I'm remembering something you wrote in your introductory post on 5/30/12. You told us that you had attempted suicide in 2009. You told us that you are very glad that it was not successful (and so am I, by the way!). I have not heard you speak of receiving mental health care, so I don't know your health care status. But from what you are telling us now, you would be well-served to be seen by a physician---preferably a psychiatrist. Especially since you live in the Pacific Northwest (as I do), you may be more susceptible to Seasonal Affective Disorder (SAD) due to chronic lower light levels. Depression is nothing to mess around with.
If cost is a factor, almost every community has access to mental health services, with some services available for free or with sliding scale fees. Depression is another chronic illness. You wouldn't skip visiting the physician if you had pneumonia or an infected hand. Mental health care is equally as important as physical health care. A person suffering from depression can, and often is, DEPRESSED ABOUT BEING DEPRESSED. Accepting that depression is a chronic illness and it's not your fault can help eliminate that second layer of depression. Search your mind and heart to see if this is true for you.
Physicians in "general practice," can prescribe anti-depressants. However, they tend to err on the side of conservatism in dosages. Psychiatrists have specialized training in tailoring a plan to the needs of individual patients with problems like depression
Meditation is another thing you can try to help you become more focused. Meditation helps you to avoid pushing the depression out of the way. It allows you to look at your depression, listen to it and view it from different perspectives, and eventually let it go.
Physical exercise also helps with depression Recent research shows that exercise has a statistically significant impact in boosting the mood of experimental subjects: www.sparkpeople.com/resource/fitness_artic
Seek good counseling. A good counselor will help you to explore your life, your feelings, your insights. You have joined a team of compassionate individuals who are in various stages on their fitness journey. We are willing to listen and to share with other members from our own experience. Stay in touch, okay? You matter and we care.
Edited by: TREATL at: 6/17/2012 (21:28)
Co-Leader, Lewis County Sparkers
Co-Leader, Dealing with Depression Team
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