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2/6/13 12:36 P

Hello Out there....


I am in a flipping hurricane. So we lost to people last week. One was fired. One had quit.

This week started out with a co-worker having her contract end. No one knew until Tuesday. Apparently, the company I would for has a contract end after two years if we don't get on permanent. That means, I have to start looking for a new job just encase I will not be hired on. I have until Sept. 17th. I am wick stressed out. I wasn't even planning on looking until I have my degree. I just started applying to go back to school on Monday.

I am so disappointed.

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2/4/13 12:47 P

Hello Monday!

Countdown to my Birthday begins! 6 days...

I am taking my best friend and her family out to the jockey lot (huge flea market). More than likely, I will have lunch at my parents' house with my family.

I am trying not to be to depressed just because I am going to be old year older and all my other friends' have been married for years.

I do try to think about the great things that I have...

I have a career.
I have my handsome son.
My best friend is here.
I get to see her kids everyday now.
I have a roof over my head.
My bills are paid.
I lost 5 pounds last month.

Why is that not enough? I don't understand myself sometime.

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1/31/13 9:41 A

Good Morning...

I wasn't on much yesterday. I walked into a mess at work. My friend, Scott, quit his job for medical reasons. And... Cindy, my co-worker that was going to be taking me to the gym, was fired. I had to do my job, their jobs (which is my old job) and train a new person. So I am behind at work. I am disappointed that my plans for the gym had to change.

I am still trying to remain positive. I am thinking about asking my dad to borrow his Wii. I like the bowling games.

I did something to my back yesterday. I am so sore. It is hard to bend and stretch.

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1/29/13 11:53 A

Good Morning... I am doing much better!

Yesterday, my boss talked to be about the dark cloud over my head and the heartache that follows. She and several of my co-workers have gotten together. The plan is I am going to lunch on Friday. I also get an 11/2 hours paid too!!!

Then I started talking to one of my co-worker's, Cindy. She lives a few minutes down the road from me. That being said, I haven't worked out last week and this week doesn't look to promising except Saturday. Next week, I will be riding with Jayne. After work, she is dropping me off at my gym. Cindy gets out an hour later. She will be picking me up. I figure I have about 40 minutes to do a workout in! I am super duper excited about it!!!!

I will be filing taxes tonight. My car should be fixed within a month!!!

And... things are just getting better. I have been talking to a man online. So far we seem to have a lot in common. The best part he lives in my town. We haven't decided to meet. I am taking this slow. He is a chef. He knows I eat healthy. I will have to wait to see.

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1/28/13 9:40 A

I am feeling a lot better now that I have caught up with my sleep. I am still thinking about my ex but yesterday I almost went the whole day without thinking about him. Its such a waste of time. I did update my profile on a dating site. My bff encouraged it. I have been talking to a couple of men. Its a nice distraction.

I didn't workout at all last week. Starting today, after I get home from work I will be asking to borrow someone's car so I can go to the gym. I have been super stressed.

It didn't help I went to church with my mother and well...they are very touchy people. The pastor yells everything. She said I was being convicted. Give me a break! I don't like to talk to a lot of people. I don't like being touched every 5 seconds by people I don't know. I walked out of the church with a monster headache. I don't need to be yelled at or touched to know that Jesus loves me and I need him in my life!

Completely irritating to know the ones should know me and love me for who I am, don't!

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1/25/13 9:18 A

I thank God it's Friday!

I did get some sleep last night. I feel more rested today then I have all week. I stopped crying about the ex last night. Enough is enough. I need a man and proof he wasn't one. He was lucky to have me but he deserves her. If you want to know what he said to me on Facebook I blogged the quote.

So now, I am going to move on from this...

I found a trusted mechanic to fix my car with a guarantee. It is a little more then I can afford in the next couple of weeks so I will have to wait for my taxes to come in. At least, I have a ride back and forth to work.

Jamie's boys' have adjusted to school. They love being able to come home and go play outside! Her youngest is a little overweight. Now instead of coming home and eating noodles he goes outside never asking for a snack!!! It is a great feeling. Now the her boys' are outside, my son loves going out with them. I love the fact he likes the outdoors.

Ever since my sister had her baby she has been so nice its creepy. I hope that stays that way too. So even if everything in my life has been flipped upside down I still have things that I am blessed about.

One day at a time... today will be a good day!

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1/24/13 1:37 P

what? He couldn't even tell you over the phone...he had to do it via FB?!

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1/24/13 1:34 P

Because of all the stress and my ex boyfriend breaking up with me on facebook this morning... I have lost a couple more pounds.

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1/23/13 9:38 A

This is my first day back to work. I ended up going to NY over the weekend. It was a horrible trip. On the way it wasn't so bad, however, on the way back it was the worst trip ever.

first: My tire blows
Second: Where my tire blow was very dangerous so I had to call a tow truck.
Third: Got to a garage and they didn't have an exact match for a tire so I had to get a slightly larger width.
Fourth: I couldn't get my car started to get tire fixed so I had to plead for a jump
Fifth: I am back on the road and we stop an hour away to get the kids something to eat and my battery died again.
Sixth: Once I got my car started again everything was peachy until I got to VA where my engine blow. I was stuck at a truck stop at 2:30 am. I was 5 1/2 hours from home with 2 adults (not including myself), 2 children and a caged cat.
Seven: I called everyone I could and the last resort was my parents. I had to hear them bitch to me because I am so irresponsible. Even if the engine blowing was not my fault which I found out once we got home with the car.

That was just the trip. I had issues once I got home. I will probably will be getting bitched at for at least a couple more weeks. One of the only good things besides my best friend actually being here now is that I lost several pounds from being stressed.

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1/18/13 12:36 P

I am so disappointed. Since the weather is so crappy out, my trip to New York is postponed. Instead of seeing Pete and moving my friend down.

I am home for a three day weekend. I tried making plans with James. He has to work.

Honestly... I just want to crawl into bed and cry.

This is the first weekend that I was suppose to be baby free since he was born. I was very much looking forward to it.

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1/17/13 11:49 A

My sister had her baby yesterday at 12:11 pm. She is 7 pounds 14.75 oz and 19 inches long. She has brown hair and eyes. After I was told about her having the baby, my amazing boss let me leave early paid to be an Auntie! I was the third person to hold the little one.

What an visit I had!

I am going to the gym after work tonight instead of going to the gym yesterday because of all the excitement. I have to get at least two strength training days in a week. Today will be the only day to do that.

Tomorrow, after work I am going to NY to help my best friend and her family move. Since I will be heading that way anyways I will also stop and see my biological father, Pete. He is in hospice but at least I can see him one last time.

So far...things just have been perfect time. I thank God for it!

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1/15/13 4:01 P

My sister is going into the hospital tonight. The doctor's office told her that the baby is 9 pounds 3 ounces! Holy Moly Batman! Sometime between 6 o'clock and tomorrow, I will see my niece.

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1/14/13 9:20 A

Good Morning...

Friday night, James and I went to dinner and to the movies after my workout. We seen "This Is 40" which by the way was hilarious. Our date never ended until 2:30 am. I wish I didn't have to have him leave. He had a work at 6 in the morning.

Since I arrived so late from my date, I didn't wake up in time for Water Zumba . I barely made it to my counseling on time. That being said, I did clean and prepare one room that my best friend and her husband will be staying in. Tonight, I will be cleaning and preparing the boy's room. I went shopping on Sunday for toothbrushes, paste and things of that nature.

My current roommate is a little jealous that I prepared the room like it is the Hilton. I just told him its because I love her and like him! He will be leaving South Carolina but he won't be heading up with me to New York. He will be leaving next Thursday for Missouri. I am happy he is moving on but we can still be friends.

As for me, today will be the day I schedule my workouts for the week. I was going to get a alignment on Saturday because of time constrains that is now going to be on Tuesday, tentatively but no later than Thursday. Friday, I will be heading to New York and moving my best friend down here. I am so excited. I have been so blessed.

I am trying to remain as positive as possible with all the tragedy that is surrounding me. I lost another friend, Michael, this week to a head on car crash.

Update: My sister hasn't had the baby yet. Her due date is the 18th. The doctor told her that her daughter is 8 pounds. The ultrasound wasn't done because the tech was sick. Thursday is suppose to be another change to get an ultrasound.

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1/11/13 1:49 P

Well...my son has an ear infection and a virus. He was up and down most of the night. I was 30 minutes later for work. My whole day seems to be off a bit.

I did manage to grab my gym bag this morning. So as much as I said I was going to the gym Saturday I will also be going tonight. Afterwards, I am going home and getting ready for my date with James.

The last time I seen him was on New Year's Day. We both have crazy busy schedules. I am not sure what we will be doing tonight. I just so happy to spend time with him.

Update: No baby... she is coming soon

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1/10/13 9:33 A

Good Morning... well I have my routine now. The clinic went very well. I have a chart to keep track of my workouts. She said I need to weight lift 2-3 days a week as well as 4 days of cardio. Now, this weekend I will be scheduling my workouts. I do know that I am going on Saturday to WATER ZUMBA!

My friend, that I brought to the gym last Friday, is going with me on Monday. I think she might actually join my gym so we can do it together often.

Well I was up some of the night with my baby. He is sick. I am taking him to the doctor's this afternoon. I am just waiting for my boss to show up to get approval to leave early.

I am really happy I planned for two days of rest. My muscles need it and I don't want to get burnt out. I am happy with my progress so far!

Update: My sister has a doctor's appointment and an ultrasound today.

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1/9/13 12:51 P

I am sore from trying the hydro cycling class last night. I am kind of glad that I missed 30 minutes of the class. I was given the incorrect start time. I very much feel it in my muscles today. I will try the class again next week.

After class, I attempted the elliptical machine. I used to love the elliptical. We reconnected last night after 3 years. We didn't bond for long just 5 minutes. The love is still there. The next time the visit will be longer.

Last night, I meet a woman that wants to be my workout buddy. In the next few weeks, we will be trying out classes together. ACCOUNTABILITY!!! Exactly what I wanted and needed!!

Tonight, I am going to the Wellness Clinic. I will learn how to use some of the weight machines. At the end of the session I will also have a workout routine for the next 8 weeks. That is went the trainer wants to see some improvements in the fitness test I took on Monday.

After tonight, my body needs a rest. So the next time I will be working out is Saturday morning. This time I have the schedule right. WATER ZUMBA here I come!

I am getting excited. Every year since I started I have either lost or maintained my weight. For many years, I started slow building on top of what I learned the year before. Just one small baby step... a couple of steps more... nice steady pace! Which has worked very well might I add.

This year is different. The difference is I don't have a couple of hundred pounds to lose. I have a goal of 50 pounds. Then I will be in ONELANDER! I want this so bad I can taste it. Taste of Victory! I cannot wait to see the scale say 199.9! This is the year I do it.....

Because...

I can!

I want too!

I have too!

I am a success story!

I am a motivator!

I WILL!

Update: Still no baby

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1/8/13 12:07 P

Good Morning..

Yesterday, I went to the Wellness Clinic and I had my measurements taken.

I did find out that I can dead lift 67 pounds. I am in the excellent catalog for my age group!

Actually, I had three fitness tests in the Excellent catalog.

The second was curl ups. I did 37 in a minute!

My blood pressure is the third: 80/120!

I had one fair and that was my heart rate.

The following needs work...

(starting with highly needs improvement according to my age arrange)

Body Mass Index: current 43 average 24.9

Flexibility: current 31 average 49

I think I did pretty good!

Tonight, I am hydro-cycling for the first time! Wednesday I meet with at the Wellness Clinic again. This time she will be showing me the machines.

At the end, I will have a workout routine for the next 8 weeks. That's when I will do all the measuring things again. I don't have any specific goals just improvement and weight loss.

Update: My sister didn't have the baby yet. She is dilated.

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1/7/13 11:47 A

Good Morning!

My weekend was wonderful! Tonight is my first day at the Wellness Clinic at my gym. This clinic goes for 12 weeks. They are taking my measurements, bmi, and weight. Then I am going to be shown equipment that I haven't used. I was also told I would told about the classes being offered. Once this first session is over...I can schedule my workouts with a combinations of gym time and class time.

I am heading to New York after work on January 18th. It will not be a long visit. Just long enough to visit one person and pick up a car load. My best friend and her family will be moving! I am so super duper excited about this. I have been asking for her to move for years. She will be staying with me for a couple of months. Once they get down here we are car shopping!

My current roommate will be moving back to New York that weekend as well. Unless, he finds a job here in the next couple of weeks. He has been here for 3 months and he isn't really looking. It is time for him to go.

Update:

My car is fixed. It just needed a valve cover gasket and a tune-up.

My sister still hasn't had the baby. Her doctors says she may have toxemia. She should know something this week. Her blood pressure is up.

My biological father, Pete, he is out of the hospital. They started him with hospice. I am hoping he will make it until I can see him on January 19th.

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1/5/13 4:20 P

Well I had a very productive day.

Trash is done!

Tried a new class at the gym called Water Works! Super sore but it didn't help that I worked out at the gym last night with a woman from work.

I went to therapy.

Grocery shopping is done. I picked up a new food scale and blender today. Amazing Sale! Half off for both!

Now I am home. Kaleb is playing on the floor. My roommate is fixing my car.

I just have to finish laundry and my chores are done!

Tomorrow, I am not working out. I am going to the wellness clinic after work and I know I will be working out that day.

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1/4/13 2:22 P

My sister still hasn't had the baby. I am still being patience. I would love to have some good news.

I talked to Pete, my biological father, last night. He is in denial and he was a little snappy. I feel a lot better that I at least got to tell him, "I love him." The doctors' did increase is oxygen from 12 liters to the maximum 15 liters.

I talked to one of my sister and his wife last night as well. I also found that I related to some very cruel people. They called the VA hospital that he is staying at and asked, "If it is true will he be dead by the weekend!"

Who does that?

All I asked is prayer for conviction for the crucial heartless people that would do that!

My resolutions:

I started a book last night, Eat Pray Love. I made through chapter 12. They were very little chapters. Some were as small as a page. So far so good!

I also emailed one place that I would like to volunteer. I have two more places that I am interested in. I figure if I do not get a response by Tuesday I will move to the second one on my list.

I got in contact with one of the schools I am interested. She will be emailing me more information that I had requested. I have about 5 schools on the list. I just have to look at all the variables.

I took Kaleb swimming on Wednesday. Today, I am going to the gym just to distress and rejuvenate. Monday, I start the Wellness Clinic. I am pretty excited about it.

One Step at a time...

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1/3/13 12:55 P

I have the original zumba dvd's. I enjoy them. I cant dance so i've never been to an actual class. I've just done them at home.

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1/3/13 12:36 P

Do you like Zumba? I have only tried it in the water. It was really fun.

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1/3/13 12:34 P

This is one of the worst days ever.

I got into a huge argument this morning with my roommate.

I got into my car and my check engine light is on. My car feels like it is going to stall.

When I finally made it to work I got an emotional phone call. It was Stella, my biological father's wife, she was telling me my father is in his final days.

Then I got a call from my son's teacher and he has a rash. Now I am waiting on his doctor to call me back.

I have had two anxiety attacks since I woke up. It is just to much.

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1/2/13 1:06 P

I started the new year off right...witha 6.08 mile walk yesterday and i did Zumba this morning. This afternoon i'm off to the gym...i hope it isn't too crowded.

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1/2/13 12:55 P

My maintenance period is over. I didn't do so bad. I am at 250.5 pounds. I stayed within 5 pounds. I am very happy that I could maintain because that just proves to me that once I hit my goal weight I will be able to maintain.

Who wants to loss all the weight and then just gain it back? I sure don't!

Now that the New Year is here... I have my resolutions:

Weight: Last year I lost 88 pounds. This year goal is 51 pounds. I want the end of this year to be in Onelander. I have seen a 100 anything since I was in 7th Grade. That is less then a pound a week. Since I am not just dreaming or wishing this is how I will attack on my fat :)

Friday, I went to the shoe store brought a new pair of sneakers because my old ones are falling apart. They are my Christmas and New Year's present to myself. (My excuse not to work out every day.)

I called my gym on Monday and I made an appointment for the Wellness Clinic which last 12 weeks. I will be held accountable. I was surprised that the clinic is included in my membership!

This morning I took all the leftover candy, cakes, cookies and chocolate brought them to work! My home is healthy and less tempting again.


I blogged the rest of my resolutions.

FYI: My sister hasn't had her baby yet!

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