Hi team, I know I have talked a lot already about myself, but I am here to honor and praise God and I just want to add a little... well, I guess it is REALLY a lot about God and what He has gone for me through this eye problem I had for such a long time:
I just want to add that Charles Bonnet Syndrome was something I had for a few months before I realize I was seeing colors, imagine that! lol Well it is a bit of a story, lol. To make a long story short I thought that my sinks and bath tubs were really dirty and could not understand why they were not getting clean. Things like that and other things happened and I talked to my husband about it. Then one day I realized I was seeing colors as I saw the colors on our white wall! lol. I went to a Neuron Opthamologist who diagnosed me with Charles Bonnet Syndrome. I can laugh about it now, but it was one of the hardest things I went through with my vision problems. I have written about this on the team page a year or so ago. But I will share it with you again. After I realized I was seeing colors I talked to God and I was ANGRY. I said to Him, these past three years I have gone through two surgeries ( I had my first eye surgery about eight months before these two and I have had a total of 4 eye surgeries to date) I have proclaimed to all whom I knew that you have healed me these past three years. (Although it took three years to heal from Uveitis God cured me shortly after I started seeing colors) I have been patient and faithful to you in all ways concerning this eye problem- NOW THIS!!! What is it you expect from me and now why is THIS happening? I am angry at you and I cannot take any more. After I spoke these words I did not talk to God for a few hours, then I went back to God and began talking to Him again. I told God I was grateful that He has taken care of me this whole time. How wonderful that He allowed this to happen while I was married, and not at a young age, or while I was single. I had this conversation with God I think 10 years ago. I had Uveitis for three years then God healed me. I thought about how God had given me such a good husband who had took such good care of me this whole time and I thanked God for my husband John. I told God that I needed His help to get me through this. I told God that I was sorry for being mad at Him. I can't remember if I said anything else to God that day. The next day the colors were gone!
From time to time the colors still come back, but God's grace keeps them away. They are present, but God's peace, grace, & care removes them or helps me to be ok even if they are there. This article below describes it a different way, but I know what God has put in me to be able to deal with something so awful. God's work in us at times cannot be explained by a scientist.
I was diagnosed with Uveitis (what is Uveitis? www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmedhealth/PMH00020
) when I was 28 years old I am now 43 years old. By the grace of God and from knowing that He would heal me someday I was mad at God only one time, which I described above. There were times when a family member told me that they were mad at God because my eyes were still messed up after years of praying. I could not understand their anger, and talked to them and explained that God will heal in in His time, and that many blessings have been brought upon me as the result of this vision problem.
I know this is long, but I just want to add- if you are in pain, if you are suffering in any way abide in God, stay close to Him in prayer, through conversation, through and in worship He will guide you and protect you and give you His grace to get through anything. Even if you have to experience long suffering, make God bigger than any problem, any pain, and any circumstance and God will see you through!!!
Edited by: GLITTERGIRL69 at: 3/28/2012 (17:56)