I deeply sympathise with what you're going through. I still struggle with the same thoughts and emotions holding me back on a daily basis as well. I cannot offer you advice but I just wanted to say you are not alone. Hang in there, it sounds like you taking the right steps to change things.
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current weight: 125.0
Fitness Minutes: (51,857) Posts: 4,604 6/8/11 2:28 P
I can really relate to your story...but you have to know that once you fall off that wagon..you can surely get back on..its not easy but if you are willing..you can do it...I have been through this this emotional roller coaster for so long...but now its all about me...I found that putting myself first helped me a lot...Sparkpeople is a great site to get you there...I wish you luck on your journey...God Bless!
Come near to God and He will come near to you- James 4:8
current weight: 157.0
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I have constantly struggled with my weight so I can relate to what you are going through. Try to be positive as much as you can it really helps. I always try to see the upside of things even when my 'bad' self is saying you didn't lose any weight this week, you ate this and not that, blah blah blah. Then my 'good' self says wait a minute, you didn't gain weight and you're looking lean, the clothes are fitting better and most importantly you are taking steps in the right direction. Outlook really plays a major role in any success in life.
I am happy to hear you got out of the toxic job situation, but you shouldn't let that hold you back from finding a new one. Start with a list of all the things you do well and then make a plan of action of what you are going to do to get a job that fits your skill set.
Hello, I agree with the two previous posts but would add that you seem to be really hard on yourself. With your various health problems it is extra difficult for you to loose weight and be fit. I think it is brilliant that you still have the capacity to have these goals in your head.
I sometimes don't do things because I can't do them perfectly, I am trying to break that thought pattern. I suggest that you just do the best you can and live in the moment.
I send you lots of kind thoughts from Kent in England - come back to the team for support and let us know how you are getting on.
Stay in the moment.
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I hesitate in telling you what you should do because by all admissions you know what to do. However, I will say that when I am feeling negative about my life and this journey, it hinders my progress. First of all, you are gorgeous. I know, I know, if you don't feel it, it is hard to accept that compliment. However, I don't think your not being the "ideal" weight should stop you from enjoying your engagement photos. What would you tell a client who cam to you with the same issues?
As for the fitness, you are working out which is good as you know. Besides calorie cycling, you didn't speak much on your nutrition. I am not a professional and this is strictly opinion, but if you are doing P90X shouldn't you be consuming more than 1000 calories? I have done the videos and am using the strength training ones right now and I can drop anywhere from 300-500+ calories in one workout. Is it really safe to have your caloric intake so low?
The bottom line is this, this is your journey. Admittedly you have gone through some pretty frustrating things lately. However, these things can be used as stepping stones and not as something to defeat you. Allow this time to rebuild your self confidence and your fitness. You should move forward with your business. Think about what an inspiration you can be to others that you work with. When I am working out with a trainer or professional, I don't want to see a perfect Barbie Doll, I want to see someone who knows my struggles and can truly understand my frustrations with eating, weight, and life. You ARE that someone.
Just something to think about.
~ Charice ~
Leader ~ Phenomenal Women of AKA
"Temptation may break me; procrastination may blind me; but motivation will push me and devotion will save me (Unknown)."
Reading your post, I recognized myself and how I stayed away from everything and everyone because I did not like the way I looked. But that was about it. I did very little to take action to change what I did not like, which became a vicious cycle of unhappiness and avoidance, and robbed me of years of living.
As a nutritionist, you know what you need to do, so I won't add anything in that regard. But what I see as holding you back - really holding you back - is your mindset. You cannot stop liviing TODAY because you are waiting for a better look, fitness level, size 6 jeans or anything else, TOMORROW. Tomorrow is never promised to anyone, and doing that only robs you of your positive energy, enthusiasm and optimism because you are focusing only on the negative.
Go out and buy a few things that look great on you now at the size you're currently wearing. Get your hair done. Accentuate the positive. Those good feelings will bolster your resolve to continue improving and with patience, diligence and a sensible plan, get to work on the problem areas. Before you know it, you will be and look the way you want to...
I've been a SP member for a long time and have just recently gotten back to using it daily. I am pretty frustrated with my weight loss progress at the moment and I'm just reaching out for any support or advice.
I've run the gamut with poor eating choices, an unbalanced lifestyle, 'yo-yo' dieting and obesity, anxiety and depression, addictions, and emotional eating issues. I've tried most of the major 'diets' and I lost over 50 lbs a few years ago by doing my own version of a 'Biggest Loser' camp, and kept it off for a few years. Now its back. :( I am 30 pounds overweight and this is paralyzing me in many areas of my life. I'm planning a destination wedding an keep putting off my Engagement photos since I am embarrassed that I'm not as fit as I used to be. I am in school for Nutrition and I am holding off on really growing my business or accepting clients until I am at a lower weight. I am avoiding doing fun things with friends like I used to. I refuse to buy larger sized clothes, so my closet is very limiting right now. (I miss fitting into my size 6 jeans!) I just recently quit a toxic job environment and my weight is holding me back from going out and getting the perfect part time job for me that I need to have right now. My self confidence is pretty low.
After a frustrating year of unexplained health and weight issues, I was recently diagnosed with Hypothyroidism. My doctor and I are still working on medication dosage that is the best fit for me. I am back to working out at least 5 days a week, using P90X and my treadmill. I am trying the calorie cycling approach since it seems to make sense. In order for me to lose weight it seems I need to drop my calories very low, near 1,000 per day. And then with my emotional issues I sometimes want to give up and self-sabotage. I am only 5'2" and when I was fit I stayed around 1k calories a day and worked out several days a week. I have my food and exercise tracker visible here on SP.
Any support, guidance or advice is greatly appreciated. I'm feeling a bit lonely right now with my struggle to regain my fit self.
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