Thank you everyone for your support and encouragement. I went to bed last night actually feeling hungry (stomach was growling) and wanting to get up eat some yogurt or fruit but I was too lazy to get up! lol. I was very tired. I eventually feel asleep and woke up at 6:30am (took me a while to actually get out of bed) and went for a power walk from 7:00-8:00am followed by intense resistance training. I had 30 second breaks in-between sets and really needing it! At times, I wanted to take longer breaks but visualized a bad ass kick my butt type of personal trainer (or Tommy Europe!) instructing me to get moving - "let's go, move it, move it!" lol. It seems to work. For those of you who have never heard of Tommy Europe, he is a former professional NFL player turned personal trainer. He lives in Vancouver, Canada and has a T.V. show on the Slice Network called, "Last 10 Pounds Boot Camp" & "Bulging Brides." Here is the site if you are interested: http://www.slice.ca/Shows/ShowsPage.aspx?R oot_Title_ID=105451 There is even a meal plan for men and women!
Anyways, it's reassuring to see that other women are going through the same, if not, similar experiences. I seem to have this idea or belief that other people who are successful with Sparks (or on their own) have this "Ah Ha!" moment and suddenly get on the right path and stay on it without swerving off course.
However, I know that this is not true. We always tend to look at others' accomplishments without taking into consideration the bumps, tribulations and challenges they have along the way. Why do we do this? Why do we think that everything seems easier for someone else, or that they are happier and successful whether it's getting married, buying a house, losing weight or getting a great job? This is when we need to focus on OUR goals and do things that make US happy rather than what we think we SHOULD do. Right?? lol.
The 4th was a total blow-out for me. I must have had 4 or 5 servings of desserts before the fireworks went off. Could hardly sleep that night, not because of fireworks but because of upset stomach and acid reflux. Tossed and turned all night.
Okay, another same ol' same ol' lesson to be learned.
Yesterday I took care of my body with veggies and fruit in small portions and lots of tea. I slept like a log last night. Life is good. You're not alone ISABELLA35.
Edited by: ANIDUCK at: 7/6/2010 (10:25)
Hospitals are terrific for traumatic care; for acute care. They do a really, really good job in saving lives when it's a sudden bleeding emergency. But in terms of chronic care, they're terrible; (that is) in terms of the illnesses that most people have, endure, that cost the most money, that last the longest and ultimately die from. -Dr. Andrew Saul
Hey look how well you have been walking the path and you are right back on. Just made a detour. Just imagine some people eat like that daily!
~Debbie~ Crack the Fat Loss Code Team Leader
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I didn't eat a lot during the day yesterday because I had a tummy ache from the night before. I was also feeling really tired so I didn't have much of an appetite. I ate 2 pieces of whole grain toast and 1 banana. I worked during the day and then went home. I had some grapes and 1 scoop of PC vanilla chocolate crackle ice-cream. Everything was good and I was in control. . . . or so I thought.
It was a hot and humid day and I was tired. I felt restless and didn't feel great and wanted to feel "better" and wanted something refreshing and cold so, I had more ice-cream and leftover birthday cake! Oh, and a slice of bumbleberry pie! It was soooooooooo good. Lol. It’s been a long time since I had pie.
I can't believe that I ate this way. It's been a LONG time since I have done something like this so that's a plus but I was disappointed that I didn't use any strategies to talk myself out of it! I did have that voice in the back of my mind but I just kept pushing it away. Arrr!!
I woke up this morning and told myself to just continue and not let my evening dessert feasts upset me or make me feel guilty because this is what I did in the past. I want to learn from those moments and find better ways to deal with any situation that tempts me into eating comforting or "junk" foods. I also don't want one moment or two to make me feel like I messed up and "I have to start over again". I keep reminding myself that this is a journey of growth not perfection. I feel like when I "mess up" I failed somehow, or that I don't have the strength and determination that I once held.
I found this statement that really resonates with me. “We are born unto this universe with a path. That path is where we learn, grow, and mature. We are not seeking a destination, only continued growth on that path. Perfection would be the destination, and although we know that we are unable to be perfect, that does not mean that we should not try to attain that perfection in our daily lives.”
I’m going to practice not striving for perfection but understanding and compassion. Why is it easier to give this to other people but challenging to give this to ourselves?
So, I going to look at this as my 'Cheat Night' for the week and leave it at that. I had a good day today - I prepared my meals in advance and ate healthy.
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