relief. Take care and God bless, Deb emoticon

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10/19/12 11:17 A

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Hey, I'm so sorry you're still feeling bad. I sure wish I could help you with the Lithium question, but I don't have any firsthand knowledge of it. I feel strongly that many on the team have tried Lithium, but they may not have seen this message thread. I wonder if you should create a new topic entitled, "Has anyone been put on Lithium?" or something like that - that way, you'd probably get more responses specifically about Lithium.

Good luck - you'll be in my thoughts today. (I know how it is to feel your depression worsening and know you're "slipping farther down.") If you start a new thread and still don't get answers, maybe you could talk to your doctor about how you're not feeling any better and ask when the lithium should be "kicking in."

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10/19/12 8:39 A

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Thanks for the dvd recommendations from the library. I need something because my depression is getting worse and i can't feel the lithium working yet. My partner said she can tell that i am slipping farther down. Has anybody been put on lithium?

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10/17/12 9:26 A

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welcome all the best

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10/12/12 1:32 P

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you know there are very good videos on meditation that can be found in the library of all places a good place to visit and ask about those things..they give you ideas about clearing your mind of things and getting back to where you are comfortable..i learned that from dvds and i do that daily for an hour now..generally the last thing before bed..things are never as frantic now as they once were..i also learned tai chi..another thing you can get dvds on at the library and i can do 60 minutes of that every morning to calm the day before me and to let my mind know there is nothing i cannot do
i do other things but not always as it depends on if i am able to do those things that day some days i find i am too old to do some of the things and let it go
hope this helps you..not only are there dvds but many books written on the subject and there was at one time a program on pbs called lilias yoga and you which was very easy and relaxing for sure maybe you can still find one of those also..her yoga was always more stretch and not a lot of impossible things because that was what people could do and feel better
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10/12/12 12:38 P

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Jeanne, I'm glad you saw your doctor and are trying some medication for the racing thoughts. I haven't tried Lithium myself, but I know a lot of folks on the team probably have and hopefully will soon share their experiences with you.

Good to hear from you! Take care,

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Thankyou for all your words of encouragement, the doctor put me on a medication for my racing mind called lithium. Has anyone been on it before? I hope it helps. We also talked about meditation. I'll have to check and see if there are any classes around.
Jeanne.

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10/10/12 3:15 P

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Not sure how to reply but I wanted to let you know I was thinking about you! emoticon

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Hi. I am so sorry about your mother in law. My Dad had lung cancer in 1993. You are probably still in shock. It may be to much for you to process right now and you are in denial. When I found out about my Dad, I actually thought there was something wrong with me because I couldn't cry. I felt like a zombie, like I was in a fog only going through the motions of living, almost out of my body. I got up, I volunteered for the Cancer Society ironically, ate, went out, grocery shopped, went to my parents. One day I was sitting on the couch and I picked up the phone and called the rectory to my church. The priest answered and I calmly asked him Who the hell does God think he is to take my father away from me? Then I fell apart. I was on the phone with him for hours. I never knew I had faith, never knew I believed in God but who did I turn to? The night my Dad passed I called this priest and he came and sat with my family and I. He did the wake and the funeral. I stayed in touch with him until he passed in 2007. I went to his funeral. I am sorry to say you will shed tears, your heart will break. Know though that all though you and your family hurt your mother in law will be at peace and out of pain and not suffering anymore. That will help you through it when the time comes. emoticon

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is your mil close by ;ocally?? you might just spend some time with her..you don't have to cry to be there..does she read?? maybe while she is doing chemo you can read to her???..just because tears are not evident doesn't mean you aren't having heartbreak over this..and she has no way to comfort others as she is going through so much..just sit with herand talk about your husband when he was little and write those little stories down in a book and when she can't talk just talk to her about all the memories you have together just be ther4e for her as much as you can and just hold her hand..just touching the hand of a loved one sometimes is just enough
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TODAY IS LIFE THIS IS NOT A DRESS REHEARSAL

there is no cause when there is no effect km

i can do that, but not on a tuesday
for that is my day of thrust in the opposite direction -
off the starboard bow
over the hurdles,
and down the shute.

last is just the slowest winner. c.hunter boyd

people often say that motivation doesn't last. well neither does bathing - that's why we recommend it daily. zig ziglar

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I am so very sorry about your mother in law. I wish that I had sage words of advice, but I don't. I try to slow my mind down by reading and journaling. I find that if I write things out, then I can see them in black and white and deal with my issues one at a time. I think that what you are going through are the stages of grief. They do not come in any sort of order.You can experience any stage at any time. Right now you are trying to deal with a lot of anger towards the situation your mother in law finds herself in. That is understandable and hard to take on. Grieving is intensely personal and has no timetable, so try to be patient with yourself. Losing a loved one is hard. You may experience a whole gamut of emotions that feel as if they will never let up. That is a normal reaction to a loss. The grieving process takes time and healing will be gradual. Not being able to cry means you simply have another way of showing the pain that you are caused, like your anxiety. I should think that contacting your therapist is a good idea if you have a method to do so. There may be medications or some other form of therapy that will help. As I said, I am so very sorry for your pain. I hope that you will receive many uplifting responses to your post. Know that we are all here for you. I wish that there was something I could say or do to make it better. Hopefully your therapist will have some viable ideas for you. Hang in there. I wish you all the best. Take care and God bless, Deb emoticon

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I'm so sorry about your mother-in-law's condition and that your anxiety is so bad right now. I think GREENPORT63 gave you some great advice about talking with your therapist or seeing your doctor. If you take medications for anxiety and/or depression, they may need some adjustment or if you don't take meds, maybe just talking to someone would help.

If these feelings are new, I definitely think you should talk to your doctor today. If you're used to this feeling and you know it's temporary, then I'm not as concerned. As far as how to let go and cry, I would suggest writing down all the thoughts and feelings you're having. You can blog them or journal them on SparkPeople, or just write it out on paper. When I do that, I find that I really, really get in touch with what I'm feeling and I allow myself to feel those feelings that I usually try to run away from by overeating, etc. Most of the time, if I type or write out all my feelings - fears, anger, hurt, loneliness - I find myself crying by the time I'm done.

If you're not a religious person, ignore this next suggestion. I find it helpful to pray and pour out all my feelings to God and ask for His help. I often find myself crying after pouring out my heart to God and the crying is cathartic and helps me feel better.

I've had OCD, depression and anxiety for 46 years and I know mine always gets much worse when my environment gets more stressful. My father in law had cancer and passed away the first year of my marriage and my anxiety was through the roof. It was such a terribly hard and stressful time. That was before I had found medications that would help, but even with my meds I still struggle more during extra-stressful times.

My heart goes out to you - I'll say a prayer for you and your family. Keep posting and let us know how you're doing.

God bless, emoticon
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PS - I sometimes use the expression that you used "I want to blow my head off" but with me - it's just an expression to relieve my anxiety. I hope that's the way you're using it, too - just as an expression to blow off some steam. But, if you really feel you might hurt yourself, please go to a hospital emergency room, call a suicide hotline, or take some other immediate action to get some help. emoticon




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10/9/12 11:56 A

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Sorry about your mother-in-law it's so sad - god bless. You are dealing with so much and anxiety is a beast to handle by yourself. With all that is going on - hopefully you are seeking talk therapy, and your pay-a-visit to your medical doctor. If you've done this and you are still anxious - just remember that you'll get through each day. I do that when things get hard and it helps. Slow down that mind - read a book, exercise, walk, talk with a friend, and take deep breaths... Now this is coming from someone who isn't feeling so great either - I'd better get on the program again...



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It has been a real emotional day already. I have so much anxiety i want to blow my head off. What happens is my mind is on overdrive and it is spinning out of control and then that feeling of wanting it to stop just doesn't work. Anybody get anxiety that bad. Also I have alot of sadness because my mother-in-law has incurable cancer. She is taking chemo right now. How can I let go and cry over this. I feel so sad but the tears don't come. Help me please.

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