MI-ELLKAYBEE Your words are so kind. It is I who thank all of YOU for being here for ME. I have been talking to a member of this team helping them to to learn the many tools here on Sparkpeople. After several phone calls and many hours of teaching her how to do things here on Sparkpeople people she asked me if team leaders get paid for their services. I replied no I do not get paid. I explained to her that I an rewarded in ways which money could never give me. It is your love, your kindness, your prayers which bless me in such a rich way. So Myellkaybee, I thank you for your words, but it is me who is graceful for you of you. It is you who greatly make up this team. If it were not for you my posts would not have any replies at all. And it is God who makes up this team for He is present within our words!
BEAUTIFULWOMEN Your friendship means a lot to me too! I have been blessed by this tea in so many ways the blessing are are limitless! Thank you for reading this. It is so good to see you here.
Bobbie I love you Girl! Jesus, you, and I all rock together!
Hi team, I know I have talked a lot already about myself, but I am here to honor and praise God and I just want to add a little... well, I guess it is REALLY a lot about God and what He has gone for me through this eye problem I had for such a long time:
I just want to add that Charles Bonnet Syndrome was something I had for a few months before I realize I was seeing colors, imagine that! lol Well it is a bit of a story, lol. To make a long story short I thought that my sinks and bath tubs were really dirty and could not understand why they were not getting clean. Things like that and other things happened and I talked to my husband about it. Then one day I realized I was seeing colors as I saw the colors on our white wall! lol. I went to a Neuron Opthamologist who diagnosed me with Charles Bonnet Syndrome. I can laugh about it now, but it was one of the hardest things I went through with my vision problems. I have written about this on the team page a year or so ago. But I will share it with you again. After I realized I was seeing colors I talked to God and I was ANGRY. I said to Him, these past three years I have gone through two surgeries ( I had my first eye surgery about eight months before these two and I have had a total of 4 eye surgeries to date) I have proclaimed to all whom I knew that you have healed me these past three years. (Although it took three years to heal from Uveitis God cured me shortly after I started seeing colors) I have been patient and faithful to you in all ways concerning this eye problem- NOW THIS!!! What is it you expect from me and now why is THIS happening? I am angry at you and I cannot take any more. After I spoke these words I did not talk to God for a few hours, then I went back to God and began talking to Him again. I told God I was grateful that He has taken care of me this whole time. How wonderful that He allowed this to happen while I was married, and not at a young age, or while I was single. I had this conversation with God I think 10 years ago. I had Uveitis for three years then God healed me. I thought about how God had given me such a good husband who had took such good care of me this whole time and I thanked God for my husband John. I told God that I needed His help to get me through this. I told God that I was sorry for being mad at Him. I can't remember if I said anything else to God that day. The next day the colors were gone!
From time to time the colors still come back, but God's grace keeps them away. They are present, but God's peace, grace, & care removes them or helps me to be ok even if they are there. This article below describes it a different way, but I know what God has put in me to be able to deal with something so awful. God's work in us at times cannot be explained by a scientist.
I was diagnosed with Uveitis (what is Uveitis? www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmedhealth/PM H0 002000/ ) when I was 28 years old I am now 43 years old. By the grace of God and from knowing that He would heal me someday I was mad at God only one time, which I described above. There were times when a family member told me that they were mad at God because my eyes were still messed up after years of praying. I could not understand their anger, and talked to them and explained that God will heal in in His time, and that many blessings have been brought upon me as the result of this vision problem.
I know this is long, but I just want to add- if you are in pain, if you are suffering in any way abide in God, stay close to Him in prayer, through conversation, through and in worship He will guide you and protect you and give you His grace to get through anything. Even if you have to experience long suffering, make God bigger than any problem, any pain, and any circumstance and God will see you through!!!
Dear God when I fell down 13 stairs I did not know at the time what was in store for me as the days passed. But humbly state, when I stood up on my feet I thanked you for taking care of me after I slid down my stair case. I knew that such a fall could have killed me, yet you let me land on my back after I fell and slid down those stairs. Dear God I am so grateful for you and all the wonderful things you do for me, my husband, father, mother, sisters and brothers. God your grace extends to all of them and helps me to see the silver lining around the storm in my life and in their lives. My God I wrote this poem for you and I am asking you to show yourself through it. Not that I want any praise or honor, but God you know this about me. I just want to have those on my team read it and be blessed and helped. Let someone read it who is in pain dear Lord and allow my words to bring them to a better place through your power. God I pray that all who are in pain today receives you and your power and strength. As they pray to you, as they think about you, as they worship you that they become delivered from their pain. My friends, my team members it is not our circumstances which hold us back, and bring us to deep suffering. It is out thoughts, it is our attitudes. My friends it is our WORDS which come though our mouths which cause more emotional pain than the physical pain. I am not just talking and sharing with you from the result of wishful thinking, or trying to shed a positive light from my experience these past two months. No, I am sharing with you from severe pain & suffering. I fell down my stairs Jan. 28th 2012, but before that date I had a few attacks from having Neuropathy, and also during that time my pinky on my hand and the side of my hand became completely numb. Now as I touch a surface with my finger everything it touches feels like sandpaper. My life isn't easy. But God fills it with beauty and joy! I have many health issues to deal with. Those who have read many of my posts know of my visual impairment. One of the things which resulted from losing so such vision is having something called Charles Bonnet Syndrome. I have had Charles Bonnet Syndrome for about 10 years. In my case I see colors. What is Charles Bonnet Syndrone? lighthouse.org/about-low-vision-blin dn ess/vision-disorders/charles-bonnet-R>syndrome/?gclid=CN-_z-3yia8CFSQCQAodBBYiBQ (If you chose you can read about my visual problems I went through on my Spark page www.sparkpeople.com/mypage.asp )
During each circumstance which comes into my life I chose to make the best of it through God. I tell myself I must need this because God would not have it in my life if it were so bad it would curse my life. Even if an evil spirit has brought something into my life which God has allowed I know that God will make the best of it if I abide in Him through it. The bible says if the devil comes at you one way God will make him leave seven different ways! That tells me that though the devil can and will bring something into your life, through God you will be blessed in one way or another. The bible teaches us God makes that ALL things, that’s ALL things good.
Well, that is all for now. I really did not mean to write all of this, but it just came out, lol
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