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Thank you so very much for sharing your testimony. I have heard people say that God wakes them out of a dead sleep and it has always been a mother, although I am sure it has happened to faithful fathers as well. My mom has told me this has happened to her once.

I am grateful for my team members and the things that they share with us.

Dear Jesus help us all with whatever problems we are facing whether a bad hair day or a nightmare that is all too real. You are the great healer of sorrow, sickness, and pain. We thank you for all that you have done and all that you continue to do. In Jesus name I pray amen.


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@ Caroline, I know of Second Baptist and watch it on tv from time to time. My son is 27 and still lives with me, even though he knows that momma prayed him into prison, he still finds comfort with me emoticon

This is a little long but it's one of my testimonies on what God will do for a desperate mother.

When I say I prayed him into prison, that's exactly what I done. I believe that prison is the only way he stayed alive.

Me and my ex divorced when my son was around 16 and my daughter was 10. My son decided to live with my ex which he knows now was a drastic mistake. He got into drinking, drugs and weapons. I went to see him one night when he was drunk and high which was my first experience as a mother seeing her son high and from that moment on I gave him to God and told God to do whatever He needed to do, my son was beyond my control.

Within two weeks of my praying my son was arrested and of course I was very upset and I asked God why !! I asked Him to take care of him and he had him arrested. God spoke to me and He told me that He done as I asked. I prayed hard for God to get him out of those drug infested apartments and to get him out of that situation. God done as I had asked and he took him out of that situation and put him somewhere where he was safe and had a chance to get off of drugs.

My son is hard headed like his mother, the first time didn't work and I kept praying. My son went into jail and then drug rehab when he was 17. He spent a year and a half in there came out with a ankle bracelet and paroled out to me. He stayed with me, pushed the limits of his ankle bracelet, got around his dad again and that was it, he was back in the same drug infested apartments and back on drugs. About a month later he was back in jail and they sent him to another drug rehab. He got into church, dried out and was straight again, got out of rehab, stayed with me for about a month, went back to his dad and within a couple of months was back in jail, this time he was an adult and went straight to prison for 2 1/2 years. By this time I was just thanking the Lord for putting him there. He got out again and came home with me again, I got him a job working with me, he went back to his dad's and that was it. Back into drugs and this time I prayed hard for him to go back to prison. My son found his best friend dead from an overdose, I thought this would scare him straight but it didn't.

I was asleep one night and I woke up with a start and I didn't know what was going on but I had the feeling that I needed to pray. I immediately got up and started praying for my children, at this time my daughter was also with her dad ( my children didn't want to live with me because I had rules, their dad didn't care what they done ) I cried and I prayed, as a mother I knew that something was going on with one of my children. About an hour later I got a call from my daughter, the cops got her brother and slammed him to the ground and he wasn't moving. So there I went, thankfully I only lived about 2 miles from where they were. I prayed all the way there. After I made sure that my son was ok, alive and moving I stood to the side until the officer spoke to me and showed me what my son had and what he had done. He was going about 90 down the side streets and running stop signs. He was high and had just went and picked up some more to sell. The officer assured me that they didn't knock him to the ground they said that he hit the ground when they pulled him out of the truck. I told them that I wasn't even worried about it, I just wanted to make sure that he was ok.

You see, before I woke up to pray that morning God gave me a vision, the vision was that my son was speeding, drunk and high and he hit a brick wall and it threw my son through the windshield, my vision showed me that I was looking at my son through the other side of the windshield and his face was smashed against the glass and he was looking at me and he was dead. I truly believe that with me being obedient and praying when my spirit told me to pray that my prayers saved my sons life that night because he was speeding, he was drunk and high and that brick wall may have been the apartment building but instead of hitting the wall he safely parked the truck before the cops surrounded him.

I showed up and seen what shape he was in and the officer let me talk to my son and get his things and of course my son was running his mouth until I told him that everything that happened was his own fault and he knew that he was going back to jail. He told me that he knew that and he was sorry. He was supposed to take me out to eat for my birthday that next day.

He went back to prison for another 2 1/2 years, got into church, read his bible. He came back home and has been out for 2 years this month. He is drinking a little but hasn't touched a drug since being home, he has a full time job working with me now and is doing great, he's not going to church but he's living straight and he's staying out of trouble.

God will answer prayers and He will do as we ask of Him. Haven't you ever heard the old saying, "You had better watch what you pray for !!"

Oh yeh, God also removed the biggest mountain of all. Right before my son got out of prison for the last time, those drug infested apartments burnt to the ground. Unfortunately my ex and his family and my daughter was living there and they lost everything but I got to stand there and watch them burn knowing that I wouldn't have to deal with my son going over there again when he came home. Let me add that no one was hurt in the fire. It happened during the day when everyone was awake or gone. I thanked the Lord that it didn't happen at night when everyone was asleep but anyway, God can and will do anything and believe that prayer does work.

There's nothing more powerful than a praying parent. Never, ever stop praying emoticon

Edited by: LBRANDON64 at: 11/6/2010 (09:31)
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Lebrandon, its Second Baptist Church in Houston.Maybe your son touched some ones life in a positive way while in prison. I hope he will under stand some day what it all means. My older son believes but I'm afraid he hasnt been saved and like you i am a praying mother.He is living with us at the moment we have a apt down stairs, that we had built for my mom, and he is their. He came here to find a job so far no luck just little things to keep him going. I dont preach to him as they say, i try to show him by how i live, my words, my life, he does ask questions and i try to answer the best i know how. I havent approached going to church yet. I told him we are very informal, its not what you wear God wants, its your heart.MY grand son has a web site Joshua Price, i will try to get the details for you, because he goes to all churches. All we can do is pray.
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Caroline, May I ask what church Josh was involved with? I am from Houston and I have been a member of one of the biggest churches for 10 years.

That's great about your son. Mine was also into drugs at a young age and had spent most of his young life in prison. He has been out now for a couple of years. He's not a Christian but I try my best to set a good example and I do have a great testimony about my son's time spent in prison. He knows that He has a praying mother and he also knows that God was with him during that time.

We don't have any idea why God does some of the things that He does but it's not ours to question. That's when our Faith and Belief comes in to play.

Blessings to all .. Lisa

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You are welcome,I know Scooter is dancing with Jesus. I wrote a couple blogs about him my mom and dad, I do believei am still grieving over Scooter and my mother just passed away last Nov.29 09.But it is getting better. Thank you for your kind words.
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Thank you Caroline for sharing your story too. Now you have joined us in sharing God's love through pain,sorrow, and surrendering to God! Look what this post has turned into !!!!!

Thank you so much God for bringing these beautiful people here and helping them share their stories with us.
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To all of you, Praise God, for you.Sharing your story's will possible help some one else.We do not always under stand Gods ways,it seems he always has his reasons. We can really hurt, and dont under stand why, and may be never know why.Some thing good always comes out of these hurts,and look at you all,you are telling the world about our beloved Lord and God, and what he has done for you.What a testimony to our Lord Jesus. I could never under stand why my son got into drugs at the age of about 13, he is now 48, but God was using him for some thing later in his life. Today he is a great Christian man, has been for many years, Youth minister at his church. Has been able to go all over Fl. and tell young people what drugs can do to your life. He has worked with young people in sports and related this message to them, from litte league to high school.His son Josh ,Had a great job right out of college ,with A church in Houston Tx. it is the second largest church in the US., as their Music Minister. God was calling him to do something else, he and his wife decided Josh would quit his job and they would do mission work, using Josh's music to help spread the word of God, and now they go where ever they are called, its all been word of mouth, also the internet, which is almost the same,and they still have money coming in to support them self's. My son's oldest son, my first born grand child, was killed in a tragic auto accident 2 years ago Aug.Why? At his celebration of his life 3 people were saved,and quite a few have been saved since then. He had redecticated his life to Jesus a year before the accident. Through my sons and grand son Josh's testimony's about (Scooter) his nick name many have been saved. We can only trust and have faith in our Lord, for these things, even when the tears fall, and we still grieve.
Caroline

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Bobbie, I just love you and I love your heart. Looking forward to talking to you. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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Shelly, it took me such a long time to figure out what the Lord wanted me to respond with with this posting of yours. My hands were sweating and my heart was pounding and my head felt like a had a sledge hammer pounding on the inside of it and I was breathing hard and I was crying all this while I was typing this, this is why I am so grateful with each new morning that I am given to be here in His name,the name of Jesus. I know with every bit of me that the only reason that I am here is because of the power of the cross of Jesus which is grace and love and truth and power. He saved me for a certain specific purpose and I truly believe it has to do with how much He loves and forgives and cleanses and uses the most ugly and turns the most ugly into swans. I am not saying I am a swan just that my circustances are swan like compared to how ugly they used to be. I know with every bit of my being He had someone praying for me in their heavenly prayer language to save me and they didnt even know me or even know what they were praying for, we are all called to be intercessors. See, that is what i am trying to explain is that some of your posts stop me cold because I have to really dig deep because i have to be obedient and transparent.



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After I read LBRANDON's reply I had it in my heart to leave this thread up for a little while longer, past November 5th, which was when I was going to take it down by. Now I know I need to leave it up longer. What you shared will really help a lot of people as well. Man bobbie, what you shared is soooo powerful! I just thank God He protected you by putting that guy in prison, and continued to protect you after he got out!!! I cheered in my heart when he went to jail, when your mom came after him which a gun (probably a shot gun) and when you said he left you alone after that. But, how my soul cried for you while you wrote about the rest of your experiences. Bobbie you are a survivor, that's what you are!!! That is one of your biggest testimonies. You have survived through God!!! I can not tell you enough how grateful I am that you put this all here for everyone to see.

I will call you soon.

What you shared is much more personal than anything I wrote. Bless your heart for what you have shared with us!!! emoticon

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Thank you so much for your reply. I was feeling a bit lonely out here in the thread with only a few replies, and what you said helped so much.

I am 41.5 and have learned so much in the last 20 years of my life. I really started to change when I was in my early 20's through God's help. It was wonder reading yourwords of praise and honor to God! Thank you for everything you shared and thank you for hugging my heart! emoticon

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Shelly, yes you are human and me too. This is one of these posts of yours that I put on the back burner till I could figure out what was expected of me and now I know because reading the responses of other people has helped me to zero in on my needed and expected reply. A few weeks back I was listening to Joyce Meyer about how her father had sexually abused her and how she knows that she was touching alot of peoples hearts and waking up old feelings about this subject. At that time on that very day I blogged about how i was sexually abused when I was between 2 and 3 by my baby sitters boy friend Bob and how all things worked out with how and when I told my mom and her reaction to it and how she worked all the time and how we went to many court procedings and how Bob was put in jail and how after a great length of time he was released and he came up on me in our back yard and he started to reach out for me and I started screaming and my neighbor Muriel and my mom came running out and saved me and my mom went to get a really big gun and threatened to blow his head off and he just kept denying that he was even close to me. I never seen him again after that and I think I was about 5 or 6 at the time that this happened. Well, I said all this to say that by the time I was 9 years old I could pass for 21 and could go into any bar and be served because by then I was drinking and getting so drunk I couldnt even stand up and doing drugs and sleeping around. I would be walking to school and i would have old men stopping me and giving me money to do sexual acts with them. I was having this one man in particular coming to my home and forcing me to do things to him I didnt want to do but i was scared of him and he said that he would kill me and my mom if I ever told and I told these men how old I was but they did not believe me. Somewhere in there I had a boyfriend by the name of Danny OBrien. who lived jusst a few blocks from me and we were haveing just normal sex and he didnt believe me that I was just 9 at the time. So, I lived my entire life being drunk and or stoned except when I was pregnant because I didnt want to harm the babies I was carrying at the time. I had my first baby at 17 while I was unmarried and after that got married three times and was widowed once and divorced twice and had 7 more children born to me but had at least 15 pregnancies and like I said I was 42 when I had my close born from above encounter with the one true living God of Israel and Jerusalem and made Jesus my Savior and my Lord of my heart and life and was filled to over flowing with Holy Spirit all in one shot because my born from above experience was a three day and a three night experience for me. Well, there you go, if it were not for the grace and love and I firmly believe the Lord God had someone pray me into the Kingdom of God I would be dead at the age of 48 to 50 and suffering all the pangs of hell. And no my mom had no idea what was going on in my life because she was never home and when it comes to my home life in growing up that is another whole story that is really bad and awful just like all my marriages and all my boy friends.



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Shelly, emoticon

Thanks for this posting and thanks for sharing. It is hard to expose our sins and yes, it's shameful and can be embarrassing. I can give you all of that and even more. emoticon

That's the great thing about being connected to Christians, we do not judge one another and sharing our sins just helps us realize that we are not the only ones.

I could spend almost a full day filling you in on my sins starting from when I was 13 up until now, I'm 46 so that can take awhile !!! I can use the excuse that I wasn't in the Word at 13 but that doesn't make a difference, God was still with me and my spirit told me right from wrong but at that time and for many, many years, I didn't listen.

It's just a life lesson Shelly and as a matter of fact, for some reason, I had a flash back of a sin on Sunday and I cringed and my first thought was 'Lord, what was I thinking' !!! God may have put that flash back there as a reminder of how far I have come or it also may have been satan telling me that I can always go back to that lifestyle. I rebuked that thought in the name of Jesus and I thanked the Lord for saving me.

Where would I be without God right now, I really don't know but I do know that I am forever grateful that He never gave up on me and I know that He never will. No matter what we do, God is always there waiting for us to get it right and waiting for us to reach out to Him.

From one sinner to another and from a sister to a sister, God is great and God is good, He'll never let us down and He will never leave us. God doesn't let us down, we let ourselves down. As a Christian sister, No matter what the sin is or was, I would never judge you or anyone else, we are here to hold up one another and to be an inspiration and motivation.

You are not in this alone, as Christians, we are all in it together and if there are Christians out there who are judging us by our sin, then they are in the wrong religion and they need to move it on. God is our judge and our jury and when the time comes, we will be answering to our Father, until then, He gives us time to get it right.

Thank you Jesus, thank you Father. We come into agreement here this morning Lord that You are indeed our Father, our savior and our teacher. We worship only You and we know that You are the one and only judge and we also know that any sin committed never gets by You. You knew the sin committed before we did. Thank you Father for dying on the cross for the sins that we commit and thank you Father for still loving us and being patient until we find our way.

Thank you Lord for loving us and never letting us go, thank you Father for bringing us together to share in Your word, Your favor and Your daily mercies. Thank you Father for being here for us when we need you and especially when we think we don't.

We have faith and we believe in Your Holy name and in Your Holy name, the wonderful name of Jesus, all God's children says Amen !!!

Edited by: LBRANDON64 at: 11/2/2010 (10:02)
Blessings to all .. Lisa

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Bobbie, Griff is a REALLY close friend of mine. Isn't she great! I am going to take the sticky off this post by Friday. It is hard to leave it up, I am leaving it here for God. In my heart i believe it is helping people. I know someone who was touched by it, and I know others have been touched as well even if they don't leave a reply or contact me. All I do on this team is done for Him and Him alone.

Like I mentioned in the email, it was hard to write so much, and exposing my life, my sin. Then not to have too many people responding did make it harder. But then in my heart I knew I was putting myself in a situation when I typed the words out. As I hit post in my heart I told God, this one is ALL for about about you FOR SURE!

We can talk on the phone about it, if you have not answered the post by Friday. Take your time, there is no rush. I guess I wrote to you about it 'cause I just needed comfort. God has been giving me peace though...but I am STILL human

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Shelly, this is one post like another post of putting God first that I am taking my time in responding to. I finally responded to the God first post. Now, this post is so deep and probing and my spark page intoduction and most of my blogs and my responses to PastorMikes blogs are right in tune with this post so I have been considering and seeking the Lords face of how to respond to this. Like I said there are a few posts that you post that I have to step back from and try and figure out how to put everything that I have been blogging about and all the comments on PastorMikes blogs and how to put all of it together and joined as one to respond to this post. It is very complicated issue for me. What you are asking for from me is my testimony of being born from above is how this post speaks to my heart. I know this post will speak to each person differently. Like I said alot of your posts and questions are very probing and take time. I think the lady Griff responded to the put God first above mine and after reading hers I realized more of what I could be explaining in my response to your post. There is no way I can give a quick answer to a few of these. emoticon



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emoticon so much for your words SLS-NY2IN. I shared so much about myself and my past, and it is hard when you just put it out there and say, ok, take it or leave it. Not too many replies so far, but that is ok. I did this for God and although it was for this team too, my heart is with and for Jesus!


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Sorry is such an easy word to say unless it is from our heart. The heart that loves God so much and remembers what it cost Jesus to forgive our sins.
The world says "sorry"; when caught or in an emotional hiccup. Even believers have lost the truth in "confessing their sins" I John. They believe the lie Satan whispered and some are now preaching we don't even have to ask for forgiveness.
God looks at our heart and even as He called you so early in life Shelly, as I am sure He has many others. It is the listening heart that He can work with. Thank God for Holy Spirit that teaches us and brings things to our rememberance.
Thank you for sharing what God does with an obedient heart. We all fall short but He is so good and drawing us to Himself. How great a love! Thank you Lord for your mercy, understanding, and giving us time to grow.
He truly did it all for us but it takes maturity to begin to understand how deep and total that gift was.

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Last week I posted a question here in this forum. Some of the things I shared with your are very personal, and to tell you the truth a bit shamdful. However, this is me and this was me. You can beiirvr it it or chose not to beloeve it. You can except me or you can rehject me

QUESTIONS:

A. Outside of parents who influenced your life more than anyone else?

B.Who had an impact on your life?

C. What was it about that person that meant something to you?



Well, I took my time answering this one. I wanted to make sure that my answer was honest and true.

A. Outside of parents who influenced your life more than anyone else?

I am not my own. Jesus brought me into this world and He put something in me. This is hard for me to share mostly because I don't want to put MYSELF up. This is not about ME it is about God and only God, I magnify the Lord. There is a day which stands out very clearly in my life. When I was very young (I mean I was three years old) I was in my bed room. I remember my thoughts and my actions very clearly. I remember thinking, God I want for you to make me an image of you. Let people see you in me. I got on my bed and lie down on my bed on my back then stretched my arms out to my sides. I made my small body in the form of the cross. I only remember that about that day. However, that was the day I asked God into my life. I know that this was all about God though. I was so young, and I can't explain it other than I just wanted God in my life, and I wanted my actions to represent God. I came from a family who always went to church, maybe something was said that day which prompted my actions, I only know God made it happen within me, and that was the day God began to bless my life. I was born for Him and my life is about Him. When I was in the 5th grade I began to talk to God. I remember it was Sunday night. I was in bed and I had just finished saying my prayers. I started to think about being in church and about the sermon. I thought about all the things which were said. I remember the words which rested within me; they were: “So often when we pray we are so busy asking God for what we want we don't give time for God to talk to US. We are not quiet enough to hear God talk to us.” Well, I wanted to hear from God. I wanted it so badly. I don't remember what I said to God, and I don't remember what He said to me. However, I do remember the feeling which I felt and it was the best feeling I had ever felt up to that point in my life, and that feeling has always remained the same to this day. Except at times this unreal real feeling which God gives me when I am with him at times surpass itself, and I am brought to an even more rewarding experience with God while we are together.

B. How has God an impacted your life?

I would have to say that the impact he has made in my life is due to the fact that He has always been there for me when I needed Him. Now this is not to say that everything always worked out just the way I wanted it to. Come on, this is life and no matter how close you are to God it will always be life. However, because I have always depended on God while I was going through things through Him He has always wiped away my tears and gave me the love, comfort, and support to get through my deepest darkest nightmares in my life.

C. What was it about God that meant something to me?

I have been blown away by His forgiveness time and time again throughout my life. I strive to be a good person, but I was not ways like this. I am excellent in Him, but I was not always like this, I live for God and God alone, but I was not always like this.

As a young child and into my teens and through my early twenties I sinned more than any other time in my life. I lied, at times I stole (little things) and I was had sex with men, some I did not even love. I lived my life more for serving myself than serving others. I had a careless way I sinned as well. I knew I was very special to God, for he told me I was set part. The devil told me a secret and I remembered this secret well. This secret made my life easier, it made sinning a breeze, and this secret was a lie!!! He whispered in my ear one day, “You know how special you are to God. He will excuse your behavior, all you have to do is say you are sorry, and your sin will be forgiven. It doesn't even matter if you know you will do it again, again, and again. You don't ever have to stop doing it. Just say you are sorry to God."

Well one day after I had sinned I went to God and said I was sorry. I believed in my heart He had forgiven me. After I said sorry to God I felt better about what I had done. Then I got this sinking feeling. I knew I would do the very same thing the very next time I wanted to do it again. I thought about the secret and I realized the lie.

Why was it a lie?

1. Yes, God had set me aside, but he forgives EVERYONE.

2. It did matter if I said I was sorry to God, yet knew I would sin the same sin again, again, and again!!!

3. I DID have to stop sinning or at least try my best to overcome sinning the current sin/s at hand. It all came down to this.... being the devil's slave or being there for God.

4. Saying sorry to God is great, but not having to say sorry to God is EVEN GREATER!!!

After I got a hold of that man, I had power, even though I did not realize that at the time. Looking back through I realized my life started to change at that point. Now, hey it would be great to sit here and be able to type, I sinned no more in those ways after the day. But that would be a lie. I still had sex with men, and I lied. Stealing was an easy once for me to overcome. I did it mostly as a child it was not part of my life. The few times I did steal came to an end. In time after I sinned I began to feel worse and worse. In time I overcame my sin by asking Jesus for help.

Now to this day I still sin, but never in the same ways I had I sinned in the past. As I matured in my mid-thirties I became more and more filled with God.

The main point I want to make is when I sin now I am deeply pained by it. I truly repent. No matter what I have done God wraps his arms around me and I am filled with His love and grace.

This is what I want for all of you. This is why I have shared my life experiences with you. You don’t have to be the devil’s slave and sinning does not have to control you. Through God and depending on God to make you into a better person your life CAN and your life WILL change as long as you keep Jesus by your side and do the work which is necessary to do to accomplish this!



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