I didn't eat a lot during the day yesterday because I had a tummy ache from the night before. I was also feeling really tired so I didn't have much of an appetite. I ate 2 pieces of whole grain toast and 1 banana. I worked during the day and then went home. I had some grapes and 1 scoop of PC vanilla chocolate crackle ice-cream. Everything was good and I was in control. . . . or so I thought.
It was a hot and humid day and I was tired. I felt restless and didn't feel great and wanted to feel "better" and wanted something refreshing and cold so, I had more ice-cream and leftover birthday cake! Oh, and a slice of bumbleberry pie! It was soooooooooo good. Lol. It’s been a long time since I had pie.
I can't believe that I ate this way. It's been a LONG time since I have done something like this so that's a plus but I was disappointed that I didn't use any strategies to talk myself out of it! I did have that voice in the back of my mind but I just kept pushing it away. Arrr!!
I woke up this morning and told myself to just continue and not let my evening dessert feasts upset me or make me feel guilty because this is what I did in the past. I want to learn from those moments and find better ways to deal with any situation that tempts me into eating comforting or "junk" foods. I also don't want one moment or two to make me feel like I messed up and "I have to start over again". I keep reminding myself that this is a journey of growth not perfection. I feel like when I "mess up" I failed somehow, or that I don't have the strength and determination that I once held.
I found this statement that really resonates with me.
“We are born unto this universe with a path. That path is where we learn, grow, and mature. We are not seeking a destination, only continued growth on that path. Perfection would be the destination, and although we know that we are unable to be perfect, that does not mean that we should not try to attain that perfection in our daily lives.”
I’m going to practice not striving for perfection but understanding and compassion. Why is it easier to give this to other people but challenging to give this to ourselves?
So, I going to look at this as my 'Cheat Night' for the week and leave it at that. I had a good day today - I prepared my meals in advance and ate healthy.
| Pounds lost: 66.5