The Right Timing IS God's Timing Whether We Like It Or Not!
So, let me tell you about my day yesterday. I woke up with a mental list of what to do. After doing some of the things which were on my list I got on the internet. I wrote a post a few days ago about buying a Mustang, and said that it was on order. The dealer told us that it would take between 6-8 weeks to be made & delivered us. However, the dealer also said that he would continue to look for a 2013 CA Special Mustang that was deep impact blue with a glass roof, and matched the other criteria which I purchased for the car. In addition, he also told us that we too could search and if any of us found the car he would arrange to have the car which was found to be delivered to his dealership. (my car www.youtube.com/watch?v=umG7ZdlGf_E
Well, this seemed like great news to me. Who wants to wait 6-8 weeks when that time could be much shorter, specially since I won't be able to drive this car after December. Really, I may not even be able to drive it in December if the weather is bad since I live in Ohio.
Well, I called like, 16 dealers. I guess because I was getting the comfort & electronic package, as well as a glass roof it is too custom compared to what many dealers have on their lot. I realized then that it was a good thing the remote car start we added was dealer installed and not from the factory. I was about to give up after calling 14 dealers and one of them said there was not a car which mated my description in the entire West coast. However, I called a few more car dealers and one guy told me he would do a search for me which would poll up 100's of dealers in the east coast. When he told me he had located one which had a glass roof, and was deep impact blue which matched everything I was shocked! I thanked the guy about 5 times for doing the search for me because he knew he would not be getting the commission for this task.
I was practically ecstatic. I was in a state of happily disbelief. However, my state of excitement did not last long. When I called Mark, the man who sold us the car & told him my good news he informed me that the dealer does not deliver cars from other dealerships more than 400 miles away. I was deeply disappointed. Mark told me that he would do a search once a week for us and since he worked at a dealership he is notified what is arriving at a dealership before it gets to the dealership. So I realized that he was the best person to search for our car.
I struggled to release my frustration in a productive manner. To be truthful there was something which happened the previous day with a friend of mine that really was having an negative effect on me which made the car situation harder to bare.
I decided to call the BMV about purchasing vanity plates for the car. I wanted to get vanity plates and my idea was to bring glory to God since He was such a big part of this car. Although they cost 50.00 in addition to the regular price for standard license plates. However, I found out that my choice for vanity license plate, Trst God was already taken. So I tried some other things but Pray 2 God, Belv God, was gone also! My attempts to feel better, as well as positive had dropped below my level which I could manage.
I said a prayer, and I went on with my day. I put the situation behind me & I went to volunteer. While I was in my car driving to mentor to a young girl I began to have some peace. When I came home later that day although I had peace earlier I still could not shake off my disappointment. Also, I had to do something which was in my heart and on my mind since that morning. I wanted to take care of it before I went to volunteer and the person was not home, so this added to my negative emotions and well being.
After I took care of the situation I felt I would feel better but did not, although things were handled well. The evening ended and really I did not feel any better until I got up this morning.
Because I feel better today I decided to write this post. Disappointment is a part of life that we must except. I normally do relatively well with disappointment for the most part. Things happen for a reason and God gives me grace to handel the changes well.
Yesterday as I was in the car driving to the place I volunteer at I thought to myself, God could had let that car be closer to the dealership I am purchasing my car from, and as a result my car would be on its way to the dealership I purchased the car (soon to purchaes). However He did not. He allowed me to find a car which was not close enough. Like a cruel joke. But was this God's doing? I don't know. God's timing is perfect I reminded myself. Perhaps there is a reason that I have to wait for my car to arrive. God knows everything, and I only have a limited window of my day and a snap shot of tomorrow. But God can look far in advance and know just the perfect time for everything. I told myself, you know what, the day I find out my car has arrived I could be having a really bad day, and yet the phone would ring and Mark would be telling me the car has arrived.
We think we always know what is best for us. But God's knows what is truly best for us. We think there is a time and a place for everything, and that time and place is what WE want it to be. But if we trust God, we can have peace about delays, changes, and disappointment. While I was driving I received peace about waiting for my car. Perhaps God wants to work the fruit of patience within my spirit. The fruit of patience is never matured unless it is used to wait in a situation.
I wish I could write and tell you that when I came home from volunteering I had a great evening knowing that I trusted God, believing that His time was the best time. I wish that I could say my peace overrode all my other emotions. But the truth is that I had to end a friendship, and that was something I had to do. As the result of this situation I was not in peace even after I called my friend. I did not want to end this relationship. However, if I did not I would continue to be taken advantage of and hurt.
This morning I woke up and I believe God filled me with peace, and He healed my hurting heart. I am sharing this with you because I want you to see my life as it is. I am very close to God. I have a good life, and God directs my steps, but I am just like everyone else. I wantyou to see me completely. I want you to visualize my life, and see how I react and then perhaps in the future it will help you in some way or in some manner.
I was not always this person that I have become. In the past I would not have peace waiting for something. I would not have had discernment about my friendship, and I would not have prayed and asked God to help me yesterday, although I am a prayerful woman. But, my life has taken a sharp turn in these last 3.5 years. God is my GPS and He directs my steps. I seek His wisdom, and I pray for discernment from Him. I look, think, and pray for His will in all parts of my life. It is something which happened gradually, and it took time to accept the changes it took to get here with God. There is a sacrifice which is made. This sacrifice is different for each one of us perhaps. My sacrifice and probably most others who share this type of relationship with Jesus is this: It is done God's way, in God's timing, and in God's understanding- not MY OWN. www.youtube.com/watch?v=umG7ZdlGf_E
Edited by: GLITTERGIRL69 at: 9/4/2012 (17:40)