My husband died very suddenly and unexpectedly just before Xmas - just after having his breakfast and enjoying a coffee and a chat.
I think the thing to remember is that eating is NOT going to take the pain away. It is also NOT going to bring that person back. I have coped by looking at photos, talking to his photo, and strange as it may seem, playing The Rolling Stones and Elton John to him (his ashes are just above the stereo, and his photo is beside his cask. I was never overly fussed on them, altho' I didn't mind them. I apologized to him the other day when I put Billie Holiday on, but enjoyed the tape. I have also talked with friends and family about him, and about how he died. It all helps to relieve that urge to do something, which in your case ends up poking food into your mouth. Remember, your doing that could quite likely compromise your own health/weight efforts.
Below is a link that you may find helpful: www.helpguide.org/mental/grief_loss.htm
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